do one good thing before you go

in most of the ways that matter, i am a coterie of ghosts. here's one of them: https://sparrowlark.neocities.org/owen

i bet the pain will end if i arrange a perfect enough sentence about it

thinking "everyone can tell im bad at this" as i stand completely motionless doing nothing in public

i need to write or i'm going to EXPLODE. "and what are you doing after work today" >:/ going outside or whatever. whateverrrrrr

always very funny to me when someone says they’re staunchly anti-rpf and then incorporates paratext into their canon-based fanwork. pick a side!

by paratext I am of course referring to anything that exists outside of the text as supplementary material: out-of-character conversations, director’s commentary, social media posts, non-roleplay streams or videos, real-life relationships; offline interests, hobbies, talents, pets, even physical attributes. obviously rpf is what you make of it, and the line between roleplay/real play has always been blurry in the context of mcyt, but what particularly interests me is how people will selectively choose what to keep and what to discard in order to hew as close as possible to an imaginary line in order to signal their allegiances to a certain political position. and make no mistake, the inclusion of the ‘not rpf / never rpf / don’t ship real people, that’s weird’ labels on fanworks are political statements; they are also moral judgements, and often hypocritical ones. when you’re incorporating paratext into a canon-based fanfic, there’s no meaningful distinction between roleplay and rpf apart from the semantic divide. but for me at least the disambiguation has always been pretty straightforward: is it taking place in minecraft? then it’s not rpf. unless you want it to be, in which case it is. it’s as a simple as that.

you know how you have to set out hiding places for cats? and you can't predict if the cat will like the hidey-hole you made special for them or if they'll choose to hang out in that cardboard box instead?

maybe i just keep making sideblogs forever. there hasn't been a new sideblog made yet but maybe it'll happen. i'm going to lie down right now though

it's bad and there's nothing there and no one should look at it because of how bad it is but hey requiem-refrain if you want . um. i don't know. i don't know what you could possibly want from there but maybe if you look over there there will be something that wasn't there before. who could say.