Starting Again; Closed
Camellia leaned outside the cafe as he glanced down at his watch periodically, making sure not to drop the two drinks he was holding.
She was late.
When he had agreed to meet Sylvatica they decided to not stay out past dusk since it would be harder for her to get back late at night, yet from the way events where unfolding it seemed like he was going to have to get over himself and see her home later. He hadnāt seen or heard from her since their argument on the roof so he wasnāt quite sure as to what caused the sudden interest in him. Nonetheless he wasnāt complaining too much, the guilt had been eating away at him so he had been wanting to talk to her anyways.
As he glanced up from his watch again Camellia noticed her walking down the street towards him.
āYouāre late.ā He chuckled in a joking tone before turning serious. āI hope your tea preferences hasnāt changed much or this is gonna be real shitty of me.ā He mused, passing her the iced beverage.
Sylvatica bowed to the boy apologetically even if she could tell he was only joking. She was still sorry for holding him up. She took the beverage offered to her and sipped on it for a quick taste. Mecca Tea, well she didnāt dislike it but it definitely wasnāt in her preference.Ā
āThank you. Um, itās good,ā She smiled and fidgeted slightly in her dress, She had run late exactly because she had been indecisive on what to wear. She figured she should dress in something other than her usual attire for an outing into town. Her usual clothes would attract too much attention.Ā
However, she was incredibly uncomfortable. She wasnāt used to them.Ā
āThank you for meeting with me. I⦠I really wanted to have a chance to speak with you.āĀ
He raised an eyebrow at her comment, smirking slightly. āYouāre a terrible liar. We can pick out another one on the way back. If it gets too dark I will walk you home. There is a small park down this way that no one knows about. Itās quiet.ā He paused, pointing down a small side street. āThe feeling is mutual⦠I have some things I want to talk about as wellā¦Shall we?ā
Once it was agreed upon Camellia took Sylvaticaās hand, grasping it firmly as he lead her down the street and into a small lit up park. Aside from someone walking their dog it was virtually empty. He let go of her hand, inching away just a little bit.
āThe building owner of the apartments over there makes sure it stays clean, itās a nice spot to just clear your head. There is a small stream that runs through as wellā¦.ā trailing off Camellia turned to face the other. He gathered his thoughts before speaking up.
āWould you like to start or should I?ā
The girl bowed slightly as Camellia let go of her hand. Surprisingly it wasnāt unpleasant to have him lead her by the hand. She refused to accept a new drink, and sipped on her tea as he spoke. .Ā
It seemed like he already knew everything about the area. It wasnāt surprising since he had been away from the sanitarium for such a long time already. Still, it was fascinating at how the boy adopted. If it had been Sylvatica, she probably wouldnāt bother mingling with normal people.Ā
āItās a nice park, I like it,ā Sylvatica said while pushing a strand of hair behind her ear,Ā āIt seems like you know a lot about this place already.āĀ
āUh, if you donāt mind going first, Iāll listen for now.ā She said quietly. She needed to know what he was thinking in order to collect her own thoughts into words.Ā Ā
Nodding Camellia led her over to a bench and sat down; staying silent for a while, collecting his thoughts. Leaning back he let out a small sigh.
āOk look⦠You have got to know that Iām the biggest idiot to ever grace this planet. You have no idea. Iām not even sure how I function on a daily basis because I do the stupidest things. I canāt get away from it, and sometimes I say things before I can process what I just said. That just makes things 10x worse than they already are. Iām working on that though so I can stop screwing up what few relationships I have. But I just wanted to say that Iām sorry⦠Iām sorry for everything I ever did or said and I know none of what I just explained excuses my actions but I needed you to hear that. I shouldnāt be trying to meddle in other peopleās lives and I guess I learned that the hard way. I get if you hate me or just never want anything to do with me again because Iām just the biggest fuck up in the history of forever.ā He chuckled a little at the last part.
āHonestly I need to stop being an asshole to people I care about.ā
āUnn,ā Sylvatica mumbled after Camellia was done. Her hands gripped a bit at the cup in her hands. The wet condensation starting to drip off it running in between her now wet hands as she spoke,Ā āThatās not true.āĀ
Sylvatica had been just as guilty. She had pushed the boy away harshly because of her own motives. At the time she believed she was doing the correct thing. However, in the last year those efforts had only led to hurt emotions from every person.Ā
But now, she could begin to mend the damaged bond between the two.Ā
āWe both hurt each other,ā She spoke softly,Ā āEven though you hadnāt meant to, it was me that caused that from you. I want to also apologize. The truth is, I shouldnāt have pushed you away. Till this time youāre the only one who even cares about me at all.ā The girl trailed off slightly, feeling tears from all her loneliness emerge,Ā āYouāre the only one I could think of for a long time. So, thereās no way I could hate youā¦āĀ
Camellia frowned, that was the last thing he had ever expected to hear from her.
āWhat are you talking about? You didnāt make me do anything??ā
He was in shock and still so when he turned to face her. Camellia pulled out a small pack of tissues and handed them to her. Giving her time to collect herself he wasnāt sure if he should be mad or upset or happy, in the end his voice came off as soft and understanding, with a slight hint of seriousness.
āWhere is this coming from all of a sudden?ā
Sylvatica kindly took the tissues. Sniffing slightly she held on the thin paper now wet from simply her hands,Ā āI shoved you and your kindness away so many times. I must have made you so angry and upset. I couldnāt really imagine the pain you must have gone through.āĀ
Sylvatica, honestly, hadnāt considered his side of the story until after the fact. When she had spent so much time pondering on what exactly had happened, she slowly started to realize what he must have felt. Even if she had felt some pain from driving him and Cherry away. For him it was different.Ā
It was because he loved her that it must have hurt so much. Sylvatica could only arrive to that conclusion because slowly she had also found herself hurting whenever she wondered if he hated her.Ā
It broke her heart to think about it. And there was only one reason why that would be.Ā
āCamellia, I understand now what I must have made you go through because I can see now that it would hurt me so much if the person I love just shoved me away,ā The girl hesitated for a second, not sure if she was ready to fully express it,Ā ā... I canāt say it just yet. But.. you understand, right?ā She asked while sparing him a small glance.Ā














