Blame Part 2 | Chris Sturniolo
“Where were you at when I needed you?”
a/n: it’s been months but here it is (ps. new fic snippet coming later🙊)
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It’s been hours since Chris has heard from Y/n, he’s panicking. That’s putting it lightly.
He’s dealing with a lot, his girlfriend is ignoring him and he kissed his ex girlfriend, well she kissed him. He’s been telling himself for hours that what happened between him and Lola has nothing to do with him. She came onto him and he was just a victim of his circumstances, he has zero fault in any of this actually.
That’s when he said fuck it and booked an Uber to his girlfriend’s apartment, he couldn’t bare to sit in this regret and guilt, he’ll be able to make things right, she will forgive him and everything will return back to normal right?
“Christopher?” The Uber driver says as he arrives outside their apartment.
“Yeah that’s me” Chris says as he gets into the uber and tries to get as comfortable as his conscience will allow him, all he knows is that he’s fucked.
The drive is long and painful, he is dreading the look on Y/n’s face, he feels himself getting emotional as he thinks about how he just broke almost 3 years of trust, over what? A meaningless kiss?
It was totally meaningless, right, yeah totally pointless, it meant nothing to him, he just keeps finding himself thinking about how Lola looked at him
“Chris do you still want to be with me? I can’t tell and I need to know I can’t keep sneaking around to meet you.” Lola says pleading with the boy.
He’s been more than happy with Y/n, Lola meant nothing, she means nothing if he’s lost his everything.
He recognizes the area and anxiety consumes him, he’s usually with Y/n on the way back to her apartment to sit in each others essence for hours on end and in love with each other, but now it’s different
He’s here because, if we are being honest, he cheated, he lied and he was ignorant and selfish.
“Uh, you can stop here thank you.” Chris says to the uber driver stopping outside the apartment building.
Chris is anxious and extremely sad, he’s disappointed in himself and how he even let his relationship with Lola get so personal, yes she was his ex, but that part of him was reserved for the love of his life.
Then it finally hit him like a ton of bricks. Is he still in love with Lola? The way she kissed him felt so natural, a little too natural. He melted into her like they became one, but it’s too shameful of a thought. Chris doesn’t entertain it.
He’s lost in thought but he’s now outside Y/n’s apartment and he hasn’t knocked yet, he hasn’t yet figured out how he’s going to fix all of this. He has to fix it. And he will.
He decides to take his phone out and text her so she knows he’s here
Chris : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.
Chris : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.
Y/n has been home for hours, but since she got into her apartment she’s felt hollow. Empty.
She found her way to her couch and crashed, her body was too tired from all the crying and all the screaming she had done to release some of the hurt and pain.
Her phone buzzes and she ignores it. Buzz.
A second notification came in and she decided to get up from her sleep, still gaining her awareness, she takes her phone and reads:
Chris⭐️ : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.
Chris⭐️ : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.
Her heart dropping to her ass is an understatement, it dropped to the lowest part of hell that not even the devil himself resides in.
She debates herself on what shes opening herself up to, is it worth it? Does it even matter what he has to say? He lied to her and he didn’t have the balls to tell her about what he’s doing, and who he’s doing it with? Did something happen that she doesn’t know of?
Her body goes against everything she’s thinking and she approaches the door and opens it.
She sees the love of her life, he looks exhausted, drained and most of all like he is carrying a load of weight and he’s just waiting to let go of it
What has she gotten herself into by opening the door?
“Baby..” Chris says to Y/n with a sense of guilt and shame in his voice.
He moves towards her, she takes a step back looking at him as if he had the most terrifying entity behind him, but here’s the thing, he’s the terrifying entity.
“We need to talk, and I need you to be honest with me Christopher.” Y/n says as she allows him in and shuts the door closed.
“Listen to me baby I know, I’ve been a dick to you today but I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you sounded…I don’t know, just stressed out on the phone when you called.” he says this to her as if she doesn’t know he met up with Lola behind her back and lied to her face about it
“Yeah, about that, were you with Lola? And I don’t wanna hear shit out your mouth if you finna stand here and lie to my face.” She’s angry, she’s hurt and she feels the most vulnerable she has ever felt in front of him right now.
“I- I need you to hear me out first”
“hear what out Christopher!?” She says yelling to him not allowing him to continue further.
“I know you are mad but I need you to listen to me, please let me explain.”
“Lola wanted to meet up with me, it’s been a while since I last saw her and I figured it was time I saw her, she was such a big part of my life before I met you. She helped me become the man I am today, because of her I am able to be the Boyfriend I am to you today.” He says this not knowing it made shit worse and so much just clicked in Y/n’s head as he said he is the boyfriend he is today because of Lola.
“What?” Chris’s face drops, he has no idea why she would ask that as he just explained the platonic nature of his relationship with Lola.
“Do you love the bitch or not Christopher, I am asking you a question. Either you answer it honestly or you get the fuck out of my face.”
As she says this she has tears running down her face, the anger on her face is very apparent to the man infront of her.
“I- no, Y/n? What? I love you and only you, I don’t need Lola, I need you, I need you alone.” The desperation in his voice was gutting Y/n, she wanted to hold him and tell him it’s okay she’s not mad at him, but in reality she couldn’t stand to even breathe the same air as him.
As Y/n is looking at Chris, she notices a smudge of make up on his upper lip, she became hot, angry, furious, whatever words could explain the absolute wrath that was filling her up
“You’re a fucking liar and you are full of shit, what the fuck is that on your face? Did you fuck her? Why the fuck do you have make up on your face Christopher!!!” She says yelling and she stood in his face and she got louder and louder as each word slipped out her mouth.
Chris knew he was fucked before but now it’s worse. He had no idea he had traces of Lola on him, hell, he would have hoped his dumbass brothers told him.
“Baby it’s not what you think”
“Fuck do you mean it’s not what I think?? So you did fuck her? WHAT. HAPPENED.”
“No, NO! That didn’t happen she came onto me, she was trying to get me to admit that I want her, Y/n I need you to understand that I don’t want her. I want you baby, you’re my world. She doesn’t amount to you. She never could and never will, please don’t do this” he was asking a lot from her, hoping she would understand despite her looking like she was seconds away from biting his head off.
“Get the fuck out of my apartment.”
“Baby please don’t do this.”
“Are you hard of hearing? I said get the fuck out of my apartment.”
And in that moment he knew, he was to blame.
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A/n: well that had a good ending…sooooo do we end it here or part 3? Lmkkkkkkkkk🙈
