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My Grandparents, My Parents, and I (Family Tree), Frida Kahlo, 1936, MoMA: Painting and Sculpture

Gift of Allan Roos, M. D., and B. Mathieu Roos Size: 12 1/8 x 13 5/8" (30.7 x 34.5 cm) Medium: Oil and tempera on zinc

Woman with a Head of Roses, 1935, Salvador Dali

A Few Small Nips (Passionately in Love), 1935, Frida Kahlo

Memory (The Heart), 1937, Frida Kahlo

Star Maker, Remedios Varo

Unused preparatory drawing for In Memory of My Feelings, Elaine de Kooning, 1967, MoMA: Drawings and Prints

Gift of the artist Size: 13 15/16 x 11" (35.4 x 27.9 cm) Medium: Ink on acetate

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hey mermaid girl <3 i have a write - up on this i would love  to share!

~Our sleeping dreams are taken in the 4th house/ICOur waking dreams are taken in Neptune/12th house. Since childhood, your lunar house has been recording the story of your life and has seen and remembers everything in their embryonic nonverbal symbolic, visual, emotive, psychic forms. Dreams can have generational themes, we entered life in a dream as our first state of being within our mother, and remaining as part of her consciousness for the earliest part of life. crescent Moon on top of Mercury’s glyph is the intertwining of the conscious mind and the subconscious of early lunar conditioning coming together, the Moon’s cycles are also the circles of birth, life, and death, the first and latest years of life are spent mostly asleep. 

We dream of being many different ages in various stages of life, and the Moon’s inner child often replays significant memories of places and people from this time in our dreams. Sleeping takes us back to that very vulnerable and pure state. We come into this world alone, leave it alone, and dream alone. The Moon watches over us each hour of the night as it passes through each house in our horoscope. This may be why some people tend to wake up at the same time each night as the Moon crosses a trigger or alert point.Neptune is eternally asleep in us and invites us to join the dream while we are awake. Neptune is the shadow of Mercury so the mind’s cognition and consciousness is weak but the Mind’s Eye open-wide for us to look into and escape back into our fantasy life or imaginary ideal,Neptune transports us into trance-states, hypnosis, fugue, and sedation. 

The world’s greatest art, design, beauty, song, sculpture, poetry, motion capture, scripts, theatre productions are inspired and nourished by Neptune Mind’s-eye, as the emblem of the ocean Neptune is our collective unconscious, so Neptune also gives us the ability to remember, symbolically, or creatively interpret our dreams, gain the ability to lucid dream or revisit them in waking life, to paint form into this unformed lunar images. A potent Neptune presence in the chart is also an indication of vivid, intense, and prophetic dreaming experiences. Neptune is always calling us back to sleep, away from the heaviness of life we pass Neptune on the way down, waiting on the borderline in the only place that it makes sense.Levitating in that mystical, magical, meditative, floating, foggy, distorted, dissociated, druggy, delirious state of being, the one that Pisces and the 12th house is closest with

moon conjunct pluto is a placement that is misunderstood and misinterpreted a lot. whenever we think of this placement we immediately think of scorpionic energy. smothering, brooding, manipulative, dramatic and obsessive energies. this is partly true for all moon and pluto conjunctions. however, the signs the moon and pluto are in can change a lot in terms of expression.

the moon represents feminity, more specifically motherhood. it is a personal planet that deals with our emotions, our core needs to feel safe and "at home" and balances out our sun sign (masculinity, fatherhood). this combined with pluto, the planet of transformation, power, death, rebirth, psychology, sex, manipulation and obsessions makes up for a twisted view of said feminity. the native can attract dark and negative situations with other people, especially women. it can feel like women feel different around the moon/pluto person, almost as if they feel bothered by them. these natives probably weren't aware of their influence on others during their early years which could have let them to feel unseen, antagonized and sometimes even unloved. the mother, sisters, grandmothers, aunts, female cousins or their first girl friends could have been huge contributors to this feeling. the native could have been bullied or were made a scapegoat. their privacy and freedom could have been invaded and in the worst case, there might even have been physical, psychological or even sexual abuse going on in their lives.

the native's emotional needs get amplified because of the nature of pluto. every emotional desire gets touched by pluto's obsession and becomes indispensable. this is where the all or nothing attitude is formed. because of this these people have strong feelings about everything and can sometimes go great lengths to achieve emotional satisfaction if the person hasn't dealt with their issues and traumas yet. this includes manipulation, obsession, stalking, denial, emotional outbursts and breakdowns or even abuse. the native can feel tormented by their own emotions and feel like they have nowhere to escape, no one who understands their inner pressure. they are more likely to keep these thoughts to themselves and prefer not to talk about it. they're afraid of another person using their emotions against them to have power over them.

this aspect also has very healing and transformational properties. they are able to understand human psychology in its rawest form and are able to heal themselves and others with their great insight. they have tremendous manifestation powers, what they think about might just become true, so they have to be careful what they wish for as it can backfire. the moon pluto conjunction gives the native a great survival instinct and makes them highly intuitive. they are likely to sense other people's intentions and seek better connections.

there is a lot to be learned and to gain with this placement. it has great potential but often requires sacrifices. this can be determined by the sign, placement in the birth chart and aspects with other planets.

Moon-Uranus aspects - The Little Strangeling

Moon conjunct Uranus, Moon sextile Uranus, Moon square Uranus, Moon trine Uranus, Moon opposite Uranus

The Moon-Uranus child managed to find mischief wherever she went. But really, it was mischief that went looking for her first. She plays with a secret toy box filled with magic parts, hidden compartments, psychic potions, and backward charms that she opens up to animate reality with her own imagination. It’s here that she learns reading and spelling by reading and casting spells. She learns time by visiting other dimensions, future lives, and excursions through the astral plains. She longs to recover her knowledge of the cosmos, constellations, and astronomy, and learns best when she is on the edge of outer space and out of her own mind. It’s very possible that any interest or belief in extraterrestrials came as a result of being visited by a supernatural being in a dream or during a powerful hypnognonic state. This may be especially true in the case of childhood abandonment or neglect, the child stares longingly out at the stars waiting for her ‘real family’ to come and take her home, and it’s likely because she has been sent guardians from the stars to ensure she is never left alone.

Memories of this childhood can recollected as a fast blurred cacophony of distorted dreams, unusual images, strange voices, and unbelievable stories. These may seem elusive or far away enough to belong to another person or a previous lifetime. Sometimes early encounters with humans leave her feeling like she is the alien, misunderstood and alone at a distance. Maybe she feels like her emotions are speaking in another language, or she can’t fit into the name and identity she was born into. She may have reported true experiences that were doubted, or suffered unusual bouts of anxiety that were dismissed or ignored. This would only reinforce that longterm sense of separation. 

Pisces is known to play the role of the savior, having a huge desire and impulse to fix other people’s problems, be the healer. I’d like to explore this archetype of Pisces without trying to get too much into a savior complex. I am talking about this in the realm of stereotypes, a role to play rather than a psychological condition. Pisces is empathetic, giving, has a desire to love and to merge, and is also highly associated with guilt. Sometimes running in to play the white knight is fueled by Pisces strong connection to the emotion of guilt.

Another catalyst for wanting to save everyone can be from their empathetic nature, literally feeling another’s pain and having a natural reaction to stop the pain. While some of this may sound like it comes from an insincere place, know that it is in Pisces nature to care. Pisces can have almost unlimited compassion and some say is a sign that quickly learns the meaning of unconditional love. But I also don’t want to paint the picture of a perfect person who always houses a large heart, sometimes wanting to save another or fix a person comes from their own selfish needs or impulses and dare I say even from a place in the ego. And wow does this fish have flashy scales to distract and trick. Masters at mimicking honesty and trustworthiness, many times not only lying to others but to themselves.

For the many, many Pisces that just want to make everything better, that come from an honest place of wanting to help, they need to take care, learn to guard, and learn to set boundaries. You can imagine how a sensitive, empathetic person who has a tendency to always try to save others can fall into other’s ill intents.

Moon-Neptune aspects - The Little Dreamer  Moon conjunct Neptune, Moon sextile Neptune, Moon square Neptune, Moon trine Neptune, Moon opposite Neptune 

There is a transition space between the security of binding in the mother’s consciousness and independent functioning that the child uses fantasy, imagination, and creative play with the archetypal realm as a function to ease the psychic discomfort of detachment. This is the place that people with Moon-Neptune aspects remain part of until the end of life. Though she grows out of being immersed and into carrying it with her everywhere she goes. It’s a treasure box that opens to reveal the heavenly muses, colour palettes and symbols, cinematic visions, and unwritten symphonies. And she may have had access to this early in life, it’s possible that adults recognised her art, writing, or creative gift as a special talent. Though these paintbrushes are dipped in emotion and the ink is already tear soaked, much of this inspiration is a product of deep sensitivity. Other people’s feelings are contagious, and once she is taken by the lunar tides of her own emotion, she is swept into the wide open Neptune ocean and soaked by the tears of humanity. It means that finding this treasure box can be agonising and harrowing, and she is forced under the water to feel and sense every drop. And it’s all so it means something. The recovery is in the artistry, the elevating highs of inspiration pouring out like a cotton candy moon of creative activity. These creative trance-like states can be like embracing the whole universe, a collaboration with angels that replenishes the whole spirit. She finds therapy the creative process, and she heals her audience, onlooker, reader, or listener. She returns them to that blissful transition state where she spends much of her time, the one they vaguely know but cannot remember. 

Even the individuals with Moon-Neptune aspects that do not exhibit these artistic qualities still have a way of healing and redeeming by transporting others to that twilight zone. There is a rich imagination and fantasy life that weaves so intricately into reality that she doesn’t have to try or believe it into existence. It seems to illuminate her natural expression, interactive style, and storytelling beneath an enchanted spotlight. One that makes you wonder if such fantastical things could ever be possible, and maybe believe it for long enough to make it true. 

»no thanks« by e.e. cummings (+)

shape poem in the form of a funeral urn dedicated to 14 publishers who rejected his book.