Multifandom Heart

Produce X: YG Treasure Box Trainees will be there. 

Me: That’s still-

Produce X: And Victon and Up10tion. 

Me: Well-

Produce X: And Hangyul from the Unit

Me: That makes me even more sc-

Produce X: AND. The 11th member will be chosen not by fans but kinda by talent.

Me:…..

Produce X: And this guy is going to be there

Also me who listens to the emo depressed voice in my head that thrives on pain: 

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Monsta X Fanfic - Angst & Fluff

Warnings: mental health, substance use, cussing, anxiety, depression

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It was a slow night at the club. I had been DJing for the past five hours, and it just seemed to be never ending until my co-worker tapped my shoulder. “You can take off now, Y/N,” they told me and suddenly I was brought back into reality. The sweaty, hyped atmosphere of the club has allowed me to not think about how shit things were with college lately. Even though it helped, all I wanted was to be back home. “I miss my fucking bed,” I thought wistfully. I said night to them all and transferred the controls to the next person who would take over the 3am shift.

Walking down the streets from the club allowed me to think more about what had been going on lately. I’d been bombarded with assignments, and my mother’s health was still in turmoil. I still felt the stress weighing me down that I’d started my bad habit of smoking again. I pulled out the cigarette and lit it up, took a deep inhale of the tobacco and instantly felt the regret pang in my chest. I coughed a bit and thought of how disappointed my boyfriend would be to see me doing this again. I’d been hiding my situation from him as best I could these past few months, but tonight just seemed to be pulling me down. So far down the rabbit hole that I decided to stop by an old friend’s house for an even worse taste of smoke.

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After leaving Changkyun’s place, it was already 4am and I was hazy. The new smoke had an effect on me immediately since I hadn’t hit it for awhile. Dazed and still feeling down about my situation, I absentmindedly began to open my front door. After struggling with the keys a bit, I throw my bag down and let out a deep sigh. “Ah shit,” I mumbled, “I left my phone at his house.” It was dark and I didn’t even notice the shadowy figure in the corner until he spoke.

“Y/N, you reek, what happened?” he questioned me with a deadly stare. I felt like a mouse caught in a trap. All the feelings of guilt, sadness, and anxiety washed over me instantly. The regret about making a stop at Changkyun’s place hit me full speed since my boyfriend was looking at me with this sense of dread.

I sucked it up and responded with something I didn’t even expect, “It’s none of your business.” I managed to look to the side instead of head on. He came up to me, “Look at me, Y/N. You’ve been out of it for months and now you come home with this scent on you. I’ve been trying to let you figure it out, and tell me yourself, but it’s been hard.” He scrunched up his face, and even in my toxic state I could tell that I had caused him pain too. He had noticed this whole time and was just letting me have my space. “So much for this space that I needed,” I thought, “It’s only brought us both pain.”

The tears began to well up in my eyes, and I just looked at my feet. He noticed the sniffles, “Hey, hey it’s okay. I’m not mad, I just wish you would talk to me about it instead of taking to your vices again.” He cups my face and looks at me with the most sympathetic eyes. “Hyungwon, how can you stand me still? I shut you out for months, and come home high with no explanation. Yet,” I stop between sniffs, “Yet… you’re still here. I would’ve just left a loser like me by now.”

I’m taken by surprise by how he wraps his arms around me, and pulls me in for the biggest hug. My state of mind just said fuck it then and there and began to cry. I cried and cried into his shoulder while he kept comforting me. The pats on my back continued, until he picked me up and carried me to the bed. He helped me change into a baggy T-shirt of his and a pair of night shorts. He was already in his nightwear, so we went under the sheets together.

He pulled me close and tucked my head under his chin and began to speak softly. “I’m still here because I love you,” he said, “I love you so much and I know that you are only human and are bound to trip up every now and then.” I closed my eyes and snuggled closer to him. “It’s okay, we all have our off moments, Y/N. I just want you to know that I am here for you, and i hope that next time you’ll come to me instead of choosing to smoke your stress away, okay?” He lifted my chin and our eyes met. I still had some tears left to shed apparently, but he wiped them away. I managed to croak out to him, “I love you too… thank you. Thank you for loving my sorry ass, and I’m sorry for not talking it out before things got this bad. I’ve just had shit going on and I’m not used to being able to share it with someone. I’m still getting used to it, you know?” I cracked a crooked smile at him, “Getting used to us.” He smiled down at me and the way his eyes crinkled let me know that we were okay. I was okay. I leaned in and kissed him. He met me with those plush lips that ooze sweetness. We kept this going for a few minutes until he wrapped his arms around me and whispered, “All is forgiven, my love, now sleep.” And with that I was off in dreamland.

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helloooo! I haven’t written fan fiction in FOREVER. So I’m sorry if this is absolutely terrible. I’ve just been feeling some kind of way lately, and haven’t found any fics that fit this kind of mood so I thought I’d try writing one myself. I’m gonna just be randomly writing stuff whenever I feel like it, but requests are taken as well ♥︎♥︎

someone: then… write?

me:

someone: then… draw?

me:

Important! (M) - Smut, (❤) - Fluff, (★) - Angst, (AU)- AU

✿ NCT

Multi Members

Call Boy (Taeyong x Reader x Yuta) (M)

Call Boy II (Taeyong x Reader x Yuta) (M)

Taeil

Teacher, Teacher! (❤)(★)(AU)

Call Boy Taeil (M)

Hansol

Teach Me (❤)

Johnny

Call Boy Johnny (M)

Fuck Boy Johnny (M)

Taeyong

Study Partner (❤)(M)

Cherry Bomb (M)

Doyoung

Open Wide (M)

Ten

Can I…? (❤)

I’ll Save the Prince (❤)

Jaehyun

Thin Walls (M)

Staring is Rude (M)

Winwin

Call Boy Winwin (M)

Mark

Let’s Do Something (❤)

House Party (❤)

Haechan

Flood (❤)

✿ Super Junior

Ryeowook

How Long I’ve Waited (M)

✿ Pentagon

Jinho

Crowded (❤)

Hui

Flustered (M)

Wooseok

Stay In (❤)(M)

✿ KNK

Inseong

Beach Sunrise (❤)

✿ MONSTA X

Kihyun

Sting (M)

I.M

You Get What You Deserve (M)

Jooheon

Don’t You Want Me? (M)

Make It Up (M)

Shownu

It’s Love, Not Gratefulness (M) (★) (AU)

✿ GOT7

Jackson

Jealous Much, Dude? (M)

✿ EXO (under construction/re-writing! ps they’re pretty bad lol)

Multi Members

Three’s a Crowd (Chanyeol x Reader x Sehun) (M)

HOT Springs (Chanyeol x Reader x Baekhyun) (M)

Chen

A Mutual Agreement (M)

Lay

Let’s (Not) Just Be Friends (M)

Call Me Noona (M)

Order Up! (❤)

Practice Makes Perfect (M)

A Little Party Never Killed Nobody (M)

Chanyeol

Reasons (★) (❤)

Springtime “Frolicking” (M)

D.O

Power Outage (M)

Bronze (M)

He has been through a lot and when I say a lot, I mean it. The amount of pain he felt, the guilt, the unspoken regrets — the last thing I want is for him to die when he has not yet fulfilled his wishes.

Levi:

Me:

All facts have been stated by Isayama! 

¬ Levi gets 2-3 hrs of sleep due to his insomnia

¬ Levi’s nightmares involve him not being able to save his friends, dreams of falling and insane intestine smells from titans evaporating 

¬ Levi’s pet peeve is pens lying around open

¬ Levi as a parent would be easily pissed off but he’d be kinda good with children so they’re alright with him

¬ Levi’s favorite flavor of ice cream is lemon and vanilla

¬ Levi is considered ugly in the Snk Universe, Isayama rated their attractiveness and gave Levi a 2 out of 10

¬ Levi was wearing his mother’s dress when Kenny found him

¬ If someone was to confess their feelings to Levi, he’d awkwardly reject them

¬ If Levi sees his reflection in clean surfaces he’d smile a little

¬ Sometimes Levi would talk to himself if something really fucked up happened

¬ Levi does his tea himself, but sometimes if someone is nice they’ll make him tea

¬ Levi doesn’t have a crush on anyone

¬ Levi’s favorite Disney Movie would be Mary Poppins

¬ If Levi had a job in the modern world it would either be a teacher or chef

¬ If you told Levi a good/bad joke he wouldn’t react at all

¬ If Levi were to style his hair in any other way it would be in a ponytail ( Tied Up )

¬ If you were drunk Levi would knock you out so you don’t make any trouble

¬ Levi doesn’t have a good fashion sense

¬ If you randomly search up ‘the definition of fabulous’ on Google a picture of Levi would show

¬ Levi gets all weird when tickled

¬ Levi’s flexible enough to do a standing split

¬ If Levi were to have a panic attack he’d need someone to reassure him that everything would be alright

¬ Rivialle isn’t Levi’s second/first name, it was a wrong translation of his name

¬ Levi would visit Greenland if he could

¬ Levi’s type would be someone who’s tough, feminine and sensual

¬ Levi thinks marriage sucks

¬ Levi is always the submissive one ( HolY ShIt!1 )

¬ Levi is a virgin

¬ Levi sees Isabel in Eren

¬ If Levi had a crush on someone he wouldn’t stop stuttering when he’s around them

¬ Levi likes his tea with no milk, sugar or anything ( Plus all those things are too expensive for him to buy )

¬ Levi wouldn’t have a pet

¬ Levi’s favorite smell is a Summer breeze

¬ You would hardly notice if Levi got sick

¬ Levi would win a fight against Sebastian Michaelis, no demon powers involved

¬ If Levi caught two of his squad members doing the deed, he would stay quiet, walk away and cry

¬ Levi would like Baseball Diaries

¬ If you tried to have a pillow fight with Levi he wouldn’t react at all

¬ If Levi’s squad members threw him a party he’d be slightly annoyed but would appreciate the effort they put in for him

¬ Levi’s fav fruit is apples

¬ If you were to kiss Levi he’d pull back and look at you in terror and disgust

¬ If Levi was in a highschool AU he’d be in the group of bullies

¬ Levi tried wearing plateau shoes

¬ He also once wished to be taller

¬ Levi would push you away and not look at you if you hugged him

¬ Levi’s fav food is rice

¬ In the Snk universe, Levi is the most sexually frustrated one of them all

¬ If Levi were to be an Olympian he’d compete in weightlifting

¬ Levi is the most emotional person in Aot

¬ Levi would play the bass-guitar if he wanted

¬ If Levi went into a haunted house he’d explain everything logically 

¬ Levi would be kinda good at hide and seek, he’d find the best hiding spots but wouldn’t come out of em

¬ If you were flirting with Levi, he wouldn’t have a clue that you are doing it

¬ Levi once wanted to open a tea shop

¬ If someone were to dye Levi’s hair pink, he’d wear it proudly and nobody would make fun of it

¬ Levi is a mama’s boy

¬ Levi’s laugh is kinda creepy and it gives some cadets nightmares if they heard it

¬ Levi’s fav color is white

¬ Levi would be the best at ice skating if he were to try it

¬ If you drew a really good drawing of Levi and showed him he’d say ‘’good work’’

¬ Levi likes Indie Music

¬ If Levi had a gf he’d leave her alone, wouldn’t exactly treat her like a princess and it wouldn’t be much different from not being in a relationship

¬ If Levi saw all the fanart of him ( especially the more revealing ones ) he’d want them deleted

¬ Levi once laughed shortly and when someone asked him about it he said farted

¬ If a kissing scene happened in a movie, Levi would think how he’d like to do that too but would keep it to himself

¬ If Levi went to Cosplay Con he’d just want to go home

¬ Levi is good at cooking, the favorite thing he’d make is stew

¬ Levi’s secret talent is that he can imitate some Scouts

¬ Question: ‘What’s the most disgusting thing Levi’s ever done when he was alone?’

Isayama’s Answer: One time he touched his dick

¬ Levi wouldn’t use any social media

¬ Levi would show his lover affection by bringing them tea or touching them slightly

¬ Levi once considered self harm and suicide because of his depression, he then found a strong will to live

¬ If someone told Levi he had a nice ass he’d tell them to fuck off

¬ The veterans have seen Levi laughing and crying

¬ The most embarassing memory Levi has is that he wasn’t allowed to drink once because they thought he was a kid

¬ The subject Levi likes most is Math

¬ The subject Levi hates most is English

¬ Levi still practices his writing, he’d be very conscious about his handwriting since he’s from the underground he didn’t learn to write so he would be scared if you found out about his background

¬ Levi’s handwriting is very neat

¬ levi wouldn’t get jealous over his lover because he trusts them, if he was jealous he’d stay low about it then eventually explode about it

¬ Levi’s fav sweet would be raisons

¬ If Levi were in a traffic jam he’d wait patiently