Eri Scarlet

I don't know if it's my paranoia, but I feel like I'm bound to fail in everything I try. I feel like I try to do a lot of things especially because I’m bad at all

I swear I just wanted to be... I don't know, happy by the way things are, but I feel so frustrated and the desire to give up is very strong, I don't see a future.

I stopped writing, I want to stop drawing, I think my work is mediocre and I also don’t know if I want to dance anymore because I’m so amateur and as much as I do for fun, I am always overshadowed and they always remind me that I have no technique and that the only thing I do is be there and that I am not good at it. so what's the point of me trying to keep trying? I don't have this urge to prove to anyone that I can be good, I just accept that I suck and well, that's it.

I am afraid to try some things because I am afraid of failure, I have already failed in several aspects of my life and I do not know if I can take any more listening to someone saying that I'm not good at anything else.

I know it wasn’t intentional, but it just unlocked one more trigger in me which is my failure and my lack of confidence in myself.