Mamihlapinatapai

Hey pain at maybe 2-6, randomly just jumps up, especially when the sciatic nerves start fucking up. Missed 2 lectures again because of the pain. Buttttt. I made it to a tutorial, and I had to walk past someone who I haven't seen since we stoped seeing each other, and I didn't get heaps anxious, upset or even angry. I bought a cheap frozen pizza and it actually is good. And even though I have a Chinese dictation tomorrow (that I'm not ready for) and a really long shift at work tomorrow night which will hurt, buuuut I feel good mentally. Little ramble over x

I have something I want to talk about, and there are people who I can talk to, but it's like ... It's causing me emotional distress and I don't know why, and I feel like if I start talking it won't make sense why it's causing me to react as I am and then I'll just feel the same or be told that I shouldn't care or whatever and idk.