what a fucking. shitty day
so yesterday after the shift i confronted the guy/failed situationship/whatever you wanna call it and simply asked him: do you wanna fuck, no strings attached, or not?
he came up with a bunch of excuses. i said if you're not attracted to me anymore just say so, i won't get offended, but id rather know so that i can stop thinking of you like that
and he goes it's not that, but i gotta think about it
think about it?? what the fuck? you either wanna fuck me (like 85% of men on the planet) or you don't
well we proceeded to text until three am AGAIN last night
today i looked my best. i swear i was gorgeous. i saw the eyes of some of my male colleagues POP OUT when they saw me and i don't say it just because. i put that extra effort into my looks that makes a difference
he barely looked my way (still he was friendly) and was busy texting some of his other girls while i was trying to get him to see how pretty i was. this is as humiliating as it gets i guess
not to mention i made SUCH A STUPID mistake today at work and i won't be able to sleep until i know someone senior fixed it. im so fucking stupid. and ugly although only in the eyes of the man i want
now i have three days off and i know ill spend them crying
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