headcrab

im going to LOSE IT i dont even know why. im not the mad guy. i mean i am but not SERIOUSLY mad. i just like to complain im never Upset i dont do that. i can count on one hand how many times ivr been upset. why am i upset. why am i having an awful time i dont DO that!! i dont!! losing my MIND (haha my mind) out here and i cannot say i wish anything will happen or i WILL jinx myself and die

trying to not be affected ever by anything and just doing things to Not Think and then the Headache sets in and u just know ur fucked

sposed to be a ok with my headmates not likin me but i think people out of sys dont like me either and i think just everybody doesnt like me. supposedddd. to be ok with tha.t not sposed to care. n i dont care. doesnt bother me i dont wanna do this whole host thing anymore

if everyone would just cut me off and tell me to die that would be great i would appreciate it thank you

popeye biscuitblueberry.

coming out of really short dormancy has felt weirder than the years long dormancy i went through . our life has changed in such little time that it's harder to grasp . i don't hate it , it's still our life and i care about it and the people within it , but it still doesn't feel like i'm fully there .