active december 2020 // tw ed // pro-recovery

just wrote a 13 pages suicide note in my phone lmao

i don't want to actually unalive myself rn but things happen i guess :")

big tw!

i hate myself

i wish i wasnt like this

it wouldnt have happened if i were skinnier

why is it always like this?

what did i do to deserve this?

why are they so kind to me?

why am i such an awful person?

i'm so sorry

i too wish i wasnt like this

but its too late now

i cant give up now

i just want to feel skinny

please tell me you noticed

tell me you actually care

but why would you care about a fat ass like me

you will care once i'm skinny?

right?

i'm faking it so much

i could be happy if i wanted

some people are actually jealous of me

how can i be so selfish?

day 24

idk what happened today :")

breakfast : 0cal

lunch : 172cal

dinner : 100cal

burned : 184cal

day 23

i rlly hate running

but

OMG

i burned so much today

breakfast : 0cal

lunch : 100cal

dinner : 227cal

burned : 1155

lowkey wanna make some friends on here :")

day 22

today was,,,, depressing :)

but at least i know me ed is back now no doubts on that

breakfast : 0cal

lunch : 201cal

dinner : 187cal

burned : 237 cal