Bunnie🔪🥀

It's crazy and wildly unfair the types of people who will be out there with no shame over any of their behavior meanwhile I'm stuck being nauseated at myself for every very normal conversation I have with someone

i need someone to love me obsessively. i need love that feels like sticking your fingers in an open wound. i need to be loved grotesquely. like how a vulture loves a corpse. like how the rot loves the flesh. love me like you already know i am disgusting

in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience