And Who Are YOU?

I think it’s just because I’m tired

But also in true me fashion even though things are wonderful and delightful and sparkly and sweet now I will of course be overthinking how we left off but that’s par for the course

She’s so sweet fucking hell dude I adore her

Ooey gooey heart

I also feel like because we haven’t had a solid conversation since before I had my multiday crash out spurred by her not responding to my messages plus the plans I thought I had with her and another friend not happening (same weekend), (and if she finds out about it anyways I wouldn’t want her to feel bad or guilty it’s all entirely on me I need to get a hold on my emotions and be more responsive myself I just need to be a better friend especially to her), and I had that crashout and wrote all that poetry type stuff and like generally was trying so many things to get my emotions out, I feel like I was just so behaving so incredibly awkward towards her when we were working together and I’m not sure if she picked up on that at all but I was just kinda in a mood of I don’t know what to talk about and I also don’t feel like speaking and I’m worried that if she did pick up on my weirdness that she might think I have something against her now and that will lead to her losing any interest she had in me I don’t know I’m so I don’t know

Honestly shout out to my best friend for putting up with me through all this she’s so powerful and I’m annoying as fuck about J

She doesn’t hate me :)

We’re scheduled to work together tomorrow I’m so fucking nervous what the fuck am I gonna do what’s she gonna be like