Life Updates

These days, my memory feels a bit goldfish-like, worn down by the pace of modern life and its constant shifts. I write here to anchor the core memories of my days.”

Setting boundaries does not automatically mean abandoning people. It can mean:

✅ deciding what you can realistically contribute,

✅ stopping emergency-level support from becoming permanent dependency,

✅ requiring effort from them if they expect continued help,

✅ protecting enough money for your own survival and future.

You do not have to destroy yourself to prove you care.

A practical approach is usually better than one huge emotional confrontation. For example:

⬜ set a fixed amount you can contribute each month,

⬜ stop covering nonessential expenses,

⬜ give a timeline or expectation for job searching,

⬜ avoid rescuing every shortfall immediately.

The guilt may spike at first because you’re used to being responsible for everyone’s stability. But guilt is not always a sign you’re doing something wrong. Sometimes it’s just the feeling that appears when you stop overfunctioning for others.

Kuya missed the due date of dropping the raffle tickets. We missed the chances of winning 100k worth of trip but it's okay. I've checked the promo and it's not exclusive to our local branch. It is nationwide.

🎄Today marks the final day of the 9-day Christmas novena Mass. I’m proud of myself for seeing it through this year. Completing the novena wasn’t always easy—there were moments of fatigue, distractions, and the pull of everyday responsibilities—but I stayed committed.

💡We experienced a five-day power outage caused by a busted transmission line. During that time, something unsettling happened. Lola misunderstood big bro’s intentions, and kuya became frightened when he saw Lola sharpening a knife.

Today is the last day of my longest weekend. I spent most of it decluttering. I didn’t finish everything I planned, thanks to a few spontaneous events, but the break still felt meaningful. I got to try new food, spend time with people I care about, and visit Benedict (+) and pay my respects to Tonio (+).

It's been a while. a lot is happening but there is one thing that hasn't change, I still cry out of nowhere. I'm not certain of the cause. There is an unexplainable grief that would resurface from time to time. Then, while i was in that moment I heard Kuya leaping with hope as he got a response back from one of many employer he sent his resume. Although the job is contractual and good for 5 months, I still hope and pray he'll be able to get it.

on the other hand, I feel bad for Jaui. I can't help but feel like sooner or later pressure and doubt would starts to creep on him. I pray that may he not succumb to pressure and may he still be able to approach things with clarity and with divine guidance of God.

🍜 koya gave me bihon for breakfast and I shared it with jaui

🍚 jaui bought me a siomai chao fan for lunch

🍃 My leave on Dec 1 was approved. Hopefully, I get a slot too on comelec for BSKE.

📦 The tv stand we ordered arrived on expected date.

🎰 I won ₱1k on Kahoot game and ₱300 on raffle.

🥳 Monique gave us andoks chicken, 1L coke and slice of cake for her birthday.

🎞️ Jaui lend me his Canva

I haven’t been posting much lately because I was trying to keep a video journal, but my uploads kept getting rejected. Since that doesn’t seem to work here, I’ll be returning to writing instead.

Today, I ended up watching the new K-drama Bon Appétit, My Majesty instead of finishing my basic Excel video modules. There was a scene where the King pities Yeonji for being unmarried at the age of 28. Hearing those lines felt strangely personal—almost as if he was speaking directly to me.

The scene stuck with me, and I began spiraling again—until I was in tears, questioning my purpose and wishing I were a man instead of a woman. I don’t know how much longer I can carry all of this, which is why I’m pouring everything out here.

Mom shared a picture of Dad checking out the latest iPhone models—something he could easily afford back then. So much has changed over the years, and with each passing day, the difference becomes more vivid and undeniable. We are no longer who we once were, and facing that reality feels heavier with time

🌾The rice we typically buy had a ₱100+ price markdown. We were able to buy more goods with our current budget.

👼Happy 9th Heavenly Birthday Papay 🎂 It was raining again, and this happens everytime we visit you.

🚘Tio Tho was our ride for today. He took us (Lola, jaui, tia dhay and I) to the cemetery, St. Raphael church and back home.