The post will touch on a very unpleasant, terrible and possibly trigger topic for someone, so read at your own risk.I just need to talk myself out.
In reality, I've never been molested or sexually assaulted But I've heard a lot of stories about him, and right now I'm a listener from the outside (I'm still an introvert who only sees my friends at school, so I just hear a lot of stories) of one nasty situation. And you know, all these reflections made me remember (how to say - I've never forgotten it) the story.
I was 12-13 years old at the time, and it was happening in Amino (I still think it was the best role-playing game app) in a single role-playing game chat.A wild tribe of seals, a little experience in rp + early adolescence, And so, in one of the rp chats, I take on the role of a little kitten – Lightkit. A small, innocent girl, who for some reason began to show interest in an adult (!) cat. At first, I thought he would be like a wise mentor to her or become her big brother figure, but no. I don't remember how, but that player and I went into private messages and there, his character committed violence against Lightkit.
Then I didn't understand what had happened at all, and I was assured that everything was fine, that there was nothing wrong. And because of my age and inexperience, I believed it. For this reason, Lightkit in the role also referred to that cat (I don't remember his name, but it seems his name began with a Dragon... I'll call him Dragon) well, and eventually I even fell in love and had a serious relationship with him when I became Lightpaw (my poor girl was traumatized and I only realized it when I got older).
Everyone in the rp flood shouted at me that this was wrong, and in rp the characters treated the Dragon badly and wanted to expel him (and I was so moved by this "couple" that I was ready to send poor Lightpaw after this monster)I don't remember how it ended. Either the Dragon was killed, exiled, or they just broke up when Lightpaw became an adult named Lightpool.
(OH MY GOD! While I was writing all this, I remembered that the Dragon had a daughter +/- the age of Lightpool! And I played for her, so she didn't see anything wrong with it either and was friends with Lightpaw) I realized the horror of what was happening when I grew up, and to be honest, I'm sick of all these stories and how small and naive I was. And to be honest, I'm even a little ashamed in front of Lightpool. The "funny thing" is that later that player and I had a few more pairs in rp, but fortunately all the characters there were adults. And I do not know anything about the guy with whom I played this disgusting plot! I do not know if he was a stupid kid like me or an adult guy.
But sometimes, after that field game, he wrote to me on another social network, something like, "Hi, how are you?" or "Are you okay?"He never asked for my photos or for a personal meeting, but the older I got, the more afraid I was of him. "How are you?"?". It took me a year to decide to block it. It's been a few years to start telling this story, and I'll post this post only here. I am not a holy rp player.
I still love stories where there is suffering for everyone (including me), but the story of Lightpool is something I would not have wanted if I had understood the horror at the age of 12-13, but now... I just can't bring myself to change her fate. Still, I had a lot of rp characters and a lot of plots that I've already forgotten, but I still remember Lightpool and the whole nightmare that happened to her.
