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Bull had been out of town at the time that Willa had been hired on as one of the equestrian coaches at the university so when he had made his way back and found out he had to tell himself a few things. The first thing was that both of them were some form of professional and with professionals they would, well, be professional about the situation. Was he still hurt by what had happened? Yes, of course. However, being who he was Bull had a certain level of understanding that the situation had been scary and running was the mechanism she had used under the stress of it all. The fact she never contacted him after, though, that was what hurt the most. While he had pretended to have moved on from the situation he wasnât prepared for it to rear its head while he was sitting in his office, playing Candy Crush on his computer while being leaned back in an office chair. The knock could have been anyone and he welcomed them in but instantly regretted it. Once he looked up the screen and his heart were the same. A broken heart in Candy Crush and another fresh one with his actual heart. Great. He paused for a long time as she greeted him, unsure as to what to say at this point. âWilla,â he said shortly and cleared his throat. Pursing his lips together he made a gesture to the chairs that sat opposite to his desk. âYouâre welcome to take a seat if youâd like.â
The distant tone Bull took with her wasnât surprising, but it didnât make it hurt any less. She knew she deserved it after the way things had ended between them, but there was a small -- maybe even foolish -- part of her that hoped their reunion could potentially be more pleasant than anything. Making her way into the room, she took a seat carefully in one of the chairs, smoothing the nonexistent wrinkles out of her pants as she did, a habit sheâd picked up from her mother. âIâm sorry for catching you off guard like this,â she began, turning her gaze up to meet his finally. Although it had been nearly five years, he looked almost the same: a tad older, more broad in the shoulders, and a new style for his hair, but ultimately the same, and she found herself letting out a faint sigh as she took in his features. God, she had missed him. âI figured, though, that... if weâre going to be working in the same place, I should come to see you. I owe you probably the biggest apology known to man, and I could say how much I wish I could go back and change what I did, but I know it wonât make what I did better or take away any of the pain I caused. You donât have to forgive me, either. What I did was... terrible and I havenât even forgiven myself for it.â Swallowing hard around the lump in her throat, she thought over her next words carefully. âIâm so sorry, Will. You deserved -- you still deserve so much better than that. I was scared -- terrified that things would never be the same for you, for us -- but thatâs no excuse. If thereâs... anything I can do now to make amends, if itâs not too late, please tell me.â












