the girl who sold the world

Too sober to deal with all the drama of coming back to Bristol.

Ella: Okay... Can um.. Can you get me? I don't have anymore pounds left.

Jasper: 'Course. I just.. where are you?

Ella: you don't have to. I could try and find a way back.

Jasper: We all have our faults. Though, running away doesn't do anything. It's making it hurt, it's just numbing the pain. So when you finally come to a stop it hits you full force. I am different. But, there's always going to be someone different for us. You were different to me. You are different to me. But, it doesn't mean your excused from learning. It's different, this. And if we're going to do something, you're going t'have to work with me, El. No more running.

Jasper: You don't want to? Then you proceed to fuck off? Yeah. I get it. I'm lonely too. We're all fucking lonely. It's going to happen sometimes. But I'm reaching out, and I'm offering, and you're just pushing me away. You think I don't know what it's like to be left? What it's like to be uncared for? Tossed around? Ten years of my fucking life were wasted bouncing between jails and institutions, but I'm not going to stop now. I was perfectly fine killing myself, but then you gave me a reason to try. I love you, Ella. Why the fuck isn't that enough?

Ella: You know facing the problem and shit. Tried offing myself.

Ella: I don't know. Everyone I've ever loved never cared for me. They either fucked off or died.

Jasper: Ella, what the fuck? And I'm now just hearing about this? Look. I understand. You've been hurt, but you have to believe when I say I don't see me doin' any sort of that stupid shit in the future. I'm not everyone, and I'm not fucking off, and I'm not dying. But, the real question is, are you?

Ella: no you didnt. Just thought that would be easier.

Jasper: Easier than what? D'you think I don't care, or something?

Ella: You know facing the problem and shit. Tried offing myself.

Ella: Not necessarily... I thought about you when I was and still am gone.

Ella: Passed by and slept in an abandoned hospital. I imagined that you were there. It was nice.

Jasper: Yeah, but didn't get much of a warning that you were even leaving, did I? I'm sure it was, El.

Ella: You're mad at me.

Ella: which is understandable. I'd be mad at me too.

Ella: I'm a flake.

Jasper: You aren't a flake. It's just it's late, and I'm tired, and I've been forgotten about yet again.

Ella: Not necessarily... I thought about you when I was and still am gone.

Ella: Well I am now, yeah?

Ella: I wanted to earlier.. I just didnt.

Jasper: Yeah, sure. Alright. S'nice to know you're thinkin' of me, yeah?

Ella: You're mad at me.

Ella: which is understandable. I'd be mad at me too.

Ella: Pulled a runner for a few weeks.

Ella: Been everywhere.

Jasper: Yeah, well, no shit. Didn't think to, dunno, call me, or something?

Ella: Well I am now, yeah?

Ella: Yeah... It's me.

Jasper: Where the hell have you been?

Ella: Pulled a runner for a few weeks.