I'm horny and real!!!

Waking up today just does not seem right. Kobe is gone. He held his daughter while they were going down. As parents we live for our kids and the circle of life they are suppose to mourn us not the other way around. Basketball is my first love. People who know me know I felt about Kobe. If I could somehow take their place I would in a heartbeat so the world can feel better. This just not feel right. #mambaforever

Since this is a place of boys and porn I can post my feelings and no one would give a fuck. Over the past 2 years I have been hospitalized and attempted 4 overdoses. Nothing has worked. I do not believe in guns as protection yet putting a bullet through my head would be fucking awesome. I just can't see myself dying that way. I want to die feeling the pain that I cause my friends and family. I know I am a fucking loser and a good for nothing asshole because that is what I have been told. Also my friends say I am "overly sensitive and too much to handle". So, I want to put myself out of that misery for them. When I was oding it felt that I was being pulled away from my body and then sadly pulled back to Earth. Furthermore, when I see someone dead i ask "why not me?" Or "please take me!?" Well, I just took about 13 shots of vodka, 500 mq of Quetiapine, and half a bottle NyQuil Severe. With a view of the San Diego Skyline. I will probably pass out and unfortunately wake up in a pool of pills and crying because it did not work. #pleasedie #noonereallycares

I hate it when my depression hits me like a ton of fucking bricks! My heart is heavy and I want to die. I have no gun, no pills, and no weights to drown myself.

Since this is a place of boys and porn I can post my feelings and no one would give a fuck. Over the past 2 years I have been hospitalized and attempted 4 overdoses. Nothing has worked. I do not believe in guns as protection yet putting a bullet through my head would be fucking awesome. I just can't see myself dying that way. I want to die feeling the pain that I cause my friends and family. I know I am a fucking loser and a good for nothing asshole because that is what I have been told. Also my friends say I am "overly sensitive and too much to handle". So, I want to put myself out of that misery for them. When I was oding it felt that I was being pulled away from my body and then sadly pulled back to Earth. Furthermore, when I see someone dead i ask "why not me?" Or "please take me!?" Well, I just took about 13 shots of vodka, 500 mq of Quetiapine, and half a bottle NyQuil Severe. With a view of the San Diego Skyline. I will probably pass out and unfortunately wake up in a pool of pills and crying because it did not work. #pleasedie #noonereallycares

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