Elsya

NOTE TO READERS:

Many of my works feature mental health and self destructive behavior. I do not under any circumstances encourage or condone these.

I simply write about about them because I have done those things because of my poor mental health and because at that time I would image what it would be like for someone to be there for me.

BATFAM

Series:

Pushing it Down and Praying

Free Now.

She's Dating My Boyfriend.

I Hear Your Voice.

Limit Feelings: You're Fair and I'm Insane.

One-Shots:

Nothing here yet.

CRIMINAL MINDS

Series:

But The Old Me is Still Me.

I Am Hungry, I Have Been Hungry

Same Eyes As Your Father

One- Shots:

Nothing here yet.

AVENGERS

Series:

Nothing here yet.

One-Shots:

Nothing here yet.

THE PITT

Series:

Nothing here yet.

One-Shots:

Nothing here yet.

If you have any recommendations pls give them. I would love to write about characters you like.

You feel it as your fingers move across the piano, faster and unexpected and passionate. 

The last time you felt like this was when you were with Jon, riding away with Polly and you had felt so happy. 

 You don’t remember the last time you played the piano with such passion though, it feels foreign now, the music, the art of soul. Perhaps it's because you forgot yourself in the Manor, or maybe because you had objectifed the piano there rather than humanize it with melody.

  You smile - if you can call it that. For the first time since being with Jon you feel whole again, somewhat healed with David.  

   You reach for a key, but press the wrong one instead. 

 And maybe, David is like that wrong key but he’s better than Bruce ever was. Maybe, you might be putting too much faith into him but between the both of them you chose David anyday. After all, he was the one helping you get your powers back again. 

  You press the right key this time, before turning back to the one infront of you. 

It's been two weeks now, and you can feel it - your power-  in you sometimes. 

  It surges at night, pulling you into vivid dreams that feel more nightmares but it's okay. You don’t flinch at the nightmares because they aren’t real but also because your entire power is a nightmare. 

  Anyone who had the power of darkness, death and destruction should be prepared for the consequences. 

   Your arms feel sore but you keep pushing on. 

Somedays you feel pain when your power surges. Headaches, stomach aches and every scar on your thigh feels like it's been opened up again, deeper this time. 

  You don’t dare come out on those days. You can’t let anyone see like that.

David comes in anyways, probably because he has attachment issues with you after a whole decade apart and he always comes with chocolate. 

   Your fingers are trembling.

It's still strange to you, how affectionate David can be. Especially after he sat through the entire Harry Potter movies with you as you somewhat sniffled and cried into your pillow when Snape died. 

  You had realized later that you had become more vulnerable and less numb than you remembered. You also realized how long you had been clean for.

   Measure 82, you only have 8 more left. 

David had been cutting back on the blood solution for a few days. You both knew that he was afraid for you. 

 He didn’t want you to die and for the first time in a while you didn’t either.

You hadn’t said anything to him yet but if he cut it back anymore you would. You had to get your powers back. 

  Your wrist made a cracking sound. 

 And whoever Ross Finora was, you knew that if you got your hands on him, you would not hesitate to kill him. 

Because this life right now, with David and this piano and this will to live was sacred to you. 

You weren’t going to let anyone ruin this for you. 

Hi Readers!!!! Exams are over and I am back for the better!!! Yes I know I said longer chapters but this is supposed to be something like a internal monologue before the BIG stuff happens. Since there are only 4 chapters left until ACT III I would like to ask you guys if you want me to change the original formatting from 10 chapters ever ACT to less chapters. Please comment the amount you think would be better. I'll be back very very very soon with the next chapter! Who knows we might even see Ross! ~Elsya

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