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brother wants me to spend almost 10k to see him when he's the most boring bitch i've ever met

FEELS LIKE SHIT. IN ORDER TO GROW SOMETIMES I NEED TO CUT PARTS OF MYSELF OFF.

Like I've been through the ends of the spectrum and even the high highs of a relationship are not worth it to me, I know this is coming from me leaving an almost 5 year long relationship recently and it doesn't mean I am shutting myself off but holy shit man am I better off by myself always or what.

I don't want a relationship, I've been in several of them and what I've learned is that I am happier by myself. When I was a kid I used to wonder if there was something wrong with me but I believe it's who I am. I do not work well in romantic relationships, casual sex is fine, no sex at all is fine, romantic relationships wear me down and age me like I'm still smoking one and a half packs a day

Well timed, I feel like I've wasted 2025 because of this and now I finally get this over with for good. I wanna do what I wanna do and reach that goal this year and I am gonna, and I'm leaving this behind.