strange as angels

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

i love chloe's proper introduction because right away you know that girl is going through something crazy. her troubled ass was like omg so glad to see you maximus prime my bestest friend in the world [remembers i have to stand up for myself] after you fucked me over for 5 years you selfish asshole [remembers making someone feel guilty is a great way to get them to say yes to spending time with you out of pity] you should totally come over to my house right now though [remembers pussy from a girl who hurt you is bomb] and btw i still remember your birthday [remembers to give away all my meaningful belongings before i die from getting drunk and playing with guns because im sad] so you should totally have my beloved dead dad's camera as a gift [remembers wanting things and being nice is embarrassing and everyone leaves me because im nothing] anyway lets play this song with pj harvey on it really really loud so we can't talk for a while

now that the world cup is out of the way can we focus on me instead