Evan's Journey into fatness

Fat to much fatter. (about 200 to about 470 in these pics)

OKAY

Yes, it's a real thing, in the older part of Vegas - and it's basically a feedist wonderland of a restaurant. Like, literally a celebration of fatness. The entire place is themed like a hospital and they definitely play on the death-by-fat part of feedism which I'm not crazy about, but like.... 🥵🔥

When you walk up, there's a literal livestock scale that you can choose to climb up on, with a giant display that shows god and everyone on the street how much you weigh. If you weigh 350lbs or more you eat for free. No limit. Just free.

Then their waitresses (all dressed like nurses) take you inside and put you in a hospital gown and "prescribe you a diet" to get you fatter. Their food ranges from giant burgers (I think the biggest one is something insane like 20k calories and the smallest one is over 2k ), to french fries cooked in lard, and butterfat milkshakes served with a pat of butter on top. And if you don't finish everything you ordered, one of the nurses bends you over and paddles you in front of everyone.

Everyone else mocks you. Or they feign concern for your health, even though we both know it's their own inherent fat-phobic view of the world.

You are actually quite healthy, so you can pick up on the bullshit of their fake concern. The warnings of, "Well, if you're not struggling with diabetes and high cholesterol NOW; you will be soon. You're on a precipice and you need to diet."

You hear that from everyone.

But my admiration... you're not sure what to think. Is it just as phoney as everyone's biased concern for your health?

You've never gotten this kind of attention towards your body. So, of course, your first instinct is disbelief.

It's on me to prove it to you.

But there's that constant aspect of toeing the line. Do I just enjoy you and your size, not bringing up the whole fat positive and fat kink community that exists? After all, you obviously don't know that it's a 'thing'.

Should I keep it simple, and just enjoy the hundreds of pounds of fat that you already have on your body? Or do I engage your appetite and encourage growth?

If I say the wrong thing, I could lose it all. Years of being morbidly obese... and you've only ever encountered negativity and derision. It would be so easy for you to assume I'm joking, and that I'm not really attracted to your weight. That my attention is just another attempt from society to humiliate you.

I can't wait to prove it.

I can't wait until we're alone and I can give your beautiful fat body the attention that such a gorgeous sight deserves.

Just looking at you makes me wet. I feel the heat of arousal between my legs.

But will you believe me?

Will you let me smother your fat body with kisses and affection?

That’s why spaces like this matter so much. They offer something many of us never had: a chance to rebuild confidence and begin to see ourselves—our whole selves—as worthy of affection and love. For me, it’s been a journey toward not letting those old voices of shame get in the way anymore.

I made a promise to myself: if someone comes into my life who sees me fully, who cherishes my body in all its size and softness, I will receive that love without apology. And if it turns out to be another cruel game, I won’t let it shake me. I’ve done the work, and I know my worth. Their actions won’t dictate my happiness.

Eating disorders should be talked about, too. How else are people with eating disorders supposed to recover? And again, I'm not just talking about restrictive eating disorders; binge eating disorder is an eating disorder too. But these disorders are characterized by shame and a feeling of a lack of control with regards to eating, which can also be tied to other impulse control problems such as excessive spending, reckless driving, you name it. And people struggling with eating disorders deserve recognition, support, and empathy, not to be shoved into the shadows for the same things they want to heal from. It doesn't mean you're 'endorsing' disordered eating, it means you see human beings as human beings.

But Feedism isn't that.

It's a kink thing. It's a pleasure thing. People engaging in feedism have consent and are doing it because we want to. It can be a sex thing.

We know what we're doing.

What if you joined my Only Fans to see underneath…

Maybe you’re more into the church girl vibe 😈