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& i hate myself so much for letting myself get so attached to the point where i feel like i can do nothing without them.

i feel like at times i freak out & get upset for no reason, maybe im wrong, maybe they do love me & they're not doing anything behind my back. maybe they do want a future with me, maybe they wouldnt do anything to hurt me.

its the fact i dont know is what scares me & their silence scares me more when i speak to them because i can never tell if they're angry, upset or just dont even care at all.

we've had good moment & i'd like to think we're happy together but at times i feel like im just a burden, maybe i am just a burden. maybe im not but a burden & thats why they may want to talk to other people, maybe im not good enough?

im sorry happy i could cry! i got my sub button on twitch 💗 a big thank you to everyone who got me this far, i find it crazy that i really only started streaming about 3 weeks now & i've built a community & having such supportive friends is the greatest gift i could ever have 💗

💗🖤& to those of you who can,,, follow & subscribe, share me around because im trying to build this community as a safe space for people who may not be that great at games but still do it just for fun🖤💗

🖤💗click the link !!💗🖤

https://www.twitch.tv/baozibuns