Lavender Shadows

But insufficient

I hope you try to visit me here, just for some of your spare time. Because I still thinking of you. Until this moment. Even I pray every day that I will forget you, I still can’t help thinking about you. Please give me some liquor for I will pour it to my face than to drink it. To let me be awaken of my foolishness.

Let’s get drunk for the last time.

- KINDNESS

Sad life. 

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson

almost half an hour had passed, still he did not reply. Shame on me

My last pm to him was this emoticon :) which means smile, happiness. Since he was one of the people who brought sunshine in my virtual world. Even though now, we have no more conversations, I can still hear his voice talking to me at the middle of the night. As a result, I can’t sleep. His voice was one of my nightmares. Hope I can forget him as soon as possible so that my suffering won’t take too long.

It’s hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember 

HE: But don’t mind

Three weeks straight I’m trying to murder myself. I try to kill myself everyday by sleeping late at night and skipping meal hours.