Redoing my masterpost w/ a little intro, cuz yes lol
Welcome to my side of Tumblr! I’m EMZi. Mostly into Ninjago, with some Running Man Animation and original works. I write AUs and stories more than I draw, though I do some art too. I don’t do commissions—this is just for fun, and motivation and I aren’t exactly best friends. Also, will post about other fandoms on a random basis lol
{Header art by @zaptrap from the Bruise Exchange 2024}
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I like to imagine draconus Jay being so excited to see (and REMEMBER) Cole that his lil dragon tail is wagging a lot and probably causing some damage around Imperium alskdjf
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Figured I should post my oni!Cole design evolution before college takes my soul:
(And before I start posting irregularly)
I forgot to highlight the nose- Old has a normal nose, new either has a cat or dog nose (I have yet to decide)
Might make oni!Jay one of these days or my Oni headcanons, who knows 🤷
Oh yeah, first pic is made from Gacha Club (but I used a mod, but I didn't really used anything special there, so-). Second is made in Gacha Life 2 👍 This is mostly like a half-form or something
I thought I was done with the yaps about the TADC x Ninjago AU…
Evil Versions of their TADCsona
Lloyd/Creston (Evil Creston)
Instead of being able to freely transform into any origami himself, he has no control over his transformations. He literally turns into whatever other people need him to be. So if somebody told him to become a sword, a dragon, or even just a box, he'd automatically fold into that shape whether he wants to or not. The transformation itself isn't painful, but the lack of choice definitely is.
Nya/Drift (Anastasis "Stasis")
Her water is in a permanent state of stillness no matter what she does. The fluid never forms waves, currents, or drift patterns, even during emotional extremes or external force. Think of a camera on a stabilizer, that's basically how the liquid behaves. Maybe if I use the Destiny's Bounty as the boat, it'd have an anchor permanently dropped. If I use the dragon, maybe it's just sitting at the bottom completely unmoving.
Cole/Litho (Evil Litho)
Yeah, he's still made of the same stones as Litho. The difference is that they no longer work together. Whenever he's struck, the notes clash with each other instead of forming anything harmonious, creating a harsh, dissonant sound. The impacts also leave small cracks behind, which slowly spread across his body over time. Instead of turning force into music, every hit just leaves him a little more fractured.
Jay/Bertam (Evil Bertam)
He can still transform into his train form whenever he wants. The difference is that instead of doing it when he's anxious, he usually does it whenever he doesn't want to be bothered. Need to have a conversation? Train. Someone asking a personal question? Train. Mild inconvenience? Also train.
Kai/Ignian (Extingian)
His colors constantly shift on a loop with no clear trigger, never settling long enough to reflect a real emotion. Sometimes he'll look furious while perfectly calm, and other times he'll look completely fine while internally freaking out. The colors technically still change, but they don't actually tell you anything useful anymore.
Zane/Cordi (Scripti)
He can still choose which voiceline to use when his string is pulled, either by himself or someone else. The problem is that his normal speech is completely gone, so every conversation has to be built out of those preset phrases. He has more control than a typical pull-string toy, but he's still working with a very limited script.
PIXAL/Wynda (Evil Wynda)
Evil Wynda doesn't need to be wound up anymore and is always active. However, turning her key now triggers a preset action instead of basic activation. Each twist forces her into a specific action regardless of what she was trying to do before. It's less "starting her up" and more "temporarily hijacking her controls."
currently watching: Started True Blood recently with @molotovcockteasee!
current obsession: Trails Crossbell arc..... forever I think.
currently reading: December Park by Ronald Malfi, Small Town Horror by Ronald Malfi, and Where the Dead Wait by Ally Wilkes, and She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan!
currently working on: Chipping away at my current Randy/Lloyd fic a little each day as I am able! They make me sooo happy ;u; I'm really satisfied with it so far aside from all the editing I have to do once I'm done haah...
last google search: A search for a github repository for one of our Cobblemon side mods (there isn't a public repository </3, but I fixed the issue we ran into another way thankfully).
tags: @almoststedytimetravel, @itsmahou, @misandrynistic, @paparoach, @fury-brand, @wait-still-rendering, @strangeauthor, @rikanmiuki, @ojamayellow and @nero-the-dumbass! aahhh and anyone else that would like to play! 💛
Last song: Cold Open by John Vtu- I mean Rin Penrose.
Currently watching: I basically never watch anything of my own will, so I guess it's Detective Conan w/ you I suppose (semester can't end soon enough)
Current obsession: yeah also the Crossbell Arc. Though, I know I'm going to have danganronpa episode when 2x2 comes out and also I know Persona 4's coming back in a big way next year....
Currently reading: Our Missing Hearts by Celeste Ng, also finally finishing a fic I picked up, like, 3 years ago, A Book of Most Curious Letters by Lumailia (a fire emblem awakening fic, chrobin, enemies to lovers. which I don't normally go for but it's really good!)
Currently working on: My unit plan assignment for one of my classes, while the Pokémon AU is what's at the front of my long fic crop rotation (chapter 3 Zero so we finally get to see KeA and writing from the perspective of Randy's stupid fucking cat is so fun.............)
Last google search: "what is 7 am pt in nzst" The answer is 2 am and I have an eight am class tomorrow. Will I make bad decisions? Jury's out!
Tags: (I don't think I can get to ten with this but...) @sieglinde-freud @soppstop @croptoptux @naeurisblog @puzzledemigod
Currently Watching: Every video on the Bricks and Minifigs controversy I can find.
Current Obsession: Dark Deity 2! I burned myself out on Trails again, so I am playing DD2 while I focus on IRL stuff and Cosmere fanfic. For those not in the know, DD2 is a turn-based strategy RPG inspired by Gameboy Advance era Fire Emblem. Very fun!
Currently Reading: The Bright and Breaking Sea by Chloe Neill. It's heterosexual pirates in a magical Britain AU. Not my usual cup of steeped leaf water but really enjoyable nonetheless.
Currently Working On: Prepping to move out, writing fanfic, and remembering to hang out in person with friends
Currently Watching: A bunch of cast interviews for the show mentioned below :)
Current Obsession: Probably Interview with the Vampire! Binged seasons 1 and 2 over the past week and absolutely loved it loll. "Memory is a monster"..... agghh it hits so hard
Currently Reading: My third reread of TWoK is well underway, I'm a little bit into Lolita (although I am very much taking my time with this one), I started the original Interview With the Vampire book a few days ago, and I am listening to Barrayar via audio (CORDELIA NAISMITH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Ahem. :)
Currently Working On: The Leras fanfic, my Spanish (which is extremely poor), and a research project on a little history behind queer identity :)
Last Google search: "TOMORA concert" (they are not coming anywhere near me unfortunately. alas </3)
Tags: @mageglassess @tinkleshnitz @jochi-the-veristithaylen-baker @mightymo63 @flamesong-the-mysterious @burrbeast @inolienkiki @just-a-v01d @opo55omrevolution @spellbound037 if you guys are interested! and as usual anyone reading this who I didn't tag who wants to :)
Last Song: The Old Religion - Florence & The Machine
Currently Watching: The Warcraft movie, much to my chagrin
Current Obsession: The Cosmere, World of Warcraft (you can shame me it’s ok)
Currently Reading: The Dragonlance series (do not read this. I am more committed to the bit than I recommend you be), rereading the Stormlight Archive and Tress of the Emerald Sea
Currently Working On: Listing every character’s kill count in the Stormlight Archive, sewing a Kalak cosplay, screaming into the void, farming reputation in WoW
Last Google Search: Basic multiplication because I am lazy.
Tags: uhhhhh I don't know enough people for this, lol, @stew4, @basket-of-radiants, @wolfiafan10
Currently Watching: Nothing as of right now, but I just finished watching everything Steven Universe related
Current Obsession: Searching For A World That Doesn’t Exist, quit while you can that shit’ll kill you
Currently Reading: The King in Yellow by Robert W. Chambers. also quit that shit while you can, that shit’ll kill you too
Currently Working On: Catching up on Japanese homework, working out a high school plan, planning out the logistics of a Hastur cosplay
Last Google Search: Webttore autism face
Tags: idk many people sooooo @reiayanamiisbestgirl @snezhnayain-carrot-top @wraithoftragedy sorry to anyone else in the server I can’t think of everyone’s users rn
current obsession: uuuh. uuuuuhhhhh. like a few days ago it was lotr and now that's sort of leaving i fear 😔
currently reading: whatever i can find on ao3 💔
currently working on: 3 pieces of art aaand in theory (again) a fic!! also 2 separate google docs i've decided it would be Super Fun (lie) to do
last google search: sørvágsvatn
tags: uhhh. @the-abandoned-director (<- I'M SO SORRY i forgot the url of the blog you moved to), @cincincinnanom , @ashyd-shy @purpleghostbiscuits022 , @viiviidlights , @c00kietin , @honorary-fool & anyone else who wants to!! apologies if i tagged someone who doesn't want to be tagged please kill me w hammers if so /j
This is definitely not a vent 😁 Btw, inspired by “Raining in Manila” by Lola Amour
The rain started sometime around midnight.
Jay only knew because it woke him up.
Not from the sound.
From habit.
For years, whenever storms rolled through Ninjago City, Cole would end up half on top of him by morning. Sometimes because he got cold. Sometimes because thunderstorms made him sleepy. Sometimes for no reason at all.
Jay used to wake up with a warm weight pressed against his back.
Now he woke up reaching toward an empty half of the bed.
His hand met cold sheets.
And suddenly, he was wide awake.
The rain tapped steadily against the windows.
Jay rolled onto his back and stared at the ceiling.
It had been almost a year.
Almost a year since Cole left for art school.
Almost a year since they'd promised it'd be okay.
Almost a year since they'd promised they wouldn't let the distance change anything.
And maybe it hadn't.
Or maybe it had.
Jay didn't know anymore.
He didn't know a lot of things these days.
He didn't know who Cole ate lunch with.
He didn't know if he'd changed his hairstyle.
He didn't know if he still hummed while painting.
He didn't know what his room looked like now.
He didn't know if he still preferred coffee over tea.
He didn't know which professors he hated.
He didn't know which classmates made him laugh.
He didn't know who was taking the pictures Cole occasionally sent.
He didn't know.
And First Master… Weren't boyfriends supposed to know those things?
His phone sat on the nightstand.
Silent.
He picked it up anyway.
Their chat.
Three days ago.
A picture of paint-covered fingers.
Cole: Sorry babe, Wi-Fi sucks again.
And before that.
Two days.
Before that.
Four.
Before that.
Five.
The messages weren't shorter because Cole loved him less.
Jay knew that.
He knew.
Assignments.
Time zones.
Terrible dorm Wi-Fi.
Exhaustion.
Life.
And because Jay knew, he couldn't even be angry.
How could he?
How could he get upset when every time Cole called, he looked exhausted?
How could he complain when Cole apologized before even saying hello?
How could he demand more when he knew his boyfriend was already giving everything he had?
So Jay stopped asking.
Stopped expecting immediate replies.
Stopped double texting.
Sometimes he'd send a message and get an answer twelve hours later.
Sometimes a day.
Sometimes two.
And every single time, Jay replied immediately.
Not because he wanted to pressure him.
Just because he'd already been waiting.
Always waiting.
He wondered if Cole knew that.
Probably not.
Jay never said anything.
He didn't want his messages to become obligations.
Didn't want his name popping up on Cole's phone to feel like another assignment.
So he'd send:
Good luck on your project 💙
And if there was no answer?
Fine.
Goodnight 😘💙
And if there was no answer?
Fine.
Hope you ate something 💙💙💙
And if there was no answer?
Fine.
He could wait.
He loved him.
He could wait.
Right?
Rain battered the windows harder.
Jay sat up and wrapped the blanket tighter around himself.
He wondered if it was raining where Cole was.
He wondered if Cole was cold.
He wondered if the world felt darker there when it stormed.
He wondered if Cole was lying awake too.
He wondered if he missed something.
Not Ninjago City.
Not home.
Something smaller.
Something stupid.
Something shaped like Jay.
A missing piece he left behind.
Did he ever reach across the bed and realize nobody was there?
Did he ever laugh at something and instinctively turn his head before remembering?
Did he ever think, “Jay would love this”?
Did he miss him physically?
Or was missing him through a screen enough now?
Jay hated himself for wondering.
Because he trusted him.
Because he loved him.
Because he knew Cole loved him.
But some nights…
Some nights the distance whispered ugly things.
What if Cole liked it there too much?
What if he made friends?
Better friends.
What if opportunities appeared after graduation?
What if he stayed?
What if he didn't want to come home?
What if one day he called and smiled sadly?
What if he said, “I'm sorry, Jay.”
What if he didn't mean to hurt him?
What if life just happened?
What if Cole chose that city?
What if he chose his dream?
And what if Jay wasn't enough reason to leave?
Jay immediately buried his face in his hands.
“No, no, no...”
He hated those thoughts.
Because Cole deserved his dreams.
He deserved success.
He deserved happiness.
Jay wanted him to succeed.
He wanted galleries.
Exhibitions.
Everything.
Even if it took him away.
Especially if it took him away.
That was love.
Wasn't it?
But First Master.
He hoped Cole was still the same.
When he came back.
If he came back.
The thought alone made his chest hurt.
Almost a year.
People changed in a year.
They had to.
New friends.
New routines.
New memories.
Memories Jay wasn't part of.
Would Cole still laugh at his dumb jokes?
Still steal fries off his plate?
Still curl against his back when it rained?
Still call him "Bluebell" with that sleepy voice?
Would they still fit together?
Or would they have to learn each other again?
Jay didn't know.
And maybe that was what scared him most.
Not losing Cole.
But losing the version of him he knew.
Their anniversary was next week.
Their first apart.
No dinner.
No movie.
No cuddling afterward.
No waking up together the next day.
Maybe a call.
If the Wi-Fi cooperated.
If their schedules lined up.
If.
Always if.
Jay laughed softly.
Then wiped his eyes.
He remembered their last anniversary.
Rain outside.
Cole wrapped around him from behind.
“You're warm,” he'd mumbled sleepily.
Jay remembered laughing.
Remembered Cole's arms around his waist.
Remembered feeling safe.
Remembered feeling like he'd always have somebody watching his back.
And now?
Now there was nobody.
Nobody to hold.
Nobody to complain about the rain with.
Nobody to fight over blankets with.
Nobody to cuddle when thunderstorms rolled through the city.
Just rain.
And an empty bed.
Jay hoped it would stop soon.
Not because he hated storms.
Because every time it rained, it reminded him of how cold empty sheets could be.
His phone remained silent.
And somewhere far away, his boyfriend was living a life Jay barely knew.
Maybe he was happy.
Maybe he was sad.
Maybe he was crying.
Maybe he was laughing.
Maybe he was cold.
Maybe the world felt dark when it rained there too.
Maybe he missed something.
Maybe there was a piece of himself that he'd accidentally left in Ninjago City.
Jay didn't know.
He hadn't physically shared happiness with Cole in months.
Hadn't physically shared sadness with him either.
Not celebrations.
Not failures.
Not tears.
Not laughter.
Not really.
Only screens.
Only voices.
Only memories.
And all Jay could do now…
All he'd been doing for months…
Was gaze at pictures.
At videos.
At old messages.
At a face behind a screen.
And hope.
Hope that when Cole came home…
If he came home…
He'd still smile the same.
Hope that somewhere, under another rainy sky, Cole was missing something too.
Something small.
Something stupid.
Something shaped like him.
Because First Master.
Jay still missed the piece of himself that had left with Cole.
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