Loner

I’m not even mad or sad anymore, I’m just disappointed.

I have never been asked if I was okay. No one has ever checked up on me. I know now that no one truly cares that much. If they did ask, they cont really want to know the real answer. It's cool because I don't think I've ever been okay unless I fake it. I've been taking it a lot again recently.

I am sick of being friends with people who don't give a shit to me.

Pain changes people. It makes them think more. Trust less. It makes them want to protect whatever heart they have left.

I feel betrayed and hurt, but I’m used to it so whatever.

If I'm being honest, I'm getting sick of friends being friends with people who knowingly hurt and backstabbed me. Like, I've told you the shit that these people have said and done and they be like "well, that's messed up, but they never did that to me soooo...." Bro, if you told me someone betrayed you in anyway like that, I'd cut them off in a sec. Two reasons: one, that shit is not okay and I'd be a shitty person for allowing that in my life. Two, I wouldn't want that person to turn around and do that to me someday as well. Just saying.

Why would I bother trying to fix a one-sided “friendship” that was clearly never valued in the first place?

Is a loyal friendship really to much to ask for ?!

Imagine finally getting the courage to tell someone that they hurt you and how badly, and that person is not even able to say sorry and goes to play the victim, imagine that. Wish nobody do the same to you and , oh, fuck you.