IT TOOK MORE THAN A MONTH but finally, the full prescription was ready as of this morning - and I've now taken my first dose of testosterone!
I wound up making myself incredibly nervous (because of course I did), and was fully trembling when I was starting the process of setting up the needles and syringe, and had to force myself to calm down quite a bit.
In a weird way, the process of drawing up the fluid into the syringe itself wound up taking a bit longer than I'd thought (both because of the viscosity of the liquid [it's quite thick] and the fact that there was a big scary bubble in it that I wanted to get the heck out of there first) - but this turned out to be just what I needed to focus on, instead of the idea of a needle about to go into me, and it weirdly helped me calm down quite a fair bit.
Although every video I looked up reassured the audience that "it's okay if there are a few small bubbles in the syringe," I took my time and made sure that there was absolutely zero air in the syringe (to the point of pressing a bead of the solution from the needle), and was almost fully calm by the time I had the injector needle ready to go.
The injection itself was almost entirely painless - I barely felt the needle go in, and most of the discomfort came as I withdrew the needle and let go of the pinched skin. The site is still a little sore, but from what I understand, that's fairly normal; there's no redness or swelling that I can see, no raised temperature, or anything like that.
I feel a touch woozy, but I honestly think that's a combination of a) me waking up way earlier than I'd meant to, b) me working myself into an anxious mess leading up to the injection, and c) me not having really eaten anything since very very early this morning.
I'm planning to call the clinic in the morning (as they're closed today), and I'll ask them if I should put in a request for a refill this early out - if only because of the delays that happened with this first round, so as to hopefully keep things steady and consistent from here on out.~
For now, I'm going to see about getting something to eat, and hopefully that'll take care of this weird wooziness I'm feeling.
GENDER STATUS: TRANSIN'
