Hello! So on par with it becoming fall again, my love for writing, and Appetence, has been renewed. Yay! But because of this, Iโve been occupied with doing a re-read to reacquaint myself with the story again before posting any new chapters.ย
That being said, itโs been roughly five years since I first started writing Appetence and have realized some of the older chapters need attention ๐ Mainly reworking awkward phrases, fixing grammar, breaking up text blocks, etc. However, in some areas, the work is a bit more extensive. Iโve been expanding on bits of world building, reinforcing foreshadowing elements that werenโt as apparent as I initially thought, givingย more depth to certain characters, etc. At the same time, I acknowledge not everyone will want to do a reread. So that's where this post comes in!ย
As I'm making my way through, I'll be updating this with a quick list of any notable changes made to each chapter. And of course, nothing that I am adding or changing will alter the basic plot in any substantial way. This is mostly just to make the world of Appetence and its characters a bit richer.
As always, thanks for reading! ๐
All chapters: Changed 'Harri' to 'Harrie' and 'Harriet' as her legal name (my brain suddenly no longer liked how I originally spelled Harri, go figure ๐คทโโ๏ธ)
Ch 1: Added in: Wormtail is now dead; more snake characteristics given to Vee + expanded on his first impressions of Harrie.
Ch 4: Altered Vee's speech to make his aspirations more clear. Sirius reveals that Vee is going by 'Marvolo' and is a new politician bidding to restructure the government. Added in Ministryโs response [Scrimegour calling an emergency vote of confidence]
Ch 6: Added in; Vee reminiscing about his time as a wraith. Expanded on the horcrux absorption ritual + how it affected Harrie and Vee. Added in lore building on Nagini being a golem Vee created.
Ch 7: Changed last section to be fully from Snape's POV.
Ch 8: Added in: more background to Harrie's thoughts on diary!Tom + her crush on him. New scene of Harrie unknowingly giving Vee permission to call her by her nickname, rather than her full name.
Ch 9: Changed POV section so Vee sees himself through Harrie's eyes and is testing their bond to read her thoughts.
Ch 10: Added in: more context to Dumbledore losing his power over the Wizengamot and the corruption happening; Lucius buying off Wizengamot members to secure votes; Dumbledore spending the summer campaigning + trying to persuade others to take a stand.
Ch 15: Fixed timeline continuity issue. Expansion on the concept of the Dark/Light cycle and Magic choosing pairs to be a balance. Added in: more of Dumbledore's inner-conflict concerning the prophecy; Harrie's anger lashing out physically; Dumbledore piecing together Harrie being tied to Voldemort.
Ch 16: Added in: Harrie fretting over potentially poisoning Draco.
Ch 17: Expanded more on the extent of Harrieโs fame and the repercussions of it on her mental health + self-image. ย
Ch 18: Added in: Dumbledore extracting Slughorn's memories off-screen to explain how he figures out Harrie is a horcrux; Harrie deciding to bargain with Vee for more time + the horcrux encouraging/possessing her when asking Dumbledore what a horcrux is.
Chp 20: Added in Harrieโs scar bleeding; Severus giving her a handkerchief; New conversation between Snape and Dumbledore before they begin fighting.
Ch 21: Added in: reference to Veeโs efforts to hunt down the Elder Wand via Grindelwald and Gregorovitch; Dumbledore taunting Vee with the prophecy; Vee mentioning he'd set up memory-altering wards around Hogwarts.
Ch 25: Added in; more banter between Vee and Harrie.
Ch 26: Added in; scene of Harrie trying to goad Vee into killing her
Ch 27: Added in: more to Lucius POV
Ch 29: Added in; Snape mistaking Harrieโs magic for Veeโs +ย recalling Dumbledoreโs insistence Harrieโs death will bring about Veeโs downfall + pondering extent of their connection via the curse mark.
Ch 30: Added in; Vee entertaining keeping Harrie asleep; him experimenting with how the bond works + making its effects on him more apparent and less one-sided.
Ch 31: Added in; New Zivvy scene; scene of Harrie feeling the parselmagic from Salazarโs journal; a new memory of Aunt Petunia; Narcissa reacting to Harrieโs eyes as being unnatural (playing up Harrieโs status as a horcrux).
Ch 32: Added in; Harrie having a panic attack thinking about the graveyard; Vee reacting to Fenrir's request and punishing him more violently; Harrie first seeing the Elder Wand in Vee's possession.
Ch 33: Added in; Harrieโs despair affecting Vee more via the bond. New scenes: Harrie spilling champagne and getting Veeโs attention; more descriptions of the party; new conversation with Draco.
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Do you have more snippets of Chapter 69? ๐ซฃ๐ซฃIโm so excited for the next big parts of this story!! Iโve been a reader since 2020!
Hi there!
First off, it's lovely to hear from you again! ๐ฅบ It always puts a smile on my face whenever my OG readers reach out to let me know they're still excited about Appetence ๐ Also, I can't believe itโ 2020. Damn!! It feels like just yesterday that I posted the first chapter ๐ญ Truly, the whole thing has been such journey, and I want to say thank you for your continued support ๐
Second, of course! I'd be happy to share some snippets. I thought I had another one up, but I may have accidentally deleted it? ๐ Oh well asdfghjk. I'll repost that bit, along with one or two other new snippets. They'll be under the cut, just in case anyone wants to avoid spoilers!
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The darkness in her mind shifted, shimmeredโ brightened into colours and shapes until they were back in her dorm room at Hogwarts:
It was late in the evening, the glow cast by the mounted sconces soft and inviting. The bedroom was comfortably warm in her memories, despite the chill of the season; a drowsy, lulling sort of heat. And there she was, in all of her wide-eyed, gangly-limbed, twelve-year-old glory. Knobby knees drawn up to her chest, the curtains about her bed closedโ a small gap left open, just so she could keep one watchful eye out for any who might dare to intrudeโ she was busy scribbling away in the diary propped open on her thighs, a bashful smile plastered on her face.ย
Although present-her wasnโt sure which conversation this particular memory contained, she figured it didnโt matter. Not really. Not when they were mostly all the same. The same routine, the same smile, the same eagerness. It was hours and hours spent on conversations of little substanceโ rapid back and forth questions and answers equally traded, covering the otherโs likes, dislikes, interests, dreams, wishes, and so forth. There wasnโt one topic off-limits between them, every minute detail laid bare and open. Heart and soul, offered up in ink without a second thought.ย
Obsession.ย
In hindsight, she could see the signs of itโ the marks it left behind on someone so young.ย
The isolation: the fact she was the only one in their dorm right now, all of her friends undoubtedly downstairs in the common room, playing chess or gobstones.ย
The bruising shadows under her eyes: a betrayal of how long she stayed up each night, talking to the diary.ย
The near-manic gleam in her gaze: a spark of something worshipful, as if each answer she was given was a gift. A revelation.
โYou were my first real crush, you know,โ she said, her voice surprisingly calm as she watched her younger-selfโs cheeks flush. โI know itโs probably delusional of me to think so, but I liked to imagine I meant something to you, too.โ
Without waiting for Voldemort to respond, the memory faded, transformedโ blurred into a new scene.
howโs the new chapter coming along? ๐ I hope your feeling better as well! x
Hi!
Thanks for checking inโ I appreciate it ๐ฅบ๐ The chapter is definitely coming along ๐ I have finished and completely edited a good chunk, so there's been progress!
Unfortunately though, I've been going through the absolute ringer with my health lately and my energy has been in short supply ๐ฅฒ Which, of course, has translated into me not being online as much as I normally am. So I'm sorry it took me as long as it did to get back to you! But just know that I do see your messages and I appreciate all of the support and love you've been showing Appetence ๐๐
Thanks for responding. For chapter 69 there is no need for editing at all . 21k words. I'll definitely read it. If it's too much can't u split it into chapters. Please ๐
Hi there!
You're so welcome! Also thanks for letting me know your stance and that you're okay with it being that long! ๐
"No need for editing"โ oh how I wish that was the case ๐ Alas, the demon in me is a perfectionist ๐ญ But in regards to splitting it: yes, that's probably what I'll end up doing!
Unfortunately, I haven't really touched Appetence in over a week because I've somehow come down with the worst cold ever ๐ญ So once I get some energy backโ and my brain feels more like a brain again and less like mushโ I'll be able to devote time to a final read through and get it posted.
Anyway, thanks for the message and for your continued support! I appreciate it ๐
with all due respect maโam we would be delighted to read your unebetaโed intensely sleep deprived seven course meal draft ๐ซถ๐ป
"Intensely sleep deprived"โ call me out, why don't you? I'm kidding, but you know me too well at this point ๐๐ญ In my defense though, some of my best ideas come to me at 3 am when Appetence decides to haunt me, rather than let me sleep ๐คทโโ๏ธ
But thank you ๐ฅบ You're too sweet! It means a lot that you're happy to read whatever I end up posting, regardless of the length ๐๐
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Ok, ok but in all seriousness I struggle to even write 1k and youโre over here writing 21k??? I bow down to you queen. I also have no idea who would complain if we got 21k in the next chapter lol. Not me and Iโd be on the front lines fighting if we do have complainers ๐ค. Any way enjoy this meme
Elysian-drops: mentions the current word count is 21k
Me:
NOT THE SQUIDWARD MEME, PLEASE ๐๐ญ Oh my god ahaha. โMy life is yoursโ ๐๐ Iโm DEAD. Your entire comment has me dead.
Also, itโs the demons, unfortunately ๐ญ I swear they possess me. I black out while writing and next thing I know, Iโm coming out of a trance to a monstrosity of a chapter that I know Iโll have to edit laterโ and I regret everything.ย
Though to be fair to this chapter, I was asked numerous times to write Vee's POV on what he all saw regarding Harrie and Draco and the wardsโ and it got a bit... intense asdfghjk.
But thank you ๐ฅบ Itโs reassuring to hear that you wouldnโt mind reading through it all (and that would you fight the complainers on my behalf ๐๐).ย
Thanks for giving me a good laugh! You officially made my day ๐
Hi. I really like your writing. When will u update again? Is your rewriting over? I can't wait for chapter 69 of Appetence. I'm sure it will be just as good as the rest . I'm waiting eagerly for it. Good luck ๐ ๐ โจ๏ธ ๐ ๐
Hi there!
Thank you so much!! I'm flattered you like my writing and are looking forward to more ๐๐ฅบ
The edits aren't quite done yet, I'm afraidโ but I am making steady progress!
As for Chapter 69 and when it'll be posted, welp. It's been a thing and I'm starting to see why people have Beta readers ๐๐ To give you an idea, this is where the word count is currently at, as of this morning. Yeah...... I desperately need to edit it down and cut some things out,ย because I fully acknowledge 21k for a single chapter is probably too much of a time commitment for most people. However, I am terrible at that part of editing. I just get too attached to my words ๐
So, yeah ๐ I'm sorry I couldn't give you a more concrete answer. But I appreciate the ask and your continued support + patience!! ๐
Have you ever considered writing your own book someday? because I have read Appetence and the writing is seriously amazing. The start with the โironyโ theme(you had me hooked from the start) and how youโve managed the politics, the Tom dialouges, the tension, the Tom and harrie dynamic. Oh itโs all SO SO good and literally my favourite Tom riddle fanfiction ever. I could literally go on and on about your beautiful writing style aaaah๐ญ
Hi there!
Asdfhfjdk you're too sweet ๐ญ ๐ Thank you so much!! I'm really flattered you think my writing is amazing and that Appetence is your favourite Tom Riddle fanfic (seriously, my heart because oh my god??๐ญ๐) Everything about your comment has me blushing.
Though to answer your question, I've actually been working on two novels that I'm hoping to one day get published (fingers crossed). Obviously I have quite a bit on my plate in terms of writing, so I don't know when they'll be finished. But between Appetence + its edits, and the copious amount of other Tomarry WIPS I've been working on, I've been rather occupied ๐
But seriously, thank you for the kind words and for the support! It means quite a bit to me that you have such a high opinion of my writing ๐ ๐ฅบ
I was wondering I know there is a tag saying magically powerful Harry Potter. So Iโm sorry if this sounds stupid of me but will Harrie and Tom be equals? Like in power?
Hi there!
First off, thank you!! I'm thrilled you're enjoying Appetence so far ๐
Secondly, not stupid at all! I've talked quite a bit about the power issue before in some older posts/about Harrie and Vee becoming equals, and how that may look in the future. So if you want to dig around, there's some longer posts detailing my thoughts.
Though to answer your question now, to a degree yes. They will eventually be more matched in magical power than they currently are. Vee has always acknowledged Harrie's raw potential, even in the beginning chapters, and she's been slowly tapping into it, as evidenced by their recent duel and the wards. She's definitely a powerhouse in her own right. The only caveat, of course, is that Vee has the legendary Elder Wand and years of experience on her. So there will always be that aspect which gives him slightly more of an edgeโ although this isn't to say Harrie wouldn't be able to hold her own against him. For instance, going back to their duel, she does manage to disarm himโ albeit with his yew wand. But still, that's pretty crazy when you think about it.
The thing though is that, by the very nature of their relationship, there will be always be some sort of power imbalance between them. Vee is the original soul and Harrie is his horcrux, after all. Not to mention the whole political aspect and Vee's power in that sense vs Harrie's. I have longer posts talking about this exact issue, but yeah. Given Appetence's story and the context of their relationship, there is no feasible way to fully erase the power imbalance, but only lessen it, if that makes sense?
Thanks for the ask! Hopefully I managed to answer your question ๐
Thank you for keeping me sane throughout my exams with Appetence
(ps: YOU ACTUALLY DESERVE THE WHOLE WORLD BECAUSE OMG? THE WRITING IS IMMACULATE AND YOU HAD ME GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET OVER EVERYTHING TOM DID, I LOVE THIS FIC WITH ALL MY HEART AND I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE FOR WRITING IT)
Hi there!
Aw, you're welcome!ย ๐ฅนย I'm glad Appetence could help keep you sane (I know exam time can be incredibly stressful) and I wish nothing but the best for you! Hopefully you'll get some downtime now to relax ๐ It's well-deserved!
Oh my god, thoughโ you're so sweet ๐ฅน ๐ Thank you so much!!! This was such a lovely thing to wake up to ๐ญ Don't mind me being the kermit heart meme over here, blushing and smiling asdfghjk.
I'm flattered you enjoyed my writing ("immaculate"โ pls, my heart ๐ญ) and were swooning over Tom ๐ฅน There's no better compliment, truly ๐
Thanks again for making my morning!! ๐ It was exactly what I needed today.
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Just wondering! Who are your top 10 HP characters? (Iโm pretty sure we all know top twoโฆ(?))
Hi!
Ooooh, this is a hard question ๐ซฃ Especially since I like a few characters more in the books than in the moviesโ and some more in the movies than in the books. And I only get 10?! Damn. Okay. Let's see, in no particular order of favourites (except for the top two spots, because I'm biased):
Harry Potter (I think this one is pretty obvious ahaha)
2. Tom Riddle/Voldemort (Again, no shocker there)
3. Sirius Black (especially book!Sirius because this man is so morally grey and I love him for it)
4. Hermione Granger (both movie and book Hermione are amazingโ but I love the level of unhinged that book!Hermione possesses)
5. Ron Weasley (albeit more book!Ron than movie!Ron. Movie!Ron sometimes pisses me offโ but that's not his fault. He was done dirty by the screen writers ๐ญ)
6. Draco Malfoy (weirdly I like him more in the movies. I think Felton did an amazing job portraying the foil Draco was meant to be to Harry's character, especially from the Half-Blood Prince onward)
7. Severus Snape (movie!Snape, Alan Rickman. Need I say more? ๐)
8. Newt Scamander (I know he's technically from the Fantastic Beasts franchise, but I love him all the same. He's so fun to watch, and I'm currently writing another Tomarry fic where he becomes a prominent side character)
9. Albus Dumbledore (a bit controversial in the Tomarry world, but I like Dumbledore from the stance of a complex, highly flawed, and manipulative character. His machinations are really interesting to me and to see how he justifies them in the end. So I think he deserves a place on the list, even if he's not technically a 'favourite'โ in a positive senseโ for me)
10. Narcissa Malfoy (admittedly, this might come from fanfic biasโ because you guys know I love writing Narcissa. But even in the books and movies, I have an appreciation for her. She doesn't appear that often, but I still love her interactions with Draco and the lengths she goes to protect her son. Plus, she straight up lied to Vee. That takes some guts ๐)
This was so hard to only pick 10 ๐ญ But looking at my list, I can't say it's too surprising, given the cast of Appetence ahaha.
Hi Elysian ๐ just wanted to hop in and ask how your edits are going? Have you made much progress? What has it felt like going back and re-reading your work?
this will definitely go up there as one my favourite pieces of fiction Iโve read in a loonnggg times ๐ฉท Iโm on tenter hooks waiting for a new chapter. Hope you have a fantastic 2026; and hopefully we may see a new chapter this new year ๐๐ (and yes I know I always comment on your chapters on ao3! ๐ Iโm just too much of a fan!)
Hi there!
Before I get to your questions, I want to say to everyone that if I haven't answered your messages yet, I'm sorry! My inbox has gotten rather unwieldy lately and a quite a few have been buried ๐ However, please know that I appreciate every single one and that they bring me an indescribable amount of joy! I'll be trying my best to get as many answered as I can ๐
The edits are definitely coming along! ๐ I've been having quite a bit of fun working on them whenever I have the chance to do so. In terms of progress, there's been a lot recentlyโ thanks for reminding me that I need to update my pinned post with said changes (I forgot that existed ๐ My bad adsdfhjk). As for the next chapter, things are also shaping up. A few weeks ago, I ended up losing ~3k words because my autosave glitched ๐ญ There was some emotional damage when I realised what had happened and I needed to take some time to chill out ๐๐ญ Ya girl was staring into the void for a bit asdfghjdsk.
As for what it's felt like going back to re-read, it's been surreal. When I'm writing from chapter to chapter, it's easy to get caught up in focusing only on what's happening in that particular chapter. So it's been a journey to go back, get a bigger scope of things, and see the developments since Ch 1. Re-reading has given me a better appreciation of each character's development and has been letting me see where they still need to improve. But take Vee, for example. Can I sayโ oh my god?? I forgot how big of an asshole he was in the beginning. Just major asshole ๐ Don't get me wrong, this isn't to say he still isn't oneโ but I like to think he has improved. I mean, his previous level of callousness towards Harrieโ how short his fuse was, how often he physically vented his anger towards her(don't even get me started on him choking her in Ch. 26), etcโ to him now showing regret for his actions? Remarkable. Outstanding ๐
And Harrie, too. She's grown so much and has become more confident in herselfโ and that's really clear in how she's been acting and defining her motives lately. This is why I'm so excited for this next chapter. Not to toot my own horn, but I think it just puts into relief the sheer degree of change both of them have undergone. And re-reading has given me all that more of appreciation for how this story is panning out ๐
Also, I just want to say you're too sweet ๐ฅน๐ I'm always so touched to hear how much love you hold for Appetence, and how you're always looking forward to more! Your comments and messages never fail to put a smile on my face ๐
Iโm like 20 chapters into appetence and it is SO SO good and definitely my fav tom riddle fic till date. I have been binge reading and pretty sure im gonna finish it all up pretty soon and since there are only 68 chaps posted I wonder if it will be completed? and ofc no pressure! Your writing is amazing and my week has genuinely been going amazing because of the fic I LOVE ITTT
Hi!
Oh, wowโ thank you so much ๐ฅน๐ญ ๐ I'm kicking my feet over here knowing how much you're loving Appetence! Really, it always makes my day to hear people are enjoying my work and my take on Tom ๐
As for your question on whether or not Appetence will be completed? Absolutely. Now, when will that be? I can't say ๐ญ๐ I'm unfortunately the type of person who is at the whims of my Museโ which means I go through frenzied periods of writing multiple chapters at once, and then having to recover because I did not really sleep at all during said period. And even worse, I sometimes write out of order (for example, I have chapters 71, 74-75, and a few unnumbered chapters already heavily drafted ๐ ). On top of that, I'm working on some of other WIPs that I want to get posted this year, too. Basically, my writing process is โจchaoticโจ and doesn't lend itself to structure.
So yeah. Tl;dr Appetence will be finished at some point (I have toโ I mean, I have dreams about this fic and it haunts me at every waking moment ๐ซฃ).
Thanks for the lovely comment and ask! I appreciate it ๐
The PR team meme is sending me because as somebody who interned briefly in the field you have no idea how we sometimes want to yell at ridiculous requests ๐ญ๐ญ like bitch you put YOURSELF in that mess this is beyond our pay grade ๐ญ๐
Hi!
I'm sorry, I shouldn't laugh because that absolutely sounds like an awful timeโ but I'm dying at the last bit ๐๐
Like seriously, all I can picture is Lucius having the same thought process and just crying a little on the inside every damn day. Because you know that man is chronically STRESSED from always having to spin Vee's antics in a positive light ๐๐ญ And honestly? I almost feel bad for him ๐ซฃ Almost being the key word. It's more of a punishment, really, than a reward (and you know that Vee just revels in seeing Lucius struggle, the sadist he is ahaha).
I'm glad though you could laugh at the meme, your personal experience aside ๐
Hi Elysian ๐ just a quick question. How do you picture Harrie? Do you have any fan casts for her or any that come close to how you see her? x
Hello there!
Oh, what a question ๐ Unfortunately, Harrie is a bit hard for me to nail down with a fan cast ๐ Outside of how she's described in the text, it's quite difficult for me to find someone who measures up to my imagination.
That being said, I've definitely seen some fan art that's made me go oooo ๐ Like this one, for example, which is especially fitting for when her eyes flash red under the horcrux's influence. Or this one with the scales (because I admittedly love Harrie's scales, okay ๐).
If you want more realistic pictures, I do have an entire moodboard set up her ahaha. Although, it's mostly just general vibes ๐คทโโ๏ธ
I've also heard some pretty interesting fan casts from other readers! Danielle Rose Russell was a pretty popular one in the comment section, along with Sadie Sink (although she reminds me more of Ginny tbh), Ellie Bamber, and Elle Fanning. So everyone clearly has their own way of envisioning Harrie ahaha. I'm curious: do you have a specific person in mind??
Thanks for the message! Sorry I couldn't give you a more concrete answer ๐ฅฒ
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After my 3rd re-watch of wicked and now I REALLY need an edit of the song "wonderful" with Dumbledore & Tom with Harry as elphaba
The part "you'll make me wonderful" goes SO well because they are both using her no matter how much tom scorns Dumbledore for doing that to harry
Hi!
Oooh! While I've only watched Wicked once, I can absolutely see your vision ๐ The part about both Dumbledore and Tom using Harrie, albeit it for different purposes and in different ways, is so on point! Especially since Tom has been using Harrie's name and fame to solidified his own power + uphold his public image. Truly a "you'll make me wonderful" moment ahaha.
Thanks for sharing! This was such a fun lil insight ๐
After seeing the memes for Appetence I actually restarted to read it again the only problem was it was like 1 in the morning I kept saying one more chapter and Iโm going to sleep when I looked at the clock it was 3:30 but I regret nothing !!!!!!! I just wanted to say I love youโre writing
Asdfgkk ๐ Well, glad to hear the memes inspired you to do a reread!
3:30 am?! ๐ณ๐ซฃ I'm flattered you stayed up that late just to binge Appetenceโ and that you love my writing, of courseโ but damn ๐ That's relatable. Painfully so ahaha. I've also fallen prey to the 'one more chapter' mentality more times than I can count (and, without fail, I suffer for it the next day ๐ญ). Hopefully though, you managed to get some sleep in the end!
Thanks for the message and kind words ๐ I appreciate it!!