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in most of the ways that matter, i am a coterie of ghosts. here's one of them: https://sparrowlark.neocities.org/owen

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you're everyone you hate, and it's ruining your life
Not high stakes or anything, but I've seen multiple reviews of and reflections on tv glow that engage really thoughtfully with Owen's transness while reading Maddy as straightforwardly cis/a girl/a lesbian, and I think it's kind of fascinating
The way Maddy's "you know I like girls, right? Not boys" offers a (shameful/sublimated) form of gender validation to Owen as their relationship takes on moments of intimacy--and the way that Maddy isn't ultimately capable of fulfilling Owen's fantasies of Two Girls doing Cool Subtextual TV Lesbianism, any more than Owen is capable of fulfilling Maddy's fantasies--is a rich and messy and key part of their whole dynamic. imo
#also worth noting that they mention having tried out different names + correct owen with 'thats not my name.'#but they never actually claim 'tara'
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all right beautiful work recognizing your ghosts and climbing back into hell for your own sake can we now try Not experiencing the seething jealousy. that would be so good. so lovely. maybe it would help with this headache.
I do think the ability to emoji-react is a net win for human communication. not only does it give you an outlet for 'I see and acknowledge this but don't have a verbal response' but it also adds a pleasing alethiometer element to things
my coworker announces that he's off to the dentist. someone reacts with a tooth emoji. is this a statement of dentist solidarity? a wish for my coworker to return with more (or fewer?) teeth than he set out with? simple word association? who can say
yeah shoutout to pleasures of the flesh
You know if Utena was in deltarune there would be an attack where a staggered circle of swords directs inward in endless waves until the end of the attack to impale a central point and you have to weave around the projectiles to avoid getting hit. There would also be some bullshit with cars. Miki’s would be sheet music that turns your soul blue and you can only skip up and down between the lines and he consistently hits you with the first 5 notes of sunlit garden. Kozue has one similar attack but the notes sound wrong and are disjointed and erratically timed and placed, making it harder to predict. When you think you’ve defeated shiori she pulls a hahaha, the joke’s on you, you haven’t seen my special attack I’ve been charging up this whole time!, vindictively incapacitates you, and needless to say blows herself up to high heaven. Nanami’s has elephants and various animals charging across the box to stampede Nanami that you have to dodge and she’s like UGH. WHAT’S WITH THESE ELEPHANTS??? Anthy’s “attacks” are mainly you dodging stuff directed at her, but she will tamper with the Spare option and trying to select it will cause her to send long awful waves of difficult attacks straight across the box directly targeted at you. If you survive these rounds and still insist on Spare she will try to crash the game to push you out. The game will fake freeze and you’ll get a fake pop-up to End Program or Wait. selecting either will fade the fight to white and bring you back to the overworld with her gone, but you will have a few extra dialogue lines before then if you select Wait & it unlocks something in the future. your soul is pink
now draw her with a vacant stare. and it/its pronouns

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*torturing you* dude trust me, something really cool happens. you just have to reflect on it for a bit. i'm doing this because i want you to reach your full potential okay?
im terrible at being a real person but i think i'd make an excellent fictional character
i want to see the symbolism ppl would weave into the fanart of me. i want to see who id be shipped with. i want to see what discourse ppl would have about me.
>have problem
>recognize it as part of my divine punishment
>no problem
they're trying to get me to do something called ""my job"" instead of reading about medieval english poaching laws
clap if you're a black hole of a person and have never been satisfied

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Writer confidence is not a thing you build and then have. It's a thing you have for about eleven minutes after writing something good and then it evaporates and you have to make more. There is no reservoir. There is no saving it up. You produce it fresh each time from scratch like some kind of emotional artisan bread and if you don't write for a few days you run out and have to start the whole process over again from flour.
I think the queercoded villainy of The Pink Opaque has been underdiscussed (<- surprising no one I'm sure, given My Deal). Marco and Polo have breasts and skirts and beards and receding hairlines. Isabel gets her heart ripped out when she tries to walk up to Tara (the queercoded hero. the object of crush and identification for Maddy, and a key fantasy object enabling the fragile proto-lesbian intimacy that Owen gets to experience in moments like the marker tattoo scene). But Tara turns around, revealed to be Marco or Polo in disguise (the monstrousness of the queer body. the monstrousness of Owen daring to even semi-consciously entertain that lesbian identification)
We can look at The Pink Opaque and ask things like, where does a liberatory escapism cross over into a substitute for having a real life, is the show Good or Cringe, etc. But also: to what extent are Owen and Maddy seeing themselves as the heroes, vs to what extent are they internalizing that they're the monsters?