Stay.

you're allowed to feel sad/depressed/down, you're allowed to grieve your life and/or yourself, you're allowed to want it to be over.

you're allowed to have happy moments, you're allowed to enjoy your life and/or aspects of it, you're allowed to smile and just because you feel happy doesn't mean your pain is less.

good days are good and bad days are bad, and it's okay if you have no good days, and it's okay if you have mostly good days. it's okay if you're not diagnosed, it's okay if you are, and it's okay if you have lots of diagnoses. any of this doesn't make you any less valid.

no one gets to tell you that what you're feeling is not what you are feeling, just because you portray a picture of yourself to be something differently.

fuck being 'strong' and 'brave', you're surviving and every minute that you do is a minute of your life that's yours and only yours to choose how you live, don't let other's opinions on how they think a chronically ill/disabled person should live govern or influence your life. it's yours.

government considers you able to work if you can give anything more than 0%

It's so aggrivating to have to adapt to brain fog when there was no fog a month ago

It's so aggrivating to deal with so much fatigue, when 2 years ago, you were so lively

It's so aggrivating to deal with all of this and find yourself slipping into anger more and more

To find yourself holding your tongue so you don't hurt those around you because you're tired and don't have the energy for it anymore