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belki de boyle hissediyo olmamin sebebi her an her seyin kontrolum altinda olmasini istiyo olmamdir. yani benim icin en ufak bi planda bozukluk her seyin sonu, bitisi anlamina gelebiliyo ve bu beni cok korkutuyo. karsi taraftan dolayi olan bi sey olsa bi nebze anlayabilirim ama bizzat kendim bu hatalara dusunce ve amacim hicbir zaman oyle olmayinca boyle hissetmeye engel olamiyorum. amacimin bu olmadigini da birisine yeteri kadar aciklayamam cunku hicbir zaman gercekten inandirici gelemez gibi hissediyorum. belki de her seyi cok dusunup cok derin hissediyorumdur ama kalbimin boyle calistigi bilinsin ve her zaman icten oldugumu bilsin istiyorum. nereye kadar o insana ya ben boyle boyle yaptฤฑm ama niyetim bu degildi, beni anlayabiliyorsun degil mi? diฬye ฤฑsrar edebilirsin ki?? her insanin bi yere kadardir sabri ve sevgisi. ben bunlari dusundugum icin bu kadar panik ve anksiyete icerisindeyim zaten. amacim gercekten ona ya da iliskimize zarar vermek olsa asla boyle hissetmem ama oyle olmafigi icin yanlislikla yaptigim her hareket beni ondan 737373 kat uzaklastirip sona bi adim daha yaklastiriyo gibi hissediyorum ama onunlayken asla boyle bi sey hissetmiyorum. boyle bisey olabilecegini dusundurtmuyo bile bana ama benim kafamda hep boyle!!!!! HEP
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i have just realized i can be jealous fiercely and i'm not sure how i can handle it before i go insane (i never knew this about myself...)
let the retrograde end pls. #blamingtheplanets
belki de boyle hissediyo olmamin sebebi her an her seyin kontrolum altinda olmasini istiyo olmamdir. yani benim icin en ufak bi planda bozukluk her seyin sonu, bitisi anlamina gelebiliyo ve bu beni cok korkutuyo. karsi taraftan dolayi olan bi sey olsa bi nebze anlayabilirim ama bizzat kendim bu hatalara dusunce ve amacim hicbir zaman oyle olmayinca boyle hissetmeye engel olamiyorum. amacimin bu olmadigini da birisine yeteri kadar aciklayamam cunku hicbir zaman gercekten inandirici gelemez gibi hissediyorum. belki de her seyi cok dusunup cok derin hissediyorumdur ama kalbimin boyle calistigi bilinsin ve her zaman icten oldugumu bilsin istiyorum. nereye kadar o insana ya ben boyle boyle yaptฤฑm ama niyetim bu degildi, beni anlayabiliyorsun degil mi? diฬye ฤฑsrar edebilirsin ki?? her insanin bi yere kadardir sabri ve sevgisi. ben bunlari dusundugum icin bu kadar panik ve anksiyete icerisindeyim zaten. amacim gercekten ona ya da iliskimize zarar vermek olsa asla boyle hissetmem ama oyle olmafigi icin yanlislikla yaptigim her hareket beni ondan 737373 kat uzaklastirip sona bi adim daha yaklastiriyo gibi hissediyorum ama onunlayken asla boyle bi sey hissetmiyorum. boyle bisey olabilecegini dusundurtmuyo bile bana ama benim kafamda hep boyle!!!!! HEP

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umarim ona karsi hissettigim sevginin sadece sozlerle degil de pratikle de pekistirdigim (pekistirmek istedigim) bir sey oldugunu biliyodur ve en onemlisi hissediyodur. oyle olmasa hic boyle hissetmem cunku
keske hic hata yapmasam hepppp dogru olsam ve ne yapmam gerektigini bilsem. her hatamda kaybetme korkusunu tekrar yasiyorum ama hicbi zaman bunun normal oldugunu kabullenemiyorum bana her seferinde hayatin sonuymus gibi hissettiriyo nedenini anlayamiyorum ama ne zaman iyi olsak ve her sey yolunda olsa cok iyi hissediyorum ta ki her sey cok iyi gidiyosa kesin bi terslik cikicaktir diye dusunene kadar yani hicbir sey gercek anlamda mumkun degil ve bu sadece cok yorucu ozellikle hatali oldugunun farkindaysan cok kotu bi durum ve icinden cikamiyorum cunku ben hicbi zaman insanlari bile isteye incitmek istemem farkinda olmadigim zamanlarda bile yaptigim seyi yapmamin kesin bi sebebi vardir sadece uzerine yeterince dusunmemisimdir ve hep eksik ya da yanlistir. eksik olmasinin sebebi de bilmedigimdendir ama bunun arkasina saklanarak da bi seyleri cozemeyecegimin farkindayim. bazi seyleri yasayarak ogrenirken hayatimdaki insani kaybetmek uzere oldugumu fark edememekten cok korkuyorum cunku bazi seyler herkese cok kolay ve apacik. benim icinse sadece cok karisik ve zor. iste bu yuzden hep ne yapmam gerektigi bana soylensin ona gore ilerliyim istiyorum cunku kendim yaparsam hata payim cok yuksek ve bu kabul edilebilir bir sey degil benim tarafimdan
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โน ! เณ Pile 1 ๊ฑ
You have dealt with situations not turning out the way you wanted them to despite heavily investing into them. These situations in fact, made you feel very naive and taken advantage of. Ugh I just heard โa womanโs loyalty is tested when the man has nothing and a manโs loyalty is tested when he has everything.โ I also suddenly got a vision of a TikTok that I saw a while ago. The man in the video was saying that if a woman stays with him at the lowest point of his life, heโd leave her when he gets to a high point because she clearly doesnโt respect herself ๐. It doesnโt necessarily have to do with a man or boy but it could have been a similar situation. You invested a lot into someone or possibly even multiple people and you were incredibly generous. The value was being provided only one way i.e. only you were the one bringing ANYTHING into the connection but you were the one being treated as though you didnโt have any value, as though you didnโt bring anything valuable into the connection or this personโs life. It definitely could have been an experience with multiple people for some of you. I was earlier hearing โwithout meโ by Halsey in my head and now Iโm hearing that song, Iโm not sure about the title Iโve only heard it through reels and TikTok. It goes something like โItโs not your fault I ruin everything and itโs not your fault I canโt be what you need.โ This is honestly very sad, this person or people used to rely on you when they were sad but when they were enjoying life and had happy moments, they didnโt really share those with you, they didnโt spend those with you. Itโs like when they experienced really good and happy moments, they just disappeared, and despite everything that you were offering them, they wanted a โhappily ever afterโ with other people. They used to take what you had to offer and use your resources to their benefit but they didnโt want you, they didnโt offer you anything of value, they didnโt even truly appreciate your value and only used it.
There definitely was this feeling of insecurity because why didnโt they see your value and treat it as such despite you doing, and offering so much? It was just a really bad investment on your part because all you were doing was wasting your time and energy by depleting your time, energy, and resources on an ungrateful person. I really wanted to use the b-word just now but I stopped myself. Iโm feeling angry on your behalf here. You did everything with a very pure and affectionate heart. When you were doing and giving anything at all, you were being genuine with it. It was a very innocent kind of love that you were extending yourself with. You were sensitive to their needs and almost psychically picked up on things in regard to them, and even if you didnโt, you actively tried to because thatโs just how pure hearted you were and their stinginessโฆ gosh. They didnโt even try to invest in you at all, did they? You seem to have questioned your value and worth back then. Due to how you were investing into the connection with a sense of innocence, you were wounded like a child is. Let me explain it to you, kids have not seen enough of the world so when they get scolded or punished by their parents, itโs easy for them to question themself and believe that they mustโve done something wrong. They also forgive the trespassers again and again because thatโs just how pure kids tend to be but whatever kids experience during their childhood sticks with them on a very deep level and is inevitably going to affect them as adults. You experienced a similar experience back then. It hit your inner child quite heavily. โHow long could we be a sad song, till we were too far gone to bring back to life. I gave you all my best meโs, my endless empathy and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting in only your army, front lines donโt you ignore me. Iโm the best thing in this party. Youโre losing me and I wouldnโt marry me either, a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her.โ
Thatโs โyouโre losing meโ by Taylor Swift. I keep on hearing the part that goes โmy heart wonโt start anymore, my heart wonโt start anymore.โ I feel like you genuinely cannot bring yourself to feel anything for this person or these people anymore because when you were, they were abusing it. While I was writing โabusingโ, I mistakenly typed โanusโ and that describes them pretty well :D. Despite having experienced all of this, you havenโt hardened. In fact, youโve softened more. The more pain that you had to experience, undergo and heal from, the more pure hearted, innocent, loving and childlike youโve gotten. Somehow, your inner child has healed and feels more comfortable expressing themself after everything youโve experienced. Thereโs also an acceptance of your own contradictions here. Youโre quite misunderstood and have always been. I just heard โI was a mature child so now Iโm a childish woman.โ Youโve always been mature yet childish. Some of you are incredibly mature on the inside but might be very childlike in the way you live and express yourself externally while it may be the other way around for the rest of you. Also, you have likely embodied both of these sides at different points of your life. There could have been a point when you wanted people to take you seriously because you were very mature on the inside and another point when you wished you could express yourself in a lighter, softer, and more playful manner because you were very sensitive and soft on the inside but on the inside, you ended up expressing yourself as more serious. Having embodied both of these, you are aware that others will criticise and misunderstand you either way, and that you wonโt be happy with yourself either if you donโt accept your own contradictions and arenโt comfortable with being misunderstood so now, you donโt really care about whether someone misunderstands you.
โSometimes I canโt even understand those perceptions, it feels unfair at times but the misunderstandings that make up the countless versions of me. All of them are โmeโ in the end.โ I feel like most of you are perceived as childish and are in fact very pure at heart but having been taken advantage of has caused you to develop a cautious approach and not commit to situations recklessly, and thatโs a strength of yours. You also do not really give too much importance to a happy ending anymore. You donโt seek belonging and joy from others anymore, and are fine keeping to yourself and are very careful with the situations, and people that you invest in. The thing is, youโre not exactly closed off. Youโre still open, pure hearted, loving and affectionate but itโs just that youโre finally more impatient. You can now leave situations as easily as you entered them if the other person doesnโt seem as invested. You know that you deserve a pure, loving and affectionate connection that is innocent, playful and genuine where youโre always chosen, and can always choose them and share a lot of intimacy with the other person - friend, lover, whatever. So when you donโt see things going to that direction, you donโt mind putting an end to things. Youโre not willing to settle for anything except the most genuine and pure form of love, and connection because you know that you can provide it. You want to be treated as softly as you treat people and have them stick with you through thick, and thin with proper investment and to adore you, and value you affectionately and genuinely. You are unwilling to accept anything less than that. Having experienced whatever you experienced, youโre aware that you have a lot to offer but that giving more does not equal to receiving more so you donโt try as hard anymore. Youโre still the same, you still try to extend yourself generously and provide value to the other person wholeheartedly but even now, you notice one sidedness, and it doesnโt bother you because you choose to either leave entirely and not invest any further or just pull away, and are not committed to trying and investing anymore. You are fine with getting away from people now.
You are alright with people not seeing your value and missing the opportunity to be in your close circle. You just donโt invest heavily into situations for a long time anymore. You try initially because youโre naturally a giver and are incredibly generous but when you feel like youโre not receiving the same, you donโt even question your worth or think about โwhy?โ, you just let them. Also, this generosity of yours is not a method of finding belonging. It kind of is but it is more about how you feel about yourself rather than how others see you. You want to be kind and generous because you just naturally are a giver, and you find a sense of comfort in how much you do for the world, how much value you provide and how much good you put out into the world even if you donโt have anywhere you find belonging, and joy, even if you donโt have those personal connections. Instead of chasing a โhappily ever afterโ and joy, and fulfilment through external sources and connections, you chase purity of spirit, genuineness and generosity. Thereโs this mantra coming through but Iโm not sure how it will resonate. The following includes mention of the hindu god โShivaโ but even if youโre christian or muslim, or any other religion. I need you to take the message and try to interpret it rather than shunning it completely just because you donโt believe in the god or religion. Let me give you a little piece of advice before we move onto the mantra, if you find anything from other religions or concepts that you donโt follow, believe in or understand but itโs something that resonates with you, could help you going forward and just help you lead a better life, take it. The mantra goes โom tryambakam yajaamahe, sugandhim pushti vardhanam, urvaarukamiva bandhanam, mrityur mukshiya mamritaat.โ It translates to โom, we worship the three eyed one (lord shiva), who is fragrant, increasing the nourishment (spiritually). From these many bondages (of samsara aka worldly cycles) similar to cucumbers (tied to their creepers). May I be liberated from death (attachment to perishable things), so that Iโm not separated from the perception of immortality.โ
I feel like many of you have already reached a point in which you understand that attachments are illusionary. If you havenโt yet, you will. You care about your soul and the truth of it - the purity, essence and nourishment of it more than you care about worldly cycles, and things that are perishable i.e. attachments which is why when you arenโt receiving love, donโt have personal connections or are misunderstood, even if it bothers you, it doesnโt. Your soul is whole and immortal, and so is love and joy, and itโs also ever present as long as one can maintain their soul and its true essence so you are just focused on that. Religions and spirituality both put an emphasis on love, and purity and I donโt mean purity as in not being allowed to enter temples during your periods, etc. but instead that they put an emphasis on remaining loving, always leading with love and keeping the heart as light as a feather. You are doing that and youโre spiritually aligned. Obviously with the hurt that youโve faced, you sometimes may feel heavy or have felt heavy in the past but you have a loving spirit that is still pure at its core and you maintain it with utmost reverence, and thatโs your strength. I was earlier getting the quote โdo you know how much anger it took to be this gentle?โ And now, Iโm getting the bridge of โsoloโ by Jennie coming through. โAfter the relationship, romance and emotions thereโs breakup, tears, regret, and longing. I like being alone because I should be true to myself. Like the flowing wind, like the stars above the clouds. I want to go faraway, I want to shine brightly.โ Thatโs the energy that you seem to possess, you know what you offer and deserve now, and you let go of any attachments that make you feel less than. If you arenโt here yet, you can be. All the best ๐. Youโre doing really well. When it comes to your wounds, you are a stubborn one. Youโre really persistent and determined to make things work, and are so busy doing so that you donโt notice when the other person has already given up.
You put in work diligently from the start to the end with consistency which is why it hurts more when they give up because you put so much effort into it. You also have long term intentions or even if you donโt, you put in work as though you do because you naturally are long term oriented and you maintain loyalty consistently without a single slip on your part so when the other person gives up, you feel really betrayed and hurt. Lifelong connections are beautiful because they require work and both parties not wanting to give up. You are willing to make things work by putting your all into whatever it is that you want to succeed because of your long term oriented approach. You donโt just give up without trying, you donโt give up without a fight, you canโt because you just value it so much and want it in the long run so the awareness that when someone wants something in the long run, wants someone on the long run, they wonโt just run away when things get hard and they have to put effort in is something that wounds you because people have been too easy to give up in the past. You seem to have dealt with a lack of loyalty from others too and what is upsetting is that you were loyal to them. What seems to have happened is that you met someone (possibly even multiple people for some of you) when they were going through a time of discontentment, stagnation, apathy, isolation, boredom, yearning, etc. and you were present for them consistently but when they got better, they left you behind while you were still putting in work and trying, and they didnโt explicitly tell you that they had given up right away. You fell victim to the classic method of being wounded until you couldnโt try anymore. The wounds could have come from their carelessness, negligence, lack of gratitude or acknowledgement of all that you had done and been for them, or well all of the above.
In fact, for some of you, they could have been wounding you actively by treating you as if you were a burden and talking to you in ways that scarred you. In many cases, it could have been both. Whether their approach was passive, active or both, it was equally bad and you didnโt deserve that. You simply just knew that love and connections were hard work, and were willing to put that in. You knew that things arenโt always easy but you still tried until you absolutely couldnโt anymore. Once you finally gave up, you had to consistently put in work into your own betterment in order to heal the wounds that were inflicted on you back then. Youโre showing strength even when Iโm trying to tap more into your wounds. Despite how wounded you were, you persisted with courage. You learned from your previous failure and wounds, and endured the pain and managed to get better eventually. I feel like at some point, you tried to maintain strong routines in order to get better and it worked wonders for you. You gained clarity on your past, present and future as well as a desire to be present, pleasant and proud. One thing is for sure, you started wanting to focus on the present moment and make the most out of it. You released your emotions and saw where change was needed, and created those changes. You left the past behind you and grew emotionally to the point of feeling almost enlightened. Now, youโre self aware, focused, content, grateful for what you already have, try to be present, accept yourself and situations as they are, and know your responsibilities and try to carry them out properly. Also, you reflect to learn but try to be and are present. The journey to get here wasnโt an easy one, the path was really rocky and rough with twists, and turns but you still made it. Pat yourself on the back, youโre doing so well. Thank you so much for reading. I hope that the reading resonated and that it provided you with the answers, and guidance that you wanted and needed. Much love and take care ๐.
โน ! เณ Pile 2 ๊ฑ
Your strength is that youโre a protector and provider, and your wound is that people either donโt see it, take it for granted or are intimidated by it. Also, a very interesting thing that was happening when I was shuffling for you was that I wanted to channel โstrengths and woundsโ but I kept on messing up and saying โstrengths and weaknessesโ. I feel like it was because your wounds have caused you to feel really weak or have created a weakness within you in some way. Donโt worry, weโll look into it properly so that you can heal these parts of you and reclaim your power. I just heard that audio โthey gonna hate me regardless, thatโs why I do what I do.โ Also, youโre more of a man than most men are ๐ญ. Youโre naturally a protector and provider, and Iโm picking up on a lot of passion from you including an emphasis on sexual intimacy. Currently if youโre single, this can simply manifest as feeling horny frequently or/and masturbating a lot (or well just craving that orgasm even if youโre unable to touch yourself) but youโre definitely very passionate in romantic relationships, likely physically affectionate in other ways outside of sexual intimacy as well. Youโre friendly and charismatic, and approach others with a fairly soft yet a bold and almost flirty demeanour. I feel like youโre this way with your same sex friends more than anyone else. You have a strong aura and it is because you possess a lot of integrity. โSubstance over formโ is the kind of person that you are and thatโs your strength. Youโre really solid on the inside possessing courage, generosity, principles, ethics, a sense of responsibility, maturity, passion, loyalty, so on and so forth. You have turned out to be a strong person with a well rounded and strongly grounded character despite everything that youโve undergone instead of letting it turn you bitter, and resentful. Iโm hearing โeasy on meโ by Adele. โGo easy on me baby, I was still a child didnโt get the chance to feel the world around me. I had no time to choose what I chose to do. So go easy on me.โ
โThere ainโt no room for things to change when we are both so deeply stuck in our ways, you canโt deny how hard Iโve tried. I changed who I was to put you both first but now I give up.โ Some of you could have childhood trauma - endless sacrifice for your parents while some of you didnโt have parents and did everything to please your guardian(s), and the rest of you dealt with bullying or aggression from others and the ones who donโt relate to any of the above could have lost someone (possibly multiple people) and they could have been acting very egotistically, making you feel weak but it was not exactly your loss even if it may have felt like it at the time. Some of you may have hit the lottery and dealt with all of the above ๐. You could have also lost someone who you sacrificed a lot for. I just got the word โeveryoneโ and earlier at the beginning of the reading I had received the word โburntโ. Did you at some point feel like you lost everything and were burnt by everyone? You may have also felt as though you sacrificed a lot, too much of yourself for others in the past. โSo you can love me, hate me, you will never be, never be, never be me. Try me, Iโll break free, you will never be, never be, never be me.โ The song is literally titled โrebel heartโ, I feel like back then despite any feeling of weakness and despite surrendering for the sake of peace, and feeling as though you lost, you knew that you hadnโt. You were rebelling from within and not egoistically but by channelling all your inner strength. Youโre really confident in yourself now. Iโm trying to dig up your past but youโre showing me how great you are in the present. You know that no one can ever be you. โIโve tasted being the bigger person, Iโve also tasted matching energy. I recommend no contact.โ You value your peace more than anything. You are ethical, reliable, long term oriented and seek excitement, and passion in long term matters rather than by seeking fleeting thrill. In fact, the more safe, stable and grounded a connection is, the more passion, excitement and joy you experience.
You do not feel any desire to wander or be unfaithful, your passion is reserved for just your significant other and your significant only. Like, you donโt even get tempted ๐. For example, if youโve been in a relationship with someone for years, youโd rather try to experience new sorts of passion and excitement with them rather than get connected with someone new, and ruin something beautiful that you already have going and even if thatโs not possible in grand ways just the fact that theyโre loyal, and that you share a stable, safe and grounded connection is enough for you to be able to find passion, joy and excitement in the littlest of moments. You donโt get tempted or attracted to others. Also, you watch your character because of who you are as a person and who you want to be rather than to impress anyone. You may be someone who tries to avoid wandering eyes even when youโre single and just really try to watch your character in every way that you can because you are, and want to be a certain way. Youโre a really well rounded person - you seek peaceful resolution and if you donโt find that, you seek peace even if it is by yourself, you donโt mind compromising, and have in fact, sacrificed majorly in the past. You know how to make amends with situations by now and you also have a side within you thatโs like โI am me, you are you. If you do me dirty, fuck youโ but your ethical peace seeking side overrides this. Youโre loyal and try to maintain a strong character for yourself rather than for impressions, and are passionate as well. Also, youโre very romantic and care deeply, and genuinely about your partner. You want teeth rottingly sweet romance i.e. the shoulder kisses, climbing up the fences to get into some forbidden property, candlelight dinner, watching fireworks together and you going โso prettyโ while looking at the different designs in the sky while they look at you and repeat your words, basically the whole nine yards. Youโre also highly capable of it. Youโre willing to do anything and everything for your partner as long as it doesnโt go against your morals.
I wonder if many of you are elder daughters or something because thereโs so much about sacrifice, maturity and provision. I donโt mean to be a misandrist but I donโt think that Iโve ever met a man this well rounded and with such a strong character. You could have always sacrificed and done so much for your family, provided so much to them, and just been so mature and responsible from such a young age that thatโs just who you are now. I wouldnโt be surprised if you already are or will provide financially for your family in the future. โI knew you, leaving like a father, running like water.โ It doesnโt mean that your father or any parent left you (though it could be) but that you didnโt feel safe and stable with them so you have become a stable, and reliable individual to feel safe within yourself and to find a partner who provides the same qualities to you. Looking at your wounds, you feel like people let you go too easily. They often chose other people too. Oh my god, I just started hearing โthe other womanโ by Lana Del Rey. It seems to have been a pattern for you. You were in contact with them in a very consistent manner so it could have been a friend who was using you as a placeholder for a romantic relationship until they found someone to commit to ๐. You are very diligent and have basic human decency so when someone is in your life, even if it is not a situation with commitment involved, you do whatever you can for them and are very present so when you were not fully claimed but not fully let go of, and had them let you go after finding a romantic relationship, you felt really manipulated. By this point, you donโt really question your worth anymore but back then, you wondered if you were unworthy of being chosen and committed to. For those of you who do not resonate with this, when it was time for people to make choices, their loyalties seemed to lie elsewhere. Even the closest connections that you had didnโt live up to their potential and in fact, you felt deceived.
โHow long could we be a sad song till we were too far gone to bring back to life I gave you all my best meโs, my endless empathy and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting in only your army, front lines donโt you ignore me, Iโm the best thing in this party (youโre losing me) and I wouldnโt marry me either, a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her, and Iโm fading thinking โdo something babe, say something. Lose something babe, risk something. Choose something babe, Iโve got nothing to believe unless youโre choosing me.โโ โI canโt find a pulse, my heart wonโt start anymore for you cause youโre losing me.โ โMy heart wonโt start anymore, my heart wonโt start anymore.โ You feel as though youโve never been able to develop and share deep intimacy, and love with someone that is pure and whole, and where you choose each other again and again. I just heard โshe has other friends that she likes betterโ, youโve just felt as though everyone chose and enjoyed other peoples company more, and that you were let go of so easily as though you were worthless. โIf you feel too abandoned by others, itโs because youโve abandoned yourselfโ ofcourse, itโs okay to feel bad about being abandoned and used. โEnough for youโ by Olivia Rodrigo is coming through. โStupid, emotional, obsessive little me. I knew from the start this is exactly how youโd leave. You found someone more exciting, the next second you were gone and you left me there crying, wondering what I did wrong and you always say Iโm never satisfied but I donโt think thatโs true cause all I ever wanted was to be enough. Donโt you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Donโt you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing? So donโt tell me youโre sorry boy, feel sorry for yourself cause someday Iโll be everything to somebody else and theyโll think that Iโm so exciting, and youโll be the one whoโs crying. You always say Iโm never satisfied but I donโt think thatโs true, you say Iโm never satisfied but thatโs not me, itโs you cause all I ever wanted was to be enough and I donโt think anything could ever be enough for you. No, nothingโs enough for you.โ
You felt as though you abandoned yourself and didnโt have any boundaries or standards just because you wanted to be chosen, and loved back then and youโve forgiven yourself for that, and grown into your power immensely by strengthening your character and Iโm so incredibly proud of you but the shame, guilt, regret, and pain that you experienced back then was on another level. You felt as though you failed to maintain loyalty to yourself and choose yourself. There was this sense of having lost yourself due to a desire to be chosen mixed with a feeling of inferiority. You felt inferior and powerless in the connection or well, connections but even after they ended, you felt inferior and powerless, in fact, now that you could see things more clearly, you felt more inferior, powerless and ashamed of yourself. You lacked direction back then and were misdirecting your energy into trying to receive love, and be chosen by acting inferior and slowly started believing it yourself because others treated you like such when you could have been improving yourself, your skills and your life instead. You felt like you betrayed yourself. The song โIโll never fall in love againโ by Dionne Warwick is coming through. โWhat do you get when you fall in love? A guy with a pin to burst your bubble. Thatโs what you get for all your trouble. Iโll never fall in love again. Iโll never fall in love again. What do you get when you kiss a guy? You get enough germs to catch pneumonia, after you do, heโll never phone ya. Iโll never fall in love again. Donโt you know that Iโll never fall in love again? Donโt tell me what itโs all about cause Iโve been there and Iโm glad Iโm out. Out of those chains, those chains that bind you. That is why Iโm here to remind you. What do you get when you fall in love? You only get lies and pain and sorrow.โ
Youโre a deeply romantic person but due to how genuine you are, how much you offer and all the deception that youโve faced. You are more focused on your daily routines, money, career, work and study. You might also have a wound regarding skills. You want to develop skills and you know you have it in you but you just havenโt been able to, you just arenโt being able to, youโre being told to keep going consistently. Youโre probably rolling your eyes externally or internally at what I just wrote because itโs not like you havenโt tried to develop these skills consistently because you have but that no matter how much you have tried, you just havenโt been able to but youโre still being encouraged to keep going. Having experienced all that youโve experienced, youโve become very self and character focused. You care a lot about other peopleโs character as well as your own. You have high standards now and until you meet someone who matches them close to perfectly, you are not interested in any sort of romance. You really do want to find this person though because you have so much love to give and genuinely want to experience the soft mushy gushy romantic, and passionate kind of romance. You want to experience a soft romcom movie and โfifty shades of greyโ kind of romance at the same time with just one person for the rest of your life but it is very important for you to be able to respect, admire and rely on that person. Passion is very important to you in romance and life in general. Due to how youโve had to take on really responsible roles throughout your life and always hold this sense of responsibility, and duty within you, and how sacrificing and resolution seeking you can be despite a very hot, and strong fire within you. You need a partner whoโs more of a man than you are. Someone who is a good leader, passionate, charismatic, go getter, action oriented, loyal, grounded, ethical, responsible, reliable and romantic. Someone who lets you be bratty and express anger, and also doesnโt take advantage of your problem solving, peaceful and resolution seeking nature.
You tend to be fairly submissive on the outside despite the inner strength you possess so you need someone who is happy with themself and doesnโt feel the need to dominate, and belittle you in order to feel better about themself. Iโm not going to lie, due to how passionate you are, you have a very competitive and resentful side to you but also youโre very peaceful, and forgiving. You truly are such a well rounded person. You might attract a lot of hostility and aggression due to this. People can pick up on your inner drive but you seem to harmless on the surface that they try to crush your spirit because they just feel a sense of competitiveness, hostility and aggression towards you without any real reason and you have a strong character on the inside so you donโt break externally but instead usually maintain peace so they donโt understand why and how youโre so unaffected ๐๐ญ. You want a partner who can handle your angry and difficult sides, the ones that are deeply passionate. You cannot settle for just anyone because now that youโve grown as a person, youโve grown into your character and strength, you get really bad vibes from most people, and notice their faults and flaws quite easily. โCO2โ by Prateek Kuhad is the song that Iโm getting here. โMaybe itโs the way that you can see what Iโm missing what I can never be.โ โMaybe itโs the man that you see in me.โ Most people wonโt be able to live up to your standards due to how high they are but theyโre just normal to you because you can live up to them so you donโt need to lower them. You need to look at things differently now, youโre not unworthy, things are better now, life is brighter now. You are likely to intimidate people once they start seeing your character more clearly. The closer that theyโll get to you, the more that they might feel inferior or like they donโt live up to what you need them to be. You can be critical to some extent because of how high your standards are even for yourself but itโs coming as a strength of yours. Only accept those who are actively trying and being able to live up to what your standards are. If someone gives up or doesnโt try, trust me, youโre better off. Those who think that theyโre not enough, they know themselves more than you know them because they experience consciousness from within themself, because they can hear their own thoughts and know about their own actions, and tendencies so believe them when they talk or act like theyโre not enough. Right now, Iโm getting that while youโre capable of romance, youโre focused on consistently bettering yourself, improving your lifestyle, your career, money, routines, work and studies. You are on the right path. Itโs okay to want romance but donโt ever lower your standards by even just an inch or a millimetre because you can live up to your own and you deserve an equal. Thank you so much for reading. I hope that the reading resonated and that it provided you with the answers, and guidance that you wanted and needed. Much love and take care ๐.
โน ! เณ Pile 3 ๊ฑ
(TW: Mentions of abuse, sexual assault, etc.)
Some of you have daddy issues or some kind of issue caused by aggressive people but thereโs a strong theme of boys and men here. There are so many scenarios coming through, youโre obviously not going to relate to all of them. For some of you, youโve just dealt with aggression, threatening your sense of belonging while some of you have dealt with abandonment from either or both parents or just an absence of them, there are even mentions of abuse here for some of you if your parents were present. An angry father or parental figure? If not, you have had terrible experiences with the male gender. It could be something as simple as having boys make fun of you in middle school. These incidents have wounded you really deeply. Iโm having a really hard time putting all the scenarios down. Thereโs definitely some sort of a deep wound when it comes to belonging - be it family, home, community, school or work. Also little incidents grew into real big ones that Iโm hearing traumatised you. For example, you got with some guy, that changed the entire trajectory of your life. The thing is, you received a lot of intolerance from everyone for a major part of your life. It escalated close to abuse, violence and bullying at some point, and for many of you, it could have had something to do with a guy. Donโt get me wrong, it would have been a part of your life either way. People just have been so aggressive, unruly and intolerant towards you for no reason, you didnโt deserve that but I will explain how it could have had something to do with a guy for many of you. For example, you got into a relationship with some guy, you could have been heavily criticised by other people who also liked and wanted him considered you to be โnot good enoughโ for him just for this guy to break up with you in a disrespectful manner with no regard for you whatsoever, and after that, Iโm getting that either the aggression and bullying from other people intensified or the effects of the previous unruly treatment started affecting you intensely.
Many of you have dealt with an abusive situation even if itโs just emotionally though it could have been physically for some of you (by parents, romantic partners, etc.) Do not invalidate your experiences ever because even if others might think that it was not abuse, it definitely was. It affected you so deeply, Iโm not even being able to express it properly. Iโm just crying right now. If you didnโt deal with any of the above situations. Though, I believe that many of you have dealt with all or at least majority of what Iโm mentioning. Then, you dealt with guy friends who were using you for an ego boost and acted as though you wanted them so bad if you simply tried to keep the friendship going or tried to fix things instead of ending them. Guys have made you feel really preyed on. People in general have but guys especially. Some of you could have even dealt with men trying to assault you sexually. It could have been something as simple as someone forcefully kissing you as a child or making you watch porn. Something like this could have happened when you were a teen or an adult too but I just got that since kids are the most vulnerable, it likely happened to many of you as kids. Oh my god, no way. I just heard โhe doesnโt like cougars, he likes little kids. He stopped liking me when I turned eighteen.โ I feel like your life has always been this way. Having people walk all over you and treat you like shit but it got especially worst in your teen years. Iโm not sure what happened at fourteen and seventeen specifically but seventeen was your last straw, and your experiences all the way from when you were fourteen contributed to finally realising the truth. In fact, your experiences before that contributed too but Iโm picking up that mistreatment and aggression were/felt the most extremely during your teenage years. Any childhood abuse or mistreatment, or instability, you realised the truth of all of that through what you experienced during your teenage years. People genuinely just lacked compassion towards you and you had to deal with a lot of loneliness.
It is like anytime that you were not keeping to yourself and connecting with others, they were abusing, using and mistreating you. People used to treat you aggressively, make fun of you and mistreat you for their own sick sense of enjoyment, in order to boost their ego, and have fun. Iโm so sorry, you didnโt deserve all that. Even when you were with people, you were very lonely and felt insecure, and lacking due to the way they used to treat you and once you finally got away, you felt incredibly insecure, unstable, and lacking but you chose that over mistreatment from others and thatโs how you grew. โDonโt be afraid to stand alone. Donโt be afraid to stand outside your comfort zone. I know itโs hard away from home and it ainโt easy all alone.โ You had a strong thirst for knowledge from since you were a kid but during this time of loneliness, it transformed into a need. You were seeking truth and clarity because you genuinely needed it to move forward but you have always possessed some sort of a divine knowledge. Which is why you were able to be so compassionate, still and passive at the face of such mistreatment, aggressiveness and lack of compassion. Divinity exists within all of us and you were aware of that. So you naturally acted like the bigger person until you couldnโt anymore but this breakdown caused you to get closer to your own truth. You started realising that while itโs good to learn through external sources, true knowledge and wisdom is something that we are just born with, and that anything else that comes through, it should come from within. For example, we are not born racists, as kids, all we want is to receive and give love, and we are active, and full of life, thatโs the only knowledge that truly matters - the ability to be yourself in your highest, most divine and purest form. You also realised just how shitty the treatment that you received in the past was and how lonely, and insecure you were.
You may have felt at home with these people or shared a community with them but even so, you decided to act with integrity and do right by you even if it required loneliness or/and isolation. For some of you, after all of this had passed, you met someone who you felt really at home with but for some reason, you still had to logically act out of fairness and had to reward them with the consequences of their actions rather than with negotiation. The trajectory of your growth has been amazing. One of your strengths is your sense of hope and faith. You felt like youโd never get anything good in life and that your life was doomed, and that youโd be lonely and empty forever but you still kept going, and you managed to get better so now you have hope and faith regarding life. Back then, you just wanted to feel better, get better and now, you have so now you have a sense of direction, youโre focused on nourishing yourself. You are connected to your core essence and are comfortable with your vulnerability, and sense of nakedness i.e. your authenticity. Youโre nourishing and loving yourself wholeheartedly in any, and every way possible though. Yes, thereโs always room for improvement. Like, for example, you may do your skincare, workout and do your work diligently but you may not eat all three meals so you could work on that, etc. But definitely, you try to make sure to eat even if youโre busy because your nourishment means a lot to you. You might be unable to have all three meals but you try. Youโre very intense in terms of romance and also really romantic. but you donโt try to put in time, energy, and effort into romance anymore unless the other person comes to you first and is consistently present, and shows promise of a solid future but youโre very content being alone. You in fact, really enjoy it. You are on a journey of self discovery and improvement, and understand yourself and love very deeply due to how much time youโve spent alone, by yourself, in contemplation, and soul searching.
Youโve drawn out a lot of wisdom from within yourself. Youโre spiritually enlightened and donโt mind being alone or different. Even if it is difficult, even if youโre considered to be difficult, you want to be yourself. โShare my life, take me for what I am cause Iโll never change all my colours for you. Take my love, Iโll never ask for too much, just all that you are and everything that you do.โ Youโre aware by now that it is nothing except self betrayal to try to earn love by changing yourself because even if you manage to receive love, they wonโt be living โyouโ and if you donโt win them over, youโd have lost yourself in the process, and would feel terrible about yourself so youโd rather be alone but yourself. That one bible story is coming through here. โJacob agreed to work for seven years to marry Rachel, the woman he loved but was deceived by her father Laban and ended up marrying her older sister, Leah. Though he fulfilled his time and eventually married Rachel too, Jacob loved Rachel more than Leah. Seeing that Leah was unloved, god allowed her to bear children while Rachel remained barren. With each son she bore, Leah hoped that Jacob would finally love her - naming her first Reuben, saying, โnow my husband will love meโ, her second Simeon because โthe lord has heard that I am hatedโ, and her third Levi, thinking, โnow my husband will become attached to me.โ However, Jacobโs heart did not change. When she bore her fourth son, Judah, Leah no longer pleaded for her husbandโs affection but simply said, โthis time I will praise the lord.โ You seem to be aware of the fact that love that is not freely given can never be earned so you donโt even try. If you found the kind of love that you desire, if you found someone who loved and cherished you, you would be intensely passionate and romantic, honestly to an extreme but thatโs because, thatโs just who you are. Youโd indulge in it very deeply. Youโd experience the feeling of being โdrunk in loveโ.
โWith you, thereโs silence in a crowd. Thereโs a little unconsciousness, with you, because of you.โ Youโd make an intense lover who loves incredibly deeply but youโre not interested in trying to earn anyoneโs love in order to channel your romantic energy. You might in fact, have these sides of you pretty hidden. All of you have different kinds of personality but all of you have a very meek one. Some of you are more of the silent kind, some of you may be talkative when with others and might seem really social, and some of you might manage to do both but if you do have a talkative and social side, thereโs this thing about you in which once you are out of that social situation, you struggle to stay in touch with others, isolate yourself and randomly disappear. Also, the more time that you spend in a social situation and with certain people, the more silent and internal that you tend to get. Iโm loving all the messages that are coming through for your strengths. We donโt see through our eyes, we see through our minds. Our eyes are just a medium for us to perceive the external world and interact with it. Thereโs so much in the world about โfinding godโ or โfiguring out the meaning of lifeโ, people just want to know where and how it all started, and where and how we will all end up after death so they seek god but do they really manage to find divinity? Most people donโt because god made it so simple yet so tricky to find them by choosing to reside where theyโre currently residing i.e. within each person. Most people arenโt able to comprehend that divinity can reside within them because they think that figuring out the mysteries of life and receiving answers is much more complicated than that, and thatโs okay but theyโd easily find divinity, god, whatever they want to call it if they only turned their vision inside and looked within themselves. Most of you are aware of this truth so you try to keep yourself as clean, good and pure spirited as possible because divinity should not reside in a dirty place. It does not have to be conscious awareness or conscious trying but youโre just incredibly internal and have learned so much from going within yourself that youโve found your guide there, your divinity itself and youโre well aligned with your life purpose. If youโre not quite there yet, you soon will be. Thank you so much for reading. I hope that the reading resonated and that it provided you with the answers, and guidance that you wanted and needed. Much love and take care ๐.
pile 1... my beeesstieee did it AGAIN!!! idk how tf your readings resonate with me this much but i cant believe my eyes. even the lyric "it's not your fault i ruin everything..." I JUST SANG THIS SONG YESTERDAY WITH EVERY FEELING YOU DESCRIBED. WOW wow wow.... BLESS your energy take caree๐๐ฝ
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โน ! เณ Pile 1 ๊ฑ
Youโre someone who has undergone nostalgia, apathy, discontent and boredom in the past, and has come out of it. Due to this, you try to be present and know how to leave the past behind you. Youโve undergone a lot of growth emotionally and have accepted the situations that occurred as well as yourself, and your own nature so youโre ready to move forward and know your responsibilities. Thereโs awareness of how regretful you are about having wasted your time in discontent and negative focus instead of being present because those days, that time wonโt come back again. Youโve released so many negative emotions and have had to deeply reset your mindset which is not childโs play. Most people stay stuck in the way they are their entire life because they simply canโt bring themselves to change and would rather live in ignorance, and misery but you have pulled yourself out of such a rut and have a desire to truly live. The thing about living is that, the past is gone, the future is not here yet, the only thing we have is the present moment so living is about being in the present moment. โLife is what happens to you while youโre busy making other plansโ as they say. Youโre aware of this and try to be present. Thatโs your active focus. Youโre also someone who knows when change may be needed and you try to bring it about despite discomfort because youโve already changed yourself very deeply, and overcome what had you consumed, stuck, and trapped. You donโt have the heart to put the one whoโs actively choosing you and loving you below anyone. Youโre not going to think of some great past love that could not even stick through the test of time as the greatest love youโve ever had. Youโre going to let them go completely, cherishing and loving only the one who is right in front of you because you now know that you deserve a love that is present, and chooses you over and over again, and want to offer the same love to your partner. The concept of โexesโ is not a real thing for you anymore. You tend to be grateful for what you already have and who you already have because you seek contentment and enlightenment in life after all the negativity that youโve put yourself through. You see the positives in any negative situation and simply just possess a zest for life. Youโre self aware in many ways because having experienced such negativity, you understand your own negative tendencies and you try to be self aware, and focused. Due to this trait of yours, when you get with someone, youโre still focused on yourself and the person in front of you rather than having your energy be all over the place. Youโre also extremely contemplative because you had undergone a phase of negativity, nostalgia, overthinking, boredom, discontent and apathy, and have a lot of capacity to think and many interesting insights on life. Youโre also someone who understands love in its most divine and sacred form. It is not just about love, you possess a lot of unique knowledge about many different matters because most people donโt have access to such divine knowledge or are just ignorant.
Youโre a very intuitive partner and likely untouchable even when youโre single. You understand your partner and connect with them in a way in which you understand, and feel them on an almost psychic level. You understand their psyche, the conscious, subconscious and unconscious very well, and tend to be very in-tune with their higher needs. You experience love as something very divine and might even hold it as being sacred. I donโt think that youโre willing to share or experience such love with just anyone. You are the very definition of a divine feminine and if you donโt hold yourself, romance, and connections in general to a divine, and sacred standard, youโre either being nudged to do so, will grow into this as you tap into your love nature, should pick another pile or need to accept your true love nature based on your needs, desires and what you can give out. Youโre very intelligent and wise, and what I find to be incredibly fascinating is that people might not get this side of you to its fullest or even be aware of its existence unless they get really close to you one on one, or especially unless theyโre married to you. I am putting a very big emphasis on marriage here because some of you might be naturally hesitant to share certain things, certain moments of intimacy with those who you are not closely bonded with on a soul and life level, and even if you do, your present partner, your life partner will hold the highest place and will get access to your unique insights, and wisdom the most because theyโll be sharing their life with you and the amount of depth you have, the thoughts, the philosophies, the wisdom, the knowledge, everything that you possess is not something that people can experience and understand in a few months or years plus because of your desire, and ability to live in the present moment and your willingness to change for the better even if itโs hard, you tend to learn more and more from life, and attain more and more wisdom, and knowledge so people of the past donโt even know you. The ones who leave you do not really get to know, understand and experience you, and life with you in the way that the one you share your life with will. You are very feminine and possess a depth, and duality that may seem contradictory but thatโs just the way you are. You end up channelling different sides of you depending on what side of you is needed but all of these sides exist in you so even if you may look really cute on the outside, on the inside, you can be the biggest freak or even if you present yourself as being dumb on the outside, you can be very intelligent, wise and aware on the inside, or even if you look very serious and stoic, you have a very playful, fun loving and cute side or even if you present yourself as very intelligent and strategic, you can be very innocent and naive on the inside because you function from genuineness and divinity, or even if you look or present yourself as being mature, emotionless and emotionally controlled, you possess a very sensitive, empathetic and crybaby side.
Honestly, you could relate to all of the above because you have experienced being who you are and that includes the contradictions, and the different views that people have had of you based on the image that you ended up projecting depending on what side of you you were channelling at that time. Those who stick around get to see and experience all of these sides. Youโre also very observant and intuitive, recognising your partnerโs needs and patterns. You can be a bit passive and not voice out all that you observe instead trying to help them through actions in whatever way you can, and even so, thereโs some level of passivity. Many of you are untouchable and unattainable despite your desirability. Also, thereโs likely a deep desire for sex and intimacy but in a sacred way in which you do it with the same person again, and again? Iโm getting that you tend to be curious and seek knowledge not just about life, divinity or/and academics but also about sex and human connections. You want to do right by your partner at all times and know how to take accountability. Youโre fair and accepting of whatever mistake you made, and you donโt mind having to take responsibility and apologise. In fact, if you have to deal with the consequences of your actions, youโll be willing to do so too. However, youโre someone who desires such fairness for yourself as well. Youโre not swayed by external factors, love or affection, you use your mind to make fair decisions and let people deal with the consequences of their actions rather than negotiating every single time. You also have this odd ability in which you can subconsciously pick up on something being off and the future of the connection being not so bright. For example, if youโre being deceived, even if youโre not aware of it yet, you might suddenly get the urge to block them and never talk to them again. You treat your partner as an equal and donโt mind compromising for the greater good. You have a lot of integrity, causing you to try to fulfil your duties within the relationship to the best of your abilities. You usually donโt betray your relationship and partner in any way but even if you do something that youโre not proud of or could cost you the relationship, you are honest with them. You wonโt take away their right to make a decision for themself. Youโll give them all the factors needed for them to make a choice for themself, by themself. You deeply desire and require such fairness from your significant other too. Youโre a truth seeker and do not appreciate or enjoy being deceived and blindsided. Youโre also very decisive and once you decide that you want someone, you stick by it. You feel a great deal of love towards them and youโre clear in that. You also make the right decisions with fairness and integrity. You know how to communicate effectively and you place a really strong emphasis on understanding. You know that communication will do nothing for a couple unless they possess a basic understanding of each other, a desire to understand each other and want to do right by each other.
You have had a breakthrough, a realisation that people in the world are not as honest and fair as you are, and that there will always be people who will deceive you. Some of them may lie to you while the others may just leave details out, either way, it is deception. So you seek clarity and truth in relationships, and have grown a certain resilience. Breakthroughs and realisations about other peopleโs deception towards you used to hurt you deeply in the past, and they still will if you find out but youโd rather have that over living in a lie, in deception, in an illusion. You have developed a certain resilience around such matters and will be glad to have clarity, and enlightenment and will make the best possible choice for yourself, choosing to be fair with yourself in such situations. You will also attain knowledge and wisdom from these situations. Youโre very playful and pure in romance. You likely need a partner who you can admire and look up to but also makes your inner child feel safe because you have a tendency to act very childish in relationships. You love in an innocent manner with a lot of genuine emotional involvement. You tend to be smitten when in love and get flustered easily. The type to have a crush on your partner years into the relationship. This is honestly so adorable. You value intimacy and emotions, and enjoy doing things to display affection such as writing love letters, romantic messages, etc. Youโre very affectionate and tender, and honestly a bit vulnerable, sensitive, and almost naive? Due to how genuinely and purely you love, you have zero tolerance for deception, and lies in your relationship. You will not even tolerate deception through leaving details out. When you love someone and when they hold the space for you to feel safe enough to be as childish, affectionate, pure, and tender as you want, you naturally open up and treat the connection as something sacred, intimate and pure, you just open up, and give all of yourself away without reservations, just pure love. You also treat your partner with a lot of reverence. Youโre very childlike and sensitive, and very affectionate and tender, and might cry easily with your partner as well as joyfully joke, dance and laugh around with them. You tend to play with your partner, as in, have light hearted fun like an actual child and find new ways to communicate with them in witty, and affectionate ways. For example, notes around the house, notes in their locker or textbook, discussing different topics ranging from playful jabs and jokes to deep, and insightful conversations and even your tone might change. You might speak in a sweet but high pitched tone with a childish cadence sometimes but a grounded, deeper and more serious tone at other times. Youโre also very romantic, flirty and almost obsessive but unattainable, and theyโre the only one who gets access to this side of you.
When it comes to your cons, youโre someone who worries a lot. In the past, you had connections that ended suddenly or didnโt progress past a certain point, or things were just moving awfully slowly despite you providing a lot of value and service to the other person, and it has left deep wounds in your psyche. You tend to be fearful and paranoid. The other person was not taking action and just lacked the passion, energy, and drive to try with you and you were left directionless. This situation or possibly even multiple situations was very stagnant. They could have fed off your comfort and assistance just to pull the โIโm busyโ card when they found someone else, and many of you werenโt even given the truth in that situation, you had to find out by yourself so well, you felt deceived, used, discarded and you couldnโt even complain about it because you felt like you had put yourself into that situation by sticking around for so long. You were craving both comfort and stimulation at that time so you connected with these people in a very fun, almost childlike manner and were not taken seriously. I donโt think that it was a you problem at all but the only con that Iโm personally getting here is your negative thinking due to your past experiences. You have intense negative emotions come up from a very deep seated place. You overthink a lot and have your mental health fall apart when in a relationship. You seem to have dealt with public/social humiliation, having people gang up on you or gossip about you because of someone you were involved with. It could have been that others decided that you were not good enough for your partner or your partner publicly betrayed you causing you to be the butt of the joke. Either way, it was incredibly humiliating and left a very toxic effect on you. Itโs like, supposing you ate something toxic, even if you took an anecdote, the toxins remained in your system, thatโs how it is with you. I got so many qualities for your pros but for your cons, thereโs a big focus on your fears, paranoia, anxieties and deep seated negative beliefs, and the other cards are only there to support it. You seek and desire the truth, and have been left scorned in the past so you are a bit bitter about it still and tend to be very critical of your partner. In fact, before you even get with them. youโre already criticising them. โYou found someone more exciting, the next second, you were gone and you left me there crying, wondering what I did wrong. You said Iโm never satisfied but I donโt think itโs true cause all I ever wanted was to be enough. Donโt you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Donโt you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?โ By this point, youโre aware that not all your thoughts and beliefs are true but you still fear that the history will repeat itself. You fear that people will not take you seriously but will still use you for what you can do for them and what comfort you can provide for them just to not even be honest with you, and lead you on while you were simply just trying to respect their pace. You fear that youโll feel discarded, used, scorned, naive, unimportant, unwanted, undesired and undesirable. Your only con is that you will either keep this to yourself, sabotage the relationship and hurt yourself silently, or will drive your partner crazy with all this negativity and intensity.
Pros:
i) Tries to be present because you have dealt with not being so
ii) Notices when and where change is needed, and brings it about even if it is hard or takes time
iii) Has already dealt with being stuck in the past and the nostalgic โIโll never get over thisโ, โIโll never love anyone like that againโ, โIโll never forget ___โ or/and โwhat if I never find love again?โ phase and regrets having wasted time like that, and desires present love in the present moment and is capable as well as willing to give it back
iv) Cherishes present love and leaves the past in the past, possibly considering past love to not have been real because of the discontent, pain and the feeling of being lost that it caused
v) Has grown significantly emotionally and continues doing so
vi) Is unwilling to be consumed by anything unless itโs present and shows the promise of being present in the future but even so, if it leaves, youโre willing to leave it behind and find something that is present, and cherish it wholeheartedly instead
vii) Your main priority is the one right in front of you and you are present with them, cherishing, and loving them wholeheartedly, not putting them beneath anyone else in your heart and life
viii) You know how to be grateful or at least try to be and seek contentment, pleasure, and enlightenment in the present moment
ix) Sees the positives in negative situations and tries to maintain a positive focus
x) Self aware about oneโs negative tendencies and a willingness to gain more self awareness
xi) You try to keep your focus on yourself, your life, being present and your own partner, wanting to cherish them, and actively fulfill your responsibilities towards them
xii) Extremely contemplative and has interesting, and insightful philosophies and thoughts on life due to having contemplated deeply in the past
xiii) Possesses a strong capacity to think
xiv) Has many interesting insights on life
xv) Someone who understands love in its most divine and sacred form
xvi) Understands partner and connects with them in a way in which you understand, and feel them on an almost psychic level
xvii) Divine feminine and a very deep personality
xviii) Highly intelligent and wise
xix) Depth not easily accessible to others: only fully revealed in close, soul-level connections (especially in marriage)
xx) Selective with intimacy and emotional sharing
xxi) Continuously evolving through a commitment to self-growth and living in the present
xxii) Deeply feminine with a rich inner world
xxiii) Embody contrasting traits, such as:
- Cute appearance vs. deep internal complexity
- Seeming naive or playful vs. being actually strategic and insightful
- Stoic exterior vs. emotional sensitivity
- Intelligent presentation vs. innocent inner nature
- Multifaceted personality, channeling different sides as needed
xxiv) Those who stay close get to experience your full depth
xxv) Observant and highly intuitive
xxvi) Supportive through actions more than words, with a tendency toward passivity
xxvii) Desirable yet emotionally or spiritually unattainable to many
xxviii) Craves deep, sacred intimacy, particularly with one consistent partner
xxix) Curious and seeking knowledge across diverse areas (life, divinity, human connection, sexuality)
xxx) Accountable and fair, willing to admit mistakes and accept consequences
xxxi) Desires mutual fairness in relationships
xxxii) Emotionally grounded, makes decisions based on reason rather than being swayed by affection or manipulation
xxxiii) Able to detect misalignment or deception even subconsciously with instinctive urges (like cutting off contact)
xxxiv) Deeply genuine, operating from a place of authenticity and spiritual alignment
xxxv) You treat your partner as an equal and donโt mind compromising for the greater good
xxxvi) Strong sense of integrity and fulfill your relationship duties to the best of your ability
xxxvii) You are honest, respecting your partnerโs right to make their own decisions by being fully transparent
xxxviii) You deeply desire and need the same level of fairness and honesty from your partner
xxxix) You are a truth seeker and cannot stand deception or being blindsided
xl. You are decisive in love - once you choose someone, you remain loyal and clear in your affection
xli. You make relationship decisions with fairness, clarity and integrity
xlii. You communicate effectively and value deep mutual understanding over surface-level conversation
xliii. You believe that real communication requires the will to understand and do right by one another
xliv. Have had a breakthrough about the dishonesty of others and learned to accept painful truths over comforting illusions
xlv. Youโve built resilience around deception and now choose clarity, even if it hurts
xlvi. You grow wiser and more grounded from such experiences, always choosing fairness toward yourself
xlvii. In romance, you are playful, pure-hearted and emotionally genuine
xlviii. You need a partner who you can admire but who also nurtures your inner child
xlix. You tend to act very childlike in love with innocent affection and emotional sincerity
l. You get easily flustered and smitten, having a crush on your partner even years into the relationship
li. You value intimacy, affection and emotional expression through romantic gestures like love letters and messages
lii. You are extremely affectionate, tender and emotionally vulnerable in love
liii. Your love is so pure that you have zero tolerance for lies, even lies by omission
liv. When someone makes you feel emotionally safe, you open up completely and love without reservation
lv. You treat the connection as sacred, giving your all with purity and reverence
lvi. You enjoy lighthearted playfulness with your partner
lvii. You find creative and witty ways to connect, such as leaving notes or using playful tones in conversation
lviii. Youโre deeply romantic almost obsessive in your love but emotionally and spiritually unattainable to most, making your partner feel uniquely chosen as the only one with access to this side of you
Cons:
i) You worry excessively and tend to overthink, often allowing fear and paranoia to dominate your emotional landscape
ii) Youโve internalized guilt for staying too long in unhealthy dynamics, blaming yourself for trusting and giving too much
iii) You are deeply scarred by emotional deception, especially when others masked disinterest with excuses like being โbusyโ while entertaining someone else
iv) You often werenโt given closure or truth; you had to uncover it yourself, further intensifying your trust issues
v) Your negative thinking, stemming from these past experiences, is your greatest con, it clouds your perception even when things are going well
vi) Intense, deep-seated negative emotions can surface suddenly and powerfully, often overwhelming you
vii) Your mental health may decline during a relationship due to these unhealed traumas and emotional instability
viii) Youโve experienced public or social humiliation related to a partner perhaps being gossiped about or made to feel inferior
ix) You may have been betrayed publicly or treated as less-than, becoming the subject of ridicule or pity
x) These humiliating experiences linger like toxins in your system, creating emotional reactivity even when the current situation is safe or different
xi) While you are highly self-aware, your lingering bitterness and unresolved pain can make you critical of your partner even before theyโve done anything wrong
xii) You tend to project fears from your past relationships onto your current partner, expecting betrayal, abandonment or replacement
xiii) You question your worth and fear youโre not enough that others only value you for what you offer, not who you are
xiv) You doubt your desirability and fear being viewed as naive, unimportant or disposable
xv) Despite knowing your thoughts arenโt always rational, you struggle to fully trust love again and fear history repeating itself
xvi) This fear may manifest in two ways:
- You suppress it and suffer silently, slowly sabotaging yourself and the relationship, or
- You express it with overwhelming intensity, which may emotionally exhaust or alienate your partner
โน ! เณ Pile 2 ๊ฑ
Your pros are that you are intolerant to bullshit and have high standards for yourself, and others. Youโre a bit ruthless when it comes to your standards even with yourself. You know how to be patient and build upon a connection with consistency, effort, and hard work. Youโre perseverant and donโt give up easily. Once youโre invested, that is it, your commitment is unwavering. You also become so focused on building upon the connection through your own effort that in the past, you used to not notice that the other person was not doing the same. This is why youโve developed such high standards as well. You are very keen on your own growth and want to live up to your own standards so you persevere in that way too. You are naturally a provider regardless of your sex. You prefer long term connections that are grounded and can be depended on, and naturally take on the role of someone reliable who can be depended upon. You value certain traditions and old school ways of doing relationships, and do not entertain dusties looking for a grounded, mature, wise provider whoโs a reliable partner in every way. You genuinely canโt bring yourself to do so. You try to consistently better yourself and look for the same quality in your partner too. You are guided by values, principles and ethics, and want a partner like that too. I keep on getting that your standards can be considered really high by many but theyโre actually completely grounded in reality. Why is it wrong of you to want a mature, loyal, ethical and responsible provider? You are someone who is naturally more focused on building yourself and your life i.e. money, character, career, all of it so you want a partner whoโs similar in nature. Someone who is focused on looking after themself, their family, career, character and growth rather than looking at random girls everywhere. You cannot tolerate the mere idea of wandering eyes. You want to be respected and respectful of your partner so itโs very important for you to find someone whoโs rich in character, focused on building themself, their life, money and career, values long term relationships, and does not have wandering eyes because otherwise, youโd not be able to respect them enough to be with them. However, you try to maintain as strong of a character as you can and are naturally a provider. Youโre also someone who has already worked a lot on yourself so when you are in a partnership, you have a lot to offer to the person in front of you. You have every right to be demanding and picky honestly because when you connect with someone, you risk breaking and losing all that youโve built for yourself. Be it your character, money, life, values, etc. Iโm saying this because itโs been proven that it takes only a few days for humans to start getting influenced by their environment and that includes the people around them. Youโre also someone who compromises in relationships so itโs important that you find someone whoโs rich in character, well meaning towards you, mature, wise and wants to provide for you so youโre not at a loss.
You are accepting of peopleโs differences and might enjoy some level of fighting, and aggression but you have a more peaceful personality. You enjoy the making up part of fighting ๐ญ. The energy that Iโm getting here is so adorable and funny. You will only be with someone who can you respect, admire and look up to because you have a lot of self respect, and wouldnโt want to risk losing all that youโve built for yourself and all the progress that youโve made so supposing something happens and theyโre correcting, and scolding you, you will either silently take it or try to fight back but will still end up listening to them and taking it in the end xD. You seek peace but you have an ability to find passion and beauty even in conflict, and have it strengthen your bond with your partner rather than break it. You have a lot of integrity and are incredibly honest. Supposing you did something that most people would hide or lie about, youโd just expose it because itโs just a natural part of you. If it is concerning past matters, Iโm getting that you would talk about these things in a more unapologetic manner but if it is something that is happening in the present moment or could harm the connection, you would be more remorseful with your speech but you feel like someone who wants to love you should know you and someone who wants to understand you will do so. You quite literally have nothing to hide. You also understand the nuances of emotions and human relationships, if you do anything to hurt your partner. You try to make up for it and build trust back again gradually rather than getting mad at them for not forgiving or trusting you. Most of you wouldnโt really do things that would betray or hurt your partner but Iโm getting certain things coming through. You have high standards and before you get with your partner, you donโt trust their intentions and are naturally secretive. You try to be cautious and strategic not to manipulate but to protect yourself, and not fall victim to manipulation and mind games, and this is not a con, it is a pro but this can also create a bit more of a distrustful dynamic between you and your partner initially. So once you trust them enough, youโre honest with them about how you felt and how you feel, and all of that. You donโt hide much if anything from your partner once you feel safe enough. In fact, you donโt mind showing them your uglier sides or talking about the worst things that you have done, you want them to know you deeply, even the ugly parts and be able to accept, and love them. You have no intention of putting your partner through anything ugly but you just want them to know how shitty of a person you have been or can be. You donโt want them to love the ugly parts of you as in, put up with them but to have faith in you as a person despite what you may have done in the past. The thing is, you seem to be a person of a lot of integrity naturally so the ugly things that youโve done in the past were mostly reactions to what other people were doing to you? But even so, you were treated as and seen as the villain in such situations but you donโt really care to explain your side to anyone.
However, with your partner, you do. I think that itโs a subconscious thing for you actually, you might not be aware that this side of you exists until you actually get into a relationship. Also, you have dealt with a lot of fights, competitions, aggression and conflicts, and do not want to deal with these anymore. You want a more understanding and peaceful dynamic with acceptance of differences, and fights that add passion into the bond and strengthen it rather than weaken, and break it. You are tired of being misunderstood :(. You know how to be alone and donโt act desperate for connections so when you do connect with someone, itโs not out of desperation but from a place of grounded place of truly choosing someone and connecting with them. You have likely experienced money or even if you havenโt, you are not money hungry. Yes, you do want money, itโs very obvious that youโre interested in building a life full of abundance for yourself and you see it as a valuable asset that can make life more beautiful but you think that character and true connections are beyond value. Even though youโre pretty self regulated when youโre single or try to be, you rely on your partner and want them to rely on you. You let them rely on you and work as a team with them. You do not want to burden your partner initially maybe so youโll try to keep up appearances of stability but overtime, the more comfortable that you get with them, the more that you rely on them. Youโre very candid and donโt try to be elegant for no reason, youโre just real. Obviously, you will still want to self regulate sometimes but youโre so grateful to have someone to rely on and want to be the same for them. You seem to have mixed feelings about dependency in a connection but you know how to maintain a fine balance. You want a provider and are a provider yourself, and would love the finer things in life but you are fine with not having it. Even if your partnerโs finances were to fall apart, youโd stick by their side because you have faith in them and you enjoy the down to earth moments of comfort just as much as you may enjoy a luxury retreat. What matters is your constant companion :,). How sweet. Also, youโre the type to tire yourself out by working for your relationship and partner, trying to be everything for them, trying to be the one that they can depend on at all times. You go above and beyond for them, and your relationship with them. This is why you need a partner who is well meaning and wants to work for the relationship too because youโre not going to care if youโre tired, hungry, whatever, youโre just going to work, work, work for them. I think that youโve developed high standards and certain demands, and requirements that you need your partner to meet because in the past, all you did was work, work, work and for people who couldnโt or just didnโt do the same for you. You didnโt even ask for anything. You just kept on doing. You deserved so much better than that. Iโm glad that you can see that now.
Moving onto your cons, once youโre invested and committed, that is it. Your devotion reaches the highest point possible and youโre so busy fulfilling, managing, and balancing the relationship that you donโt notice or take into account your own happiness or lack of it. Youโre very flexible and keen on seeing, and understanding your partnerโs perspective and manage your emotions well in order to fulfil your role in the relationship, and plan and prepare for the future but youโre often too patient, and understanding. You try to find balance and happiness even if the relationship is unfulfilling for you. There are times when you are so busy balancing, understanding and maintaining the relationship by doing for it that you donโt notice how youโre being deprived of your wants and needs until it hits you really hard or even if you know that itโs not bringing you happiness, you continue trying because youโre borderline addicted to the person and are willing to put your needs, and wants in the backseat. You try to be understanding instead of leaving the relationship. โNot everything is about me.โ โNot everything has to be how I dreamed of it to be.โ You are able to find satisfaction in situations that are not satisfactory and you deserve so much better than that. You continue maintaining an image of being happy and fulfilled on the outside even if youโre dying on the inside due to how the relationship is not doing much for you. Your connections tend to drain you and in fact, rob you off your happiness and abundance, and you let it. You go through phases in your relationships but throughout it, you try your best to be understanding and patient, and maintain and fulfil the relationship. You think of the relationship as something divine and fulfilling initially, and try your best to fulfil it as such but then you start noticing that the connection is not what you dreamed of it to be but even so, you maintain optimism and continue doing for it because you understand that people are different, and that not every dream needs to come true but the more time that passes by, the more you lose your inner sense of abundance because you start bringing addicted to the other person and the lack of satisfaction only becomes more evident. Even so, you continue doing your best, you continue maintaining the relationship and being understanding, and patient but then you start becoming sadder, and start feeling lonelier. Then, you start mourning the relationship while youโre still in it. After that, you start thinking about things more logically. You start using your reasoning skills and enter a period of analysis. By this point, youโve felt and mourned enough, you become more mind oriented than heart oriented and seek mental clarity, and truth above everything.
Then you enter a period of dissatisfaction, boredom, contemplation and nostalgia. Until the sorrow phase, you are very understanding. Starting from the thinker phase onwards, you start becoming more and more dissatisfied. After this phase of dissatisfaction and contemplation is over, you realise that the connection was not even that solid, stable and grounded, and you finally have the courage to break it. You are someone who maintains the relationship in such a way that you handle both the feminine and masculine parts because you genuinely donโt mind doing for love which is actually a really good trait but in this case, itโs a con because you wouldnโt have to fulfil both the roles if your partner was not complacent in the first place. You also give away your dreams in order to find happiness in whatever the relationship is and whatever your partner has to offer. You are not someone who gives up simply because your partner and the relationship is not living up to your wishes, instead you try to make the most out of the relationship by doing your best and remain patient, understanding, and satisfied through it all until you absolutely cannot take it anymore. I feel like if youโve had past relationships, situationships, whatever, they wouldnโt have lasted as long as they did if it wasnโt for you. They lasted as long as they did only because of the effort you put into them, all the roles you took on and all the understanding, and patience that you showed. There could also be a history of getting deeply involved in situations that were not even grounded in the first place i.e. the person you were involved with was not committed to you and you were not leaving these situations despite dissatisfaction, and sorrow until you absolutely couldnโt take it anymore. If itโs not a history, it could be a tendency that youโre not even aware of yet. Be careful because you will get deeply wounded by these situations due to how much you give away. You cannot and should not try anything not committed because thatโs not how youโre programmed, thatโs not what youโre made for. In fact, if you feel or have felt used by friends of whatever sex youโre attracted to (because many of you have or will), I suggest that you make a firm decision to not be friends with them, not on a personal level at least i.e. no texting, no calling, no sorrow sharing, etc. because due to your natural provider tendencies, you might end up giving them more than you should. โYouโre losing meโ by Taylor Swift is coming through. Iโm glad that your pros showed that youโve become more demanding and have developed high standards because it will truly protect you from so many low quality experiences.
Pros:
i) You are highly intolerant of nonsense and uphold firm standards - both for yourself and for others.
ii) You are ruthlessly self-disciplined, holding yourself accountable to your own values and goals.
iii) You are patient and understand the importance of building a connection with consistency, effort and long-term investment.
iv) You are extremely perseverant, once you commit, youโre all in and donโt back down easily.
v) Youโve learned from the past to value reciprocity and have developed high standards after noticing imbalanced efforts in previous relationships.
vi) You are growth-oriented, constantly working on yourself and striving to meet your own evolving standards.
vii) You are naturally a provider, regardless of gender, and take on a role of dependability and support in relationships.
viii) You value stability and long-term commitment, and prefer grounded connections over fleeting ones.
ix) You have a traditional side when it comes to relationships, valuing maturity, wisdom and reliability
x) You do not entertain people who arenโt serious or grounded, you seek meaningful and stable partnerships.
xi) You consistently strive to better yourself and want a partner with the same mindset and drive.
xii) You are guided by values, ethics and principles, and desire a partner who is equally rooted in integrity.
xiii) While your standards are considered โhighโ, they are realistic and rooted in experience and self-awareness.
xiv) You seek a partner who is mature, loyal, focused on growth, and respectful - not one with wandering eyes.
xv) You cannot respect someone who lacks discipline or character, as your self-respect wouldnโt allow you to stay in that dynamic.
xvi) You have every right to be discerning in love because you risk your whole foundation i.e. your values, character and peace when entering a relationship.
xvii) You compromise in relationships but require someone whose character is rich, intentions are pure and who wants to contribute as much as you do.
xviii) You are peaceful by nature but enjoy occasional conflict if it adds passion and depth, when followed by reconciliation.
xix) You value peace but can find beauty in passionate, emotionally charged moments that strengthen your bond.
xx) You possess a deep sense of honesty and integrity. Even when you mess up, you are transparent.
xxi) You donโt hide your flaws, you reveal even your โuglyโ sides because you desire to be deeply known and authentically accepted.
xxii) You are unapologetically open about your past mistakes, seeing them as part of your truth, not something to be ashamed of.
xxiii) Youโre remorseful when your actions hurt your partner and put effort into rebuilding trust, showing emotional maturity.
xxiv) Youโre cautious and strategic at the beginning of a connection, not to manipulate but to protect yourself.
xxv) Once trust is built, you are transparent, candid and willing to reveal your deepest truths.
xxvi) You want your partner to love and understand you as a whole, even the parts of you that youโve struggled with yourself.
xxvii) Despite being misunderstood by others, you long for a partner who will hear your side and see the full context of who you are, and will express your truth to them.
xxviii) You are tired of conflict, competition and misunderstanding, you now seek peace, understanding and calmness in love.
xxix) You are emotionally independent - you do not chase relationships from desperation but choose them from clarity and groundedness.
xxx) You have likely experienced wealth or comfort yet are not materialistic. You value character and deep connection above material things.
xxxi) While you can self-regulate, you value mutual dependency in relationships and welcome shared vulnerability.
xxxii) You donโt put on a polished act, youโre real, raw and authentic, even if that means being a little messy at times.
xxxiii) You strive to balance independence with healthy dependency. You are reliable and incredibly grateful to have someone to rely on.
xxxiv) You are willing to stick by your partner through both abundance and scarcity, valuing emotional constancy over material security.
xxxv) You work tirelessly in your relationships - providing, nurturing, supporting, always beyond what is asked of you.
xxxvi) You require a partner who can meet you in effort and intention, youโve likely learned from exhausting one-sided relationships.
xxxvii) Youโve developed your high standards as a response to past imbalance where you gave endlessly without asking for anything in return.
xxxviii) You now recognize your worth, the value you bring, and that you deserve a partner who matches your energy and effort.
Cons:
i) Once youโre emotionally invested, your devotion becomes absolute, even to your own detriment. You over-prioritize the relationship, often neglecting your own happiness.
ii) Youโre too patient and understanding, sometimes to a fault. Youโll sacrifice your own needs in favor of maintaining harmony and โdoing the right thing.โ
iii) You tend to internalize dissatisfaction, trying to make peace with unfulfilling situations by convincing yourself to be grateful for whatever little youโre receiving.
iv) Youโre so focused on making the relationship work that you donโt realize how deprived you are until it crashes down on you emotionally.
v) You continue giving your all and keeping up appearances even while emotionally dying inside, carrying the entire emotional load silently.
vi) You minimize your needs and abandon your dreams to find satisfaction in whatever your partner is able or willing to offer, even if itโs not enough.
vii) Your emotional resilience becomes a double-edged sword allowing you to stay too long in connections that are unbalanced and hurtful.
viii) You shift into a caregiving role and unconsciously take on both the masculine and feminine energies in a relationship, trying to do everything yourself.
ix) You tend to become addicted to the person rather than the reality of the relationship, which clouds your judgment.
x) You mourn the relationship while still being in it, silently grieving the emotional starvation while continuing to serve and stay.
xi) You delay walking away from a connection that isnโt working, hoping your emotional labor will somehow transform the dynamic.
xii) You rationalize subpar treatment by telling yourself, โnot everything is about meโ or โit doesnโt have to be perfect,โ slowly eroding your own boundaries.
xiii) You try to remain optimistic and patient even as the joy and emotional richness of the connection disappears.
xiv) You experience phases in relationships: deep emotional commitment โ subtle dissatisfaction โ silent sorrow โ mental detachment โ heavy dissatisfaction โ eventual clarity and breakup.
xv) Once you hit emotional burnout, you switch from heart-led to logic-driven, seeking mental clarity and analyzing everything in retrospect.
xvi) Your pattern often leads to eventual heartbreak not because you were blind but because you delayed acting on what you already knew inside.
xvii) The relationship sometimes only lasts as long as it does because of your effort, sacrifice and emotional labor, not because of equal contribution from the other side.
xviii) You may have a pattern or history of being deeply invested in connections that were never fully committed or grounded to begin with.
xix) You could be prone to entering or staying in ambiguous dynamics (e.g. situationships) even though they do not align with your true needs for security and commitment.
xx) Your natural provider energy makes you give more than you should, even to friends or casual connections, leaving you feeling used or emotionally drained.
xxi) You are deeply wounded by experiences where you gave your all and received inconsistency or emotional neglect in return.
xxii) You are not built for emotionally casual or undefined relationships and trying to engage in them could be damaging to your well-being.
xxiii) You might unknowingly attract people who take advantage of your loyalty, patience and giving nature, especially if they sense your emotional endurance.
xxiv) Even though you have now developed higher standards, thereโs still a lingering vulnerability to fall into old emotional patterns if not constantly self-aware.
xxv) If your history includes being used by emotionally intimate friendships with those youโre attracted to, it may be necessary to establish stricter emotional boundaries.
xxvi) You have a tendency to perform emotional labor for others, taking on their pain, worries, and chaos, even when it harms your peace.
xxvii) Youโre often too understanding of poor treatment, interpreting it as โhuman flawโ rather than a red flag which slows your exit from unhealthy dynamics.
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Starting with your pros, you are someone who seeks to learn and teach in a romantic relationship. In fact, youโre always learning from everywhere and so, you want to be with someone who you can look up to and learn from, and who looks up to you and learns from you as well. Youโre very happy go lucky in many ways and have different sides to you. Youโve likely experienced the ups and downs of life but most people see you as having experienced only the ups because you can act very happy, and bubbly. Youโre also someone who can accept both the positives and negatives that come your way, and will stick with your partner through the ups and downs of life. You wonโt let life come in between you and your partner, instead youโll go with the flow of things and try to turn life around with them. You see love as a commitment, you value certain traditions and old school ideas, and naturally live by them and aspire to live by them, and do not let your commitment waver. Also, whether people know it or not, you bring a lot of luck into your romantic partnerโs life. It doesnโt have to be that good things start happening to them after you enter their life (though it very well could be) but instead that simply just having a partner like you itself is very fortunate. You understand love and commitment very deeply, and love in a divine manner. Youโre traditional and old school in many ways, and it makes you very dutiful and responsible. You do not leave your partner when theyโre going through an emotional low or a low point in their life instead you remain patient, understanding and try to see things from their perspective. You instead try to maintain the connection and work with your partner in harmony, and cooperation by understanding their emotions and taking on their usual role if you have to. Youโre flexible and donโt mind changing when life calls for it. People donโt give women enough credit. When people think about a traditional relationship, they immediately think about a working husband and a stay at home wife but they forget that life is not that simple for everyone. Even the most traditional couples from our parentโs generation and before that, the women have worked to provide for their family if they had to.
That didnโt make their relationship any less traditional. Itโs similar with you, you value old school and traditional relationships but your idea of a traditional relationship is a lot about ethics, values, and responsibilities rather than the typical traditional roles alone. You do not mind stepping up for a while if the relationship calls for it but you are definitely not willing to provide for a bum for the rest of your life. You still expect your partner to want to be a provider and if they stop trying, youโd frankly lose a lot of respect for them. You donโt mind changing and transforming deeply through your partner, relationship or for them but youโre also okay with endings. Youโre not someone who keeps on holding onto a connection just because the start of the relationship was beautiful. Youโve learned healthy self regulation by now and have changed a lot, in fact, youโre always learning, and always in the process of change and also like I said earlier, youโve experienced the ups and downs of life which includes losing connections, and people and all of it has caused you to be more comfortable with endings. You donโt care about how much potential any connection has, if you feel slightly disrespected or realise that itโs not what you want, that youโd be disrespecting yourself by staying in the connection, you will leave. Youโre a very ethical person who truly tries to watch your character and empathise, understand, and work with your partner so if you donโt receive the same, youโll leave. For you, losing respect and feeling disrespected is enough of a reason to leave because you value integrity. Character is a big thing for you and Iโm so glad that you seem to have more of a self assured approach to connections, and know what you want and can offer. Youโre also okay with not exploring the potential of connections at all and not taking them to the next level if it requires you to lose integrity, turn a blind eye to disrespect, turn a blind eye to lack of values of the other person, etc. You know how to experience relationships in a divine manner in which you become one with your partner and work as a team with patience, understanding, and love but when relationships end, you are able to see and accept that it was clearly not as grounded, stable and deep as you may have wanted it to be.
Moving onto your cons, thereโs a big emphasis on your past for those of you who have it. Your past experiences could cause you to have a more negative view of love and I mean, overwhelmingly negative. A fear of history repeating itself, a belief that whatever happened in the past will happen again, Iโm getting sleepless nights or nightmares kind of stuff but thatโs not the case for most of you and even if it is, you are able to move past it. The real problem is your partnerโs past. You want a divine and devoted love in which you pretty much become one with your partner, and you hold commitment and love to a very high standard as well as caliber. You would not get with just anyone and even if some of you have in the past, those experiences were not real, they werenโt grounded and you accept, and understand that so they hold no meaning to you but for your partner, it could, you fear that. You want to be the only one for them. It would not be a con but youโre someone who will legit break down to tears, lose sleep or wake up deeply sad at the thought of your partner having been with and loved someone else :,). Iโm the same so no judgement. Youโre also very naive and pure, you love in a young, and innocent manner and fear not receiving love in the same way. When you love someone, theyโre the only one for you and you fear that thatโs not the case for them. The mere thought of them having memories of someone else, being able to remember their touch, voice, intimate moments with them, romantic moments with them, the feeling of being with them, all and any of it is enough to break you down into tears, make you overthink and lose sleep. This is interesting, you have always been a risk taker in relationships, often ending up rushing into them and your innocent nature caused you to be taken advantage of. You were honestly very naive and still are but now youโre aware of it, and you fear having to experience such moments again. It doesnโt even have to have happened regarding romance but your past seems to have made you feel naive causing you to be afraid of taking risks now.
Youโre incredibly childlike and naive, having faith and believing in your partner without questioning things much if at all ๐ฅน. Itโs funny because you could give them hell about their past and drive yourself insane by thoughts of it but you love them so purely, and have so much faith in them. You lack assertiveness and become very soft, too soft. Youโre sensitive and are ever loving. You become too empathetic and too caring. Youโre extremely sensitive and vulnerable as well though, and despite lacking assertiveness, you tend to be very sharp and reckless when hurt. You possess a duality in which you can be out of control sometimes but are mostly not this way, in fact, youโre more subservient and meek, not expressing much assertiveness most of the time. You are instead very soft and sensitive, and loving and understanding. You experience the relationship as something very deep. It causes you to change a lot internally and question your beliefs, and change them and despite your comfortability with change, it is very intense and extreme so you try not to show the effects of it externally. However, this intensity, extremity, transformation and resistance has its way of showing up externally so you end up showing very vulnerable sides of yourself in the process of trying not to do so? Also, a very romantic thing is coming through, you try to avoid falling or showing that youโve fallen and in the process of doing so, you fail even harder or when you realise, or show that youโve fallen, thereโs just no way of getting over it. Itโs just so profound and deep. Whatโs that Mariah Carrey song thatโs been trending recently? The one that goes โI give my all to him, just one more night with you. That song is coming through and also โhopelessly devoted to youโ. You get deeply involved with your romantic partner and will have a hard time moving on from them due to how sensitive, soft and vulnerable they made you feel. You love deeply even if you are emotionally well regulated on the outside and can have a very hard time moving on. Being haunted by your past romantic partner for a really long time. Those of you who have loved someone this deeply are likely aware of this side of yourself.
Pros:
i) You approach love as a mutual journey of growth, you want to both learn from and teach your partner, creating a dynamic of shared wisdom.
ii) You are genuinely happy-go-lucky with a lighthearted spirit that coexists with emotional depth. Youโve experienced real lows but carry yourself with joy and resilience.
iii) Youโre emotionally adaptable, able to accept both the highs and lows of life without letting them disrupt your connection with your partner.
iv) Youโre committed and grounded in your view of love. For you, love is not a fleeting feeling but a deep-rooted responsibility and choice.
v) You believe in traditional values but not in a rigid or outdated way. Your version of tradition is based on ethics, responsibility and mutual respect, not gender roles.
vi) You bring genuine emotional abundance into your partnerโs life. Simply being with you is a source of good fortune, stability and growth for them.
vii) You love in a divine, spiritual way- your love is loyal, enduring and deeply respectful of the sacredness of commitment.
viii) You do not abandon your partner in their low moments. Instead, you become more understanding, empathetic and willing to help carry the emotional weight if needed.
ix) Youโre emotionally flexible and can adapt to lifeโs changing circumstances, taking on more or less in the relationship depending on whatโs needed.
x) You honor and admire traditional structures, but you donโt cling to outdated norms. Your version of tradition is modern, realistic, and rooted in character and values.
xi) You donโt shy away from responsibility when love calls for it but you have clear boundaries. Youโre not willing to support someone endlessly if theyโre not putting in effort.
xii) You expect your partner to have the drive to provide and contribute. If they stop trying altogether, you lose respect which is a clear dealbreaker for you.
xiii) Youโre capable of deep transformation through love and relationship, and open to evolving alongside your partner, while still maintaining your sense of self.
xiv) You have developed strong emotional maturity and self-regulation, which allows you to navigate endings with grace and clarity when needed.
xv) You no longer chase potential. If a connection disrespects your values or self-worth in any way, you are confident enough to walk away, no matter how beautiful it once was.
xvi) You are grounded in integrity and character. You offer understanding, empathy and accountability, and expect the same in return.
xvii) You do not tolerate disrespect, even in subtle forms. Respect is a non-negotiable for you and you trust yourself to walk away when itโs compromised.
xviii) You are not interested in โfixingโ or โseeing potentialโ in people, you know what you want and you donโt waste energy on connections that canโt meet you there.
xix) Youโve accepted the impermanence of relationships. Youโve known loss, and it has made you wiser, stronger and more discerning with your energy.
xx) You seek a divine, team-oriented connection - one where both people contribute with patience, understanding and love. You strive for harmony, not hierarchy.
xxi) When something ends, you are able to reflect with honesty and accept that the connection wasnโt as deep, stable or reciprocal as you hoped, and you let it go.
Cons:
i) Your past romantic experiences, especially if painful or unfulfilling, still linger in your emotional body and may cause you to approach love with an underlying fear of history repeating itself.
ii) You have a deeply idealistic and divine view of love, so any reminder of your partnerโs romantic or intimate past can deeply distress you, even to the point of sleepless nights, sadness or emotional spiraling.
iii) You want to be your partnerโs one and only, not just in the present but in emotional and spiritual history. The thought that you may not be, even if irrational, can cause you overwhelming sadness and insecurity.
iv) You love in a deeply innocent, childlike and devoted way. You fear not receiving love in that same pure and all-encompassing form from your partner.
v) The mere idea of your partner remembering someone elseโs voice, touch or presence can break you down because you love with your whole being.
vi) Youโve always been a risk-taker, rushing into things with open arms but this innocent approach has left you vulnerable to manipulation or being taken advantage of.
vii) Your past has made you question your judgment. Now, even though you crave deep love, youโre afraid of taking emotional risks and getting hurt again.
viii) You still carry a very innocent and trusting heart. You often believe in your partner fully, without questioning much.
ix) You lack assertiveness in romantic relationships, becoming soft, overly gentle and self-sacrificing. You tend to put your partnerโs emotional needs above your own, often to a fault.
x) Youโre extremely sensitive and deeply empathetic. While this is beautiful, it often leads to emotional overwhelm and an inability to set healthy emotional boundaries.
xi) Despite your gentle nature, when youโre hurt, you can become sharp, reactive and even reckless. You swing between emotional softness and sudden, unexpected intensity.
xii) This emotional duality - being mostly meek and self-sacrificing but occasionally eruptive when deeply wounded creates inner turmoil, and can confuse both you and your partner.
xiii) You go through deep internal transformations in relationships, questioning and shifting your core beliefs but you try to suppress or hide the external signs of this emotional upheaval.
xiv) Even though you try to appear strong or unaffected, the emotional weight of your romantic transformation leaks out, making you appear vulnerable, exposed or even fragile.
xv) You try not to show when youโve fallen in love, but the more you resist, the deeper you fall. When you do fall, itโs intense, absolute and all-consuming.
xvi) Once youโve fallen for someone, there is no easy way out for you. The love is profound, spiritually binding and not something you can detach from easily or quickly.
xvii) You are the type to give everything in love - your time, energy, emotional presence and when that love ends, it can haunt you for years.
xviii) You can carry emotional imprints of past relationships long after theyโre over.
xix) You have a hard time letting go because of how deeply the relationship affected your emotional and spiritual identity. You mourn lost love in slow, aching ways.
xx) Your emotional vulnerability is a double-edged sword, it allows you to love deeply and purely, but it also leaves you feeling devastated and fragmented when that love is not returned in kind.
xxi) Despite appearing emotionally composed or even mature on the outside, your inner world is tender, volatile and very much affected by love, even long after the relationship is over.
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(Note: I started your pile towards the end of the year so terms such as โthis yearโ likely means 2024 when it comes to the summary. Thank you for stopping to read and I hope that you enjoy your reading thoroughly.)
๊ฐ A summary of 2024 for you ๊ฑ
You started this year with a grand mindset. You wanted to expand yourself, your life and make the most out of it by creating abundance by yourself. You basically wanted to turn your life around. Iโm getting that your mindset was fairly good because you seem to have already turned something around for yourself by that point which is why you felt so confident in your vision. You were very driven to succeed and were not going to accept anything lesser than what you wanted. You were also curious, taking ideas from where you can get them, gaining knowledge from where you can so that you could make something out of your vision and you had broken free from many limitations, your mindset was not limited, negative beliefs were not present and you were dreaming big, you were also acting according to your vision like taking inspired action to the best of your capabilities. You were very empowered and driven at that time, you also had the understanding that life is a cycle but now that the year has come to an end, youโre someone who lacks work life balance and is not satisfied with how much you did causing you to feel ungrounded. Due to how much potential and time you had, and how you wasted it, youโre feeling stuck in life. You might have been looking into your past earnings and spendings (like this yearโs spendings), and feeling disappointed, and a lack in terms of finances as well. You seem to be adjusting your priorities around this time. You are feeling some financial or career pressure, mostly because you didnโt do as much as you could or wanted to do. You had great potential to create stable foundations for yourself in terms of money, goals and career specifically, you could have truly grown but itโs just disappointing how your investments were either not done well by you, like you seem to have lacked follow through or consistency or things are just going slowly, you havenโt given up, youโre still trying but youโre feeling insecure about disappointing yourself because you know how much potential you had. You probably feel like you spent a lot of money as well.
Youโre interested in connections at this moment, youโre hoping that next year things will be different and youโll have close heartfelt one on one connection(s). You failed consistency and hard work, and you feel shitty about it. Your love life was pretty much non existent or very unpeaceful. If your love life was non existent or even if it was not, you dealt with difficulty with falling asleep at some point within this year, many of you could in fact be dealing with this these days itself. You could have felt embarrassed of the people you dated in the past or looking back at the way things were, you feel ashamed and depressed because you didnโt deserve that. Iโm getting many of you being up in your heads in regard to love. There were also worries and anxiety regarding love at some point regardless of whether you were involved with someone or not. When it comes to your family, you seem to have been as responsible as you can be but you realised that you werenโt doing as much as you could and may have recently fixed it or are trying to do so. Thereโs this thing about you growing your family life in some way but being more focused on money, career, work, etc. than family because thatโs the way you seem to care about them? In terms of friendships, you seem to be pretty decisive. It could have been the year when you cut friends or a friend off with a sense of decisiveness that you didnโt possess in the previous years. You are disappointed career wise, itโs not like you didnโt try but you feel like you prioritised comfort and leisure over proper investments and work. You feel like if you had been decisive to what you wanted to follow through in the beginning of the year, youโd not be left right where you started. It seems to pain you pretty deeply to not be able to make as much progress as you wanted to but despite, the disappointment you feel, youโre trying to have an even judgement going forward and not be too hard on yourself. Youโre rethinking your mindsets, priorities, etc. and have had an awakening of some sort. You do not want to stray off your path next year and want to do better so that you do not feel disappointed in yourself, and your life again.
๊ฐ How will 2025 go for you? ๊ฑ
The main theme of the year 2025 for you is going to be to recognise your values, actions and intentions when it comes to romance, beauty, and one on one connections in general. Youโre also going to have to acknowledge where you tend to go wrong in terms of connections. If you had a love life in 2024 and are going into 2025 with that person, youโll break free from them because the situation seems toxic i.e. one that makes you anxious, makes you feel negatively about yourself or life, makes your mind race or/and cause you sleepless nights. However, the rest of you are going to be alone or at least internally focused, causing you to attain a lot of wisdom and also grow to love your own company more. There are going to be hard truths that youโre going to learn about romance, connections and the opposite gender in the coming year. Youโre also going to learn how to not put all your eggs into one basket, not out of lack of loyalty but out of self respect, by the end of the year, youโre going to grow into someone who is not going to commit to uncommitted situations. Youโre going to be pretty unwilling to commit as well because youโre not going to find what youโre looking for. Your focus in the year 2025 should be on your commitment, attachment and abandonment issues. Protect yourself and keep in mind what people are capable of doing, how they may hurt or abandon you and make peace with it, knowing that that has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. I also suggest that you hold back on sharing your feelings, money, energy and presence during the year. Youโre being told to save money. Also, hold yourself as your most prized possession. Not from a place from insecurity or narcissism but from an empowered place where you understand that youโre so valuable that anyone who leaves you behind is clearly dumb because someone else would break their back and bank in order to have something even half as precious. โSome people wonโt be able to afford meโ is the kind of mindset you should have. When I say โaffordโ, I do not mean that youโre a commodity but that youโre very valuable and some people simply wonโt have the resources required to match up to the vibration where they could get and coexist with you. Please just have more faith in yourself and donโt give yourself away to people who do not live up to your standards action-wise because as the old saying goes โactions speak louder than words.โ Youโre going to get opportunities that are going to keep you very busy but there are going to be opportunities for distractions and long term uncommitted connections as well. You could get an opportunity that allows you to grow from within your comfort zone itself or will push you out of it, tiring you out. Youโre going to have incredibly strong intuition and an access to information, and wisdom from a higher source out of nowhere or through a medium (youtube, audios, people, etc.) but will have a hard time trusting all of this. It is important for you to push for the truth by being a clear thinker who observes situations well, and spends time putting two and two together. Youโre being told that your intuition will often be supported by the physical reality, itโs just that words might fool you so you need to be very vigilant and observant because actions canโt be faked. Youโre being told that people can have bad intentions but they usually do have good ones, but even so, their actions are often bad so it should not be that difficult to connect the dots. There might be trouble in terms of education, skill building, team work, etc. Youโre going to get in touch with a very unconscious side of yourself and your psyche that you didnโt even know existed, itโs going to be scary, confusing and you might not like many things that you might see but youโll grow your depth, and will develop a stronger understanding of yourself going forward.
Youโre going to see your own darker qualities and will also realise where youโve faced deceit from yourself or others. Iโm getting a lot of truth coming out but also a very glazed energy, like you wonโt be sure whatโs real and whatโs not, itโs going to be difficult to differentiate between truth and illusion, and youโre going to hurt a lot. You could also face major endings this year. It doesnโt even have to be external or something that youโre aware of but youโre going to grow to be more humble, stability and career driven, and will be ethical, and consistent. Youโre going to learn a lot about productivity and work ethic during the year. Iโm getting that the ending is going to be more a spiritual thing by the way. In terms of romance, youโre either going to have a very light hearted and reckless approach or a very serious one but youโre going to break free definitely. Youโll understand that youโre very powerful and that oftentimes, romance has caused you to think of yourself with a sense of inferiority but that you being fooled back then doesnโt mean you canโt just reclaim your power. If you arenโt involved with people and wonโt be at that time, you will try to stop thinking about situations and people because youโll have realised that the only power anyone or anything can have is the attention that you give it. In terms of family, if you have had a bad past with them, youโre going to be pretty apathetic honestly. Especially when it comes to past complaints or negative memories that you may have of them, youโre going to accept and heal those instead of thinking about them every time something occurs within the household. Youโre going to have a lot of empathy for your family but will also have the emotional intelligence to know that you didnโt deserve certain things that you may have had to go through because of them. Youโre still going to forgive and love them though, and if you have a good relationship with them with a good past, youโre going to be contemplative and will find that certain members within it truly help you heal, like it will just be something that youโll be grateful for even if itโs something that youโre so used to that youโve started taking for granted but thereโs going to be a lot of understanding and love that youโll be extending from your side. Your career and finances are going to expand, and will likely bring in a lot of abundance, and understanding of your own path. You will likely think back to days when things werenโt as good and will be grateful. You should focus on management of money and time, and make sure you donโt spend, work or play excessively. If youโre consistent and manage your time, and resources well, 2025 will bring in so much money and career growth for you. Your own hopeful and well influenced qualities will be affecting 2025 but youโll not even notice it. You might notice it now that Iโve pointed it out to you but it is going to heavily affect your year despite how unnoticed it will be. Youโre going to do most things out of love and the love, and hope that youโve received at any point in the past is going to help you do your best during this year. Youโre also going to be more loved and influential that you might consider yourself to be, youโll likely not be aware of the extent. My advice for you for next year is to communicate or at least think through emotionally unstable, uncomfortable or unsatisfying moment properly. Try not to react impulsively to negative thoughts and emotions. The outcome is going to be self contentment, you being able to stand up for yourself and possibly experiencing losses. Due to how much โbreaking freeโ energy Iโve received for you, it could be that youโll start fighting back instead of silently taking it causing people to get upset but even if itโs something different, you will be more regretful about engaging with such people or situations than losing them because itโll be their loss, not yours. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.
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๊ฐ A summary of 2024 for you ๊ฑ
You started the year with a passionate energy but it could have been overconfident in nature. Iโm getting that your mindset was scattered in some way. You were thinking about many things and hence, were feeling a lot as well. You had had enough reality checks by then but these reality checks were the very thing that were causing you to feel overwhelmed. Iโm getting a lot of passion, frustration, anger, impatience from you, like your mind was all over but it was still very passionate. Your hard work was paying off in some way. It could simply be that you had grown enough to grow out of certain situations and were persevering to build a better future for yourself. Despite the places your mind was at, you were maintaining patience. You could have wanted to grow something in the previous year, like at the beginning of it but were tired and were trying not to overdo it but you had already worked long, and hard to build yourself to that point as well. You were very committed and perseverant towards your goals. Even situations that caused you frustrations, anger and overthinking were situations that you managed to gain from. It was disheartening for you that what you had previously invested in, thinking that it had grown or wanting it to had disappointed and failed you. You were working on growth and your goals, and giving up was not an option for you. Iโm honestly getting a lot of disappointments, anger and passion, like even though these feelings are different, passion being positive and the other two being negative, they were all very strong. The reality checks that you had were something you didnโt want to have, you really wanted situations to work and it broke your heart that you were starting to see the reality of things, and accept it. You also felt frustrated at yourself for not seeing and accepting the truth of situations early on. The illusions that you had previously attached yourself to emotionally were something that you were breaking out of and it felt overwhelming, it also felt good and like you were making progress but it was also heartbreaking. You could have been trying to balance these overwhelming emotions by grounding yourself in reality and having something to do in real life because you had cracked the code by then that the best way to deal with emotions, illusions, excessive daydreaming and just things that feel real but also feel illusive is by immersing yourself in real life, in your daily routines and simply just having a life grounded in reality itself. You had already overcome a lot of instability and feelings of being left out in the cold, isolated, insecure, etc. You were still in the process of healing more of these. There could have been a point when reality was so bad that you were unconsciously or subconsciously trying to hold onto whatever illusions you could find comfort in but they led to nothing but wasted time, pain, hurt and disappointments in the long term of things. At that time, you were getting rid of all of that and had already managed to significantly do so. Iโm also picking up on these situations being partially real or at least very real emotionally. For example, if a kid got bullied for being ugly and worthless during their middle school days, even if it never extends beyond harsh words, snickers and humiliation, it will definitely terribly humble them and even destroy their self esteem. It could have not seemed that serious because โpeople will say things, you canโt take everything to heart and itโs not bullying because it never got physicalโ but to that kid, it feels real, it felt real, it will feel real even after theyโve grown up and it is just so deeply ingrained in their psyche, and emotionality. They will still feel as though theyโre unwelcome, others are trying to ridicule and humiliate them, others think that theyโre worthless, others will treat them unfairly, leave them out, etc.
Iโm literally crying because these situations that emotionally affected you but didnโt seem to be โthat big of a dealโ in the physical world seem to have happened a lot, as well as other negative things that were very real but you werenโt aware of the extent of them in the past. At the beginning of 2024, your soul had overcome a lot and was still in the process of doing so. You know how people say that they just randomly got over something? That was sort of what happened but again, the reality is that you didnโt just get over it. Like, you took half a decade to mourn but randomly stopped mourning as much on a random day is the vibe that Iโm getting. You also spent so much time by yourself, feeling hurt, lonely and isolated that you got used to it, and not only that but also developed a sense of solace within yourself, and life itself. You might have not realised when this happened but it had already happened by the beginning of the previous year. You were forgiving situations, people and even yourself. There were two paths that you could have followed during the previous year, one was the path of stability but also more isolation and less self expression but you would have accomplished a lot of your goals or one where you were spending more money, not saving, doing your best in terms of work because you lacked consistency and were just burnt out, and tired all the time and not being able to maintain a routine, etc. but were able to develop more of a style and sense of self expression. No matter what path you took, you did it well and Iโve gotta applaud you for that. By the end of the year, you had a major shift in mindset, you had become much more empowered and just felt more in power, and control than you did in the past years. โYouโre burning up, Iโm cooling down. Youโre up, Iโm down. Youโre blind, I see but Iโm free.โ When you were younger, you struggled with feelings of inferiority and powerlessness. Especially in the previous years, there was a sense of power, mental, emotional, spiritual and possibly physical poverty. Everything you experienced broke you down little by little and possibly even crushed you completely at some point. Your mindset had become one of obsession, negativity and powerlessness but by the end of the previous year, you had grown into someone who had more control and power over their own mind, and you also had this realisation that your power is yours, and itโs impossible to truly strip you off it. In the past, people and situations managed to make you feel disempowered, helpless and honestly pathetic but by the end of 2024, you had grown out of it. You seem to have learned the lesson of at least trying to keep your mind as clean as possible. โThe only power anything has over you is your attention.โ You have understood just how powerful and worthy you are, and it did break your heart that you didnโt realise it sooner but by the end of the year, you were feeling confident, warm and authentic. You were happy to have gotten back to yourself and your power even if it took a lot of time for you to get there. You also really value this mindset, sense of power and confidence within yourself because you know what it is like to not have it. You seem to be content being your authentic self again and having an empowered mindset but what I need to address is the way you act. You were not being very honest towards the end of the year and might still be this way. Like, you could have lied about little things here and there, or maybe you didnโt even lie but you just donโt expose what you do, what your life is like, what your emotionality is like, etc. to other people. You seem to be very private and in fact, very secretive. You are willing to take risks and are very strategic. You could be highly interested in keeping up a certain image and might feel like youโre unable to do so. It could be something youโre dealing with right now or die when you were in the end of the previous year.
Iโm getting the desire to have a refined โpersonaโ but one thing that I need to tell you and itโs something that you already know is that all you need to do is be yourself. Youโre naturally quite secretive. Donโt fake yourself entirely in order to become a persona. You can take good qualities of yourself and exaggerate them but you still do not have to be perfect. You had grown to be very comfortable with yourself by the end of the year but you may be hard on yourself in regards to actions, words and image, you care a lot about how you come across to others by the way you present yourself. Youโre being told to be yourself but still keep your inner world away from otherโs reach, let little parts of yourself and your life trickle through but make sure itโs out of reach for people until theyโve earned it. Youโre naturally good at this though, just reflect on the past, youโve always been good at this but youโre also good at reaching into other peopleโs inner world and exposing a vulnerable part of it to them. You had grown to be content and abundant by the end of the year, in terms of emotions especially. Youโve made significant progress when it comes to authenticity this year. Youโre being told to refine yourself further and also your persona because you seem to truly want to do it but not to remove authenticity from it. Itโs not even like you need to be deliberately crafting a persona, as long as youโre yourself because youโve already learned how to be very secretive. Youโre also resourceful and have found a way to get what you want even if youโre not entirely honest about certain things. Like, for example, Iโm currently volunteering at a campaign for underprivileged children even though itโs only for college students but Sir Warrick has fit me in by lying that Iโm a university student xD. Is it a big lie? Not really. Did I get what I want? Yes. Your soul has already gained contentment and abundance. Iโm getting an almost happy go lucky energy from your soul. 2024 could have been a busy and fast year for you, one where you were constantly on the go. This could have been in two ways, either that you were busy working and had a lot on your plate work wise or were going out a lot, developing personal style, expression, etc. but still had personal and work responsibilities to deal with so the year just passed by in the blink of an eye for you. You learned a lot about the mind, keeping it in the right place, gained clarity about things and have gotten in touch with your reasonable and powerful side during the previous year, and also learned more about the importance of being active. You seem to know by now that having something to keep you engaged is the best way to retain your power because youโll be grounded in reality and within yourself, and wonโt have much time to overthink. You have a desire to retain your power by being reasonable, intelligent, sharp and knowing how to create, and set firm boundaries. You also want to be more active, accomplishing your goals and being someone who leads by action rather than word. This is why you seem to be really critical of yourself when it comes to your image and persona but trust me, as long as youโve got a firm and strong character within yourself, and are leading with kindness, compassion and well worked out actions, youโre doing fine but yes, you do seem to have people who like to disrespect and ridicule you without you having done anything, make sure that you stand up for yourself but do so as calmly as possible, and just try to avoid such individuals. Itโs better to not waste your breath, energy and words on such people, and situations. Prevention is better than cure as they say, if people seem to disrespect you for no reason, just avoid them entirely because these kinds of people only disrespect you the more they get to know you.
๊ฐ How will 2025 go for you? ๊ฑ
2025 for you is going to be a year of a lot of overthinking, illusions, etc. but also being so over it that your year will be about clarity, awareness of your depth, lessons from deep within your psyche, etc. Youโre going to move on from a lot of your ways that youโre deeply stuck in. โYou canโt deny, how hard Iโve tried. I changed who I was to put you both first but now I give up.โ In the past, you were under the illusion that maybe you should be more sacrificing for harmonious connections but as you grew older, you realised that the more you bent over backwards for others, the more they stepped all over you, you realised that it was not harmonious but in fact, unfair and harmful to you. It led to a deep dive into your own psyche and hence, shame like were you doing all that out of desperation? If all of this has not yet happened, it is going to happen this year in very extreme ways. There was also this thought of maybe you just werenโt enough because stripping yourself off of who you were and your own needs was not enough for others. By the end of the previous year itself, you had become very aware of your own power and had grown to be less ashamed, and more accepting of yourself - the good and the bad so I would say that youโre going to grow on that, and move on from a lot. Youโre still going to be carrying baggage of the past but youโre going to be unwilling to return to places, situations and emotions that had you feeling so helpless. This year, youโre getting the opportunity to free yourself from other peopleโs over domination over you. You seem to have a dormant sense of dominance and aggression to you that you do not tap into or express but some others can pick up on it, leading to them feeling aggressive too and feeling the need to over exercise control over you, and those who donโt underestimate you, and try to walk all over you. In the past, people succeeded to trap you and control you, pretty much making you work according to them like a marionette, their doll that theyโre using threads to control. There seems to be a theme in friendships, particularly opposite sex ones where you find out that they viewed you as an option or someone to rely on, flirt with, share an emotional connection with as a replacement for a romantic one, etc. rather than a genuine friendship and it has left you feeling used, and in romance, there seems to be a lack of commitment that youโve experienced from others and there was likely a point, when you stuck in such situations, and youโre going to look back at it and go โgosh, I was so stupidโ, youโre going to low-key (high key honestly) bully yourself because why werenโt you enough and mostly why did you think that you werenโt enough? Why did you act like you werenโt enough by sticking in such situations? Youโve had a history of being an underachiever because situations in the past caused you to have a crushed esteem and you were not able to have practical routines when younger. You used to lack follow through, resources and were honestly lazy to a certain extent in the past, making it easy for others to underestimate you because you were underachieving and stuck in situations that anyone with a healthy esteem would not even think about entertaining but youโre going to manage to grow out of it this year. This is making me heavily emotional. You could also meet people - acquaintances and friends who help you move on from the past that haunts you in some way but itโs going to be a journey that youโre going to have to take on on your own, youโre going to have to get over it in the comfort of your own home, bed, space and mind. Your inner world is going to bring about a lot of shame, fears and lack of empowerment, youโre going to blame yourself for being so stupid in the past but youโre going to move on from it at some point, finally being able to see light at the end of the tunnel. The laziness and lack of discipline that you previously had deeply ingrained within you is going to be something you break in order to protect your ego.
Youโre going to break free from the people, systems and situations that previously abused their power over you. Youโre also going to get rid of your own overthinking and powerlessness, and need for control significantly. Youโre going to start by feeling angry at yourself for everything that you had to experience but will direct that rage onto those who hurt you and honestly, used you in some way but youโll use these experiences in order to shape better routines, habits, discipline, common sense, groundedness into yourself and your life. Some of you could have quite literally gotten bullied by your friends, family, lovers, acquaintances, classmates, etc. in the past or a group of all of them causing you to have a lot of trauma. Youโre going to struggle with seeing your power and influence, and how amazingly great you are despite your dualities during this year. Youโre going to be bullying yourself very heavily. There could be moments when youโre more play than work but there are also going to be moments when youโre very serious, lacking play. Youโre likely to struggle with materialising your potential into reality due to your over playfulness or over seriousness. Like, the energy that Iโm getting is that when youโll work, youโll work so seriously and in extremes, burning yourself out completely. Youโre going to have to learn how to manage your time and energy properly, and figure out what works for you during this year but itโs going to be difficult for you because youโre going to have a lot of disempowering thoughts in your mind triggered by the past or of the past itself that will feel very real to you. Your focus should be on your pure heart, try to keep your heart as light as possible because your mind is going to be very heavy and hence, unload onto your heart. Iโm getting the siren lore coming through (both the fish and bird ones). Youโre being told to beautify yourself and try to present yourself properly without being too hard on yourself. Youโre being told that you need to โfeel itโ in order to become it. Correct yourself to feel the way you want as many times as you need to. You are being told to have faith in yourself and courage, and determination in your path. Youโre being told to focus on how pure hearted you are and understanding that it was their loss, and that the more you think about past situations, the more power youโre giving them. Youโre being told to pursue your goals and are being told that in regards to love connections, you like pure hearted, childlike, fun and innocent ones, so you should not settle for anything lesser than that. Donโt ever fall for desperation. This year, youโre going to learn how to be more biased and less committal because youโll know what it is like to be in one sidedly committed situations. Also, youโre going to realise the unfairness of your previous investments, be it in connections or something else. Youโre going to understand where you were the one struggling to properly invest time, energy and resources to certain activities, causing you to not reap the ideal results. Basically, youโre going to find out where youโre lacking action wise or are not allotting time and energy properly. Youโre going to find a sense of belonging within yourself and are going to close cycles, moving forward steadily. Work wise, youโre going to lack consistency but youโre still not going to lack perseverance. For example, you want to keep a routine throughout the month, you might be unable to do so but youโll still make sure you complete your work. Everything that will be weighing on your mind and heart will make it difficult for you to work consistently. Youโre going to waste a lot of energy thinking about the past and worrying about the future, when you could use it to build your career instead. Still youโre going to go very far from where you previously were or currently are. Youโre not really going to be in a bad place, in fact, youโre going to be reaping a lot of what youโve grown and will be looking forward to more by the end of the year.
What I think is going to happen is that cycles of the past that youโre unable to close, sudden negative changes that have or will happen will affect you without your knowledge. Now that Iโve told you, itโs going to be something you have more awareness of but itโs still going to be quite unconscious to you. Youโre going to be morally guided, these morals were likely passed down to you by a teacher or someone you met in an institution like a school, if not it could simply be the institution itself held those values but youโre going to be trying to go about things very ethically and are going to let go of more insecurities than you did the previous year, major healing is on the way. My advice to you is that this year has high potential for letting go of the past without regrets. Forgive and forget because that way things wonโt have a power on you anymore. Thereโs no point of holding onto anger, regrets, disappointment, shame and aggression. Yes, you were wronged but you being wronged is what has caused extreme changes in your life, while they might not feel good and probably make you, and made you feel unstable, itโs only a signal to you to ground yourself further and build yourself more, and more. You do not have to forgive people externally, forgive them within yourself in order to heal your own heart. Youโre a romantic person but any sort of romance youโve experienced, even the slightest trace of it has caused the rug to be pulled from underneath your feet without any warning but embracing these changes is the only way to go otherwise, youโre going to experience lack for a longer time than you have to, youโre going to feel unstable and lack abundance for longer. The main theme of your relationships are forgiveness, grudges, extreme pain and healing. The outcome is going to be - you being unwilling to compromise and work with others, and choosing your personal goals over emotions. Youโre going to love people but your sense of responsibility for yourself, your passions and competitions is going to be higher. Youโre going to be unwilling to let anyone walk all over you, causing you to have aggressive fights or at least some tension in your connections. In your familial connections, youโre going to hold love for them but itโs going to be stifled in some way. Thereโs going to be a lack of love, passion, trust, belonging and support in all your connections or at least thatโs how youโre going to feel. Youโre going to be more defensive and authentic in who you are by the end of this year. Youโre not going to be willing to bend down to anyone. Youโre also going to be lonely but are not going to be feeling that way. Well, you will feel that way but youโll prioritise character, actions and the inner world a lot so you are going to have your priorities in the right place, knowing that money is important but still not enough to bring about true happiness. Youโre going to be a bit arrogant but will have a lot of silent power because youโre going to prioritise your own character and actions too. Youโre going to be unwilling to make excuses and will be hard on yourself when you do something that youโre not proud of but youโll remind yourself that others walked all over you so much in the past, itโs just the frustrations pouring out and that while it is still not an excuse to be so aggressive at times and have anger tantrums at the wrong time, on the wrong people, and situations, youโre going to choose to do better because youโll feel a lot of shame but will still be trying to not ruminate over something you cannot change. Youโre going to have a strong desire to be yourself at all costs and will be very aggressive, be it internally or externally when someone tries to change or question that. Youโre going to set strong boundaries and will mind being an aggressive bitch to others but will understand that you were pushed to such a limit and wonโt be too hard on yourself for too long. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.
โน ! เณ Pile 3 ๊ฑ
๊ฐ A summary of 2024 for you ๊ฑ
The overall theme of 2024 for you was aggression and competitiveness driven towards or by past events, and people. It doesnโt seem to be a bad thing honestly. The past seems to have been on your mind quite heavily but even so, you managed to build yourself a lot. In the past, you could have dealt with competitive friends who used to humble you in subtle ways, in fact you dealt with acquaintances who used to try to humble you in subtle or well, straightforward ways and you used these events of the past to go after your goals, and push forward with passion, and determination because you wanted to be taken seriously and most importantly, you wanted to take yourself seriously. There was also some anger towards a past person who you shared a deep, triggering but oddly comforting bond with even though you knew them for a short time or possibly a long time because they didnโt keep in touch with you or something like that. What I find really funny here is that you probably still have mixed feelings towards this person, like such a soft spot but such a weak one, so much love and affection but equal amount of resentments, anger and complaints. You started the previous year with a contemplative energy, you were thinking a lot about self love and your own sensitive nature, and also how much love and empathy you provided others with, with hopes of receiving basic respect and treatment. You were thinking about desperation, self love and all of that. Action wise, you were breaking free from a lot of limitations, hurt, pain, fears, sorrow, devastation, suffering and powerlessness. Thatโs how you were building foundations for your new life, little by little, step by step. I just heard โbaby stepsโ, so well maybe you were falling a lot before you started walking in a more balanced manner. Emotionally and relationship wise, you were overwhelmed, you just felt like you lacked fulfilment and abundance in this part of your life, and you were closed off to love because you really value the deep aspects of love, and intimacy, and also value emotions, and love beyond just the earthly way in which people seem to love. You donโt want something superficial, you want something deep, all consuming yet still allows you to be yourself. You also value the character of the other person, you want them to offer more than just material value to you and you found it difficult to find people who truly appeal to you. You felt independent and lonely, and unloved but you were extending that love to yourself and trying to nourish yourself, and build yourself character wise as well because to you, your character is of utmost importance. Like, if you do something that youโre not proud of or realise that youโve drifted away from your true character, it weighs pretty heavily on you. You wanted to become someone who you could be proud of in terms of character. You were honestly sorta sad but you were trying to see the light, find hope and optimism, even if you overdid it sometimes. You wanted to grow stability, groundedness, character, career and money. In terms of life, you could have decided to follow where the grass seemed greener. You just kind of left situations suddenly, not wanting to take negativity into your new year. You were looking forward to your future and were looking inwards for wisdom, and guidance. Iโm not getting a lot of human interaction from you at that time or it was just not interaction that affected you in any way. By the end of the year, you had grown to have control over your mind and knew how powerful you truly are. You wanted to grow this power more but for the right reasons. You wanted to become more reliable as a person and felt the need to be responsible, reasonable and have a strong character that you maintain steadily. You had also become very graceful and well influenced by the end of the year. Wanting to be gentle and having a lot of hope despite any chaos that you may have experienced in the previous years.
Youโve become friendly but you had already and were still overcoming obstacles with grace, making you have faith in yourself and life itself. Emotionally, you had developed a deep understanding of yourself already and were in the process of getting an even deeper understanding of yourself, and your own psyche. You were committed to fairness, wanting to be fair to others and yourself i.e. if someone made a choice of any sort, if they did or said anything, theyโd have to deal with the consequences of what comes out of it. โYou make your bed, you sleep in itโ is the vibe that Iโm getting here. You had become someone who was slightly hard on yourself because you wanted to remain in control of yourself and have a great character, one that is reliable, responsible and built so strongly, it canโt be broken down. You had already accomplished a lot and built a lot for yourself, and especially within yourself but you wanted to do more, you wanted to be more. โWhen youโre not growing, youโre regressingโ and you didnโt want to regress so you were hard on yourself so youโd not get complacent and instead could continue growing. You were also tired of constantly working on yourself and your life but you were also slightly proud of yourself. You were persevering in life, not letting yourself break or give up. You had developed a lot of courage because your life forced you into situations where you had no choice but to develop and channel such a side. Youโve learned the importance of not yelling at people and having temper tantrums in the previous year. Youโve also learned the importance of equality and healthy power dynamics in relationships. You also learned the importance of giving without expecting returns though, maybe you just learned that you felt good when you gave to others wholeheartedly without any expectations. You learned that power is silent and that you do not need to be externally well reputed or popular in order to have power. You could have quite literally learned the power of silence. โCommunication is key but it is better not to communicate with those who are not willing or capable enough to understand you.โ You learned the importance of self love and not over empathising, also that being too hard on yourself is something you need to stop doing. You learned that the emotional intelligence and empathy that you give others should be something you extend to yourself as well. You learned how to learn and be more humble, you also learned how to hold silent power by letting others underestimate or try to humble you but not being able to because you have developed a healthy esteem and life for yourself where youโre content and donโt think or feel like youโre superior or inferior to anyone but are grateful to have all that you have.
๊ฐ How will 2025 go for you? ๊ฑ
2025 is going to be the year of growing to become more mature and wise. The main theme of the year is domesticity of some sort. Your year could revolve around community of some sort, home, stability, family, etc. This year is going to allow you to hide yourself by straying you far from yourself, youโre going to feel like youโre unable to be your authentic self and are either going to be forced to hide by circumstances or are going to do so yourself. Also, despite moments of pessimism, youโre going to have that sense of โnot giving upโ within you. Youโre going to be trying to find hope, some light desperately and will find it but there is going to be a sense of not being your authentic self at some point during the year. Also, being unseen and hiding yourself. Like I said earlier, it could be deliberate or something that life brings to you. Youโre going to struggle with emotional attachments and detachments, youโll probably not want to let go of certain people, situations or ways despite them not fulfilling you. Iโm picking up on a sense of emotional overwhelm but also detachment pushing you far from your normal self, making you realise how unauthentic youโve become, how far youโve strayed from yourself and hence, helping you grow by making you unseen for a while so that you can learn how to improve yourself instead of prove yourself. You should focus on keeping your zest for life alive and remaining confident with a healthy self esteem during this year. Youโre going to grow in big ways, becoming more secure within yourself, valuing stability, refining virtues present within you and instilling new ones, etc. For those of you who earn, you might save up or might have an increase in income. Youโre going to be more grounded within yourself outside of external validation because itโs going to be your year of spending more time at home, re-evaluating what domestic bliss means to you and remaining unseen in some way. This is going to be the year when youโre either going to give more than youโre receiving out of responsibility or will realise the unfairness in your connections in the past. If not, you might have already realised it and youโre going to be very weary of give and take during this year. Despite this weariness, thereโs a genuine desire to give without expectations of receiving anything. Romantically, youโre going to be someone with discernment. Youโre going to be someone who doesnโt place unfair blame on others and yourself. โHe did this so I canโt interact with him anymore but no hard feelingsโ is the vibe that Iโm getting here. Youโre going to feel like taking things personally and holding grudges doesnโt do anything except make one relive the pain. Familial connections will be healing as by the end of the year, youโre going to want to provide for them and simply just be someone of rich character so youโre going to forgive them and not get mad or at least act out of anger when it comes to them.
Platonically, you could have conversations with people through texting but Iโm getting quality time and fun with people being fleeting. Youโre should be more patient when it comes to finances, studies, career, skills, etc. Youโre being told to put in work consistently and wait for results to show instead of fearing the unknown, and stopping to reanalyse things again and again. Time management, money management, etc. could be really tricky during this year. You could maintain a delicate balance but you have to make sure that you keep your priorities straight because there is definitely a chance that youโre going to feel disappointed at the time and resources you wasted when looking back. For those of you remaining focused, youโre simply going to be busy and maintaining things very delicately. Yes, you might make mistakes here and there but youโre going to manage to have something to show for the efforts that you put in throughout the year. Besides, even if you do not have anything to show for your efforts, your success will be found in your daily routines and I think thatโs a lot xD. Youโre going to have pride and a desire for recognition that youโll be unaware of you that will be motivating your actions during the year. For example, when reevaluating your needs and desires for your domestic life. You might feel like itโs ideal to look after your family and provide for them to the best of your abilities because youโll want to feel a sense of pride in doing so, and will want to be seen as someone whoโs doing all of this. Youโre being told to remain even tempered and level headed, trying to balance things out properly instead of blaming yourself or anyone for anything, or letting your anger or emotions get to you. โDO NOT LISTEN TO SAD MUSIC AND IMAGINE SITUATIONS THAT NEVER HAPPENED OR EVEN REPLAY THE SITUATIONS THAT DID SOON!โ If you disappoint yourself, donโt be too hard on yourself and be as gentle as you would be with a child who made a small mistake. The outcome is going to be you stopping to seek love and nurturing in ways that could violate your self respect. Developing stronger ethics and following them, possibly starting to understand and value some old school systems. For example, sex only after marriage. Iโm picking up on you feeling really weak and vulnerable by the end of the year due to lack of love, nurturing and understanding from others but learning from it by diving deep into your own psyche, patterns and actions, and also accepting other peopleโs actions for what they truly were, even if it hurts. Youโre going to be a very ethical, respectful and slightly old school person who desires to be a recipient of ethical, respectful and old school treatment by the end of the year. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

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Mermaidโs Guide for the Astrological Aspects
หหยฐโข*โโท Aspects 101
Planets Aspects
Sun Aspects
When it comes to the Sun and its aspects, it's all about the inner you, your personality and your ego.
Conjunct: Your self is emphasized
Opposition: Focus on self-perception and others
Square: Tension and challenge with your personality
Trine: Harmony and ease with your personality
Sextile: Help in expressing your ego.
Sun/Moon: Inner needs and feelings intertwined with self-expression
Sun/Mercury: Self-expression and creativity intertwined with information processing and idea exchange
Sun/Venus: Self-worth and creativity intertwined with partnerships and social activities
Sun/Mars: Purpose and creative expression intertwined with drive for action and assertion
Sun/Jupiter: Creativity and self-expression intertwined with philosophical and spiritual beliefs
Sun/Saturn: Creativity and self-expression intertwined with hard work and perseverance
Sun/Uranus: Creativity and self-expression intertwined with freedom and individuality
Sun/Neptune: Creativity and self-expression intertwined with sensitivity to the inner world and imagination
Sun/Pluto: Creativity and self-expression intertwined with embracing change and inner depths.
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โplain beauty quivers in the presence of
charisma for it senses a stronger opponentโ
Today we'll take a look at:
- the beauty of being you that solely belongs to you
- how should you go about enhancing your ethereality?
โน ! เณ Pile 1 ๊ฑ
๊ฐ The beauty of being you that solely belongs to you ๊ฑ
The beauty of being you comes from the fact that you have come to value reciprocity. However, despite how much you value reciprocity, at this point youโve turned more stingy with your time, energy, presence and emotions because you understand that not everyone deserves you in certain ways. Youโve become someone who doesnโt reciprocate much or give anything away until youโve vetted the other person out properly. Itโs funny because you have a very generous spirit and you might not mind buying things for others or giving sweets to little children along the way if you happen to meet any. You have been manipulated in the past and have had felt powerless and it initially led to a lot of confusion, fear and mental health issues. You might have been deluded about certain things and situations but it led to you seeing and facing many different sides of yourself. Initially, it was not enjoyable but this deep dive within your psyche has led to you having a knowledge of yourself including whatโs valuable to you. Youโve started putting yourself first no matter what and prioritise self care strongly. Youโve become someone who doesnโt care much about closures as long as the other personโs actions to show for it. You have something very raw about you, sometimes your emotions come out very strongly which is a weak point but it only further adds to your charm because the rawness you possess is striking. However, this is something people usually donโt see coming. You have an image of someone whoโs more submissive honestly. People often believe that youโd not have it in you to stand up for yourself which seems to be kind of true, when someone tells you something hurtful, you just sit there and process it without much reaction at all. Even if you do react, you havenโt fully grasped what was told to you so you still react pretty calmly. You are self critical and seem to have a slight bit of an inferiority complex so people think that youโd lack boundaries and you seem to be really theatrical, and overdo it at times in terms of being friendly, laughing, enjoying and expressing yourself because you still have a lot of pride and donโt like to show weakness which gives you a very interesting image, almost like a manic pixie dream girl/boy but with more dimension to your character and your moments of rawness and vulnerability only further add onto it. You seem to always value exciting times and freedom, and Iโm not sure if you realise or not but thereโs a slight fleeting charm to you due to these qualities. Youโre a realistic person and take actions with rationality. You see past illusions, one way to tell that this is true is that you can see the illusions of the past as illusions and accept it. Youโve become someone very demanding in terms of romance and thatโs good. You choose from your heart but you donโt forget to rationalise things and reason properly. You donโt give into fantasies and possibilities anymore. You think that if something is worth it, itโs going to be more than fantasy and possibility driven. Youโre hopeful about the future and are very inspiring because you are gentle, friendly but still independent and kind of distant. Thereโs an elusive charm to you as in despite you overdoing it by being too friendly at times, you donโt give yourself away easily and despite your self critical nature, you donโt let it have a hold on you to the point you donโt see the reality of situations and you continue being hopeful.
You also sometimes end up showing really raw emotions but it still doesnโt change how gentle of a nature you possess. Thereโs something serene about you. Youโre pleasing to the senses in more ways than one because you have this natural ability to see and appreciate othersโ core essence and their quirks, qualities that they may have been made fun of or excluded for. You treat people who are disabled with a lot of normality too. Supposing, your classmate was a special child, you could have talked to them normally and joked around with them, and never mentioned anything about the way they were. There was once a point when you would have remained loving and empathetic no matter what but you mostly extend that to yourself these days. Emotionally, despite having been hurt and betrayed, and having to heal from it. You have this purity to you that ends up touching the inner child of others. You know how to make people feel that flutter in their stomach and heart, you naturally gain other peopleโs affection because you show a caring attitude. Thereโs just this childlike crush that others seem to develop for you. You also have a great capacity to involve yourself deeply and emotionally into your emotions for others, in others emotions and in their lives but you donโt feel like it anymore. You understand that unless thereโs a commitment, thereโs no need for you to do that. You have incredibly high standards and expectations for yourself, and others. It affects your emotions when you end up giving too much of your energy to someone because at this point, you know that not everyone deserves it. For some of you, there was once a point when you used to get angry at the one you were involved with because there was a lot of love present and you wanted the connection to go well and you wanted to be understood so bad but it was taken the wrong way so you ended up blaming yourself for it for a while (days, weeks, months) but you eventually realised that it was not your fault. Why it adds to your beauty is that theyโll never find love like you again. Iโm pretty sure theyโre still just trying to fill the void. Enough about them, your soul is one that others are going to heavily rely on in this lifetime, you wonโt mind things being one sided in your early life in terms of effort but interestingly, itโs going to be situations where the other party seems to lack gratitude and appreciation for you and all that you offer which is funny because they met an almost angel-like version of you and you added so much contentment to them but they have this weird belief that that contentment is innate and that youโre the one who should be grateful to them and for them, and thatโs going to lead to regrets and contemplation for you because you wonโt know how to abandon someone you gave so much too but after you do let go, theyโll end up missing you more and more. Youโll pretty much haunt them for the rest of their lives. You have been a missed opportunity, a โwhat ifโ in many peopleโs lives and that is beautiful in some ways because your energy is so beautiful, it is remembered even long after youโre gone but you deserve so much more than to be cherished as a memory and always will, and have the awareness of that. I keep on hearing that song โbecause i miss youโ by Jung Yong Hwa and I havenโt listened to it since like 2022.
๊ฐ How should you go about enhancing your ethereality? ๊ฑ
Your ethereality is in the innocence and kindness that you can spread out into the world. Youโre not innocent as in youโre a child but you are innocent in a way where it is so deeply ingrained in you, you wouldnโt be able to get rid of it even if you really wanted to. This is why you crave love that is very pure and almost divine in nature, not just in terms of romance but in every relationship. Donโt look at this difference that you have from the rest of the world as a weakness but instead make it your strength, turn it into your brand. You have this ability to understand people and see parts of them that they themselves cannot see which has led to a lot of disappointment for you in the past because, while they had the potential, the potential was nothing but an illusion unless they would have been able to turn it into a reality. Itโs not a bad thing that you look at life in a very psyche oriented manner but use it selectively, when people do want to get better, you can show them their path through this ability of yours. Youโre a very deep and intense person, it might be so bad that you might think that no one would be able to understand you or meet you at that level. However, your capacity for depth is so beautiful, you do not even need to see other peopleโs depth like you may have previously, you just need to explore your own. Youโre a total muse just because you are who you are. Make every day of your life a testament of that, be the art, be the artist. Your kindness mixed with your capacity for depth can lead you to spreading love and tangible service to others that will help you understand yourself further, and go to show your own beauty and ethereality, one that actually puts good out into the world and makes a difference. You should set a goal that you want to touch at least a certain number of peopleโs lives deeply i.e. the ones who are unfortunate in some way and you donโt share any personal connection or desire for that with them. You simply just want to enhance the quality of their lives because you want to do so. We live in a world where physical beauty standards are high but somehow, women are still able to match up to them so there are millions of gorgeous women physically but kindness is a trait that is needed but in lack due to the superficiality of the world. So why donโt you make use of it and become the kindest person you can be for yourself and others? Thereโs this saying that goes โif you give a man a fish, he will have a meal for that day but if you teach a man how to fish, he will have a meal for the rest of his life.โ Try to teach those who are willing to learn and even if they are not willing to, donโt be afraid to drop a few wise and helpful words here, and there for you never know how theyโll be used going forward. For example, you give one friend a few wise words because you think that that could help them, even if they do not learn from it right away.
They might in the future or if they donโt, someone else around you could end up enhancing their life by taking your word. โEven if youโre happy, donโt forget the sorrows of those around you.โ Always look out for those less fortunate than you, put yourself first but never be too self occupied and centered to be blind to the suffering of others. Be stubborn minded and keep yourself fixed on wanting to lead a life of integrity, dignity, peace and righteousness even if youโre labeled as selfish, cruel or cold. Have faith in your silent power and donโt try to show it to anyone. When they go low, you go no contact forever. Share your knowledge but donโt give all of your thoughts away for free, there are people who will build a whole new life for themselves, taking the advice that you gave them and act like theyโre all that as if theyโre not living off your philosophies. Think quietly and live by certain things quietly without expressing them. Be private and stingy with your time, energy, words and presence. Walk and move slowly, and sensually. Also, donโt hesitate to but people off early on or after you receive the first red flag. Donโt be afraid of playing players, just remember not to get attached. I donโt think that most of you have it in you to play games so I think you should just not engage with players at all. Besides the best way to play a player is to not engage in his game at all. Keep your options open but donโt be available to any of them until youโre actively pursued and treated well, and have them try to commit to you. Youโre allowed to paint yourself qs a fantasy by tailoring yourself to look, be, smell and feel a certain way. Spend time by yourself and make sure you have certain aspects of you and your life that are solely reserved for you. Always have gratitude for what you have, who you have and who you are but remain self focused and keep most of your emotions to yourself. Learn how to deal with them properly by yourself while still having a healthy approach and perception of relationships. Donโt mind cutting people off and being seen as someone who looks at relationships differently, and has different expectations and standards. Youโre extremely powerful, you should harness that to the fullest by becoming someone who sets intentions and actively takes actions in order to become who you are and get what you want. Learn independence and try not to base your happiness upon community, belonging or love of any sort. Live passionately, love intensely, grow intensely, work intensely and go after achieving the recognition that you desire by enhancing certain skills and also yourself as a person. Work hard for social recognition by not craving it but building yourself to the point where even if you didnโt want it, it would naturally find you. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
โน ! เณ Pile 2 ๊ฑ
๊ฐ The beauty of being you that solely belongs to you ๊ฑ
The beauty of being you comes from the contrast between your ruthless mind, loving heart and kind spirit. Youโre someone who holds a lot of self respect and is passionate, also a bit blunt in words and actions. You tend to be so focused on your goals and life that you might come off kind of selfish. Iโm not getting it being intentional on your part. Youโre someone who values passion but not to the point you give up on rationality. You seem to be well recognised to some extent, in some way. Youโve become someone stingy who doesnโt share themself and what theyโve got that easily. You value stability and thereโs this natural knowledge that you possess that the only way youโll be able to maintain a sense of stability within yourself is by not letting anyone have that sort of power over you. Youโre someone a bit standoffish in your energy and mindset but thereโs also this calm awareness that youโre not better than anyone, and that you donโt need to be because youโre the best in your own way and the worst in your own way. Youโre usually controlled and try to consciously maintain this sense of control but sometimes, you can get cruel, angry, cold and very frightening. Despite this standoffishness, when you interact with others, youโre nice and seem to be passionate, and fun so they are like โmaybe I overestimated this person, maybe theyโre not all that intimidating after allโ but the moment they get this cold and harsh side of you, they realise that they underestimated you and that you can be very scary. In terms of emotions, you seem controlled, focused on building your finances, emotional well being, loving and all but you donโt get obsessive over anything. While, you do have your angry moments, usually youโre smart enough to not react to anything. Even if you hurt, by this point, youโve learned that if someone wants to leave, they should be allowed to. Youโre highly capable of love and very loving. This quality of yours has caused you to receive the shorter end of the stick in the past because people saw that you had a loving heart and they took the love, and decided to leave when convenient without any regard for your emotions, possibly with disrespect or nonchalance but your ability to act like they never even existed in your world is crazy. Youโre someone who tries to not even think about these situations and people because youโre wise enough to know that not everything and everyone deserves your energy and reactions. You have a very generous soul and are very passionate, lively and genuinely compassionate. Despite all the instability, shame, hurt and betrayal that youโve had to deal with, youโve not lost your true spirit, youโve become stingier with certain aspects of yourself and what you have to offer but when you see someone in need, youโre willing to try and help. You have managed to build your stability back again by possibly acting like you could never recover or feeling like such, there were those who purposely tried to knock you down to a peg for their own sick and selfish satisfaction, and though they may not admit it, theyโre shocked and deeply admire the way youโve managed to grow out of and from such situations.
You hold yourself back from people, situations and thoughts that donโt serve you. What has led you to this point seems to be how helpless, trapped and ruined you were, and felt. You were fearful and unaware of what to expect or what was going on around you and in your life. You dealt with major life events that were tragic, one after another at that. Youโve dealt with feeling vulnerable and unwanted by a string of people, youโve had your affection and tenderness misused. Youโve honestly had your innocence used to manipulate you at some point. You could have been obsessed with someone or certain people who made you feel rejected, and you ended up falling into a loop of comparison and envy but the more time that passed by, the more you realised how unfair you were being to yourself. You decided to win in the end no matter what. You decided that you would gain out of every situation that had you down in the dumps and you succeeded in doing so. You learned lessons but also started setting goals and working towards them with consistency and willpower. You decided to take control over yourself and your life again, and the better you got, the more you realised that you had always been powerful, that you still are powerful, even if others tried to make you forget so or didnโt see it. You have become a fairly defensive person due to that, you arenโt paranoid and defensive but if someone tries to make you step out of your power or try to show you down in any way, you decide to stand up for yourself even if itโs just within yourself. You are firm and persistent about your goals, and are grateful about all that you are and have. You are content and value being present in the moment. You understand that thereโs nothing more precious than the here and now. You donโt try to shed your light upon anyone anymore, you instead try to keep it hidden or at least inaccessible so that no one can feed off of it just to act like the warmth and light belongs to them or radiating off of them ๐. You decided to leave behind people, situations, habits, mindsets and anything that made you unhappy. Youโre a very intense person who loves obsessively and youโve realised that not everyone deserves it. Youโre hot and cold, sweet, sour and spicy, and very unpredictable, thatโs what makes you so beautiful. Like, you can be cruel but youโre usually very reasonable and able to maintain your calm, you are so loving and know how to have fun with others to the point they start underestimating you but you know how to assert a cold and cruel aspect of yourself if youโre truly pushed to it, and despite your reasonable and practical nature, youโre very intense in terms of connection but when youโre done, itโs like things never even happened, like you never even knew each and people donโt know, they donโt know what theyโll get from you, no one knows what theyโll get from you. Also, the fact that youโve not let yourself go, that youโre still the kind and compassionate spirit that you once were, that you were never knocked down to a peg and even if you were, you still built yourself back up, regained stability and reconciled with yourself is the beauty that solely belongs to you.
๊ฐ How should you go about enhancing your ethereality? ๊ฑ
Your ethereality is in your secrecy and inaccessibility. Recently, youโve been feeling called to gate keep yourself and you genuinely believe that either no one or most people do not deserve you. You should approach life with the knowledge that not everyone has your best interests at heart. Put your healing first and remember those days when you had to cry, felt lonely, were mourning and hurting, make peace with the fact that you never deserved any of it and keep it in your mind that despite having dealt with many obstacles and difficulties in life, youโve managed to come this far, you can continue doing so no matter what comes your way. Donโt forget how much love you have to offer but understand the value of it by your own. Donโt try to show its value to anyone in order to attract potential lovers or friends, it is of no use, let those who deserve it discover and see it for their own. Trust yourself and put your love in the right places, especially into yourself. You do not need to play the fair game all the time, the world is unfair, the fairest thing you can do is live and let live, donโt try to do anything more or overextend yourself to others. Put yourself first and donโt worry about having a little bit of audacity, just make sure that you have something to back it up, be a kind person who does good things for others in the real world, especially those less fortunate than you or with special ailments. You canโt have an audacity and nothing to back it up, you are not a man. You might be actually but anyway. Be active in the community, treat your family members with love and care, give others love in community settings (by โothersโ I mean those who deserve it or are less fortunate than you). Be intentional when it comes to emotions, understand where to invest them and where not. Have set standards and donโt change them for anyone under any condition. Donโt mind hurting others if they are trying to hurt you or not being who you need them to be. Donโt even bother saying anything, itโs just a waste of words, just cut them out and move on. Be realistic and live, and love right in the present moment. You wonโt be able to help but deal with people passionately but even if you do, donโt think that itโs the end. Keep in mind that everything is temporary and anything could happen at any time. Youโre meant to be ride or die and receive a lot of recognition for who you are and what you do in this lifetime. Every action that you decide to take, keep in mind that the only things that can have power over you are things that have your attention. Be selectively attentive and selectively unattentive, and if possible even absent. Absence increases your value. You should not be around those who need you to be all nonchalant and absent in order to be in love with you but make sure to have your own life and live it, not just so youโre not too present but also so that you can make the most out of life. Always accept people and situations for what they are. โCharacterise people by their actions and you will never be fooled by their words.โ Welcome back, Serena Van Der Woodsen. Iโm not sure why I said that either, it just came through. Serena is someone who, if she was in this day and age, one picture, no tags, no reels, no grwms, sheโd go viral and everyone would be obsessed with her.
You are probably the same too or youโre at least capable of having that effect of others. โI have to goโ thatโs what she always says. Youโre being told to keep yourself busy enough so that you โhave go toโ a lot. Your time is precious and it is slipping by every second, donโt waste it and instead make the most out of it by keeping your best interests, desires, passions, growth and stability in mind. You donโt have to feel bad about not giving your time to anyone. Give your time to yourself, thatโs the most important. Whatโs being highlighted here for you is to date and become your own friend, and someone you can look up to before going out there and seeking connections. Keep your time reserved for yourself and your family unless others earn it. Donโt get stuck in the waiting game, EVER. Keep yourself on the move and donโt rest for long periods of time unless you are absolutely certain that it is favourable to do so. Donโt put efforts into the wrong places, donโt act like everyoneโs broken heart is for you to fix, let people be, let them deal with their life on their own, you deal with your life on your own too. Donโt forget to extend kindness to those less fortunate than you in practical ways such as donating clothes, food and money or even just simply volunteering in communities made for causes like these but donโt take on otherโs emotions and baggage onto yourself, EVER! Donโt engage in competition but donโt feel bad about outshining or hurting others when they have one sided competitions with you and you win. In the past, youโve had friends who used to accuse you of being selfish and flawed but they couldnโt explain why they thought so because it was just an illusion that their ego battle with you created. Like, youโve had people call you ugly and selfish out of the blue but talk to you nicely on the other days. Why do you think that is? Itโs because they dislike you because they see something great within you. When it comes to connections and emotions, always be grateful and stay content, youโre not lacking anything just because you may not have a partner or friends. Be independent, self sufficient and learn how to enjoy being by yourself. You need to kill the desire for connection while still being open to it and capable of it. Be loving and kind, be practical, down to earth and take care of others but understand that yearning for connections should not rob you of your peace and the joy of the present moment. Itโs human and natural to desire connections, Iโm not telling you to kill your desire for it as in become all hyper independent but just be content to be by yourself, donโt let your desire for connections ever surpass the contentment and joy of the present moment. Try to be who you are supposed to be i.e. passionate, on the go, ambitious, blissful, loving and someone courageous who will break free from even the tightest of the tightest and the most hurtful, and high quality ropes. Romanticise yourself but do it realistically, romanticise the good things you do and set a goal to do more good things going forward, and become a better and better person by trying your best in the smallest of small and biggest of big ways. To sum it all up - โyou do not have to be good, you do not need to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.โ Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
โน ! เณ Pile 3 ๊ฑ
๊ฐ The beauty of being you that solely belongs to you ๊ฑ
The beauty of being you comes greatly from your onion like layers. Youโre someone who is a bit more contemplative, stable, fair, balanced and like youโre managing different aspects of your life well. You could be a libra ascendant or have libra placements that give you this kind of image? Doesnโt have to be. Most of you are usually booked and busy. Youโre an ethical person who treats everyone well regardless of their economic background, appearance, etc. It just comes naturally to you. You do not understand how anyone could be repulsed by certain people to the point of treating them differently from others just because they may not look physically appealing or come from a poor family because you are usually unbothered. Other peopleโs differences and quirks donโt faze you because youโre just naturally in this state of unbotheredness. Even physically, your reactions are usually slow because youโre often thinking about your own duties, progress, time management and what you need to do or youโre busy doing them. For some of you, your authentic self is very unbothered with a natural poker face but due to social conditioning, you may have or could fake reactions and be more expressive facially. However, trust me, the beauty of authenticity is different, you do not need to be all expressive facially, your indifference is a charm on its own. Thereโs this certain gentleness to the way you move and despite you having a poker face, you still have something slightly soft about it. Thereโs still this air of class, respect and nonchalance to the vibes you radiate. You often have any baggage that youโve dealt with on your mind. There was a point when you were betrayed, hurt and possibly humiliated by multiple people either within the same time or in a string at different times. Youโve dealt with the lowest of lows but you decided to get better by moving away from any hurt that your life and other people may have caused you. You have it in your mind that if you have to abandon anything or anyone for the best, you should and will do it. Youโve become someone who is self respectful and low-key competitive. Youโre not competitive as in you try to beat others or get better than them but youโre competitive as in, if someone was to come in your way to the success, achievement and recognition that you seem to be pretty certain that you deserve because youโre very hardworking and you actively strive to be so, you wouldnโt mind completely crushing them to move forward. You often have things like self improvement, routine, achievements, skills and discipline on your mind. You value work ethic and actively try to maintain a strong sense of it.
Youโre a thought daughter/son though, you seem to think a lot. One of the reasons that you may try to maintain a strong work ethic and routine might be because it stops your thoughts from overpowering you. Emotionally, youโre changing and someone very warm. You also seem to be self assured. Youโre someone fairly logical and reasonable. You are someone who is discovering, exploring and developing yourself instead of seeking these things outside of you i.e. in connection with other people, which is very admirable. Changes are not easy but youโre not falling onto someone else to support you through it but are instead planning on your own growth and emotional well-being without relying on others. You can be very stubborn, cold and cutthroat if hurt though. Usually, you just decide to exit situations that push you out of character. Youโre aware of what the lowest of lows feel like but despite it, thereโs a chance that some of you feel like thatโs all youโve known in life, youโre able to be optimistic and push forward, youโve always been this way. You have this natural sense of abundance, warmth and vitality within you that pushes you forward through the toughest of days. You also add a lot of warmth into the life of others. You have the entire world within your soul. You look at life and the world as something that you have grown a lot from and has a lot of beauty within it, and you especially look at yourself like that. Even if there are times when you might question yourself, you know that your natural essence and truth is that youโre full of warmth, vitality and abundance, you know that youโre irreplaceable. In the past, you seem to have dealt with miscommunication, aggression and others misunderstanding you almost on purpose. They probably just didnโt have the capacity to or willingness to understand you. You have been the target of other peopleโs hatred but it is very interesting because you were a down to earth person with morals and values who tried to look after others and take care of them to the best of your abilities. You shared communities with them like school, universities, friendship groups or possibly romantic connection(s) and you understood them on a very deep level. You are devotional and dived deep into them and their psyche to the point you developed fondness, pity and an understanding of themselves that they themselves might not have had. You had a very unconditional way of loving regardless. However, it led to you depleting your natural sense of abundance, resources, emotions, energy and affection. You were down to earth, tried to take care of others and well meaning but after all that happened, you felt like you had been deceived and you barely recognised yourself. When you were younger, you could have sworn that youโd not let anyone make you question your worth but you were in fact questioning your worth at that time.
โWhat was I made for?โ by Billie Eilish is coming through as your energy at that time. โTaking a drive, I was ideal. Looked so alive, turns out Iโm not real, just something you paid for. What was I made for? Cause I donโt know how to feel but I want to try. I donโt know how to feel but someday I might.โ โThink I forgot how to be happy, something Iโm not but something I can be, something I wait for, something Iโm made for.โ You started a new journey with almost a childlike innocence. You made the decision to be happy, to have fun. You changed your thoughts about commitment and learned that feelings are supposed to be given time to develop at their own time without idealisation involved in the mix. At some point, you wondered if you just werenโt enough, if you just werenโt worthy of commitment and devotion because your affection and purity of heart had been abused, and you entered a phase of your childhood self, one when you were in a similar energy with no one to rely on. You felt trapped like you couldnโt escape. You felt victimised and were isolated. There was anger and hatred that you had to deal with. You came out of this energy with the acceptance that you had been manipulated and you thought you were powerless. You realised that you gave too much when you deserved to receive just as much and barely received anything (if you did anything at all). You could have felt like you were used as an unpaid therapist, purse, arm candy, placeholder, replacement for a romantic partner, etc. (depends on who you are and who you had to deal with). You decided to be cruel if need be there, you started putting yourself first and had zero tolerance for bullshit. You knew that you couldnโt afford it. You embraced changes and moved away from whatever didnโt serve you. You did so having compassion for yourself. You deserved so much better and you knew it. You started seeing past matters of heart i.e. your personal connections as something that you had deluded yourself about and accepted them as illusions. You had a strong sense of pride and didnโt let your heart turn cold. You just started reserving it for the well deserved. You were extending your warmth, compassion and love towards yourself at that time. You got to know yourself deeper on a psyche and soul level, it may have been scary but you realistically faced different aspects, truths and sides of yourself. You also started craving something more real, something thatโs not idealised but present right in reality. You matured significantly spiritually, emotionally, mentally and even in terms of your actions. The beauty that solely belongs to you is that despite not idealising yourself, your life and your past, youโre at peace with it and in fact, kind of proud of yourself. Youโre able to find the beauty in yourself, your life and actively work on yourself, develop and improve yourself. You desire authenticity and realness within yourself, and the world around you, and youโre not willing to settle for anything less. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
๊ฐ How should you go about enhancing your ethereality? ๊ฑ
Your ethereality is in your authenticity that gives you a natural dreaminess. You should work harder in order to be more theatrical and enhance your authentic, and dream like qualities. Much like the previous pile, gate-keep yourself. Donโt try to prove yourself to anyone. Donโt seek approval and praise from anywhere. Be selectively honest about certain flaws and personal struggles that you may have dealt with. You take everything as a duty, a responsibility, including attracting others and connections with others. You take on a lot of burden to please the other person and be something that they may like. Use this quality for better things i.e. enhancing your natural ethereality in a way that suits your personal taste and nobody elseโs. One persona that I think you could embody and would fit your personal taste is someone who has fun with others in a way that contrasts your poker face and almost regal aura but is very serious about themself, their personal boundaries and morals, and will not budge, when you are going to have fun with others, theyโre inevitably going to start underestimating you, learn how to put them in their place at that time and be serious about not pleasing anyone except yourself. The reason that I suggested this persona for you is because it seems to fit you the best but if you feel like itโs not authentic to you, the point is to simply build more authenticity and not carry the burden of impressing others, building and carrying connections onto yourself. Keep your options open in every connection until you meet someone who is trying to meet you where you need them to meet you, and you consider them to be an equal to you in terms of qualities and wonโt feel like youโre settling for them. Donโt forget your values of respect, loyalty, stability and deservingness. Keep in mind that not everyone deserves you so itโs better to be untouchable. Start thinking from a place of โIโm attractive, hardworking, smart, itโs guaranteed for me to attract attention but I need to be careful with the attention that I choose to entertain for not all attention is good attention, and not everyone who I receive attention from deserves my energy.โ NEVER tell anyone about your goals, just pop out with the end results. Learn how to not have dreams about people you barely know and donโt try to build passion with undeserving people just for the sake of it. Donโt mind being a fleeting presence in otherโs lives but never fall into the trap of being a grounded presence or into the game of waiting unless thereโs a solid commitment present. Be true to yourself and make sure to not give your passion to just anyone, donโt try to give everyone the passion that you hold within yourself. Keep it gate-kept until deserving people actually enter your life.
You need to understand the value of what you bring into connections and into the world. Youโre sensitive to the emotions of others and are able to heal otherโs wounds and inner children. You know how to provide an affection so pure, theyโll always feel like a middle schooler in love, your heart is pure and you have the capacity to get so emotionally involved that them hurting, just the mere thought of it hurts you too. Does everyone deserve you? Of course not. Donโt give this quality out to everyone for free, keep it to yourself. Find ways to enjoy being alone so that you can truly gate-keep yourself. You need to know the value of your presence enough to not be present everywhere. One way to be able to cultivate the quality of selective presence and gatekeeping yourself is by associating your emotions with your self improvement, your dreams, the state of your heart and your goals. You canโt be fair to everyone and you do not need to be, not everyone deserves you thatโs the truth of life, not everyone deserves a chance at a connection, donโt be closed off to connections but donโt be too open to them either. Understand that youโre so valuable, you require people who see, appreciate and honour that, they also need to be valuable so you can do the same for them. Understand that youโre so valuable, you require people who see, appreciate and honour that, they also need to be valuable so you can do the same for them. Keep yourself busy and on the go but donโt try to be something that youโre not i.e. donโt try to be like โIโm gatekeeping myself because not everyone deserves meโ if youโre a desperate person with no life and allows them in your headspace 24/7. Instead, actually become the person i.e. keep yourself busy and have things that youโre actually doing, not because youโre trying to attract others but because you have one life and thereโs so much to try, and do, and you should not waste it. Iโm not telling you to be full of yourself and act like someone youโre not but it is important to not be available to everyone in terms of personal connections and even just your presence. All Iโm asking from you is high standards, selectivity and boundaries. With those that do deserve you, treat them well, show them appreciation, gratitude and affection. Have a lot of fun with them, go places with them, explore with them and donโt mind diving into the depths of their psyche. Also, donโt gate keep yourself to the point that you have no community. Learn how to not give away your emotions, words and reactions to people within it who do not deserve it because the truth is that you are going to have to and will want to deal with people no matter what. I also recommend joining communities with shared interests and causes. The main point here is to have control over your energy. Be authentic to the point you repulse those who are not authentic to themselves, all while attracting them and also attracting others around you but donโt give yourself away to anyone freely. Iโm not sure if you noticed it but when you were open to everyone and giving them unconditionally, they took from you to the point you lost your authenticity and thatโs when they left or started acting like they were better than you in some way. You are going to attract those who will try to crush your authenticity, which is why Iโm putting an emphasis on gatekeeping of the self. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
PAC: What Greek Mythology love story would you and your FS be?
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Just came out of a bone-crushing healing and shadow work period for my Kundalini Awakening going on right now T-T In an attempt to raise my spirits, I created my very first FS reading-
pile 1:
General vibe of your love story with your FS-
This is the movie pile. I see a full-blown movie arc in my mindโs eye for your love story with your FS. I see an opening at- you guys meeting, the middle act- your separation and individual trials, and the final act- the happy reunion! OBVIOUSLY, there's nuance to how all of this will unfold for each of yโall reading since it's real life we're talking about, but your story with your FS is the closest thing to a happily-ever-after if I've ever seen one.
It's like when yโall first met, yโall were young, or maybe some of yโall didn't know how to handle a relationship or didn't have the resources in the 3D (think money or a place of your own, something like that) to make this relationship happen? Maybe it was long distance for a looong time? And so, for whatever reason (along said lines) yโall had to let each other go or yโall couldn't be together. It's like yโall were shown a grand possibility to be together, and BOOM it was taken away.
Then you guys enter a separation period right after, and the length of this period will differ for everybody reading, anywhere between months to a couple of years. After having worked HARD on yourselves ON YOUR OWN to overcome your personal issues, traumas, and suffering, you guys come together. The key to really mastering your obstacles is in the day to day. You will have set routines to tackle your obstacles, such as say youโve got anxiety or a dys-regulated nervous system, so maybe you'll always have a stress relief meditation scheduled in no matter how your day looks. So on and so forth, fill in the details of this period as it best suits your life. But the common denominator, I feel like, is that yโall really fight to be with one another. The love is so deep here, and that's what motivates each of you to overcome your personal hurdles, yk? And THEN, when it happens, and yโall reunite, it's sooo beautiful. It's like you guys will build a brand new life together where you can put the past behind and finally enjoy the fruits of your labor! Also, I see you guys growing and blossoming over time with your FS upon reunion ๐ฅบโจ.
Soโฆ which Greek myth sums up YOUR love story with your FS the best?
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Itโs the story of Cupid and Psyche!
From what Iโve read about this story, Cupid and Psyche couldnโt immediately be together after they met. Cupid could only meet Psyche at night AND sheโs not even allowed to see him! T-T This was part of what Psyche has to overcome- the challenges put forth by Aphrodite just because the goddess was jealous of Psyche. And poor Cupid had self-esteem issues from what I gather lmao. He didn't even feel worthy to show his mortal wife what he REALLY looked like (which, by the way, is GORGEOUS af?! Like who hurt you, Cupid?) They eventually overcome their odds and reunite. Eventually, Jupiter blesses Psyche with immortality, which allows them to live forever in their new life happily ever after. Ahhhโฆ beautiful.
I encourage you to read the original story (or watch it on YT, do whatever you like :p) to pick up on any additional messages! Buuut thatโs all I have for you lovely folks today.
Love and loads of light, sweet pea :)
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pile 2:
General vibe of your love story with your FS-
Reeeeally strongly coming in right off the bat, I feel like both you AND your FS will be turning a brand new leaf in your lives. Think a new job for one or both of you. A major relocation for one or both of you. A major relationship ending for one or both of you. You catch the drift, right?
It feels like yโall will be closing out a cycle and entering into a new era, so to speak. And in this new era, I sense that you'll keep mostly to yourself and aren't all that interested in anybody because you're still processing this BIG shift you just went through and you're reflecting a lot, drawing on your wisdom, staying in your lane. Ngl, you do feel vulnerable and raw too, which is probably why you seem to keep to yourself mostly during the time you might run into your FS. I sense the same from their end too.
You know what this is? Mutual healing. Your future spouse finds you at a time when you're in the dead center of healing and vice versa. You will both be the catalysts to each other's healing! How cool is that? And after yโall find stability in your journey together especially after navigating healing for so longโฆ I see yโall being so comfortable and content and peaceful with one another ๐ฅบ this makes my heart full!! Stop it! Ahhhhhh <3 The vibes are immaculate, it's giving 'comrades in the battlefield' kinda energy. Your FS will stick with you no matter what, literally. And that's the kind of loyalty many people only dream about. Love it ๐ค๐พ. Yโall will love each other's pain away ๐ฅบ๐ฉ. Ugh my heart can't take it anymore!
Soโฆ which Greek myth sums up YOUR love story with your FS the best?
drum roll
Itโs the story of Odysseus and Penelope!
Now in the story of Odysseus and Penelope, both of them undergo significant changes and face major disruptions in their lives. Odysseusโs long journey home from the Trojan War and Penelopeโs long period of waiting and dealing with suitors at home. BUT even in Odysseus's absence, Penelope remains faithful and focused on her own survival and household. Similarly, Odysseus endures many trials and tribulations. Both characters are found in a state of self-reflection in the face of personal challenges (in my humble opinion of course). Their reunion symbolizes mutual healingโฆ both of our characters here show incredible loyalty and perseverance despite being apart for 20 years!
-Side note: on a completely different note, your story low key kinda reminds me of the story of James and Claire from Outlander >< shoutout to the Outlander fans hehehehe, I'm waiting for the 9th season to come out SO BAD ughhhh lmao-
I encourage you to read the original story (or watch it on YT, do whatever you like :p) to pick up on any additional messages for yourself! Annnnd thatโs all I have for you lovely folks today.
Love and loads of light, sweet pea :)
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pile 3:
General vibe of your love story with your FS-
Ah.. my Pile number 3s.. you guys are afraid to love.. aren't you? You might be blocked off from your heart and as a result wonโt be open to true reciprocal and healthy love for a WHILE. But then I see that the divine will enter your life in some way and shake you up in a big way to show you how you've been standing in your own way and keeping love at a distance.. I'm seeing the tower card in my third eye as I say this even though it hasn't come out for you today.
Ah, this is like a personal journey I see you taking before your FS comes in and swoops you off your pretty lil feet ๐ tehe! Your energy seems quite mental to me. You love living in your head, thinking, planning, analyzing, and just knowing things. But this came at the grave cost of not being connected to your heart.. and when the divine intervenes and helps you connect to your heart again is when your FS comes in flying โจ.
Side note: Ooh.. suddenly I hear Lavender Haze by our queen Taylor Swift? Take that only if it resonates for you :]
But yea, I see you struggling and feeling out of control when all of this happens because you're used to being in control of things usually but now all of this has you a bit overwhelmed I'm ngl.. but you end up navigating this perfectly well! Yay! I'm glad haha ๐ ๐ซ๐๐พ
Soโฆ which Greek myth sums up YOUR love story with your FS the best?
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The story of Pygmalion and Galatea!
Yup, just like how Pygmalion accidentally manifested Galatea, you kinda accidentally manifest your future spouse too (low key reeeal funny ngl). Because Pygmalion refused to love anybody, he sculpted out his perfect woman and fell in love with his creation. His deep affections attract the attention of you guessed it Aphrodite herself, and she decides to ahem intervene. She brings Galatea to life, which represents the transformation of Pygmalion's mental fixation (and emotional disconnection) TO emotional CONNECTION. How perfectly beautiful. Ugh. Love your story, Pile 3. Gosh.. who doesn't love their FS simply falling into their laps? Haha
I encourage you to read the original story (or watch it on YT, do whatever you like :p) to pick up on any additional messages! Soooo thatโs all I have for you lovely folks today.
Love and loads of light, sweet pea :)
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pile 3๐ฅบ๐ฉท
Venus aspecting Pluto
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READ BEFORE YOU PROCEED: This post is about the conjunction, opposition & square between Venus & Pluto but people with trine & sextile might relate to some of it. This post contains both positive and negative observations. These are my personal observations and not facts. The whole chart has to be taken into consideration.
Early heartbreak or betrayal can lead to them developing a paranoia that will take a lot of self work to heal. Most times it was their first serious love breaking their heart in some way.
This heartbreak was usually a huge turningpoint in their life. They transformed completely after it both physically and mentally. They often become a โbad girl/guyโ after it and a whole new personality is born. The bitch/fuckboy is born.
Women with this aspect might become the typical โgold diggerโ or โman eater/femme fataleโ to feel in control. Now shes the one who uses others to her benefit and that way she protects her heart.
Men with this can become the typical womanizer/fuckboy. The bad guy. โTrust no bitchโ kinda guy.
People they get involved with usually have a huge glow up after meeting them. Their partners want to fit their standards bc they see how much attention the Venus/Pluto person gets.
So they might start dating the nerdy guy/girl and all of a sudden this โnerdy personโ (horrible expression I know) starts working out, changing style, wearing makeup etc. Sometimes ever copies or becomes like the Venus/Pluto person.
This is why people with Venus/Pluto should never date someone who looks up to them too much. People cant help but compete with plutonians.
These people can be very vengeful especially towards ex partners or ex friends. They take their relationships very seriously. โThe crazy ex wifeโ โscratch his carโ kinda people.
Men with this aspect who are into women might control women with their money. Might want a stay at home wife to keep her away from other men and so that she is financially dependent on him.
When in love they might make themselves crazy by constantly checking their love interests social media, thinking about them, talking about them or in extreme cases even locating them.
Might be drawn to โtoxic" relationships that emotionally distress, upset & even traumatize or emotionally scar them because they can be emotionally addicted to drama or even pain.
Might be fascinated or attracted to โbad peopleโ. Might find themselves rooting for the bad guy on tv. They find darkness so fascinating they want to merge with it, making them get involved with some pretty bad people.
These people can love to the point it physically hurts. They love to the core and often never completely get over the person they loved.
People of the same gender might try to steal their partner to show that โI can get him tooโ. Everything they touch turn into gold.
Their parents or a parent and a stepparent might have had a toxic relationship where they broke up and made up constantly. So they learned that love is supposed to be intense.
There could also have been a powerimbalance between the parents so they learned to be attracted to power imbalance. One parent might even have been an empath and the other a narcissist.
Ive noticed a lot of people with this placement had a mother who suffered from post partum depression and not being able to properly nurture the Venus/Pluto baby which resulted in an intense need for intimacy in the Venus/Pluto person also making some of them fixated with women.
They could have had a female preschool teacher they were completely attached to because the mother was unavailable.
There is a darkness to the appearance too even if they are pale or blonde there is often still a dark undertone to it all. Im so tired of the word sex appeal but thats basically what they have. They are sexy and they often emphasize this with dark makeup or clothes since they often have a dark taste.
Strong reactions from others is something they experiences early. They are the ones who started hearing that they were pretty when they were too young to even know what pretty is.
Other peoples unattractiveness will often be projected onto them in some way. If someone feels bad about their appearance they are very likely to make that the Venus/Pluto persons fault.
People also often never have a lukewarm reaction to their looks. Its either omg you are so beautiful or calling them ugly, this is because they are projecting their own insecurities onto Venus/Pluto. So their reactions from others is completely dependant on how the other person feel about themselves, especially physically.
At some point someone made it their mission to make them feel ugly out of envy or because they cant have them. Their appearance could even be a common topic for others to talk about.
They might get alot of inappropriate unwanted โadviceโ from others like โyou should do a microneedling to get rid of that acneโ Maybe you should get a gym membershipโ.
If you are one of the Venus/Pluto people who often experience this you HAVE TO comment back. Thats the only way to make it stop.
In their teenage years most of them will befriend a woman who becomes completely obsessed with them. This woman will hate them in silence and act like a friend, they will become close. This woman might start to copy their outfits and try to imitate them. Ive seen this happen with especially every Venus Square Pluto Ive known. The scariest part is that many times this woman knew of the Venus/Pluto woman before they met each other, they had their eyes on them even before the first meeting. Be picky when choosing female friends.
Men with this tend to have women fight over them. If this man is toxic he might even turn women against eachother to boost his ego. I was with a guy with Venus Square Pluto and I have to admit I was acting out of character.
Ive also seen men with these aspects get baby trapped. They attract very shady partners because they are attracted to mystery. Also bc people want to trap them.
People with this often have their partners want to make matching tattoos with them to mark them. Their partners seem to be very worried about the attention the Venus/Pluto person gets.
Their partners might do a lot to make the Venus/Pluto person less desireable in the eyes of others out of fear of losing them.
People with these aspects who grew up unattractive and later had a glow up can become very fixated with status, being a powercouple, their prefered sex, having a trophy partner etc while ppl who grew up with attention go through a period where they conpletely let go of themselves.
While these people are often victims of other peopels envy they can be very envious of others too.
Can often struggle with an obsession with their appearance, others appearance, their love interest, sex, power & money.
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๏ธ๏ธโน ! เณ Pile 1 ๊ฑ
Right away, your future spouse is a scarily hard worker like a hardcore hustler. Theyโre often thinking about their work because to them itโs a huge responsibility, they are always thinking about ways to work harder and do more in terms of work, to make their work better in some way. Also, theyโre someone who doesnโt show when theyโre struggling. They follow the classic philosophy of โif a problem can be solved, thereโs no use worrying about it and if it canโt be solved, worrying will do no good.โ Theyโre really wise and mature, theyโre also refined yet raw. Due to how refined, wise and mature they are, they might not fit in with others because unfortunately, most people are not that way, in fact, due to how people feel intimidated by them, others could act as if your person is the superficial one and the fact that despite their refined nature, they have candid and clumsy moments, and are just so down to earth leads to others misunderstanding and criticising them but they still choose to practice gratitude and stay true to themself. Theyโre also able to maintain a very โfake it till you make itโ mindset, except theyโre not even really faking it, they believe that a person doesnโt become โsomebodyโ just because they achieved stuff externally, they believe that a person is always โsomebodyโ before they even achieve anything at all. Which is why they pay curtsy to everyone and try to maintain a confident, elegant and abundant mindset. Theyโre also very independent. They are able to overcome and grow from every obstacle that they face. When theyโre faced with the consequences of their actions or even just bad luck.
If they can think about a time when they did something that caused someone else to experience a similar situation, they just take it as bad karma and work through it with grace instead of victimising themself. Theyโre able to accept both the positives and negatives that may cover their way because they understand that thatโs just the way life is. They understand that life is a growing experience and that life would be very boring if it werenโt for the ups and downs. They have something very โdream girl/boyโ about themself. Theyโve dealt with moments when theyโve felt like no one was there for and with them. Theyโve felt left out in the cold and unsupported by others. Theyโve dealt with break ups (be it romantic or platonic) but have been able to find solace within themself. At such times, when life seems to be throwing curveballs their way, they go within themself to find answers, they look to the past and move forward while still making the most out of their present. Theyโre also extremely loyal regarding matters of the heart (love of any sort - romantic, platonic, familial, so on and so forth). Theyโre extremely ride or die and because they themself, have experienced low moments, they know how to connect with those who are struggling. They have a lot of empathy for those they love. They try to understand their loved ones on a close personal level, desiring to know their vulnerabilities, weaknesses, shadows and skeletons, wanting to love them through it all. I hope that you enjoyed the reading and that it resonated, much love and take care, until next time ๐.
๏ธ๏ธโน ! เณ Pile 2 ๊ฑ
Your future spouse is extremely ambitious, they have it in them too push forward despite the self consciousness, fear or criticism from others. They are very fiery as a person and pretty connected to their inner child. They actively think about their childhood and try to work through any issues that may have stemmed from back then. They know how to have fun and act childlike at times. They know how to play with an idea and let it grow into what it wants to be over time. They know how to not commit to things that may not lead to the results that they desire. Theyโre also really good at communicating and especially when writing, the writings that they put out - be it an email, message or article, they try to make sure that it has a certain eloquence to it. Theyโre extremely charming, Iโm getting โRasputinโ by Boney M. They possess a natural charisma due to their ability to use words to their advantage, have fun and their fiery nature when it comes to life, including their ambitions. Theyโre probably really popular among the ladies (if itโs a man that youโre inquiring about) ๐ญ. How dare they? How dare they be attractive to girls who are not you? Ahaha, well, good for you though, theyโre a total heartthrob. Despite, their fiery nature, they have a certain grounded quality to them, they know how to adjust their priorities in order to experience the life that they desire to live. They also have a tendency to have their work consume them, when theyโre working, they dislike having anyone even talk to them because theyโre so immersed and focused, and they work really well. They prioritise play and know how to have fun but they donโt do it at the expense of their work. Theyโre very intense, when they work hard, they work hard and when they play hard. they play hard. Theyโre quite a flirt honestly but when it comes to love, theyโre very loyal, they desire to be their partnerโs fully and to have their partner be theirโs completely too. You may wonder why being this way is admirable but it truly is, they have a very well rounded character.
Even though theyโre popular with the ladies or gents (depending on who youโre inquiring about), they do not forget their own values and character. They know how to hold themself to high standards while still treating those around them with respect. They know how to climb the social ladder without scamming, cheating and lying to people. Also, random but their sexual capabilities are great too, their tongue does more than just spew out charming words after all ๐. They know how to put themself first and be an old school respectable person in many ways. They know how to value certain traditions and values without putting down those who arenโt traditional. They know how to have a nuanced understanding of everything and understand that everyone goes through phases. They know how and when to give tough love, they also know how to grow through tough love. Theyโre very intense so if someone hurts their feelings, theyโll either outright cut them off, refusing to communicate at all or will stand up for themself very firmly. If something doesnโt make sense to them, if they feel wronged, they are going to fight back for themself. Theyโre also going to stand up for you and fight for you if anyone wrongs you. When they love people, no matter how many arguments or troubles may come in, they donโt leave them. They have it in them to ride until the end. However, when things do end, they have the ability to realise that if the other person gave up or treated them a certain way, the loss wasnโt even great to begin with. They have strong self respect and will move on completely without any attachments at all if wronged. Theyโre very loving and caring though, they pay attention to the little details and also express love in grand ways. Theyโre also fiercely loyal once committed so it makes sense as to why they get so angry when theyโre wronged. Theyโll always have your back though. I hope that you enjoyed the reading and that it resonated, much love and take care, until next time ๐.
๏ธ๏ธโน ! เณ Pile 3 ๊ฑ
Your future spouse is really good with words. Theyโre very charming and they do it in a very swift, and unsuspecting manner. Theyโre adored deeply. Theyโre very childlike and ambitious in their thinking. They are able to have free ambitions the way children do. Theyโre quite fearless, they have it in them to push towards their goals regardless of what the outside world may be saying because thereโs a certain childlike quality to the way they think. They prioritise passion and excitement, they explore different hobbies, skills and things. For them, stimulation is very important. Theyโre also always able to stand empowered. This pile is similar to pile 2 but pretty different at the same time. Your person is confident and doesnโt fear things as much as pile 2โs person does. Theyโre also very competitive, they excel in almost every field and theyโre known for it. Just a really multifaceted person. Theyโre well skilled in multiple areas and things. Theyโre really loveable, they know how to have fun and when theyโre around, itโs automatically more fun and lively. They have a very โwe live once, might as well do it allโ kind of mindset. Their reflexes are impressive too. Also, theyโre a fast learner. They overcome obstacles with ease and grace, pretty fast too because they donโt even let anything get to them. Theyโre consistently working on their goals causing them to achieve their dreams pretty quickly and efficiently. They have a strong sense of direction and donโt let their head or actions go to the wrong places. Theyโre communicative and are able to keep up with fast paced, high energy environments. Theyโre a crazy competitor to have in this fast paced world.
Success is attracted to them just because of the way they think, are, act, etc. Theyโre hopeful regarding everything and are also able to make friends easily. Theyโre consistently making progress in life. If right now, them and another person were in the same position as an intern, they could come out as a CEO in just a few years while the other person would have come up to be an employee. Not only are they this strong, fun and dynamic personality wise but also very mature when it comes to emotions. They try their best to understand the emotions and mindset of the other person. They like to form peaceful resolutions and have the understanding that healthy relationships require compromise. They donโt mind making major sacrifices for those that they love. They try to communicate and move on from resentments. They truly do want to make it right with those they love, even with those who they donโt have attachments to, they choose to be the bigger person. Also, due to how much they have and their mindset thatโs whole and mature yet childlike, theyโre genuinely happy for others. They know how to clap for other peopleโs achievements and genuinely mean good, genuinely feel happy for them. I aspire to be more like your future spouse ahaha. Also, even though, theyโre forgiving, mature, sacrificing and try their best to communicate, and work through differences (theyโre really good at accepting peopleโs differences, especially their loved onesโ), once theyโre done, youโre as good as dead to them. I hope that you enjoyed the reading and that it resonated, much love and take care, until next time ๐.

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ASTRO OBSERVATIONS 2
virgo, libra and pisces babies just post the damn photo already. you've been looking at that photo for 3 hours and asked 8 people if you should post it. like.. JUST POST IT. YOURE SO BEAUTIFUL MMWAAHH
leo and sag placements are some wild mfers. they dgaf!!! if you wanna do some crazy shit and never get bored go get a fire sign bestie. they will try anything out of curiosity and they're not gonna look stupid because they're hot af and luck is on their side ;) โญ๏ธ
yes taurus please tell me everything about the show you're currently watching. i can sit hours just listening to you. you look adorable and no, you're not annoying me <3
legends say a gemini could smell a gossip from 10 miles away and run as fast as flash to tell about it to their fire sign bestie.
libra sun+scorpio rising men should burn in hell because damn they're hot and THEY KNOW IT!!! it's so annoying ๐ just don't open your mouth and let me enjoy the view
aquarius placements and their 89 social media accounts from their childhood and funny photos ๐ฉ๐ปโ๐ฆฏ i know about that youtube channel you had when you were 9 ๐
cancer women give the best hug. end of discussion
'how to lose a guy in 10 days' def gives off libra and aries vibes!!! very passionate and teasing love! (libra for Ben obvi because he's so charming and aries for Andie because she's so confident and playful) i love love love this movie!
i could get lost in scorpio risings eyes... they read people like a book and i love it
venus signs and having a breakdown trying to fit in one aesthetic. baby you look good in everything!!!
sag/gemini placements love gambling, card games and they are really good at it.
virgo placements love the past. they have a really hard time trying to get over their past and tend to stay in toxic relationships because that relationship is what they know and it's their comfort zone. they don't want to come out of there. they may collect so many things as memory. they love writing letters to future and reading them.
aquarius/11H placements may questioned their sexuality as if they're asexual or not. no need to label tho. do whatever you're comfortable with.
cap risings are SO HOT. they are like a model. everything about them is just *chef kisses*
cancers and virgos stomachaches when they are stressed </3 it sucks
virgo mars are scary because they analyze and plan every little move they will make and are 10 step ahead of you. always. they're all about satisfying too so they're really hotttt and make you feel great
pisces, leo placements are so good at hyping their friends up. it's so cute because out of nowhere they'll be like 'you're the cutest/baddest bitch in the world' IT MAKES US FEEL SO GOOD I LOVE YOU GUYS
-Rum
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thank you so much for reading. this one was a bit shorter. i hope you enjoyed it, let me know what you think. have a lovely day! and in case i don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening and goodnight:)
WHAT DO PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU?
PILE 1 PILE 2 PILE 3
hey guys, it's my first pac ever so i would love to have your feedback. this pac also has random messages too rather than what do people think about you.
it's mainly about the messages i got. i hope it resonatesโญ๏ธ (i swear i'm better at personal readings LMAO)
PILE 1
people think you're very self oriented and love to have the power over them. maybe you have leader qualities and they can see that. i'd say they think you're more likely to choose logic over emotions. they think you're def the overthinker one. they know you know you're worth and know when and what to say something. they can feel that you like to be seen as cold hearted and powerful. in your head being numb equals having power. people think you're very materalistic as in, whatever you wear you make it seem expensive. people think you're very soft inside but don't let a lot people in. sometimes they can sense that deep down you're really insecure and they can see the other side of you. where you're not sure of anything you do, you don't trust yourself enough. sometimes you come off as really complex and a lot. you seem to be stuck on something. you want to let it go but can't really do it cause you get used to it. so that's why people can sense your imbalance energy. you could be indecisive or air headed these days. still, people know you have the strength to get over it. you could intimidate people at first but when they see the real you -which you dont show it to many they love it. maybe you got hurt on the past, that's why you put a mask like that. you could be very obsessive, and passionate about the things you love. you come off as competitive too.
PILE 2
oooh my broken heart pile.. if you recently gone through a breakup, doesnt matter if it's romantic or friends. people see youve been thru ALOT. you show it to everyone whether youre aware of it or not. people can sense the broken energy. you keep trying to explain your feelings? or what happened between you and the other person and they're like, can she move on already?? but it's cruel to think like that. cause i feel like this relationship somehow connected to your inner child. maybe the relationship helped you with healing your inner child that's why you felt those emotions that hard. people think you're sensitive and a romantic. everything i said was in the past, your energy now seems very refreshing and stepping ahead. also i have a really bad headache rn, are u ok? take care of your health and make sure you sleep enough. you have many sleepless nights. anyways, people see your steps to a better life. although you might got addicted to the new me concept and ignore everyone who tries to help you or tries to talk to you. you're like, i don't want your help i've been by myself all this long i can take care of myself from now on. they are a bit annoyed by this. they think you're a bit stubborn. DEF a hopeless romantic. don't try to burden everything and try to move on with your life asap. take your time to heal. and take people's help -only the ones who really care tho. aww i just got the 3 of swords. pls keep your precious heart safe bby. your love is enough and you will find someone that loves you as much as you love them. (wow pile 2's photo says the exact same thing, i didnt mean to do that lol)
PILE 3
hey pile 3, why do you feel so alone even if you're out with your friends? you like to ask people for advice but somehow you don't trust them as much as you trust yourself. i mean good for you but people -maybe your friends can tell that you're faking your feelings sometimes? maybe you feel the need to be happy around everyone even if you feel like shit. they can tell that. there's this person you are stuck on. it seems like you arent able to let them go. people really wonder about you guys. you could be a heartbreaker too. you and your friends are sarcastic people. people could get annoyed by the fact that you guys have fun lol. people think you have it all and you will have it all. they dont like the fact that they cant get a piece of you, your space, your time. it's like, there are people who want you but you got someone else on your mind who you seem to cant have. you like to learn more and more. you're very smart and people like that. but there's just this unknown people love about you. you have the friends, you have the grades, you have the face but what is it that makes you sad(?) and broken? people wonder the shit out of this lmao and you don't give them a chance to understand it. you tend to zone out a lot during the day and your thoughts makes you go nuts. people just seem to curious about you. they don't know enough. the more you don't give them the chance the more they wonder. people feel that you have tons of other shit to do than answer their questions. they know they don't deserve to steal your time like that.