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= zakariah [zak.z] = queer guy [he.him] = 18 [10.10] = ny.usa =

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which isnt that bad by itself, like in theory its great. we’re closed up no customers can get in but then like we have 4-6 people like everyday n not everyone stays the whole night most of the time so it gets a bit rough. but even thats not too bad, i think the real worst part is how taxing it is on your body lowkey

like yeah i sleep and work normal hours n stuff but im up all night

we arent really built for that, our brains dont like that very much so it makes me sleep extra long (n i already sleep a shit ton) and it just makes me hurt a bit more i think

im made to be awake during the light and sleeping during the dark but i force myself to do the opposite which yk lots of people do it but that doesnt rlly make it any easier on your body

plus working overnight has a lot of downsides. since i train myself to sleep during the day i dont get to do a lot of fun stuff. or i have to skip sleep or mess up my schedule to do the fun stuff. its all during the day, when im asleep

and im like scheduled twice in one day that seems suckish. i mean its a normal amount of time in between shifts, not like im working too much or anything but like today. i got scheduled 9pm-5am that means 9pm Friday to 5am Saturday. then i work 9pm Saturday to 5am Sunday and then 9pm Sunday to 2am Monday n whatnot

it lowkey sucks to think about because like unless i have like several days off in a row i dont rlly have any days off yk

like im trying to ask you abt your interests, no ask back but i say stuff anyways n then you lowkey just dwindle until the conversation is nothing

*hugs* I'm sorry you're not feeling good, I hope you feel better soon.

🫂🫂🫂 i hope so too, im feeling a bit better

i have no one to wake me up

i hate my life i wanna fucking do things tumblr wont let me say okay