partially-managed mental illness is so fucking funny i'll be sitting around doing my job and suddenly think "wow i hate myself" and immediately get confused because, like, that's not TRUE! i love myself so much. who are you to talk to me like that

hey is anyone else sick of having to adapt to horrible conditions over and over again

oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

i hate getting attached to someone i wanna grow on you like moss not wait for a fucking text back this sucks

oh so we’re all insane with attachment issues, nice

I’d love to relax but it’s just not realistic

everything is that deep to me because i have this big empty hole in my heart

It's fun being queer and weird and unconventional until you remember you live in a society

i havent done anything or been anyone ever

i think there is something fundamentally wrong with me but that's okay

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

im going to fix my entire life

When?

Like Um. later

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do