*mad world by Gary jules begins to play*

things I'm into you can expect to see: all things science, decolonisation, scifi, wlw [nsfw included], queer, nonbinary...

If you want my lesbian not so safe content check my tage mine wlw

Things i am into you can expect to see here: all things science, scifi, cyberpunk, goth/ punk/ scene / emo [music, fashion, esthetic and politics], nature, wilderness, motorbikes/scooters, bicycles, camping, cartoons [mainly 90s], TW blood, TW gore, poetry, writing, art [esp dark fantasy], self care, positive/hopecore💜, agere, cute stuff, wildlife, photography [travel and wildlife mainly], spirituality, feminism, women women women, free congo free tigray free palestine, anti establishment, acab, stop ICE

DNI any of the isms [like racISM, sexISM, ageISM, ableISM], any ignorant hate.

I've had a few tumblrs in the past first from when I was 15 [I regret deleting this one but I hit an age I felt too cringed I guess] then one i had up to very recently that I deleted mainly over heartbreak [knew I couldnt keep it without thinking of her]

I'm 31, mad huh. Aging feels amazing every year a chance to be better. I was excited to reach my dirty earthy thirties ngl.

I am nonbinary AND in touch with my womanhood took a long time to get away from human made cages to accept that my female sex is inherently nonbinary [oof blew some minds there huh] they/she pronouns only pick whichever whenever. I'm mainly masc presenting but definitely switch up quite naturally [as for how I act its more 50/50 or 60/40 with 60 being masculine] and I will scream about how FEMALE MASCULINITY is its own thing ASIDE OF MEN it has NOTHING TO DO WITH MEN and has existed for as long and is natural to women [same with feminine men being natural to men and different from women] it is sad how many women try to make their masculinity like a man and how many men make their feminity like a women.

Like just let it be I would LOVE to see our species fluidity in that way but no hetronormativity cages even the queerest of us huh. Change!

I'm queer I came out to friends aged 14 & everyone at 16 as bi but growing up everyone said I was lesbian in denial because I was only sexual and only dated girls and well even now 90 percent of my dating history is women but truthfully I think I am a lesbian [a lot to unpack still]... journey i guess

I have autism. It's important to remember every one of us has an array of symptoms that fit an array of diagnosis what makes you right for the diagnosis is how many of the symptoms you hit AND how much they impact daily life [most dont realise the latter - you can have a dr know you have something but not diagnose you because it doesn't effect you enough to be beneficial]

Now this is all western talk. Their medicalisation. Really its: colonization was the act of making the globe take on European culture over their own. This meant many people wouldnt be able to even pretend enough /be domesticated enough to behave enough as the west demanded - those people needed a diagnosis to signal the difference and create another way to get them to contribute to the western world somehow.

Anyway with autism whats called splinter skills is common aka being gifted in one area or more and realy regressed in others or less elebarote then gifted and regressed: really good/way ahead of your age in some areas whether emotionally mental physical and the opposite in others. This is also why alpt with autism can find themselves ik the agere community or in lime with it without realizing. So if you see me use the Tag thats why. I dont actually see me as age regressed so much as I am just myself and this is the best current label that gives space to it ygm

I've been through some stuff I wont lie and with autism you are more prone to being more heavily impacted by trauma so the tesult of [c]ptsd is more common for us and for me yes its resulted in CPTSD I recovered a lot but continued police abuse brought it all back which radicalized me even further [I was radicalized from birth believe me!]

My special interest is technically science but thats super reductive especially in my case when its really:

Foundational structure and deep causality - understanding reality by tracing phenomena down to their smallest operative units and rebuilding them upward into meaning.”

Or more simply:

Seeing how everything works underneath appearance.

Expressed by science.

Feel free to message as long as it isn't creepy ;)