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Pairing: Steve Harrington x Steve's mom (and obv also Steve Harrington x fem!reader)
Word count: 3k
Summary: Steve's mom is back, for good. Steve has to come to terms with it.
Warnings: estranged parent, parental guilt, fixing familial relationships, steve having a hard time adjusting and you are there for him, a lot of em dashesâi wrote it MYSELF xoxo
Author's note: my birthday fic y'all, my present from me to you... this might not be my usual writing/pairing, but hello... this is a gem if I have to say so myself. maybe it feels a little weird, reading this, but I thought it would give Steve more emotional depth, a little inside in how adjusted he was living without a parent and also the emotional side of his mother.
please lmk if you like it, if you have requests. divider by: @enchanthings-a
Steve Harrington doesnât expect anything good to come from the front door opening. Not anymore. The house has always sounded the sameâlocks clicking, shoes on tile, voices that donât stay long enough to matter. So when the door opens on a quiet Thursday afternoon and doesnât immediately close again, when thereâs the soft roll of a suitcase and then⌠nothing, no phone call, no hurried footsteps back outâSteve frowns.
Heâs halfway stretched out on the couch, arm thrown over his eyes, and for a second he thinks maybe he imagined it. Then he hears it again. A breath. A shift. Presence.
âSteve?â
He sits up too fast. âMom?â
Sheâs standing in the doorway like she doesnât quite know how to enter her own house. Christina HarringtonâChristy, to people who know her well enough, which suddenly feels like a very small groupâis still impeccably dressed, still composed in that polished way he grew up around, but something is different. Her hair isnât perfectly set. Her posture isnât rigid. Thereâs a suitcase behind her. Not decorative. Not for a night. A real one.
âYouâre here,â he says, because itâs the only thing that makes sense.
âI am,â she answers, softer than he expects.
He waits for the follow-up. The âfor a bit,â the âjust passing through,â the explanation that turns this back into something familiar.
It doesnât come.
âIâm staying,â she says instead.
The words land in the room like they donât belong there.
Steve blinks. âStaying⌠how long?â
Christy hesitates, just for a second. âI'm moving back, Steve.â
Moving back.
Not visiting.
Not stopping by.
Something in his chest tightens. âWhereâs Dad?â
Her expression shifts...controlled, but not untouched. âHeâs not here.â
âThatâs not an answer.â
âI know.â She exhales slowly, like sheâs choosing her next words carefully. âWeâre divorcing.â
It hits differently than he expects. Not loud. Not explosive. Just heavy.
ââŚYouâre serious.â
âYes.â
He searches her face for something familiar, detachment, distance, the version of her that always had one foot out the door. Itâs not there. Instead, thereâs something steadier. Something⌠grounded.
"He plans to stay in, umâItaly, for the forseeable future."
âWhen did this happen?â he asks.
âOver the past few months,â she says. âItâs been⌠in process.â
âYou didnât tell me.â
âI didnât want to burden you with it.â
That stings more than the divorce.
âIâm your son,â he says, sharper than he means to. âI think I qualify.â
âI know,â she says quietly. âAnd Iâm sorry. I thought I was doing the right thing.â
Steve huffs a breath, running a hand through his hair. âYeah. That seems to be a theme lately.â
She doesnât argue.
Instead, she nods, almost looking defeated. âYouâre right.â
That throws him off more than if she had defended herself.
Silence stretches. The house feels different already. Smaller, somehow. Like the air shifted.
âSo what now?â he asks finally.
âNowâŚâ She glances around, taking in the space like sheâs seeing it for the first time. âI stay. I fix what I can. I'll be here.â
âFor how long?â
âAs long as youâll let me,â she says.
Thatâs not an answer heâs ready for.
ââŚOkay,â he says instead, because itâs the only thing he can manage.
Itâs not acceptance.
But itâs not rejection either.
Itâs a start.
The next morning confirms itâs real. Sheâs still there. In the kitchen. Actually cooking. Steve stops in the doorway, watching her like she might disappear if he blinks. She turns, gives him a small, almost tentative smile, like sheâs not sure if sheâs allowed to take up this space yet.
âGood morning,â she says.
âMorning,â he replies, slower.
âI made breakfast.â
He looks at the plate. Then at her. âYou didnât have to do that.â
âI wanted to,â she says.
That phraseâI wanted toâdoesnât fit in his memory of her. It makes something in his chest twist.
He nods anyway. Sits. Eats. Itâs good. Of course it is. Thatâs not the point. The point is that sheâs there while he eats. She doesnât leave halfway through. She doesnât check her watch. She doesnât disappear.
Itâs unsettling.
He doesnât know what to do with it.
So he does the only thing that makes sense.
He finds you.
Youâre curled up on your bed, halfway through something youâre not really paying attention to, when you hear the knock.
Itâs quick. Impatient.
Familiar.
You open the door, and there he isâSteve, standing a little too still, like heâs not sure what to do with himself.
âHey,â you say, already reading the tension in his shoulders. âWhat happened?â
He exhales, staring at nothing for a second. âMy momâs back.â
You blink. âAs in...back back?â
âSuitcase and everything.â
Your expression softens. âOkay⌠that sounds good?â
âI donât know if it is.â
You tilt your head, studying him. âWhy?â
âBecause it feels not normal,â he says. âSheâs cooking. Sheâs asking questions. Sheâs staying in the same room. Itâs like she suddenly decided to beââ he cuts himself off.
âA mom?â you finish gently.
He huffs. âYeah.â
âThatâs not a bad thing, Steve.â
âNo, but itâs not something Iâm used to. They have been gone for so long, always stopping by, never staying. It just feels weird.â
You shift closer without thinking, your shoulder brushing his. âYou donât have to decide what it means right now. You can just⌠let it happen.â
He looks at you. Really looks. Like heâs grounding himself in something familiar.
âShe said sheâs staying,â he adds.
âThen maybe she is.â
He doesnât answer right away. Instead, his hand finds yours, squeezing gently.
You give it right back, kissing his chin and then laying your head on his shoulder.
That steadies him.
Always.
Over the next few days, the house changes in small ways. There are dishes in the sink. Music playing low in the background. Conversations that donât end abruptly. Christy asks him about school, about his friends, about his life. At first, his answers are short. Guarded. But she doesnât push. She listens. Thatâs new too.
And then there are the other things.
The things that donât have anything to do with him...but still do.
Steve notices the first time when he comes downstairs and finds her standing by the front door, smoothing down her blouse like sheâs about to walk into a room full of strangers. Thereâs a tray in her hands...store-bought cookies arranged carefully on a plate, like sheâs trying to make them look homemade.
âGoing somewhere?â he asks.
She startles slightly, then smiles. âMrs. Callahan next door. I thought Iâd⌠say hello.â
Steve blinks. âYouâve lived here for, like, twenty years.â
âI know,â she says, a little sheepish. âBut I donât think Iâve ever actually introduced myself.â
That lands somewhere strange.
ââŚHuh,â he mutters.
She lingers for a second longer, like sheâs debating whether to go through with it, then straightens her shoulders just slightly.
âI wonât be long,â she says.
He watches her leave.
Watches her knock.
Watches the hesitation in her posture before the door opens and she forces a polite smile.
Itâs⌠uncomfortable.
Not in a bad way.
Just unfamiliar.
The next time, itâs a phone call.
Heâs in the living room, half-watching something, when he hears her voice from the kitchenâcareful, measured, a little too bright.
âNo, I understand,â sheâs saying. âItâs been a while.â
A pause.
âYes, well⌠I thought Iâd reach out.â
Another pause.
Longer this time.
Steve doesnât mean to listen.
But he does.
ââŚOf course,â she says finally, softer now. âMaybe another time.â
When she hangs up, the kitchen goes quiet.
Steve glances toward the doorway.
For a second, he thinks about getting up.
He doesnât.
But later, when he walks in to grab a drink, sheâs standing by the counter, staring at nothing, her expression composed in that practiced way he knows too well.
âYou okay?â he asks.
She turns, smiles faintly. âYes.â
He doesnât push.
But he notices.
He notices when she starts going out in the afternoonsâdressed a little nicer than necessary, coming back with small things she didnât really need. Groceries they already had. Flowers that end up in a vase in the kitchen. Conversation starters, maybe.
He notices the way she lingers outside sometimes, talking to neighbors heâs only ever waved at in passing. The way she laughs just a little too easily, like sheâs trying to fill the space before it can go quiet.
And he noticesâ
how hard sheâs trying.
Not just with him.
With everything.
It shifts something in him.
Because this isnât the version of his mom he remembersâthe one who always had somewhere else to be, someone else to see, something more important waiting.
This version stays.
This version knocks on doors.
Makes phone calls.
Puts herself in places sheâs clearly not entirely comfortable in anymore.
Just to not be⌠alone.
Steve leans against the doorframe one afternoon, watching her from a distance as she stands at the edge of the driveway, talking to a neighbor about something smallâweather, maybe, or the garden, something that doesnât really matter.
But the way sheâs standingâ
open.
Present.
Trying.
It does.
He hadnât thought about that part before.
What it mustâve been like for her, coming back to a house that doesnât quite feel like hers anymore. To a town where people remember her, but donât really know her. To a life she stepped out of and is now trying to step back into without knowing where she fits.
He looks away after a second.
Gives her that space.
But later, when he walks into the kitchen and sees the fresh flowers sitting in a glass vaseâ
he pauses.
Then, quietlyâ
ââŚThey look nice.â
She glances up, surprised.
âThank you.â
Itâs a small thing.
But it matters.
And for the first time, Steve doesnât just see whatâs changed in his life.
He sees what sheâs trying to rebuild in hers.
And how hard sheâs working to not lose it again.
So, one evening, when he comes home late from work, he finds her sitting at the kitchen table, the light still on. Steve stops in the doorway, just as she looks up.
âHi.â
Christy looks up from the kitchen table, a little startled, like she hadnât heard him come in.
Then she smiles...soft, a little tired, but real, familiar. âHi, baby.â
Steve pauses in the doorway.
Thereâs something about the way she says itâgentle, unguardedâthat feels unfamiliar now, even if it shouldnât.
âWhat are you doing, still up?â he asks.
She hesitates, fingers tightening slightly around the mug in front of her. âI was, umâwaiting.â
That lands differently than it would have a week ago.
Not just for him.
But like she didnât have anywhere else to be.
ââŚYou didnât have to do that,â he says.
âI know,â she answers quietly. âI wanted to.â
Steve lingers in the doorway a moment longer, taking in the small things he wouldnât have noticed beforeâthe cold tea she hasnât touched, the second chair pulled out just slightly, like sheâd been expecting him to sit there.
Like she hoped he would.
He exhales, then walks in, pulling the chair out the rest of the way and sitting down across from her.
For a second, neither of them says anything.
The house hums softly around them.
âYou didnât have plans?â he asks after a moment.
She lets out a small breath, something almost self-aware in it. âI tried.â
That makes him look up.
âTried?â
âI stopped by Mrs. Callahanâs,â she says. âAnd I called a few⌠old friends.â
âAnd?â
She gives a small shrug, gaze dropping briefly to the table. âItâs just been a long time.â
Thereâs no resentment in it.
Just⌠consequence.
Steve leans back slightly, processing that.
âYou donât really have anyone here anymore,â he says.
âI didnât make the effort to keep anyone,â she corrects gently.
That lands.
Because it mirrors something heâs already starting to understand about her returnâthis isnât just about him. Itâs about everything she stepped away from.
A quiet pause stretches between them.
âI donât want that anymore,â she adds, softer now. âI donât want to be⌠outside of things. Not with you. Not with my own life.â
Steve watches her carefully.
Thereâs something different in her voice now.
Not rehearsed.
Not distant.
Real.
âI missed a lot,â she continues, her fingers lacing together like she needs something to hold onto. âAnd I keep realizing it in pieces. Little things I should know that I donât.â
He doesnât say anything.
Doesnât interrupt.
âI donât know what your days look like,â she goes on. âI donât know who you spend your time with. I didnât even know aboutââ she hesitates, glancing up at him, more careful now, ââabout your girlfriend.â
There it is.
Steve shifts slightly in his seat.
ââŚYeah,â he says, a little guarded without meaning to be.
âIâm sorry,â Christy says quickly, wiping away a tear threatening to fall. âNot because of herâshe seemsâŚâ she searches for the right word, a faint smile tugging at her mouth, âimportant. I justââ she exhales, shaking her head slightly. âI should have known. I should have been there to see that part of your life happen.â
That softens something in him.
Just a little.
âShe is important to me,â he says, quieter now.
âIâd like to know her,â Christy adds carefully. âIf thatâs something youâd be okay with. Not to intrude. Just⌠to understand your life better. To understand you. And obviously, I also want to meet her, because I want to meet the woman who makes my son happy.â
Steve looks at her.
Really looks.
And more and more, it feels like sheâs asking because she actually wants to know.
It feels like she means it.
Like she is curious about him, her son,
and his life.
ââŚYou would?â he asks.
âYes,â she says simply. âShe matters to you. That makes her matter to me.â
Thatâ
That hits differently.
Thereâs no pressure in it.
No expectation.
Just⌠intention.
âI donât expect you to suddenly tell me everything,â she continues. âOr to let me in all at once. I just⌠want the chance to learn. To be part of things. If youâll let me.â
Steve exhales slowly, leaning back slightly, his thoughts quieter than they were a few minutes ago.
âYouâre trying really hard,â he says.
She huffs a small breath, something almost like a laugh slipping out. âIs it that obvious?â
âYeah,â he says. âKind of.â
A pause.
âI donât want to keep missing things,â she admits. âNot with you.â
That settles somewhere deep.
Because itâs not about fixing the past.
Itâs about not repeating it.
ââŚOkay,â Steve says after a moment.
Itâs not big.
But itâs not nothing either.
Her expression softens, something grateful flickering there.
âOkay?â she repeats gently.
âYeah,â he says. âWe can⌠start with that.â
Itâs the closest thing to an invitation he knows how to give.
And she takes it.
Carefully.
âThank you,â she says.
He shrugs, like itâs nothing.
But it isnât.
They sit there for another minute, the quiet stretching between themâbut not uncomfortably this time.
Just⌠present.
When Steve finally stands, pushing his chair back, he hesitates for a second.
âGoodnight,â he says.
âGoodnight, baby.â
The word feels different now.
Still unfamiliar.
Still something heâs adjusting to.
But it doesnât sit wrong anymore.
He pauses, glancing at herâreally looking this time, at the quiet, the effort, the loneliness sheâs trying so hard to outrun.
Then, softerâ
âThere will be people in your life again, Mom.â
And with that, he heads upstairs slower than usual, his thoughts quieter than he expected them to be.
Heâs still unsure.
Still adjusting.
Still waiting for something to feel off.
But, even with that flicker of uncertainty, the part of him thatâs still a kid just wants his mom.
So, a few days later, Steve lets Christy meet you properly. Steve is nervous in a way youâve never seen before. Pacing on the front porch, running a hand through his hair, probably overthinking every possible outcome.
âWeâre going to be fine,â you tell him, reaching for his arm.
âYeah,â he mutters. âThatâs not what Iâm worried about.â
âThen what are you worried about?â
He glances at you, something softer flickering in his expression. âThat this is going to be weird.â
âItâs going to be new,â you correct, while knocking on the front door. âNot weird.â
He exhales, reaching for your hand. âStay close?â
Your heart softens, your fingers wrapping around his. âAlways.â
Christy opens the door. Her gaze moves from Steve to you, and something in her expression shiftsâcuriosity, warmth, a quiet kind of awe.
âYou must be the one Iâve heard about,â she says.
Steve groans. âMomââ
But sheâs smiling at you. Not polite. Not distant. Real.
âIâm really glad youâre here,â she adds.
Dinner is⌠easy. Surprisingly so. Thereâs laughter. Conversation that flows. Christy asks you questionsânot intrusive, not interrogating, just⌠interested. She watches the way Steve looks at you, the way he relaxes around you, the way he reaches for your hand under the table without thinking.
Later, when youâre upstairs, Steve exhales, dropping onto his bed. âThat went better than expected.â
You sit beside him, smiling. âShe likes you.â
He snorts. âGod, Iâd hope so.â
âI meant she likes the person you are now,â you correct.
That quiets him.
ââŚYeah,â he admits.
Thereâs a pause. Then, softer with a tremble in his voice, âShe wasnât there for a lot of this.â
âI know.â
âI donât know how to just⌠let her in.â
âYou donât have to do it all at once,â you say. âJust let her be there.â
He nods slowly.
âShe it really trying,â he says.
âAnd I think you are too.â
He glances at you, something soft settling in his expression. âYeah.â
Downstairs, Christy sits alone for a moment after you leave, staring at the quiet house that doesnât feel so empty anymore. She thinks about the years she missed. The dinners she wasnât there for. The conversations she never had. The boy she left alone too many times.
And nowâ
now she sees him.
Not as a child.
But as someone whole.
Someone kind.
Someone who loves deeply.
Someone who found you, despite everything.
She exhales slowly, a quiet promise settling in her chest.
Sheâs not leaving again.
Upstairs, Steve leans against his door after bringing you home, watching the empty hallway for a second before turning back into his room. It still feels strange. This new version of things. This presence. This⌠possibility.
But when he thinks about you downstairs at the table, laughing with his momâ
Summary: Youâve already made your peace with it, but everyone else is still dealing with what happened.
Warnings: set somewhere between s4 and s5, not really angsty but maybe a little, reader is still a little hurt, Steve is in MOM mode, Dustin is still hurt and distant.
Author's note: by very popular demand (2 people)⌠here it is, pt. 2 of Baby. repeating because: i use a lot of em dashes in this, i know but i wrote it MYSELF, and i use them because i love love love em dashes. divider by: @chrisssiren
taglist: @sionexyh3llhoundz @livingblythedoll
The first night home is the worst.
Not because of the pain, though thereâs plenty of thatâbut because of the silence.
Hospitals hum. They buzz with life, even when everything feels fragile. Machines beep, nurses pass through, someone is always watching, always ready to step in if something goes wrong.
Home doesnât have that.
Home is quiet.
Too quiet.
You donât realize how much that bothers you until youâre lying in your bed, staring at the ceiling, your body heavy and sore in ways that make every small movement feel deliberate. The house feels different nowâŚlike itâs holding its breath, like itâs waiting to see what youâll do next.
You shift slightly.
It hurts.
A sharp pull along your ribs, a dull ache in your leg, something deeper that hasnât quite settled yet.
You let out a slow breath.
âYou okay?â
You donât even startle.
Steveâs voice is soft, but immediate.
Always immediate.
You turn your head slightly toward the doorway. Heâs leaning against it, arms crossed, like heâs been standing there longer than he wants to admit.
âYeah,â you say.
He doesnât move.
âYou sure?â
You huff a quiet breath. âSteve, if you ask me that every five minutes, I might actually stop being okay.â
That earns you the smallest flicker of a smile.
âNoted.â
But he still doesnât leave.
You watch him for a second.
ThenâŚwithout thinking too hard about itâ
âYou can come in, you know.â
He hesitates.
Like heâs not sure if he should.
ThatâsâŚnew?
Steve Harrington has never been unsure about walking into your room.
âYeah?â he asks.
You nod.
âYeah.â
Thatâs all it takes.
He pushes off the doorframe and steps inside, slower than usual, like heâs trying not to take up too much space. He drags the chair from your desk closer to your bed, but not too close, just enough that he can sit without crowding you.
Thatâs new too.
You notice all of it.
The distance.
The hesitation.
The way he keeps watching you like you might disappear if he looks away too long.
âYou donât have to hover,â you say gently.
âIâm not hovering.â
âYouâre hovering.â
âIâm sitting,â he corrects.
You raise a brow.
He sighs.
âOkay, butâyou told me to come in.â
You smile faintly.
Thereâs a pause.
Thenâ
âYou can sit closer.â
The words come out softer than you intended.
He looks at you.
Really looks.
Like heâs trying to read something in your expression.
âCome closer please.â
At that, he shifts the chair forward, just a little.
Still careful.
Still not quite touching.
But closer.
Better.
The next few days settle into something strange.
Not normal.
But⌠something close to it.
The group comes and goes in waves again, but now itâs different. Less panic. Less urgency. More checking in, more watching you carefully, like theyâre all waiting for something to break.
Mike is quieter than usual.
He sticks close, hovering in doorways, asking if you need anything and then not quite believing you when you say no.
Dustinâ
Dustin is the hardest.
He doesnât avoid you.
But he doesnât relax around you either.
Thereâs always something tight in his shoulders, something uneasy in the way he watches you move, like heâs waiting for you to suddenly collapse again.
It takes three days before you decide you canât let that keep going.
You find him in the kitchen.
Alone.
Which is rare.
Heâs sitting at the table, elbows propped up, staring at something in front of him that heâs not really looking at.
âHey,â you say softly.
He startles slightly, like he didnât hear you come in.
âOh, umâŚhey.â
You lean against the counter, careful with your weight.
âI remember what it felt like,â you say. âWhen I was lying there. Not being able to move. Not knowing if you were okay.â
His expression cracks slightly, a tremble in his lower lip.
âThatâs what you were thinking about?â
âOf course.â
âBut you wereââ he gestures vaguely, like he canât bring himself to say it.
âHurt?â you finish.
He nods.
You shrug slightly. âDidnât matter.â
Dustin stares at you.
âSee, thatâs the problem,â he says. âIt should matter.â
You hold his gaze.
âIt does,â you say quietly. âBut not more than you guys.â
That hits him hard.
You can see it.
âYou donât get it,â he mutters. âIf you diedââ
âBut I didnât.â
âBut you could have.â
Silence.
Then...
âYou think I donât know that?â
Your voice isnât sharp.
But itâs firm.
Dustin stills.
You lean forward slightly.
âI knew what I was doing, Dustin. I made that choice.â
âWhy?â
The question is small.
Childlike.
Honest.
You donât hesitate.
âBecause you guys are important to me.â
He swallows hard.
âYouâre important to all of us,â he says.
âI know.â
âThen why?â
âBecause I could take it,â you say.
He shakes his head immediately. âNo, you couldnâtââ
âI did.â
That stops him.
You donât smile.
Donât soften it.
You just let the truth sit there and gave his hand a gentle squeeze.
âI got hurt,â you continue. âYes, butâI got through it.â
Dustin looks at you differently now.
Not less scared.
But⌠less broken.
âYouâre not⌠messed up from it?â he asks.
You consider that.
Then shake your head slightly.
âNo,â you say. âI was scared. I was in pain. But Iâm not⌠stuck there.â
You point to your temple, a small reassuring smile on your lips.
His shoulders drop just a little.
âReally?â
âReally.â
A pause.
Then, quieter...
âIâm glad it was me.â
That startles him.
âWhat?â
âIâm glad it was me and not you.â
Dustin stares at you for a long moment, something shifting behind his eyes. Then he lets out a small breath, like heâs deciding something.
ââŚYou know he called you stupid, right?â
You blink.
âIâm sorryâwhat?â
Dustin shrugs, like heâs suddenly unsure if he was supposed to say that. âYeah. In the woods. When he found you. He was likeââ he gestures vaguely, voice pitching lower in a rough attempt to mimic Steve, âââthat was stupid, that was so stupid,â while he was carrying you.â
You just stare at him for a second.
Then huff out a quiet, disbelieving breath.
âWow.â
Dustin winces slightly. âIn a worried way.â
âGodââ you huff out a laugh. âI would hope so.â
âDefinitely in a worried way.â
You shake your head, but thereâs the faintest hint of a smile tugging at your mouth now.
âThat sounds like him.â
âYeah,â Dustin says, a little more solid now. âIt really does.â
Thereâs a small pause.
Then he adds, almost like an afterthought...
âHe called you âbabyâ too.â
That one lands differently.
Your expression shifts, softer now, something quieter slipping in.
âYeah,â you murmur, a faint, knowing smile pulling at your lips. âThat I do know, yes.â
Dustin watches you for a second, something easing fully in his shoulders now.
Then...
Slowly...
He nods.
And for the first time since the woods, he looks like himself again.
And SteveâSteve notices the shift.
Of course he does.
He always does.
âWhat did you say to him?â he asks later that night, leaning against your doorframe again.
You glance up from your bed.
âNothing special.â
âHe looks⌠better.â
You smile faintly. âYeah. I think he is.â
Steve watches you for a second.
âYou sure you are?â
You sigh.
âSteve.â
âIâm serious.â
âI know.â
You set your book aside.
Look at him fully.
âIâm okay.â
He doesnât answer.
âWhy donât you believe me?â
His jaw tightens.
âBecause Iâve been there.â
That catches you off guard.
âWith the bats,â he adds quietly. âAfter⌠everything. Everyone kept telling me I was fine. That I made it. That I should just move on.â
âAnd?â
âAnd I wasnât fine.â
Your expression softens.
âOh.â
He shrugs slightly. âTakes a while to admit that.â
You nod slowly.
âI know.â
âSo when you say youâre okayââ
âI mean it,â you cut in gently.
He hesitates.
You shift slightly, ignoring the ache, and pat the bed beside you.
âCome here.â
He does.
This time without hesitation.
Sits beside you, close enough that your shoulders brush.
âIâm not pretending,â you say quietly. âIâm not pushing it down. Iâve thought about it. Iâve felt it.â
He watches you carefully.
âAnd?â he asks.
âAnd Iâm still here,â you say simply.
That lands.
He exhales slowly.
âOkay.â
You lean your head lightly against his shoulder.
âOkay.â
And this time, he believes you.
At least a little.
It happens the next afternoon.
You follow the smell before anything else.
Something warm. Familiar. Comforting in a way that settles into your chest before you even realize it. You pause in the hallway for a second, leaning lightly against the wall, listening.
Pans. Movement. The soft clink of utensils.
Steve.
Of course.
You push yourself off the wall and make your way into the kitchen, slower than you would have a week ago, but steady.
Heâs at the stove, back turned, sleeves pushed up, focused in a way that almost makes you smile. Thereâs something very⌠Steve about itâserious over something simple, like heâs taken full responsibility for whatever heâs making.
You lean against the doorway, watching him for a second.
He hasnât noticed you yet.
Which is your opportunity.
You step in quietly.
âHey.â
He jumps slightly, turning fast, eyes immediately scanning you from head to toe.
âJesus! Hey. You canât justââ he exhales, running a hand through his hair. âYou need to stop doing that.â
âI only said âhey.ââ
âYeah, after you appeared out of nowhere.â
You smile faintly.
Then step closer.
He notices that.
Of course he does.
ââŚWhat?â he asks, already suspicious.
You tilt your head.
âYouâre cooking for me.â
âYeah,â he says slowly. âThatâs⌠what people do when someoneâs recovering from almost getting themselves killed.â
âWow.â
âToo soon?â
âVery.â
He winces slightly. âYeah, okay, fair.â
You take another step closer, stopping right in front of him now. Close enough that he has to tilt his head down just slightly to look at you.
And then...
âYou called me baby.â
Steve doesnât freeze this time.
He barely even pauses, just shifts his weight slightly, like heâs already decided heâs not going to give you what you want that easily.
âHey, did you eat yet?â he says instead, reaching past you for something on the counter like that was the conversation all along.
You blink.
Then narrow your eyes.
âSteve.â
âWhat?â he says, too casually, grabbing a glass and turning away from you. âI made food. You shouldââ
âSteve.â
He sighs under his breath, still not looking at you. âYou should sit down before youââ
âNope.â
You step forward before he can finish, closing the space between you in two quick steps.
His mistake is turning back toward you.
Your mistake...
is not stopping.
Your hand lands flat against his chest, just over his heart...and before he can react properly, you push.
Not hard.
But enough.
Enough to make him take a step back...then anotherâuntil his lower back hits the edge of the counter with a soft thud.
He lets out a surprised breath, hands coming up instinctively, not to stop you, just⌠reacting.
âWhoaâheyââ
âYou called me baby,â you repeat, standing right in front of him now, closer than youâve been since everything happened.
Thereâs no escaping it now.
His eyes flick down to your hand still pressed against his chest.
Then back up to your face.
You can see it... the shift.
The way he realizes deflecting isnât going to work.
He exhales slowly, a little less steady than before.
ââŚYeah,â he says.
No denial.
No pretending.
Just that.
You tilt your head slightly, watching him.
âYeah?â you echo.
His jaw tightens just a fraction, like heâs still deciding how much heâs willing to give you here.
âYou were bleeding,â he says, quieter now. âDustin was freaking out. I wasnât exactly...thinking about word choice.â
âOh, it counts,â you interrupt immediately.
That earns you a look.
Not sharp.
Just⌠caught.
âThat does not count,â he tries, but thereâs already less conviction in it.
âIt absolutely counts.â
Your fingers press slightly into his shirt as you say it, not aggressive, just enough to make your point.
He huffs a breath, glancing away for a second like heâs regrouping.
Then back to you.
âYouâre unbelievable,â he mutters.
âYou like me.â
That lands.
Again.
He doesnât argue it this time.
Doesnât even try.
ââŚMhm,â he admits quietly.
Your heart stutters, but you donât let it show.
Instead, you lean in just slightly, still holding your ground.
âWhich means,â you say, voice lowering just a touch, âyou owe me something.â
His brows pull together faintly.
ââŚI owe you something?â
âYes.â
Thereâs a beat.
He searches your face, like he already knows where this is going and is trying to get ahead of it.
âFor calling youââ
âFor calling me baby,â you correct.
That does it.
His composure cracks, just slightly.
A flash of something softer, more flustered, slipping through.
âThat is not...those are not equal things.â
âThey absolutely are.â
He lets out a quiet, almost helpless laugh under his breath, head tipping back briefly before he looks at you again.
âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd you called me baby.â
He shakes his head.
But heâs smiling now.
Just a little.
ââŚWhat do I owe you?â he asks.
You donât hesitate.
âA date.â
He stills.
Just for a second.
Not frozen.
Just⌠taking it in.
âYouâre serious.â
âVery.â
Your hand finally drops from his chest, but you donât step back.
Not yet.
âYou owe me a date,â you repeat.
He exhales slowly, running a hand through his hair again, that familiar mix of flustered and fond settling over him.
âYou really cornered me for this, huh?â
âMm. I did.â
Another beat.
Thenâ
his expression shifts again.
Softer now.
More careful.
âNot yet.â
And there it is.
You blink.
ââŚWhat?â
âNot yet,â he repeats, gentler this time.
You immediately frown, because what did he mean not yet?
You finally had him confessing and now you had to wait?
 âSteveââ
âYouâre still healing.â
âIâm fine.â
âYou walked in here holding your side.â
âI was notââ
âYou were,â he says, raising a brow.
You open your mouth.
Pause.
ââŚOkay, maybe a little.â
âExactly.â
You cross your arms slightly, stubborn now. âI feel better.â
âI know you do,â he says. âThat doesnât mean you are better.â
You step closer again, tilting your head up at him.
âI can sit at a table and eat food, Steve. Iâm not asking you plan something super active.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âThen what is?â
He exhales slowly, like heâs trying to explain something without sounding like heâs overreacting.
âI just donât want to rush this,â he says. âAnd then you push too far because you think youâre fine andââ he stops, jaw tightening slightly, ââand I have to watch you get hurt again.â
That softens you.
Immediately.
âYouâre not responsible for that,â you say quietly.
âI know,â he says. âDoesnât mean Iâm not gonna try anyway.â
Thereâs a pause.
The tension shifts.
Less playful now.
More real.
You sigh softly.
ââŚYouâre really not going to give in on this, are you?â
He shakes his head.
âNo.â
A beat.
Thenâ
âBut I will take you out.â
Your eyes flick back up.
âWhen?â
âGive it some time,â he says. âWhen youâre actually steady. When Iâm not watching you every two seconds.â
You huff.
âYou do realize you were hovering earlier, right?â
He gave you a look. âYouâre acting like I didnât just admit that.â
You try to hold onto your argument.
You really do.
Butâ
ââŚFine.â
He smiles.
Soft.
Relieved.
âFine,â you repeat, poking him one last time.
âBut Iâm holding you to that date.â
âYou should.â
And without thinkingâ
his hand comes up to your waist, steadying you as you shift.
It lingers.
Just a second longer than it needs to.
Your breath catches.
His eyes flick down.
Then back up.
For a moment, everything goes quiet.
âGo sit down,â he murmurs.
You roll your eyes.
But you go.
And when he turns back to the stoveâ
you donât miss the way his shoulders stay just a little tense.
Or the way he keeps glancing back at you.
The date happens a few nights later.
Itâs small.
Intentional.
Steve picks you up like itâs the most normal thing in the world, even though youâve both been circling this moment for days.
âYou ready?â he asks, leaning against your doorframe.
You nod.
âYeah.â
He looks you over, not in a way that makes you self-conscious, but it's a little in a way that makes you feel⌠sexy, while he's also trying to make sure you are fine.
âDonât overdo it,â he says.
You roll your eyes. âWeâre going to dinner, not running a marathon.â
Then you poke his side, waggling your eyebrows and winking at him. âOr did you have other very active plans with me?â
âWhâWhat? No.â
You laugh.
âOkay, mom.â
He huffs.
But heâs smiling too.
When you walk into the restaurant, it's quiet.
Warm.
Dimly lit.
Not too crowded.
Perfect.
You slide into the booth across from him, and for a moment, neither of you says anything.
Just⌠looks.
And then... âYou look good,â he says.
You blink.
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
Your cheeks warm slightly.
âYou do too.â
He smirks. âI always do.â
âEgo.â
âConfidence.â
You laugh.
And just like that, itâs easy.
The conversation flows naturally, like it always has, but thereâs something different under it now. Something softer. Something more aware.
His foot brushes yours under the table.
Doesnât move away.
Neither do you.
You catch him looking at you more than once.
Not subtly.
Not accidentally.
Just⌠openly.
And every time...your heart stutters.
Back at his place, the air shifts.
Itâs even quieter now.
Closer.
More intimate.
He takes your jacket, his fingers brushing yours in the process.
Neither of you pulls away immediately.
âYou tired?â he asks.
You shake your head.
âNo.â
He nods slowly.
Then steps closer.
Close enough that you can feel the warmth of him.
But still giving you space.
Still letting you decide.
âI meant what I said,â he murmurs. âAbout being careful.â
âI know.â
âI donât want to hurt you.â
âYou wonât.â
His hand comes up slowly, resting against your waist.
Gentle.
Grounding.
Your breath catches slightly.
âYou sure?â he asks.
You nod.
âYeah.â
And that's all he needs.
He kisses you.
Soft at first.
Careful.
Like heâs testing somethingâlike heâs still half-expecting you to pull away, like this might break if he moves too fast.
His lips brush yours once⌠twice⌠lingering just long enough to make your breath catch.
Then you lean in.
And something in him gives.
The kiss deepensânot rushed, not desperateâbut intentional. Warmer. Firmer. His hand tightens at your waist, fingers pressing just a little more into you as if to anchor you there, to make sure youâre real.
Your hands slide up his chest, over his shoulders, pulling him closerâcloser until thereâs no space left between you, until you can feel the steady rise and fall of his breath against your own.
He exhales softly into the kiss, a low, almost quiet sound that feels like itâs been waiting under the surface for a long time. His other hand comes up, slower this time, brushing along your side before settling just beneath your ribsâgentle, but grounding, like heâs still being careful even as he pulls you in.
Your fingers curl slightly into the fabric of his shirt.
He notices.
Of course he does.
And the next time he kisses you, it lingers longerâdeeperâhis head tilting just enough to shift the angle, to make it feel different, fuller, like heâs letting himself feel it now instead of holding back.
Thereâs warmth building between you.
Slow.
Steady.
The kind that settles low in your chest and spreads outward.
And when you breathe his name against his lipsâ
he stills for half a second.
Then pulls you just a fraction closer.
Like heâs been waiting to hear it like that.
Itâs not rushed.
Not desperate.
Itâs intentional.
Every movement.
Every touch.
Like heâs memorizing you.
Like heâs making sure youâre really here.
Still here.
And when you pull back slightly, breath uneven, forehead resting lightly against hisâ
He whispersâ
âYouâre okay, baby.â
You smile, the warmth spreading in your whole body.
âI told you already.â
He shakes his head slightly, needing more confirmation.
âI am okay, baby.â
Then he kisses you again.
And this time, there is no hesitation.
No fear.
Just you.
Him.
And everything youâve been building toward for years finally falling into place.
Summary: You wanna play hero, and Steve can't have that.
Warnings: set somewhere between s4 and s5, angsty, reader is hurt, Steve is in agony over this, because that boy cannot live without you, mentions of blood, Dustin's Eddie-traumaâit triggered by your hurt.
Author's note: i hope you like it, this story came to me when i was watching a Tiktok, but i cannot remember for the life of me which one. i use a lot of em dashes in this, i know but i wrote it MYSELF, and i use them because i love love love em dashes. divider by: @chrisssiren
Steve Harrington had always been bad at waiting.
Not impatient in the ordinary sense, though he was that too, but bad at the specific kind of waiting that came with not knowing if someone he cared about was safe. He could handle action. He could handle blood, bruises, a bad plan that somehow became the only plan. He could handle fighting things that should not exist. But sitting still while the clock kept moving and somebody hadnât come back when they were supposed to?
That was a special kind of torture.
And tonight, it was killing him.
The Wheeler basement was too warm, too crowded, too loud in all the wrong ways. Nobody was really talking, but the room still felt noisy with nerves. Robin paced near the couch, arms folded tight. Nancy sat at the table with a map spread out under her hands, though she hadnât looked at it in at least five minutes. Lucas kept checking the same spot near the window like maybe if he stared hard enough, something would change. Max was trying to look calm and failing. Erica had gone unusually quiet, which was maybe the worst sign of all.
Steve stood near the stairs with his arms crossed so tightly over his chest they ached, staring at the front door like he could force it to open.
You were late.
Not five-minutes late. Not âlost track of timeâ late.
Wrong late.
Mission-gone-sideways late.
He checked his watch again.
âStop doing that,â Robin said.
Steve didnât look at her. âDoing what?â
âThat.â She made a little impatient gesture. âChecking the time every thirty seconds like itâs gonna make them appear.â
âIâm not doing it every thirty seconds.â
âYou are, actually.â
He exhaled hard through his nose. âThen stop counting.â
Robin looked like she wanted to say something sharper, but she didnât. Her face softened just a little instead. âTheyâll come back.â
Steve swallowed.
Maybe.
Maybe they would. Maybe he was overreacting, maybe youâd all gotten delayed, maybe one of the kids had insisted on taking a longer route back through the woods because they saw something weird and now they were all being stupidly careful.
But he knew the difference between delayed and wrong.
And this was wrong.
You had left hours ago with Mike and Dustin to check a possible route near the tree line beyond the old service road, something about movement, tracks, a place the vines had started spreading too close to the surface again. It had sounded contained. Quick. In and out.
Youâd grinned at him before leaving, adjusting the strap of the bat slung over your shoulder.
âRelax, Harrington.â
Heâd rolled his eyes. âIâm relaxed.â
âYouâve asked me if I have my knife four times.â
âDo you?â
Youâd laughed, patting your jacket. âYes, mom.â
Heâd opened his mouth to say something back, something easy and annoyed and normal, but then youâd stepped closer and bumped your shoulder against his.
âWeâll be back before you can get all dramatic about it.â
Robin had snorted. âToo late.â
Steve had watched you go anyway.
And now you werenât back.
The basement door banged open upstairs.
Everyone snapped toward the sound.
Fast footsteps pounded down the stairs, with each step Steveâs heart skipped a beat and then Mike appeared so suddenly it made Steveâs heart lurch into his throat.
Mike was pale.
Too pale.
Breathing hard.
There was dirt smeared across one side of his face and something dark on the sleeve of his jacket that looked a little too much like blood.
Everything in Steve went cold.
âWhere is she?â he said immediately.
Mike opened his mouth but didnât get anything out at first, sucking in air like heâd run the whole way.
Nancy stood up so fast her chair scraped violently against the floor. âMike.â
Mikeâs eyes moved around the room, wide and frantic, locking finally on Steveâs. âSheâs hurt.â
The words hit like a gunshot.
Steve was already moving before anyone else could react, gripping Mikeâs shoulders gently, but tight altogether. âWhat happened?â
âDustinâs with her,â Mike choked out. âIâ weâ we got split up near the ravine, and there were demodogs, and sheââ His voice broke. âSteve, sheâs really hurt.â
That was it.
Steve didnât remember crossing the room. One second he was by the stairs and the next he had embraced Mike tightly, sensing he needed his comfort more than his panic, while trying and failing to keep his own franticness from spilling over.
âWhere?â
âIn the woodsâpast the old service road, by the creek bendâDustin was trying to get her out but he canâtââ
Steve let go of him and turned. âRobin, Nanceââ
âWeâre coming,â Nancy said immediately, already reaching for the shotgun propped by the wall.
Lucas was on his feet. âIâm coming too.â
âNo,â Nancy snapped, sharper than usual. âYou stay here.â
âThe hell I amââ
âLucas,â she said, and something in her voice made him stop. âIf more of those things are moving this close, we need people here. In case they doubled back. In case anybody else comes through that door hurt.â
Max grabbed Lucasâs wrist before he could argue again.
Steve was already halfway up the stairs. âMike, with me. Now.â
They tore out of the house in a wave of motion; Steve, Nancy, Robin, Mike. The night air hit cold and damp, smelling of wet leaves and earth and smoke from somebodyâs chimney half a mile away. Steve barely felt it. He was moving too fast, every thought narrowing down to a single terrible point.
You didnât come back.
Youâre out there.
Youâre hurt.
He vaulted into the driverâs seat of the BMW. Nancy climbed in beside him with the shotgun across her lap, Robin and Mike piling into the back.
âTell me exactly what happened,â Steve said, jamming the key into the ignition so hard it scraped.
Mike braced one hand on the front seat. âWe found the tracks near the service road, and at first it was fine. We thought maybe it was old movement, but then we heard them.â
âHow many?â
âI donât know. Three? Four? Maybe more.â
Steveâs grip tightened around the wheel.
Mike swallowed hard. âWe ran. We got turned around near the creek because Dustin slipped, and one of them came out from the trees and sheââ He took a shaky breath. âShe pushed us ahead.â
Steve didnât say anything.
Couldnât.
Because he already knew.
He knew exactly the kind of stupid, self-sacrificing thing you would do if one of the kids was in danger. He knew because heâd seen it before, smaller risks, smaller injuries, but the same instinct every time. Put yourself between the danger and somebody younger. Donât think. Just move.
Mike kept talking, words tumbling out too fast now. âShe told us to run and I didnât want to leave her but Dustin fell again and there were two of them and sheâ she had the bat and she kept yelling at us to go.â
Steveâs vision tunneled.
âShe stayed behind?â Robin asked, her voice very small, full of shock.
âJust for a second,â Mike said desperately. âShe was right behind us, she was supposed to be right behind us, but then we heard her scream and when we went back she wasââ He sucked in a ragged breath. âShe was on the ground.â
No one spoke after that.
The car flew down the dark road, tires spitting gravel when Steve took the turn too hard near the old service lane. Branches scraped the side of the BMW as he pulled off as far as he could. Before the engine had fully died, he was out.
âWhich way?â
Mike pointed with a shaking hand. âThrough there.â
Steve grabbed the nail bat from the trunk and ran.
The woods swallowed them fast, moonlight breaking in silver patches through the trees. Dead leaves cracked underfoot. Branches clawed at Steveâs jacket and face and he didnât feel any of it. Behind him, he could hear Nancy and Robin crashing through the underbrush, Mike stumbling to keep up and then surging ahead again.
âDustin!â Mike shouted.
No answer.
Steveâs chest got tighter.
âDustin!â Robin yelled.
Then, faintly, from somewhere deeper in the treesâŚ
âHere!â
Dustin.
Crying.
Steve broke into a sprint.
He nearly slipped on the muddy edge of the creek bend before catching himself on a tree. The small clearing opened up in front of him all at once, and for a second, his brain refused to understand what he was seeing.
Dustin was on his knees in the mud, sobbing openly, one arm wrapped under your shoulders as he tried to drag you backward through the leaves.
You were barely helping.
Not because you wouldnât.
Because you couldnât.
Your head lolled weakly against Dustinâs shoulder, your face wet with tears and streaked with dirt, your breathing shallow and uneven. One side of your jacket was shredded open. Blood darkened the fabric underneath. Your leg was twisted wrong beneath youâŚnot broken, maybe, but injured enough that every tiny movement made your whole body jerk.
And the sound coming out of youâŚ
That was what nearly stopped Steveâs heart.
Not screaming.
Not even talking.
Just these quiet, broken little sobs, like you were trying not to make any noise at all.
Like it hurt too much to cry properly.
âSteve!â Dustin choked, looking up with a face so wrecked by panic it barely looked like him. âSteve, help her, please! She wonât wake up right, she keepsâŚshe keepsââ
Steve was at your side in an instant, dropping to his knees so hard pain shot up both legs.
âHey,â he said, and his voice came out rougher than he meant it to. âHey, hey, Iâm here.â
Your eyes fluttered, unfocused. It took a second for them to find him.
When they did, your mouth trembled.
âStevie,â you whispered, so faint he almost didnât hear it.
It broke something in him.
âYeah,â he said immediately, one hand going to your face, careful, careful. âYeah, I got you. I got you.â
You made a small sound that might have been a laugh if it didnât hurt so badly. âTook you long enough.â
His throat closed.
âDonât,â he said, because if you started doing that, if you started trying to make him feel better, trying to joke through it, he was going to lose his mind.
Nancy dropped beside him, already scanning your injuries with quick, ruthless focus. Robin crouched on your other side, one hand flying to her mouth before she forced it down.
âOh my God,â Robin breathed.
Dustin was still crying. âI tried to get her up, I tried, but every time I moved her sheâshe said it hurt and I didnât know if I was making it worseââ
âYou did good,â Steve said sharply, not looking away from you. âDustin, you did good.â
He didnât know if the kid believed him, but he needed him to. Because he did.
He did all he could.
Mike hovered behind Dustin, pale and shaking, staring at you like he still couldnât make this real.
Nancy touched your shoulder gently. âCan you hear me?â
You nodded a fraction.
âAny trouble breathing?â
Another tiny nod.
Steveâs chest seized. âNanceâŚâ
âI know.â Her voice was tense. âI know.â
She looked at the ripped fabric near your ribs, then at your leg, then at the blood on your side. âWe need to move her now.â
You whimpered as Steve slid one arm behind your back, and he froze instantly. âSorry. Sorry.â
âItâs okay,â you grit, though it very clearly wasnât.
Your eyes squeezed shut again, tears slipping down into your hair. âStevie, it hurts.â
Those words, so small, so wrecked, hit harder than anything else.
Steve pressed his palm to the back of your head. âI know, baby. I know.â
Robin and Mike exchanged a look at the endearment, but nobody said anything.
The world had narrowed too far for that.
Nancy leaned in closer. âListen to me. Weâre getting you out of here, okay? Steveâs gonna carry you. I need you to tell us if you canât breathe or if you think youâre gonna pass out.â
You gave the tiniest nod.
Steve slid one arm carefully under your knees, the other around your back. The second he started to lift, your body arched with a strangled cry and his vision almost went white with panic.
âStop, stop!â
âI have to get you out,â he said, voice shaking. âI know, I know, Iâm sorry.â
Your hand fisted weakly in his jacket.
It was barely any strength at all.
That terrified him more than if youâd shoved him away.
He got you into his arms somehow, though every inch seemed to hurt you. You buried your face against his chest with a broken little sound, and then you just clung. Not hard. Not enough. But enough for him to feel it.
Enough to make something savage and protective rise hot under his skin.
He stood.
You were usually so alive in his arms when he touched you in passingâŚshoving at him, laughing with him, moving along him, leaning into him. This felt all wrong. Too limp, too light, too still except for the trembling.
Dustin scrambled to his feet. âIâm coming.â
âYouâre coming,â Steve said.
They started back through the woods.
Nancy went ahead, clearing the roughest parts of the path. Robin stayed close at Steveâs elbow in case he slipped. Mike and Dustin trailed just behind, both of them wrecked quiet now.
Steve felt every shaky breath you took.
Counted them.
Every one.
You kept making those tiny sounds against his chest whenever the ground jolted under his feet, each one digging under his ribs. He kept talking to you because the alternative was listening too closely to how weak you sounded.
âStay with me.â
A few steps.
âYou hear me? Donât fall asleep.â
A few more.
You whispered something into his shirt.
âWhat?â
Your lips moved again. He bent his head lower.
âDustin okay?â
Steve nearly stumbled.
He looked back. Dustin was crying silently now, eyes red and swollen, mud all over his jeans and hands.
âHeâs okay,â Steve said, and his voice cracked this time. âBecause of you. Heâs okay.â
You let out a breath that shivered against him.
âGood.â
Robin made a strangled sound and turned her face away for a second.
Steve wanted to scream.
At you, for doing this. At himself, for letting you go out there. At the entire nightmare world that kept taking and taking and taking from all of you.
But mostly at the fact that even half-conscious and hurting everywhere, you were still worrying about the kids first.
By the time they reached the car, Steveâs arms were burning and he didnât care. Nancy yanked the back door open and Robin climbed in first so she could help settle you across the seat.
âEasy,â she whispered, hands trembling despite the calm in her voice. âEasy, easy.â
Steve got in beside you, pulling your upper body into his lap so your side wouldnât slam against the door. Dustin and Mike crammed in on the other side, Dustin immediately reaching for your hand.
You didnât open your eyes.
But your fingers twitched weakly around his.
Nancy got behind the wheel. âHospital?â
Steveâs head snapped up.
Too dangerous, all of them thought it at once.
Too many questions. Too much exposure. Too many lies to explain.
But one look at you and the answer changed.
âYes,â Steve said.
No hesitation.
No argument.
He would burn the entire cover story down if thatâs what it took.
Nancy floored it.
The drive was chaos made of small sounds. Robin trying to keep pressure on the worst of the bleeding. Dustin whispering to you over and over that you were okay, that you were okay, like if he said it enough maybe it would become true. Mike hunched forward in the seat, shaking and silent, staring at the blood on his sleeve like he didnât know whose it was anymore.
Steve kept one hand cupped around the back of your neck, the other gripping your wrist so he could feel your pulse.
Still there.
Still there.
Still there.
At one point your eyes opened a little and landed on him.
He leaned in immediately. âHey.â
You looked confused for a second, dazed and glassy-eyed. âWhyâs Dustin crying?â
A sound escaped Steve that was half laugh, half heartbreak.
âBecause heâs Dustin.â
That got the faintest ghost of a smile from you before your face crumpled again.
âEverything hurts,â you whispered.
âI know.â
âThink mâbleeding on your shirt.â
âI donât care.â
âYou should. Nice shirt.â
He bowed his head for a second, pressing it briefly to yours because he didnât know what else to do with how much he felt right then. âWill you stop trying to be funny for five minutes?â
âNo promishes.â
The words slurred together.
His hand tightened around yours.
âStay awake.â
You blinked slowly. âBossy.â
âYeah.â
Your eyes drifted shut again.
âHey.â Panic flared instantly. âHey, no, look at me.â
They fluttered back open.
âThere you go, baby,â he said, too fast. âThere you go. Keep doing that.â
Robin glanced at him, and the fear on her face mirrored his own.
The hospital lights appeared like something unreal at the end of a tunnel. Nancy screeched to a stop before the car had fully entered the emergency drop-off lane, and then everything became motion and shouting and bright fluorescent light.
Steve tried to go with you.
A nurse blocked him with both hands. âSir, I need you to step back.â
âIâm not leaving her.â
âYou are if you want us to work.â
Nancy was at his side in a second, fingers digging hard into his arm. âSteve.â
He looked at you on the gurney, saw how pale you were under the blood and dirt, how your hand slipped off the edge as they wheeled you through the double doors.
And then you were gone.
The waiting room was worse than the woods.
At least in the woods heâd had something to do.
Now there was nothing. Just the hard plastic chairs, the smell of antiseptic, the buzz of fluorescent lights, Dustinâs muffled crying finally tapering off into exhausted silence.
Steve sat bent forward with his elbows on his knees, your dried blood on his shirt and jeans, his hands clasped so tightly his knuckles had gone white.
Nobody tried to make him talk.
After a while, Dustin sat down beside him.
For a minute, neither of them said anything.
Then Dustin asked, very quietly, âDo you think she hates me?â
Steve turned so fast it almost hurt. âWhat?â
Dustinâs chin wobbled. He was trying so hard not to cry again. âBecause I couldnâtâI couldnât get her out. She told us to run and I did and then when I went back I couldnâtââ His voice crumpled. âIt was like I was with Eddie all over again. Like I had toâ, let it happen.â
Dustin shakes his head quickly, âif she dies, itâs because she had to save us, itâll be because of me.â
Steve stared at him.
Then he reached out and hauled Dustin sideways against his shoulder in a grip that was maybe rougher than intended and definitely not casual.
âShe does not hate you,â he said, fierce and immediate. âDo you hear me? None of this is your fault.â
âButââ
âNo.â Steve pulled back just enough to make Dustin look at him. âNo buts. You donât get to do that to yourself, not again. She made a choice. A stupid one,â he added, voice shaking now, âbut one she made because she loves you guys. Thatâs not on you, not on Mike, not on anyone.â
Dustin sniffed hard. âYou called her stupid.â
Steve looked toward the emergency doors.
âYeah,â he said softly. âI know.â
âYou called her baby.â
Steve shrugged, staying silent.
It was over an hour before someone came out.
Too long. Not long enough. Time had stopped making sense.
The doctor was saying wordsâŚlacerations, blood loss, a cracked rib, soft tissue damage, concussion, lucky, very lucky, and Steve caught maybe half of them because the only one that mattered was stable.
Stable.
Not dying.
Stable.
He pressed the heels of his hands into his eyes so hard sparks burst behind them.
Robin touched his back once, briefly.
When they finally let him see you, you were awake.
Barely.
But awake.
The room was dim except for the soft monitor glow and one ugly lamp in the corner. You looked wrecked, bruised, stitched, bandaged, an oxygen line beneath your nose, and still somehow the sight of you conscious made his knees feel weak.
He hovered in the doorway for half a second before stepping inside.
Your eyes found him.
âThere he is,â you whispered.
His laugh came out broken. âYeah.â
âYou look awful.â
He dragged a hand over his face. âThatâs your opener?â
You shifted, winced immediately, and stopped. âWanted to keep it light.â
He pulled the chair close to your bed and sat down. For a second he just looked at you, because now that heâd found you, now that you were here and breathing and stitched back together, all the terror heâd been holding in had nowhere to go.
So it came out as anger.
Very quiet anger.
âWhat the hell were you thinking?â
Your eyes softened.
âSteveââ
âNo.â He leaned forward, voice dropping. âNo, because you do not get to scare me like that and then just smile at me from a hospital bed like everythingâs fine.â
You looked down at the blanket.
âIt wasnât really a smile.â
He let out a rough breath. âYou know what I mean.â
Silence stretched between you.
Then you said, so quietly he almost missed it, âThey wouldâve died.â
And there it was.
The simple truth of it.
No heroics. No dramatics. Just certainty.
Steve swallowed hard enough it hurt.
He knew. God, he knew.
You would do it again too, if it meant one of the kids made it home.
Which was exactly the problem.
He reached out before he thought about it and took your hand carefully, careful of the IV and the scrapes across your knuckles.
âYou donât get to do that alone,â he said.
Your brows pulled together faintly. âWhat?â
âYou donât get to decide youâre disposable because somebody else is younger or smaller or whatever. You call for help. You run. You do literally anything else beforeââ His voice broke and he looked away for a second. âBefore that.â
When he looked back, your eyes were wet.
âSteveâŚâ
âNo, I mean it.â His thumb brushed shakily over the back of your hand. âI saw Dustin trying to drag you out of there. He thought you were dying.â
You closed your eyes.
âI know.â
âI thought you were dying.â
That made your eyes open again.
The room went very still.
Steve hadnât meant to say it like that.
Hadnât meant to let it out so bare.
But there it was now, hanging between you.
Your fingers tightened around his as much as they could.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered.
He laughed once, bitter and quiet. âIâm so sick of hearing that from people I care about.â
A tiny, tired smile touched your mouth. âStill a good line, though.â
He shook his head, but some of the air left the anger in him.
You looked at him for a long moment.
Then said, âDustin okay?â
Of course that was your first real question.
Steve huffed, something close to fond exasperation burning through the leftover fear. âYeah. Heâs okay.â
âMike?â
âAlso okay.â
You nodded weakly, satisfied.
Then, after a beat, âYou?â
That undid him more than anything else had.
He looked down at your joined hands and answered honestly. âNo.â
Your face crumpled with guilt. âSteveââ
âBut I will be,â he said quickly, because he couldnât handle that look on top of everything else. âI will be. You justâŚâ He swallowed. âYou gotta stop doing this to me.â
A tear slipped out of one eye and tracked into your hairline. âIâll try.â
âYeah, you better.â
You were quiet for another second, and then, very softly: âYou came for me.â
Steve stared at you.
Like that was even a question.
âEvery time,â he said.
Your mouth trembled.
The monitor beeped steadily in the silence that followed. Somewhere down the hall, a cart rattled past. The world kept moving, stupidly, normally, while Steve sat there with your hand in his, feeling like heâd cracked open somewhere no one could see.
You drifted a little after that, eyelids heavy.
Before you fell fully asleep, you murmured, âSteve?â
âYeah?â
âThanks for taking your time.â
He blinked. âWhat?â
A tiny, sleepy smile appeared. âDramatic entrance. Very heroic.â
He stared at you for one incredulous second before huffing out a laugh that turned wet around the edges. âGo to sleep.â
You did.
Still holding his hand.
Steve sat there long after your breathing evened out, his chair pulled too close to the bed, your blood dried on his shirt, exhaustion finally crashing into him now that he could see your chest rise and fall with his own eyes.
Robin peeked in once, saw him there, and quietly withdrew.
He didnât move.
Not when the nurse came to check your vitals.
Not when dawn started paling the edges of the blinds.
Not even when his back began to ache and his eyes burned.
He stayed.
Because you were here.
Because you were alive.
Because in the woods, with Dustin crying and you sobbing so quietly in his arms, Steve had realized something he probably should have known already:
There was no version of this nightmare where he could lose you and come out of it still himself.
So he sat there and kept watch.
When you woke again just after sunrise, the first thing you saw was Steve slumped awkwardly in the chair beside your bed, chin dropped to his chest, one hand still wrapped around yours like even asleep he didnât trust the world not to take you if he let go.
You smiled despite the ache everywhere.
And when his eyes snapped open at the tiny movement, immediate panic flashing across his face before recognition settled in, you squeezed his hand the best you could.
âIâm still here,â you whispered.
Steve closed his eyes for one brief second, bowed his head over your joined hands, and let out a breath so shaky it sounded almost like a prayer.
âYeah,â he said, looking up at you again with something raw and wrecked and relieved in his face. âYou better be.â
You wake again later, slower this time.
The pain is still thereâŚdull, heavy, everywhere, but itâs not as sharp as before. It sits under your skin instead of ripping through it, which somehow makes it easier to breathe.
The room is quieter now. Dim. Early morning light slipping in through the blinds in thin, pale lines.
And Steveâ
Steve is still there.
Curled awkwardly in the chair beside your bed, his head tipped forward, one arm folded across his chest while the other is still loosely wrapped around your hand like he fell asleep mid-thought and never let go.
Your chest tightens a little at the sight.
He looks exhausted. Completely, utterly drained in a way youâve never seen before. Thereâs dried blood on his shirt, your blood, and his hair is a mess like heâs run his hands through it too many times to count.
You shift slightly.
It hurts.
A soft sound slips out of you before you can stop it.
Steve wakes instantly.
Like he was never really asleep at all.
His head snaps up, eyes wide and searching, panic flashing across his face before it softens the second he sees youâre awake.
âHeyâhey,â he says quickly, leaning forward. âEasy. Donât move too much.â
âI wasnât planning on it,â you murmur, your voice still a little rough.
Relief washes over his face so openly it almost makes your chest ache.
âGood,â he mutters. âGood.â
Thereâs a moment where neither of you says anything.
Just looking.
Just⌠being here.
Alive.
Then, after a second, you tilt your head slightly, studying him.
âYou look terrible,â you say softly.
He huffs out a quiet breath, something almost like a laugh slipping through. âYeah, you mentioned that.â
âI mean it more now.â
âThanks. That helps.â
You smile faintly.
Then your gaze drifts, taking him in a little more carefully this time, the way his hand is still wrapped around yours, like he doesnât quite trust that you wonât disappear if he lets go.
Something warm settles low in your chest.
âYou stayed,â you say.
Itâs not really a question.
âYeah,â he replies, just as quietly. Like there was never another option.
Your fingers shift slightly in his.
âYou called me baby.â
The words slip out before you can stop them.
Steve freezes.
Actually freezes.
His entire body stills, his expression going blank for just a fraction of a second before something else flickers there, something caught, something almost guilty.
ââŚWhat?â he says, a little too quickly, because when Dustin acknowledged it, he could ignore it, but youâŚ
You donât look away.
âYou did,â you repeat softly. âIn the woods.â
His jaw tightens slightly, like heâs trying to figure out if he can talk his way out of this.
âIâ you were hurt,â he says, like that explains it.
âIt does,â you agree easily. âStill counts.â
He exhales, running a hand through his already messy hair, suddenly very aware of himself in a way he wasnât a minute ago.
âI didnât meanââ
âYou didnât mean what?â
His eyes flick back to yours.
And for a secondâ
He doesnât answer.
Because whatever he was about to say doesnât quite make it past his lips.
Your voice softens, just a little teasing now, but still gentle. âYou donât call everyone that, Harrington.â
âNo,â he mutters.
âJust me?â
Thereâs that pause again.
That same quiet, fragile tension thatâs always lived somewhere between youâŚnow sharper, closer to the surface than itâs ever been before.
Steve looks at you like heâs trying to decide something.
Then, quietlyâ
ââŚYeah.â
Your breath catches.
He doesnât look away this time.
Doesnât try to play it off.
Doesnât joke.
âIt justâcame out,â he adds, softer now. âI wasnât thinking.â
âSometimes thatâs when people say what they mean most,â you say.
His grip on your hand tightens slightly.
âYeah,â he murmurs.
The room feels smaller suddenly.
Quieter.
Like everythingâs narrowed down to just this.
To him.
To you.
You shift a little closer on the bed, ignoring the dull ache it causes.
âYou sounded worried,â you say softly.
He lets out a quiet, almost disbelieving breath. âYou think?â
You smile faintly. âA little.â
Steve shakes his head, but thereâs no real annoyance in it.
âI thought you wereââ he stops himself, jaw tightening again.
âDying?â you finish gently.
He looks at you then.
Really looks.
And this time, he doesnât hide it.
âYeah.â
Your chest tightens.
Your fingers curl around his hand as much as they can.
âIâm still here,â you whisper.
He swallows hard.
âYeah,â he says, voice rough. âYou are.â
A beat passes.
Then, quieterâ
âDonât do that again.â
You huff a soft breath. âIâll try.â
âThatâs not reassuring.â
âItâs honest.â
That almost earns a smile from him.
Almost.
His thumb brushes lightly over the back of your hand, absent, grounding.
âYou scared me,â he admits.
You meet his gaze.
âI know.â
âI donât like that.â
âI know.â
Another pause.
But this oneâ
This one feels different.
Softer.
Closer.
âBaby,â you say quietly, testing it now, watching his reaction.
Steveâs head snaps up slightly at that, something in his expression shifting instantly.
âYouâre not allowed to use that against me,â he mutters.
You smile, small and a little tired but real. âI think I am.â
And then, âbecause, Iâd like for you to call me that again.â
He exhales, shaking his head, but his hand doesnât let go of yours.
Doesnât even loosen and presses a kiss to your knuckles.
âOkay.â
And for the first time since you woke upâŚ
Thereâs something almost calm in the room.
Something warm.
Something that feels a little too much like safety.
Summary: You and Steve had been best friends for years, and when Steve is a rising actor you are by his side, always! When you get pregnant after a night out with Steve, you are hesitant to tell him for all the wrong reasons.
Warnings: set in modern day, Steve is an actor, allusions to smut, unplanned/unexpected pregancy, best friends to lovers, misunderstanding?, a lil angsty, but with a fluff (?) ending
Author's note: i've written a similar kind of story for Rhett Abbott, but i wanted to write one for Steve as well, hope you like it.. if you have any requests, also lmk. divider by @cafekitsune
Steve Harrington was not supposed to be the love of your life.
He was supposed to be the boy who lived three houses down. The one your mom insisted you play with because he was âsuch a sweet kid,â even though he showed up to your first playdate with grass-stained jeans, scuffed sneakers, and a grin that already spelled trouble.
You were eight when he tried to impress you by climbing to the very top of the playground and jumping off.
He landed wrong.
You laughed.
He decided, right then and there, that you were his favorite person.
And that was it.
There wasnât some big, defining moment where you suddenly became inseparable. It just⌠happened. He started walking you home from school because your houses were on the same street. You started saving him a seat in class without even thinking about it. He showed up at your door whenever he was bored, and somehow you always were too.
He was the kind of kid who never knocked, just pushed the door open and called your name like he already belonged there. The kind who sat on your bedroom floor while you did homework, even when he had already finished his. The one who convinced you to do things you normally wouldnât, like climbing fences or staying out just a little too late, just because he made it feel like nothing bad could happen as long as you were together.
Steve Harrington was chaos.
But he was your chaos.
And somewhere along the way, that became something constant. Something steady. Something you didnât question, because it had always been there.
Middle school changed him first.
Not all at once, but enough that you noticed. He got louder, more confident, more aware of himself and of other people. Of the way they looked at him, the way they laughed at his jokes, the way he could get away with things just by smiling.
You watched it happen in real time, standing just slightly outside of it.
But even then, even as everything else shifted, he stayed the same with you.
He still sat next to you at lunch, still leaned over to copy your homework when he forgot to do his, still called you late at night to talk about nothing until one of you fell asleep mid-conversation. He still looked for you first in a crowded room, still saved you a seat without asking, still made it feel like, no matter what changed, this wouldnât.
That was what you held onto.
High school was when it became harder.
Because that was when Steve stopped being just Steve and became⌠someone else. Someone everyone knew. Someone everyone wanted. The kind of person who walked into a room and immediately belonged there, like the space had been waiting for him.
You saw it in the way people gravitated toward him. In the way girls laughed a little too easily at things that werenât that funny. In the way his attention never stayed in one place for long.
And you told yourself it didnât matter.
Because you were still his best friend.
That didnât change.
It couldnât.
He still sat with you, still walked you home, still showed up when you needed him without you having to ask. He still knew things about you no one else did. Still read you in ways that felt unfair sometimes, like he could see straight through whatever you tried to hide.
But there were moments, small, sharp, impossible-to-ignore moments, where something felt⌠off.
Like when people assumed you were together, and heâd laugh it off with an easy, âNo, weâre just friends,â like it didnât cost him anything to say it.
Like it didnât cost you something to hear it.
You tried hating him once.
It didnât last.
It was after he canceled plans with you, plans youâd made weeks ago, because something better came along. You ignored his texts for two days, convinced that this time you were actually done being the person who always stayed.
On the third night, he showed up outside your window, tossing pebbles against the glass like something out of a clichĂŠ movie.
âAre you seriously mad at me?â he whisper-shouted when you opened it.
âYes,â you snapped.
He climbed in anyway.
âOkay, but like, how mad?â he asked, standing there like he hadnât just broken into your room.
âYou ditched me.â
âI didnât ditch you.â
âYou literally did.â
âI rescheduled.â
âYou didnât even tell me!â
He winced. âOkay, yeah. That partâs on me.â
You crossed your arms, trying to stay angry. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âYeah,â he said, completely unfazed. âBut Iâm your best friend, so you have to forgive me.â
You stared at him, heart beating in your chest.
Then rolled your eyes.
Then, despite yourself, laughed.
Because that was Steve.
Infuriating, impossible, and somehow still the person you cared about most.
That was the problem.
He was always yours.
Not in the way you wanted.
But in every other way that mattered.
And somewhere along the way, without you noticing exactly when it happened, things started to shift.
It wasnât obvious. It didnât happen all at once. It was in the small things, the way his hand would linger just a little too long when he helped you up, the way he noticed when you went quiet and always asked why, the way he sometimes looked at you like he was trying to understand something he couldnât quite name.
You ignored it.
You had to.
Because acknowledging it meant risking everything. And Steve Harrington was not something you could afford to lose.
So you stayed where it was safe.
Best friends.
Always best friends.
Through graduation. Through the uncertain years that followed. Through auditions and rejections and cheap apartments and dreams that felt too big for where you came from.
Through every version of him.
The cocky one.
The careless one.
The one who slowly, quietly grew into someone better.
He wasnât that guy anymore. Not really. The charm stayed, but it softened. It stopped being something he used to impress people and became something he used to connect with them. He grew up. He became someone steady. Someone good.
And you?
You were still there. Always there.
Through bad auditions and worse apartments. Through late-night rehearsals and early morning coffees. Through rejection emails and the rare, hard-earned yes. Through every version of Steve Harrington, you stayed.
So when his name was called, âBest Rising Male Star goes to Steve Harringtonâ, you were already standing before the rest of the room caught up.
Of course you were.
He looked stunned for a second, then laughed as he made his way to the stage, hand running through his hair in that way he still hadnât grown out of. But when he reached the microphone, when he finally looked out at the crowdâŚ
He found you.
Not the cameras. Not the audience.
You.
âI⌠didnât prepare for this,â he admitted, breathless, earning a warm laugh from the room. âWhich, yeah, thatâs on me.â
You smiled, because you knew him. Knew that behind the humor, this meant everything to him.
âI wouldnât be here without a lot of people,â he continued. âBut thereâs one person whoâs been there since the very beginning. Before any of this made sense.â
Your chest tightened.
âShe knows who she is.â
He didnât say your name.
He didnât have to.
The look he gave you said everything.
You felt it, in your heart.
The afterparty was loud, crowded, overwhelming. Steve was pulled in every direction, congratulated, photographed, praised. You stayed close at first, then slowly drifted to the edges, watching him from a distance with a quiet, proud smile.
This was his moment. You didnât want to take that from him.
âDid you come with Harrington?â
You turned to find a man beside you, someone vaguely familiar. Polished, confident, the kind of man who knew exactly how to stand in a room like this.
âYeah,â you said. âHeâs my best friend.â
âBest friends?â he asked, smiling.
Your stomach twisted faintly and you nodded, giving him a polite smile. âYeah.â
He stepped a little closer. âThatâs surprising.â
You forced a small laugh. âWhy?â
âBecause if I had someone like you around all the time,â he said, his gaze lingering just a second too long, âI wouldnât keep it at âfriends.ââ
Before you could respond, a voice cut in.
âHey.â
Low. Familiar.
Steve.
Your heart skipped.
He stepped in beside you, his presence immediate, grounding, overwhelming all at once. His hand settled on your waist, not casually, not absentmindedly, but with clear intent.
âI was looking for you,â he said, eyes fixed on you.
The man glanced between you both, reading the situation quickly. âIâll leave you two to it.â
Steve didnât acknowledge him. Didnât even look at him. His attention stayed exactly where it was.
On you.
âAre you okay?â you asked softly.
He didnât answer right away. His hand was still on your waist, warm and firm, making your pulse spike.
âDidnât like the way he was looking at you,â he said finally.
âSteveâŚâ
âAnd I didnât like the way you were looking back.â
âI wasnâtââ
âI know,â he cut in quickly, softer now. âI just didnât like it.â
There was something different in his voice. Not teasing. Not light.
Something real.
âYouâre drunk,â you said, trying to steady yourself.
âMaybe,â he said. Then, quieter, âBut Iâm not wrong.â
Your breath hitched. âSteveâŚâ
âThat speech?â he murmured. âYou knew that was about you, right?â
âYou didnât say my name.â
âDidnât have to.â
You looked at him then, really looked at him, and suddenly everything felt too close, too sharp.
âYou donât get to do this,â you whispered.
âDo what?â
âThis. Act like this means something different than it does.â
His jaw tightened. âAnd what does it mean?â
You hesitated. Because the truth was, you didnât know anymore.
âWeâre friends,â you said finally.
The word felt wrong.
Too small.
Steve exhaled, shaking his head slightly. âYeah.â
But he didnât sound convinced.
Neither of you did.
âTell me to stop,â he said quietly.
You couldnât.
You didnât.
That was all it took.
The kiss wasnât hesitant, and it definitely wasnât careful. It hit all at once, years of tension, of almosts and what-ifs, snapping tight and then breaking open between you. His hand came up to your jaw, firm and grounding, tilting your face just enough to deepen it, to keep you right there where he wanted you.
And you went.
Like youâd been waiting for this.
Like youâd always been going to.
Your fingers curled into his jacket, pulling him closer without thinking, and he made a low, almost surprised sound against your mouth, like he hadnât expected you to meet him with the same urgency. But you did. You matched him, breath for breath, step for step, until there wasnât any space left between you at all.
Because you had been waiting.
God, you had.
Everything after that blurred at the edges, the music fading behind you, the crowd disappearing, the way his hand never left you as he guided you out, like if he let go you might slip away. The cool night air, the car ride filled with something thick and unspoken, your knee brushing his and neither of you moving away.
The way he looked at you when you got upstairsâŚ
like this wasnât just a mistake.
Like this was something heâd already decided on.
Nothing felt rushed. Not really. Even with the urgency still humming under your skin, every touch felt deliberateâlike he was grounding himself in you, like he needed to feel that you were still there, still with him, still choosing this.
His hands didnât wander carelessly. They traced, slow and certain, learning you in a way that made your breath catch, fingers pressing just enough at your waist to pull you closer, sliding up your sides like he couldnât decide where to settle, like every place felt just as important as the last. Each touch lingered a second longer than it needed to, like he was memorizing the way you felt under his hands.
And you felt it.
The hesitation beneath the confidence. The way he kept pausing, just slightly, like he was giving you time to stop him, like he wouldnât go any further unless you let him.
You didnât.
Your hands found him just as instinctively, gripping at his shirt, pulling him back every time he shifted away even an inch, your fingers brushing warm skin where the fabric slipped, and that small contact alone sent something sharp and electric through you.
It wasnât just heat.
It was recognition.
The way your bodies seemed to understand each other faster than your minds could catch up, the way every movement felt familiar and new at the same time. Like this had always been there, buried just beneath the surface, waiting for the moment you stopped pretending.
And when his forehead rested briefly against yours, breath uneven, hands still holding you close like he wasnât ready to let goâŚ
You realized this wasnât just about wanting.
It was about finally letting yourself have it.
It didnât feel reckless.
It didnât feel wrong.
It felt like something that had been building for far too long, finally given a place to land.
It felt inevitable.
â
But⌠The sickness didnât hit all at once.
At first, it was easy to ignore. A little off, a little wrong, but nothing you couldnât explain away. You woke up one morning with a dull nausea sitting low in your stomach, the kind that made everything feel slightly tilted. You blamed it on the season, something going around, maybe. Youâd been busy, run down. It made sense.
You pushed through it.
You always did.
The next day, it lingered a little longer. Not strong enough to stop you, just enough to make coffee taste bitter and wrong, enough to make you wrinkle your nose and set the cup aside after one sip. You told yourself it was stress. Things had been⌠complicated. Of course your body would react to that.
By the third morning, you were waking up with it.
Not just discomfort, something heavier. A wave that rolled through you the second your eyes opened, making you lie there for a few seconds longer than usual, breathing carefully, waiting for it to pass. It didnât.
Still, you ignored it.
You had things to do. Calls to return. Groceries to buy. Messages to respond to, his messages, you werenât quite ready to answer yet.
You had talked to Steve a little after you slept together, but it felt differentâbad different.
So you kept going.
Until you couldnât.
Until one morning, halfway through brushing your teeth, the nausea surged so suddenly you barely made it to the toilet in time. Your hands trembled slightly as you gripped the edge, your reflection pale and unfamiliar, like you were looking at someone else entirely.
That was the first moment something didnât feel right.
Not just inconvenient.
Not just explainable.
Wrong.
After that, it got harder to pretend.
Food stopped tasting like anything. Or worse, it tasted too strong, too sharp, too much. Smells youâd never noticed before suddenly turned your stomach. Youâd open the fridge and have to step back immediately, swallowing hard as your body reacted before your brain could catch up.
You started eating less.
Then barely at all.
And even when you did manage something small, something safe, your body wouldnât keep it. It rejected it almost instantly, like it didnât recognize it anymore, like it didnât want it.
Your energy dropped with it. Everything felt heavier. Your limbs, your thoughts, even simple things like getting out of bed started to feel like they required more effort than they should.
And Steve noticed. Of course he did. He noticed when you canceled lunch, then skipped movie night with the group, and then backed out of the friendly date youâd planned months in advanceâthings you would never normally miss.
And beneath all of it, something else began to settle in, quiet at first, easy to ignore if you didnât look at it too closely.
A realization, slow and persistent, pressing at the edges of your thoughts.
One you refused to name.
Until you couldnât anymore.
It didnât come all at once. It surfaced in fragments, scattered and disconnected, thoughts you tried to brush aside the second they formed. A missed date. The timing. The way your body didnât just feel sick, but⌠off. Different in a way you couldnât quite explain.
You tried not to think about it.
You failed.
So you did the math.
Once.
Then again.
And then a third time, slower this time, more careful, like if you went through it step by step, something might change.
It didnât.
Your chest tightened, breath catching as the realization settled in, heavier now, harder to ignore.
âNo,â you whispered into the empty room, shaking your head like that alone could undo it.
But it was already there.
And it wasnât going anywhere.
You waited a day.
Then another.
Like maybe it would fix itself. Like maybe the feeling would pass and everything would go back to normal and you could laugh at yourself for even thinking it.
It didnât.
So you went to the store.
You stood in the aisle longer than you needed to, staring at the boxes like they might look different if you waited long enough. Like picking one would make it real in a way you werenât ready for yet.
Your hands felt strangely steady when you finally grabbed one.
You couldnât shake the feeling that someone might recognize you as Steve Harringtonâs best friend. It made you hyper-aware of everything... the way you stood, the way you moved, the way your face might look to a stranger passing by. Your shoulders stayed tense, your gaze drifting just a little too often to the people around you, half-expecting someone to take a second look.
Because the last thing you wanted, right now, especially, was to end up plastered across some TMZ headline, reduced to a blurry photo and a wild assumption you didnât have the energy to deal with.
The walk home felt longer than usual. Quieter. Like the world had shifted slightly without telling you. Every step felt heavier, like you were carrying something you hadnât fully acknowledged yet.
You didnât take the test right away.
You set it down on the bathroom counter and just⌠looked at it for a while. Your reflection in the mirror looked back at you, uncertain, pale, eyes just a little too wide.
âThis is stupid,â you muttered under your breath. âYouâre just overthinking.â
You almost believed it.
Almost.
Until you didnât.
The process itself was quick.
Too quick.
A few seconds that stretched into something unbearable, your heart pounding too fast, your breath shallow as you stared at something so small that somehow felt like it could change everything.
You told yourself you wouldnât look until the time was up.
You looked anyway.
One line.
Your breath left you in a shaky exhale, a strange feeling flooding through you so quickly it almost made you dizzy, telling yourself it was relief.
âOkay,â you whispered. âOkay, see? Itâs fine. Itâsââ
The second line appeared.
Faint at first.
Then clearer.
Then undeniable.
Your stomach dropped, a gasp stuck in your throat.
âNo,â you said again, softer this time, like the word had lost its strength.
But it didnât matter.
It was there.
Two lines.
Clear as day.
Your knees felt weak as you slid down the wall, the test still in your hand, your mind struggling to catch up with what you were seeing.
Pregnant.
The word didnât feel real.
It didnât feel like it belonged to you.
And yet, you didnât need to take it again.
You already knew.
Your hand drifted unconsciously to your stomach, resting there lightly, like you were trying to feel something that wasnât there yet.
âOh my god,â you breathed.
The room felt too small.
Too quiet.
Your thoughts came all at once after that, fast, overwhelming, impossible to organize.
Steve.
You had to tell Steve.
Of course you did.
There was no version of this where you didnât.
Your chest tightened again, but this time it wasnât just fear. It was something else too. Something softer. Something fragile and uncertain but still there.
He deserved to know, had the right to know.
And you, you wanted him to know.
You wanted to see his face when you told him. Wanted to hear what heâd say. Wanted, maybe, something you hadnât let yourself hope for yet.
So you reached for your phone.
Your fingers hovered over his name.
You hadnât really spoken to him in days. Not properly. Youâd told him you werenât feeling well, that you couldnât meet up like you usually did. Heâd replied the way he always did, soft, easy, telling you to get better soon and to text him when you felt better again.
You never answered that last message.
So now, sitting there with your phone in your hand, you tried to fix it. Your screen lit up with his name, the thread of unanswered messages staring back at you, and your chest tightened just a little.
Your fingers hovered.
You were so close.
So close to calling him. So close to hearing his voice. So close to saying it, everything youâd been holding in, everything that had changed without giving you time to catch up.
You just had to press one button.
And then, your eyes fell on a message.
A notification.
You almost ignored it. Almost.
But something made you look.
And thatâs when you saw it.
A headline.
Bold. Loud. Impossible to miss.
Steve Harrington Dating Co-Star?
Your heart dropped.
A gasp stuck in your throat.
You tapped it before you could stop yourself.
Photos loaded.
Steve, smiling, relaxed, familiar.
And her. Babette Highmore.
Standing close to him.
Too close.
Her hand on his arm. His head tilted toward hers. The kind of angle that made it look like something it maybe wasnât, but still.
Your chest tightened painfully.
You knew how this worked. You knew rumors. You knew PR. You knew how easy it was for moments to be twisted into something they werenât. You knew it didnât necessarily mean anything.
But knowing didnât stop the feeling.
Didnât stop the way your stomach twisted, sharper than before.
Didnât stop the quiet, creeping doubt that slipped in anyway.
Because suddenly, you questioned what you were to him.
One night?
One mistake?
So you shook it off, stood up straight and pulled away.
Stopped answering calls. Stopped replying to messages. Stopped showing up even more.
So, by the seventh day, he was at your door.
You barely made it to the bathroom before you got sick again, knees hitting the tile, your stomach twisting painfully.
You didnât hear him come in.
Didnât realize he was there until...
âHey, hey, heyââ
Steve.
You groaned weakly. âDonât look at me.â
âToo late,â he said, already beside you, pulling your hair back gently.
Your heart clenched.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, worry clear in his voice.
âNothing.â
âYouâve been sick for more than a week now, so this is not nothing.â
Silence.
âDid something happen, did you eat something bad?â he asked more urgently.
That broke you.
âNo.â
âThen what is it?â
You swallowed hard.
âIâm pregnant.â
The words hung in the air.
You couldnât look at him.
âWhat?â
Not angry. Not panicked.
Just surprised.
âI was going to tell you,â you said quickly. âBut then I saw the rumors of you and Babette and I didnât know if⌠If I meant anything to you or if it was justââ
âA mistake?â he finished, almost incredulously.
You didnât answer.
You didnât have to.
Steve ran a hand through his hair, shaking his head. âIs that what you think?â
âI donât know what to think,â you admitted.
He let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh. âYou really donât see it, do you?â
âSee what?â
âYou.â
You blinked.
âThat night wasnât a mistake,â he said. âIt was the first time I stopped pretending I didnât want you.â
Your breath caught.
âIâve wanted you for years,â he continued. âI just didnât think I was good enough for you.â
âAnd now?â you whispered.
âNow Iâm not letting you walk away because of something that isnât even real.â
Tears blurred your vision.
âYouâre not mad?â you asked.
âAbout what?â he said. âYouâre carrying our baby.â
Something in his expression softened, then brightened in a way that made your chest ache.
âThatâs⌠kind of the best news Iâve heard all week.â
You stared at him. âYouâre serious?â
âYeah,â he said, stepping closer. âIâm serious.â
âYouâre not scared?â
âTerrified,â he admitted, taking your cheek in his palm. âJust not of this.â
You smiled through your tears, nuzzling into his palm.
âYou just threw up,â you said suddenly. âI donât think you should kiss me.â
He smiled.
âI donât think I care.â
âWell, I do, so give me a second, please.â
He let out a soft huff but didnât argue, instead helping you gently to your feet. He handed you your toothbrush, already lined with toothpaste, lingering close while you leaned over the sink. You could feel his presence behind you, steady and warm, his eyes on you in a way that made your stomach flip despite everything. Domestic.
You focused on the simple task, trying to ignore the way your heart was beating just a little too fast under his attention.
When you finished, you rinsed your mouth and turned toward him, a little bashful now, a little unsure, but still looking at him like you were inviting him closer.
And this time, he didnât wait.
This kiss was softer. Slower. Full of something deeper than before. Not just want, something steady. Something real.
When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours. âWeâre doing this,â he murmured.
You nodded. âWeâre doing this.â
Two hours later, your phone exploded with notifications.
You opened it, and there it was.
A photo of you.
On his Instagram.
Caption: Took me long enough. Sheâs always been it for me.
You looked up at him, laying behind you and smiled.
He shrugged, smiling, hand trailing over your belly in the softest way. âWhat? I wasnât gonna let anyone else try their luck again.â
You laughed softly, your heart full in a way you hadnât felt in a long time.
And for the first time in weeks, everything felt just right.
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Summary: Rhett meets you at a farmers market and is INSTANTLY smitten
Warnings: absolutely nothing, super fluffy
Authorâs note: dear Rhett fam, i am so sorry that i haven't written for this guy in so long, but here is something to make up for it, so hope you like it <3 divider by @8bbitbunni
Rhett Abbott isnât the kind of man who gets distracted.
His life doesnât allow for it. Itâs early mornings, long days, and work that never really ends. He notices things that matter, weather shifts, the way a horse moves before it turns unpredictable, the sound of something going wrong before anyone else catches it.
He doesnât notice strangers.
Not like this.
Itâs a Sunday afternoon, the kind where the heat settles slow and golden over everything. The market hums quietly, people drifting between stalls, the air thick with citrus and sugar and dust. Rhett has already bought what he came for. He should be heading back to the truck.
Instead, he stops.
Because youâre standing across the way.
At first, he doesnât even realize why heâs looking. Thereâs just something about you that pulls his attention without asking for it. Youâre holding a drink, something bright and sparkling, and the sunlight catches in your hair in a way that makes the whole scene feel softer somehow.
You donât stand out in a loud way. Youâre not trying to be noticed.
But somehow, you are.
Rhett shifts his weight, frowning slightly like heâs trying to figure something out. Heâs seen pretty before. Thatâs not new. But this isnât just that. Thereâs something warm about you, something easy, like being near you would feel like stepping into sunlight after a long day.
He swears he can almost smell something sweet on the air. Something like wildflowers.
He exhales slowly, dragging a hand over the back of his neck.
This is ridiculous.
He doesnât know you. Doesnât know your name. Doesnât know anything about you.
But he knows one thing with uncomfortable clarity: if he walks away right now, heâs going to think about you for the rest of the day.
Maybe longer.
And that bothers him more than anything.
So he pushes off the fence.
Rhett doesnât rush. He never does. But thereâs something more deliberate in the way he walks now, like every step is chosen. Like heâs already decided something, even if he hasnât said it out loud yet.
You donât notice him at first, which gives him just enough time to realize he has no plan. No line, no practiced charm. Just this quiet certainty that he needs to be standing closer to you.
âSame thing sheâs having,â he says to the vendor.
You turn at that, your eyes meeting his.
For a moment, everything else fades a little.
You blink, clearly caught off guard. âOh hi, uh, okay. Itâs, uh, itâs good.â
Your voice is softer than he expected.
Rhett nods once. âFigured.â
He takes the drink, but his attention doesnât leave you. You notice, of course you do, and your fingers tighten slightly around your cup.
Flustered.
Rhett feels something settle low in his chest.
He takes a sip. Itâs sweet and sharp and cold, but he barely registers it.
âYou from around here?â he asks.
You shake your head. âNo. Just visiting.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â You study him now, curiosity replacing your initial surprise. âWhat about you?â
âIâm from here.â
âThat obvious?â
âA little.â
The corner of his mouth lifts, just slightly. âGuess I ainât tryinâ to hide it.â
You smile at that, and something about it makes the air feel warmer.
You take another sip of your drink, and Rhett catches himself watching the way your lips brush the glass before forcing his attention back to your eyes.
âYou picked good,â he says.
You smile again, a little more confident this time. âTold you.â
He tilts his head slightly. âYou always this easy to trust?â
That throws you off. You blink, then let out a small laugh. âYou donât even know me.â
âDonât need to.â
The words land heavier than they should.
You shift your weight, suddenly more aware of how close heâs standing, of how steady his gaze is.
âThatâsâŚkind of bold,â you say.
âYeah.â
No apology. No hesitation.
Just truth.
You look away first, smiling to yourself like you canât quite help it, and Rhett feels something warm settle in his chest.
âWhatâs your name?â he asks.
You tell him, and he repeats it quietly, like heâs committing it to memory.
âRhett,â he says.
âI figured,â you reply.
That earns you a small, surprised look from him. âThat so?â
âYou seem like a Rhett.â
He lets out a quiet laugh. âDonât know if thatâs good or bad.â
âGood,â you say quickly, then soften. âI think.â
He studies you for a moment, longer this time, and the longer he looks, the more certain he feels.
âYou know,â he says slowly, âI almost walked away.â
You glance at him. âYeah?â
âYeah.â
âWhat changed your mind?â
He doesnât hesitate.
âDidnât think Iâd forgive myself if I did.â
Your breath catches.
You laugh softly, but it comes out a little unsteady. âYou say things like that to everyone?â
âNo.â
âJust strangers?â
âJust you.â
That does it.
Your cheeks warm, and you look down at your drink again, smiling despite yourself.
âYouâre kind of unfair,â you murmur.
âUnfair?â
âYou make it hard not to like you.â
Something shifts in him at that, something deeper, more grounded.
âGood,â he says quietly.
A breeze moves through, warm and slow. You tuck your hair behind your ear, still holding your drink like itâs anchoring you.
Rhett glances at the nearby flowers and, without thinking too hard about it, reaches over and grabs a small bundle.
You blink when he hands them to you. âRhettââ
âThought they suited you.â
You stare at them, then at him, clearly caught between disbelief and something softer. âYou canât just do that.â
âI just did.â
You laugh, a little overwhelmed. âYou donât even know me.â
He tilts his head slightly. âFeels like I do.â
That shouldnât make your chest tighten, but it does.
âWhy?â you ask quietly.
He looks at you, really looks this time, and when he speaks, his voice is steady.
âDidnât know your name. Didnât know anything about you. Still donât, really.â
He steps just a little closer.
âBut I knew I wanted to.â
Silence settles between you, not empty, just full of something neither of you can quite name yet.
âYouâre dangerous,â you whisper.
His mouth twitches. âDonât think thatâs new.â
You shake your head. âNot like that.â
He waits.
âYou make it feel easy,â you admit. âLike Iâve known you longer than I have.â
That lands somewhere deep in him.
âYeah,â he says. âFeels like that for me too.â
The sun dips lower, the air softening around you, but neither of you moves.
âI should go,â you say eventually.
âYeah,â he replies.
Neither of you does.
âCan I see you again?â he asks.
You donât hesitate this time. âYeah.â
Relief settles into something warmer in his chest.
âGood,â he says.
Then, quieter, ââCause I donât think Iâm done with you yet.â
Your breath hitches, your smile softening in a way that feels like an answer all on its own.
And just like that, you know.
You donât know everything about him.
Donât know where this goes.
But you do know thisâŚ
From the moment he walked up to you, from the moment he looked at you like you were something worth stopping for.
You never really stood a chance.
So, you donât leave right away.
You said you should. He agreed. That shouldâve been the end of it.
But neither of you moves.
The world keeps going around you, voices, footsteps, someone laughing somewhere behind you, but it all feels distant now, like itâs happening a little too far away to matter.
Rhett is still standing close enough that you can feel the heat of him. Not touching. Not quite. But close enough that it makes your skin feel too aware, like every inch of space between you is something fragile.
You tighten your grip slightly on the flowers he gave you, like theyâre the only thing keeping you steady.
âI really do have to go,â you say, softer this time.
âYeah,â he says again.
Still not moving.
Your eyes flick up to his, and thatâs your first mistake.
Because heâs already looking at you.
Not in a casual way. Not in the way people usually look at each other when theyâre about to say goodbye.
He looks like heâs trying to memorize you.
Your breath catches.
âYou always do that?â you ask, your voice just a little unsteady.
âDo what?â
âLook at people like that.â
Rhett tilts his head slightly, like heâs considering the question. âNo.â
Your heart stumbles again. âNo?â
âJust you.â
God.
You laugh, but it comes out quieter than you meant it to, your gaze dropping again. âYou really donât make this easy, do you?â
âWasnât tryinâ to.â
âThatâs the problem.â
Thereâs a small pause, but it doesnât feel awkward. It feels like something stretching between you, something thin and delicate and about to snap if either of you moves too fast.
You should go.
You know you should.
But instead, you shift your weight just slightly closer.
Rhett notices.
Of course he does.
Something changes in his expression, not softer, not exactly, but more certain. Like whatever hesitation he mightâve had before is gone now.
âYou nervous?â he asks, low.
You let out a breath. âA little.â
âWhy?â
You glance up at him again, caught. âYou know why.â
He doesnât smile.
But thereâs something warm in his eyes now. Something that makes your stomach twist in the best, most terrifying way.
âYeah,â he says quietly. âI do.â
Another pause.
The kind that feels like standing at the edge of something.
You donât even realize youâve stopped fidgeting until you notice your hands are still. Your shoulders are still. Everything is focused on him.
On the way heâs looking at you.
On the way he hasnât stepped back.
âRhett,â you start, but you donât know what youâre going to say.
His name justâŚcomes out.
He leans in slightly.
Not enough to touch.
Just enough that you feel it.
That small shift.
That closing of space.
Your breath catches again.
âIf I kiss you,â he says, voice low and steady, âyou gonna regret it?â
Your heart is racing now. Fast enough that youâre sure he can hear it.
You shake your head, barely. âNo.â
He studies your face for a second, like heâs making sure you mean it.
Like he wonât do this unless you do.
âI donât rush things,â he adds quietly.
âI can tell.â
âBut thisââ his gaze flicks to your lips, then back to your eyes, ââdonât feel like rushinâ.â
It doesnât.
Thatâs the terrifying part.
It feels like something thatâs already been building, even if itâs only been an hour.
âOkay,â you whisper.
Thatâs all it takes.
Rhett closes the distance slowly, like heâs giving you time to pull away.
You donât.
Your fingers tighten slightly around the flowers, your breath shallow as he gets closer, closerâŚ
And then he kisses you.
Itâs not rushed.
Not messy.
Itâs careful at first, like heâs testing something fragile. His hand comes up, not grabbing, not pulling, just resting lightly at your jaw, steady and grounding all at once.
Your brain goes completely quiet.
All the nerves, all the thoughts, all the what is happening, gone.
It just feels warm.
And soft.
And right.
You lean into it before you even realize youâre doing it.
Thatâs when something shifts.
The kiss deepens, not suddenly and not overwhelming, but enough that it sends a slow, dizzy warmth all the way through you. His thumb brushes lightly along your cheek, and you swear your knees almost give out.
You make a small soundâbarely there.
Rhett feels it.
You know he does.
Because his grip tightens just slightly, just enough to steady you, just enough to tell you heâs paying attention to every little reaction.
When he pulls back, itâs slow.
Reluctant.
Like heâs not entirely convinced he should.
Your forehead almost brushes his.
Youâre both breathing a little heavier now.
Your eyes are still closed for half a second longer before you open themâ
And heâs right there.
Still looking at you like that.
Like heâs already gone.
âOh God,â you breathe.
He huffs a quiet laugh, but thereâs something softer under it now. Something almost surprised.
âYeah,â he says.
You blink, trying to gather your thoughts, but theyâre not really cooperating. âThatâŚâ
âYeah.â
You laugh, a little breathless, shaking your head. âYouâre really dangerous.â
He tilts his head slightly. âYou keep sayinâ that.â
âBecause you are.â
âStill here, though.â
That makes you smile.
âYeah,â you admit. âStill here.â
Thereâs a quiet beat between you.
Then he says, softer this time, âYou always get like this with people you just met?â
You let out a small breath, your fingers tightening slightly where they rest against his arm.
Because the honest answer isâ
No.
Not even close.
You shake your head, a faint, almost disbelieving smile tugging at your lips. âNo.â
His gaze doesnât leave yours. âNo?â
âNo,â you say again, a little more steady now. âThis is aâŚnew move, for me.â
Something shifts in his expression at that. Not surprise, exactly, more like recognition.
Like he feels it too.
âAlright,â he murmurs.
And the way he says it, low, certain, makes your chest tighten just a little more.
You see it in the way his expression shifts, something deeper settling in his eyes.
Something real.
His hand hasnât left your face.
You donât want it to.
âMe neither,â he murmurs.
This time, when he kisses you again, itâs not careful.
Itâs still gentle, but thereâs something more certain in it now. Less testing. More knowing.
Your free hand comes up without thinking, brushing against his arm, then settling there like it belongs.
And for a secondâŚ
Everything feels easy.
Like this is exactly where youâre supposed to be.
Like youâve been building toward this moment without even realizing it.
When you finally pull back again, itâs because you have to.
Because breathing is important.
Because your head is spinning just a little.
You smile at him, softer now. Less flustered, but not entirely steady.
âOkay,â you say quietly. âNow I really have to go.â
âYeah,â he says.
Still not moving.
You laugh. âYouâre not making this easier.â
âDonât want to.â
âYouâre impossible.â
âStill here,â he reminds you.
You shake your head, smiling, then take a small step back.
It feelsâŚstrange.
Like pulling away from something warm.
But not wrong.
Not really.
âCall me,â you say.
âI will.â
âI mean it.â
âSo do I.â
You hesitate for just a second longer.
Then you lean in, quick, before you can overthink it, and press a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth.
Rhett stills.
Completely.
You pull back, a little shy now. âJust in case you forget.â
âI wonât.â
âI know,â you say softly.
And then, this timeâŚ
You actually walk away.
Rhett watches you go.
Doesnât move.
Doesnât look away.
Not until you disappear into the crowd.
And even then, he stays there for a moment longer, like the ground hasnât quite settled under him yet.
Like something just shifted in a way he canât undo.
He exhales slowly, dragging a hand over the back of his neck.
Then he looks down at the place where you were standing.
At the empty space.
At the faint sweetness still lingering in the air.
And for the first time in a long time, Rhett Abbott smiles to himself.
Because he doesnât know everything about you.
Doesnât know where this is going.
Doesnât know what this turns into.
But he knows one thing.
From the second you walked into his day, from the second you looked at him like he was something worth staying for.
Summary: You and Steve had been best friends for years, but when one of his old crushes came back into his life, it became impossible to keep your own feelings hidden any longer.
Warnings: (in my mind) set after s5, misunderstanding trope, best friends to lovers, angsty, but with a fluff (?) ending
Author's note: i hope you like it. if you have any requests, also lmk. divider by @uzmacchiato
Steve Harrington had a habit of making your life feel like a series of small, ordinary miracles.
A hand on your shoulder in a crowded hallway, guiding you through like you belonged beside him. The way he always saved you the last slice of pizza even when he pretended he didnât care. The lazy sprawl across your couch that somehow turned into you two talking until two in the morning, the television hissing static long after youâd stopped watching.
Youâd been best friends long enough that people didnât even question it anymore. You were just⌠there. The constant. The person Steve gravitated toward the way some people gravitated toward light.
And it was easy to pretend that was enough.
Because if you didnât pretend, if you let yourself look too closely at what you felt when Steve smiled at you, wide and warm like the whole world made sense, then youâd have to admit something you werenât brave enough to say out loud.
That you were in love with your best friend.
It wasnât dramatic at first. It wasnât fireworks or grand declarations. It was quieter than that. It was the way your chest softened when he said your name. The way you knew his moods by the sound of his car door closing. The way you felt safer with him beside you than you ever had anywhere else.
It was the way you wanted to be the reason he was happy.
But wanting didnât mean having.
And you could live with wanting, you told yourself.
You could.
Until she came back.
It happened on a Tuesday afternoon, the kind where Hawkins felt slow and sleepy and the sun looked like it was running out of patience.
Steve pulled into your driveway in his beat-up car, horn tapping twice like it always did. You hopped into the passenger seat, already smiling because you didnât even have to ask, he was bored and you were the solution.
He handed you a warm soda from a paper bag. âPeace offering,â he said.
âFor what crime?â
âFor being late,â he replied, like it was obvious. âAnd for making you wait.â
âYouâre five minutes late.â
Steve gasped dramatically. âFive minutes is a lifetime when youâre missing me.â
You rolled your eyes, but you were laughing, looking out the window again, and Steve glanced at you like your laughter was a prize heâd won.
Then he exhaled, fingers tightening around the steering wheel like he wasâŚÂ nervous. âSo. Uh. I ran into someone today.â
The way he said it, too casual, too carefully light, made your stomach dip.
âOkay,â you said slowly, looking at him now. âWho?â
Steveâs jaw worked, like he was deciding whether to say the name at all.
âMarcy.â
You blinked. The name landed in your head and immediately started rearranging old memories like a drawer being yanked open.
Marcy Calloway. Blonde hair always pulled into a ponytail. A laugh that used to make Steve do stupid things. A girl from beforeâŚbefore the Upside Down, before demo dogs and the loss of Eddie and defeating Vecna and just, all of it. A girl who belonged to the version of Steve Harrington that had been simpler.
âMarcy,â you repeated, voice careful, her name tasing weird in your mouth.
âYeah,â he said, watching the road even though the car wasnât moving. âSheâs back in town. Just for a bit. Visiting family.â
âOh,â you managed. âOkay.â
He finally looked at you. His eyes were bright in that way they got when something made him nervous-excited. âWe talked. Like⌠really talked. It was weird. Good-weird.â
You nodded like you were hearing him, like the world hadnât just tilted slightly off its axis.
âShe asked if I wanted to grab coffee,â Steve continued, trying too hard to sound like it didnât matter. âTo catch up.â
âThatâs⌠nice,â you said. âYou should go.â
Steveâs smile came fast, relieved. âYeah? You think so?â
You forced your mouth into something that resembled a grin. âOf course. Why wouldnât I?â
Steve let out a breath, shoulders relaxing. âCool. Cool. Yeah. SoâFriday.â
Friday.
You filed the date away like it was a threat.
Steve turned the key and the engine coughed to life. âWeâre still doing movie night tonight, right?â
âYeah,â you said automatically. âYep, of course.â
Steve reached over and squeezed your knee, a quick, thoughtless gesture of affection heâd done a thousand times.
Except this time it felt like something inside you flinched.
You told yourself you were being ridiculous.
Steve was allowed to see someone. Steve was allowed to be happy. Steve was allowed to have a life that didnât revolve around you.
You were just friends, best friends.Â
You told yourself that over and over until it sounded like truth.
Then Friday came.
And Steve didnât even try to hide how excited he was.
You could tell by the way he kept checking his reflection in the rearview mirror. By the way he asked you, twice, if his shirt looked okay. By the way he ran his fingers through his hair and muttered, âJesus, Iâm gonna look like an idiot.â
âYou look fine,â you said, because it was the only thing you could say without shattering.
âWhat if itâs awkward?â he asked, glancing at you like you were the only person qualified to calm him down. âWhat if weâve got nothing to talk about?â
âYou always have something to talk about,â you replied. âMostly about yourself.â
He snorted. âWow. Rude.â
You smiled, but it didnât reach your eyes.
Steve parked near the diner where they were meeting, then paused with his hand on the door.
âYou sure you donât mind?â he asked.
You blinked at him. âWhy would I mind?â
âI donât know,â he said, frowning like he was searching your face for something you werenât letting him see. âYouâve been⌠off.â
âIâm not off.â
Steve held your gaze for a beat too long.
Then he exhaled. âOkay. Iâll call you after.â
âHave fun,â you said.
He did.
You knew he did because he didnât call until late.
And when he did, his voice was warm and bright and full of a kind of happiness youâd never been the cause of.
âIt was good,â he said, like he couldnât help it. âReally good. Sheâs⌠sheâs still Marcy, you know? Like, the same but⌠not. Better.â
You leaned your forehead against your bedroom wall, phone pressed to your ear, trying to breathe around the tightness in your chest.
âThatâs great, Steve,â you managed.
He hesitated. âYou okay?â
âYeah,â you lied. âJust tired.â
âOkay,â he said softly. âWell⌠Iâll see you tomorrow.â
âYeah,â you whispered.
When you hung up, you slid down the wall and sat on the floor until the room stopped spinning.
Because it wasnât just jealousy.
It was pain, sharp and physical, like something was twisting inside you.
And the worst part was realizing: you didnât know how to make it stop.
So you started off small.
You didnât answer his calls right away.
You told him you were busy when he asked if you wanted to hang out.
You cancelled movie night once, then twice, then thrice.
Steve noticed.
Of course he did.
Steve Harrington noticed everything about you, even when he didnât mean to.
He showed up at your house one afternoon unannounced, knocking like he was angry at your door personally.
You opened it, heart already racing.
Steve stood on your porch with his arms crossed and a storm in his eyes.
âOkay,â he said. âWhatâs going on?â
You blinked. âHi to you too.â
âDonât,â he snapped. Then his expression softened immediately, guilt flashing across his face like he hated being sharp with you. âDonât do that. Donât make it a joke.â
You lifted your chin. âIâm not making a joke. I genuinely donât know what youâre talking about.â
Steveâs jaw clenched. âYes. You do.â
You leaned against the doorframe, crossing your arms slowly, not defensive. Firm.
âNo, Steve. I donât.â
âYouâve been avoiding me,â he said, voice lower now. âFor like⌠two weeks.â
âI havenât been avoiding you,â you shot back. âIâve just been busy.â
âWith what?â
âStuff.â
âStuff,â he repeated flatly. âYouâre really gonna do that? Youâre really gonna give me âstuffâ like Iâm some idiot?â
âWhy are you interrogating me?â you snapped. âPeople get busy. It happens.â
Steveâs eyes widened, hurt flashing sharp and fast.
âBecause youâre my best friend.â
The words landed heavy between you.
You swallowed but didnât back down.
âAnd Iâm still here,â you said. âI didnât disappear off the planet.â
âYeah, you kind of did,â he shot back. âYou cancel plans. You donât call. You barely look at me when weâre in the same room.â
âThatâs not true.â
âDonât lie to me.â
Silence stretched tight.
Steveâs voice softened, just a little. âDid I do something?â
Your chest tightened, but you stood your ground.
âNo.â
He searched your face like he was begging to find something there.
âThen what is it?â he demanded. âBecause youâre acting like I did something terrible.â
âI didnât say you did.â
âBut youâre treating me like I did.â
You shook your head in frustration. âYouâre reading into things that arenât there.â
Steve scoffed. âOh come on.â
His eyes narrowed slightly. âThis is about Marcy, isnât it?â
Your stomach dropped, but you didnât let it show.
âWhat? No.â
He let out a humorless laugh. âWow. You didnât even hesitate.â
âBecause thereâs nothing to hesitate about.â
âBullshit,â he snapped. âI can see it all over you.â
âYouâre imagining things.â
âYou pull away the second I mention her,â he shot back. âYou vanish every time Iâm with her. You act like you canât even be in the same room as me anymore.â
âThat doesnât mean anything.â
âOh, it means something,â he insisted. âYouâre mad because Iâm hanging out with her.â
You let out a sharp breath. âSo what if I am uncomfortable? That doesnât mean Iâm trying to control you.â
Steve threw his hands up. âUncomfortable? With what, me having a life?â
âThatâs not what I said.â
âIt sure feels like it,â he fired back. âIt feels like you want me all to yourself.â
You stiffened.
âLike you canât stand the idea of me being close to someone else,â he continued bitterly. âLike I belong to you.â
âThatâs not fair.â
âThen explain it,â he demanded, stepping closer. âBecause right now it feels like the second Iâm happy outside of you, you shut me out.â
Your hands curled into fists at your sides.
âYou donât get it,â you said sharply.
âThen make me get it!â
The words echoed between you.
Your heart hammered.
You could tell him.
You could end this right now.
But fear locked your throat shut.
Instead, you straightened.
âI donât owe you an explanation for every feeling I have,â you said firmly. âIâm allowed to have space, to not hang out with you all the time, just like you are allowed to hang out with Marcy.â
Steve stared at you like youâd slapped him.
âSpace,â he repeated quietly.
âYes,â you said. âSpace.â
His eyes darkened, not angry, not exactly, more wounded than anything.
âI came here because I thought something was wrong,â he said. âBecause I thought you were hurting.â
âIâm fine.â
âYouâre lying.â
âIâm not.â
âYou donât look fine.â
âWell I am,â you snapped. âSo drop it.â
Silence crashed down hard.
Steveâs chest rose and fell like he was trying to keep himself under control.
âSo thatâs it?â he asked quietly. âYouâre just gonna shut me out and pretend nothingâs wrong?â
âIâm not shutting you out.â
âYou are.â
âSteveââ
âNo,â he cut in, shaking his head. âYou donât get to act like Iâm crazy for noticing you pulling away.â
His voice cracked just a little.
âI care about you,â he said. âIâm trying to fix something I donât even understand.â
You looked away.
âAnd you wonât even meet me halfway.â
Guilt burned in your chest, but you stayed silent.
Steve laughed softly, bitter.
âUnbelievable.â
He stepped back, running a hand through his hair.
âFine,â he said, voice tight. âIf youâre âfine,â then I guess thereâs nothing to talk about.â
You didnât answer.
Steveâs eyes searched your face one last time, like he was hoping youâd stop him.
You didnât.
His jaw clenched.
He turned and walked off the porch.
Faster than before.
Angrier.
More confused.
You stood frozen in the doorway, chest burning, watching the person you loved most walk away without ever knowing the real reason.
Not because you didnât care.
But because you cared too much to risk losing him.
After that, the distance wasnât just something you tried to do.
It was something that happened.
You didnât see Steve for days.
Then weeks.
You heard about him through the grapevine, through Dustinâs excited rambling, through Maxâs casual comments, through the way Robin raised her eyebrows when your name came up like she was trying to figure you out.
âHeâs been spending a lot of time with Marcy,â Robin mentioned one day, leaning against her bike outside Family Video.
You pretended not to care. âOkay?â
Robin studied you, lips pursed. âNothing. Just⌠weird, is all.â
âWeird how?â
Robin shrugged. âWeird that youâre not around.â
You forced a laugh. âI have a life.â
Robinâs gaze sharpened. âDo you?â
You stiffened. Robin sighed, waving a hand like she didnât want to push.
âLook,â she said, softer. âI donât know whatâs going on, but Steveâs⌠heâs not okay.â
Your heart lurched.
âHeâs fine,â you said automatically.
Robin scoffed. âYeah, because Steve Harrington is known for processing emotions in a healthy way.â
You couldnât help itâŚyour mouth twitched, a real smile trying to surface.
Robin pointed at you like sheâd caught something. âThere. That. Thatâs the face you make when you actually feel something.â
You swallowed, smile fading.
Robinâs expression softened. âJust⌠talk to him, okay? Because heâs acting like he lost you.â
You looked away, throat burning.
Because he had.
In a way.
You were still there, still breathing, still existing.
But you were also⌠breaking. And you didnât know how to stop.
The next time you saw Steve, it was by accident.
You were at the grocery store, focused on grabbing what you needed as fast as possible, when you heard itâŚ
His laugh.
It wasnât the easy, familiar sound you knew. It was brighter. Louder. Like he was trying to prove something.
You froze at the end of an aisle, heart stuttering.
Then you saw him.
Steve, leaning against a cart, smiling down at Marcy like sheâd hung the sun.
Marcy touched his arm when she laughed, fingers lingering like she belonged there.
Steve didnât pull away.
Your chest tightened so hard you thought you might actually fold in half.
It hurt.
A sharp, real ache under your ribs, like someone had lodged something heavy inside you and was twisting it slowly.
You turned before they could see you, pushing your cart away too fast.
You didnât stop until you were outside, leaning against the brick wall, gasping for air like youâd run a mile.
You pressed a hand to your chest.
This was insane.
This was pathetic.
It was just Steve being happy.
But it felt like losing something youâd never even been brave enough to claim.
And that night, you didnât sleep.
You kept replaying every moment.
Every laugh. Every touch. Every time Steve had looked at you like you mattered.
Every time youâd thought maybeâ
Maybe.
And now he was looking at someone else.
And the pain in your chest wouldnât go away.
So, at two in the morning, you did something you never did.
You drove.
No destination. No plan. Just movement, like maybe if you kept moving, the ache couldnât catch you.
But you found yourself in front of Steveâs house before you even realized where you were going.
You sat in your car, staring at the dark windows.
You shouldnât.
You shouldnât knock.
You shouldnât drag him back into your mess.
So you didnât.
You stayed in your car until your eyes burned and your hands shook and the sky started turning faintly gray.
Then you went home.
But Steve found you the next day.
Of course he did.
Because he always did.
He knocked on your bedroom window like he used to when you were younger, like he didnât care if it was childish or ridiculous, like he was desperate enough to try anything.
You yanked the curtains open, heart hammering once again.
Steve stood outside, hair a mess, eyes shadowed like he hadnât slept.
You stared at him through the glass.
He stared back.
Then he held up his hands, palms out, like he was surrendering.
âCan we talk?â he mouthed.
You hesitated.
Then you unlocked the window.
Steve climbed in awkwardly, landing on your floor with a soft thud. He looked around your room like it was the first time heâd been in it in months.
Maybe it was.
He straightened, swallowing hard.
âHi,â he said quietly.
You crossed your arms, trying to protect yourself. âHi.â
Steve exhaled like heâd been holding his breath for weeks.
âIâm sorry,â he blurted. âAbout what I said. About⌠all of it.â
You blinked. âWhatâŚ?â
âNo,â he said, shaking his head. âLet me. Because Iâve been thinking about this moment, okay? A lot. And I was a jerk.â
You didnât speak. You couldnât.
Steve stepped closer, his voice shaking now. âI thought you were⌠I donât know. Jealous. Possessive. Like you didnât want me to have anyone else.â
You flinched.
Steveâs eyes softened. âAnd maybe I thought that becauseâŚâ He swallowed. âBecause it wouldâve been easier.â
Easier than what?
Steve looked down at his hands, fingers twisting together. âBecause the truth is, I donât know what Iâd do if the reason youâre pulling away is something I canât fix.â
Your throat tightened.
Steve looked up, eyes searching yours like he was trying to find you behind the walls youâd built.
âI miss you,â he said simply.
The words hit you harder than anything else.
Because you missed him too.
God, you missed him so much it felt like you were starving.
âYou donât get to justâŚâ your voice cracked. You cleared your throat, shaking your head angrily, trying again. âYou donât get to just show up.â
âI do,â Steve said, fierce. âI do when youâre disappearing on me.â
You stared at him, tears prickling.
Steveâs gaze flicked to your mouth, then away like it scared him.
He swallowed. âYou looked at me like I was⌠like I was everything, sometimes.â
Your breath caught.
Steveâs voice went softer, almost haunted. âNot like Robin. Not like Dustin. Not like⌠anyone.â
You froze.
Steve stepped closer, slow, like he was approaching something fragile.
âAnd I keep thinking about it,â he whispered. âAll the times you were there. All the times you stayed even when I didnât deserve it. All the times you looked at me like you were holding something back.â
Your hands trembled.
Steveâs eyes shone. âAnd I donât know if I was stupid or selfish or both, but IâŚâ He broke off, jaw tight. âI didnât want to see it.â
You couldnât breathe.
Steve took another step. Now he was close enough that you could feel the warmth of him.
âMarcy makes me feel⌠normal,â he said quietly. âLike I can pretend none of the scary stuff happened. Like Iâm just some guy who peaked in high school and still worries about his hair.â
A shaky laugh left him, then faded.
âBut you,â he whispered, voice breaking. âYou make me feel seen.â
Tears spilled down your cheeks before you could stop them.
Steveâs face crumpled, like your tears physically hurt him.
âI didnât mean to hurt you,â he said, desperate. âI swear to god I didnât.â
You shook your head, crying harder.
âItâs notâŚâ you tried, but the words stuck.
Steve reached out slowly, fingers hovering near your cheek like he was asking permission.
You didnât move away.
He brushed your tears away with his thumb, so gentle it made your chest ache all over again.
And then you finally cracked.
âIt hurts,â you whispered.
Steve froze. âWhat?â
âIt hurts,â you repeated, voice shaking. âTo see you⌠like that.â
Steve stared at you, breath catching.
âYou being happy with someone else,â you admitted, words spilling out now that the dam had broken. âIt hurts so bad I canât breathe. I canât⌠I canât stand there and pretend itâs fine because it feels like Iâm watching you walk away from me.â
Steveâs eyes widened.
âWhy didnât you tell me?â he whispered.
You let out a broken laugh. âBecause what was I supposed to say, Steve? âHi, Iâve been in love with you since I found you in the movie theater after the fucking Russians tortured the shit out of you and itâs ruining my lifeâ?â
Silence.
Steve didnât move.
Didnât speak.
Just stared at you like the world had shifted under his feet.
Then his face twisted with something raw.
âOh my god,â he breathed. âYouâŚâ
You squeezed your eyes shut, shame flooding you. âIâm sorry. Iâm so sorry. I didnât want to⌠I didnât want to make it weird.â
A sound left Steve, halfway between a laugh and a sob.
âYou didnât make it weird,â he whispered.
You opened your eyes, confused.
Steve looked at you like he was seeing everything for the first time.
Like every moment youâd ever shared was rewriting itself in his mind.
âThose looks,â he said softly. âThe way you⌠the way you touched my arm and then pulled away. The way you always stayed close. The way you got quiet when Nancy was around. The way you looked like you were trying not to fall apart when I talked about⌠anyone.â
He swallowed hard.
âI thought you just cared,â he whispered.
You laughed bitterly. âI do care, a little too much sometimes.â
âI know,â Steve said, voice thick. âI know.â
He stepped even closer until there was barely space between you.
âAnd Iâm an idiot,â he murmured. âBecause youâve been loving me right in front of my face and IâŚâ His voice broke. âI didnât realize I could have that, that I could have you...â
Your heart pounded.
Steve lifted his hands, palms cupping your face like you were something precious.
âCan Iââ he whispered, eyes flicking to your lips. âCan I kiss you?â
Your breath caught.
All the years of wanting condensed into one moment.
You nodded.
Steve kissed you like heâd been holding his breath his whole life.
It wasnât gentle at first. It was urgent, shaking, like he needed to prove something to both of you. Like he needed to erase every second of distance.
You clutched his shirt, pulling him closer, kissing him back like you were afraid heâd disappear if you let go.
Steveâs hands slid from your face to your waist, anchoring you.
He broke the kiss for half a second, forehead resting against yours, breathing hard.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered again, voice wrecked. âIâm so sorry.â
You shook your head, tears still falling. âJustâŚjust donât let me lose you.â
Steve kissed you again, slower this time, softer, like he was learning you. Like he was memorizing.
His lips moved against yours with reverence and hunger all at once, and it felt like the world finally snapped into the shape it was always meant to be.
When he pulled back, his eyes were glassy.
âYou were never going to lose me,â he whispered.
You let out a shaky breath. âBut you were happy with her.â
Steveâs face tightened. âI was trying to be.â
That confession hit you like a wave.
Steve brushed his thumb along your cheek again, gaze unwavering.
âI thought happiness was supposed to look like⌠moving on,â he murmured. âLike being normal. Like picking someone safe.â
He swallowed.
âBut every time I came home, every time it got quiet, all I wanted was you.â
Your throat tightened.
Steveâs voice dropped, raw and honest. âIâve been in love with you too. I just didnât know thatâs what it was.â
You stared at him, stunned.
Steve gave a small, broken smile. âKinda pathetic, right?â
You laughed through your tears and kissed him again, because you didnât know what else to do with the feeling exploding inside you.
Steve kissed you back like he was starving.
And when he finally pulled away, he rested his forehead against yours again, hands holding you like he couldnât risk letting go.
âWeâre gonna talk,â he said, voice hoarse. âWeâre gonna do this right. Iâm gonna talk to Marcy. Iâm not gonnaâŚâ He swallowed. âIâm not gonna hurt anyone, okay? But Iâm not gonna lie either.â
You nodded, still trembling.
Steve kissed your temple, then your cheek, then the corner of your mouthâŚlittle, reverent touches that made your whole body feel like it was humming.
âI missed you,â he whispered against your skin. âSo much.â
âI missed you too,â you whispered back.
Steve pulled you into his arms, holding you so tight it felt like he was trying to stitch the two of you back together, the press of his lips against your forehead soothing you.
And for the first time in weeks, the pain in your chest eased.
Not because it had never been there.
But because this timeâŚfinally, you werenât carrying it alone.
Summary: you and Steve crossed a line and Steve has broken your heart in the proces, or did he?
Warnings: (in my mind) set after s5, misunderstanding trope, best friends to lovers, allusions to smut, suggestive themes, angsty, but with a fluff (?) ending
Author's note: here you go friends. i had a hard time finalizing the end, so i hope you like it. if you have any requests, also lmk. divider by @cursed-carmine
Steve Harrington had been in your life for so long that you no longer remembered what it felt like before him.
Before the late-night drives with the windows down, Steveâs hand draped casually over the back of your seat.
Before movie marathons where you fell asleep halfway through and woke up with your cheek pressed into his shoulder.
Before the quiet, wordless understanding that came from surviving too much together in a town that refused to stay normal.
Fourteen years.
Fourteen years of always.
You were there when he broke his arm and pretended it didnât hurt.
You were there when he pretended he didnât care about Nancy anymore.
You were there when the world cracked open and monsters spilled out and Steve decided, somewhere along the way, that protecting people was simply who he was.
And Steve was there for you, too.
For heartbreaks. For family arguments. For the nights when the anxiety wouldnât let you sleep and he sat on the floor beside your bed, back against the mattress, promising you werenât alone.
Best friends.
That word followed you everywhere, clung to you like a label you couldnât peel off. Steveâs best friend. Safe. Untouchable. Not chosen.
And somewhere, quietly, painfully, you fell in love with him.
You never meant to. It just⌠happened. Slowly. Like water wearing away stone.
You learned to live with it. Learned to tuck it away. Learned to smile when he flirted with other girls, learned to laugh when he asked your advice, learned to swallow the ache when he left your apartment smelling like someone elseâs perfume.
You told yourself this was enough.
Until the night it wasnât.
It was one of those nights where everything felt off-balance from the start.
Too much to drink. Too much laughing. Too many old memories brought up like they were harmless, like they didnât carry weight. Steve was already sprawled on your couch, shoes kicked off, hair messier than usual, eyes soft in that way that made your chest tighten.
âYou ever think about how weird it is,â he said, staring at the ceiling, âthat weâre still⌠us?â
You knew what he meant. Still here. Still together. Still always.
âYeah,â you replied quietly. âSometimes.â
He turned his head to look at you. There was something unreadable in his expression, something that made your pulse stutter.
âYouâre the only person who never left,â he said. âNot really.â
Your heart ached at the simplicity of it.
The moment stretched. Stretched too far.
You donât remember who moved first.
Maybe it was you leaning in because the space between you suddenly felt unbearable.
Maybe it was him turning fully toward you, eyes flicking to your mouth like heâd been thinking about it longer than heâd ever admit.
The kiss was soft at first. Uncertain. Like both of you were waiting for the other to pull back and say we shouldnât.
Neither of you did.
It felt like crossing a line youâd both been skirting for years. Familiar and terrifying and intoxicating all at once. Steveâs hand curled into your shirt like he was afraid youâd disappear if he let go. Your fingers threaded through his hair, muscle memory guiding you like youâd done this a thousand times in another life.
âHey,â you whispered, breathless, forehead pressed to his. âWe donât have toââ
âI want this,â he said immediately, voice rough. âI want you.â
Those words alone couldâve shattered you.
So you let it happen.
It was tender. Careful. Charged with something neither of you were brave enough to name.
Steve touched you like he already knew you, because he did. Like every laugh, every tear, every shared secret lived just under his skin. And for a moment, you let yourself believe this meant something more.
That maybe heâd finally seen you.
The room was dim, lit only by the soft glow of a lamp in the corner. Your senses were overloaded, his breath against your neck, the weight of him, the rhythm of his body against yours, the way he whispered your name like it mattered.
And thenâ
It happened.
Steve murmured something under his breath, voice low, broken, tangled in the moment.
A name.
Not yours.
At least⌠you thought it wasnât.
Your body went cold in an instant.
The room seemed to tilt, reality snapping back into place with brutal clarity. Your heart slammed painfully against your ribs as the meaning settled in, heavy and unforgiving.
Of course.
This wasnât about you. It never was.
You were the convenient constant. The safe place. The person he could reach for when he felt lonely, overwhelmed, drunk on old feelings that didnât belong to you.
You pulled back so suddenly it startled him.
âHeyâ wait, whatâs wrong?â Steve asked, concern flooding his face.
But you couldnât look at him. If you did, you might break completely.
âI canât,â you said, voice shaking despite your effort to keep it steady. âI canât do this.â
Confusion flickered across his expression. âDid I do something?â
You laughed softly, bitterly. âYou tell me.â
Steve opened his mouth, then closed it again, clearly scrambling. âIâI donât understand.â
âYou said her name,â you whispered.
Silence.
The kind that screams.
Steveâs face drained of color. âWhat? No, I...â
âYou donât have to explain,â you cut in quickly, pain spilling over. âI get it. I shouldâve known better.â
You stood, instantly feeling empty without him, hands trembling as you grabbed your sweater. Everything felt too loud, too sharp, too real.
âThis was a mistake,â you said, forcing the words past the lump in your throat. âIâm sorry I crossed that line.â
Steve reached for you, panic clear in his eyes. âWait, please. Youâre not a mistake.â
You shook your head, tears finally blurring your vision. âIâve always been just your friend, Steve. Tonight just⌠confirmed it.â
You didnât wait for his response.
You couldnât.
You avoided him.
At first, it was easy enough.
A missed call here. A late reply there. You told yourself you were just busy, just tired, just not ready.
Days passed.
Then weeks.
It became a routine, changing your routes through town, ducking into different aisles at Family Video, lingering longer than necessary anywhere Steve wasnât. It was easier to pretend you were busy than to face the look on his face when he realized heâd hurt you. Easier to swallow the ache alone than to risk hearing him say what you already believed.
I didnât mean it like that.
You misunderstood.
Youâre important to me, just not in that way.
You knew how those conversations went. Youâd lived through enough almosts to recognize the pattern. The gentle letdowns. The careful phrasing. The way people tried not to break something they never meant to hold in the first place.
So you stayed quiet.
Steve noticed immediately.
Robin noticed ten seconds after that.
She cornered him behind the Family Video counter one afternoon, arms crossed, eyes sharp. âOkay,â she said, voice low, âwhat did you do?â
Steve blinked at her. âWhat?â
âYou look like someone ran over your favorite pair of shoes and then reversed just to be petty,â she said. âAnd donât play dumb. You and her⌠Somethingâs wrong.â
He swallowed. Hard.
âShe wonât talk to me,â he said finally. âShe wonât even look at me.â
Robinâs expression shifted, less teasing, more serious. âSteve.â
Across the store, Dustin had been pretending, very poorly, to browse the horror section. He whipped around. âWait, is this about why she hasnât been hanging out with us?â
Steve stiffened. âYou noticed that too?â
Dustin snorted. âPlease. She skipped movie night and free pizza. Thatâs not normal behavior.â
Robinâs jaw tightened. âWhat happened?â
Steve opened his mouth. Closed it again. His hands curled into fists at his sides.
âWeââ He exhaled sharply. âWe crossed a line. And then I said something. Or, well⌠Mumbled something. And she thinks I said ermâ, someone elseâs name.â
Robin stared at him. âDid you?â
âNo!â Steve said immediately, panic flaring. âGod, no. I didnât. I swear I didnât.â
âThen why havenât you told her that?â Dustin asked, brows furrowed.
âI tried,â Steve said miserably. âShe wonât answer. She wonât listen.â
Robin softened just a little, but her voice stayed firm. âSteve⌠sheâs been in love with you forever.â
His head snapped up. âWhat?â
âDonât act shocked,â Robin said. âItâs painfully obvious. To literally everyone except you.â
Dustin nodded. âYeah, man. Youâre kind of an idiot.â
Steve dragged a hand down his face. âI didnât know,â he whispered. âI thought⌠I thought I was protecting her. Keeping things safe.â
Robin sighed. âYou donât protect people by deciding their feelings for them.â
The words hit him like a punch.
Meanwhile, you were unraveling in your own quiet way.
Max noticed first, the way you laughed a little less, the way your eyes always seemed somewhere else. She didnât push, just sat beside you one afternoon and said, âYou donât have to talk, but youâre not as invisible as you think.â
Mike and El noticed next. He offered soda, long walks, gentle silences. She didnât mention Steve unless you did⌠which you didnât.
And every time his name almost slipped out, your chest tightened painfully. And what hurt even more was the pity in their eyes when they looked at you.
You know they didnât mean it like that, but in your head they were still kids, they didnât know any better.
Steve, on the other hand, was unraveling completely.
He couldnât stop replaying it: how quickly everything changed. One second you were with him, panting his name, your hands gripping his hair, the next you were frozen, retreating. The way your breath hitched. The way your eyes filled with pain like heâd reached into your chest and crushed something delicate and irreplaceable.
The way you walked out like heâd just broken something sacred.
He hadnât said another name.
He knew that.
Heâd mumbled, half-words, broken syllables, a sound caught in his throat because the reality of being with you had hit him all at once. Because suddenly it wasnât casual, wasnât safe, wasnât something he could laugh off the next morning.
It was everything. It meant everything.
And heâd panicked.
Steve Harrington had faced monsters from other dimensions, had gone toe-to-toe with things that shouldâve killed him and probably had, if his friends had not interfered, but nothing terrified him quite like the idea that he could lose you, not to death, not to distance, but to his own stupidity.
He wasnât good with words. Never had been.
And now, every second of silence felt like punishment.
And he deserved it.
But that didnât stop him from hoping, desperately, foolishly, that someday soon, youâd give him the chance to make it right.
He showed up at your door unannounced.
You knew it was him before you even looked. There was something about the knock, hesitant, uneven, like heâd raised his hand and lowered it again more than once before finally committing. Your heart jumped anyway, sharp and instinctive and unwelcome.
You stayed where you were, snuggled up in one of his hoodies on the couch.
The hallway light buzzed faintly above you. Your keys were still clenched in your hand, metal biting into your palm. On the other side of the door, you could hear him shift his weight, the soft scuff of his sneaker against the welcome mat.
âHey,â Steve said, voice muffled through the wood. âItâs me.â
As if it couldâve been anyone else.
âI know you probably donât want to see me,â he went on, words tumbling too fast now. âAnd I get it, I really do, but, please⌠can we just talk?â
You pressed your forehead briefly against the door, eyes squeezed shut. If you opened it, if you saw his face, the familiar slope of his shoulders, the way his eyes always softened when they found you, you knew youâd fold. You always did.
So you stayed quiet.
Seconds dragged into minutes. The silence stretched until it felt cruel.
You heard him exhale, long and shaky.
âOkay,â he said softly, resignation creeping in. âOkay. Iâll⌠Iâll call you later.â
His footsteps retreated down the hallway. The sound of the door closing echoed louder than it should have.
Later that evening, the answering machine clicked on.
You were in the kitchen, pretending to wash a mug that was already clean, when his voice filled the apartment.
âHey,â he said, quieter now. Stripped bare of bravado. âItâs me. Again. I, uh⌠please. Just talk to me. Iâll explain. I swear. I know I hurt you, and I hate that I did, but I didnât say what you think I said. I need you to know that.â
There was a pause. You could almost see him rubbing the back of his neck, staring at the wall like he always did when he was nervous.
âYou matter to me,â he added, voice cracking. âMore than you know.â
The machine clicked off.
You stood there long after, staring at nothing, heart pounding like it didnât know where to settle. Eventually, you crossed the room and rewound the tape.
You listened once more.
Then you erased it.
The next day, there was a note slipped under your door. Folded once. Your name written in Steveâs messy handwriting, letters leaning slightly to the right like they always did.
I messed up.
Please donât shut me out.
I didnât say another name. I swear.
You read it until the paper softened between your fingers. Then you folded it back up and tucked it into a drawer you tried not to open too often.
More notes followed over the next few days. Never demanding. Never angry. Just⌠there.
Iâll wait.
I miss you.
Iâm here when youâre ready.
You didnât answer any of them.
Because none of it changed the truth as you saw it.
Steve had always cared. He cared deeply, recklessly, with a kind of intensity that made people feel seen and safe. That was who he was. That was why everyone loved him.
But caring wasnât the same as choosing.
And you were so tired of hoping for something heâd never promised you.
You loved him.
You had loved him quietly, patiently, painfullyâfor longer than you could remember. Loved him through other girls, through almosts and half-moments that never tipped into more.
And loving him hurt too much.
Too much to open the door.
Too much to keep replaying his voice.
Too much to survive another almost.
So you left the notes unanswered.
And you let the silence sit between you, heavy, aching, and unresolved.
Steve caught you outside the grocery store just as you were juggling bags and keys, already half-thinking about how quickly you could get home without running into anyone you werenât ready to see.
Too late.
âHey,â he said, gentle, like he was afraid the word itself might send you bolting.
Your shoulders tensed immediately. You didnât look at him at first. âI donât want to do this, Steve.â
âI know,â he said quickly. âI justâplease. Donât run.â
You turned then, arms crossing defensively, grocery bags rustling between you like a flimsy shield. âWhat do you want?â
The way he flinched at your tone almost made you regret it. Almost.
âI just want to talk,â he said. âI want to explain.â
You shook your head. âYou already did. I heard enough.â
âThatâs the thing,â he said quietly. âI donât think you did.â
Your jaw tightened, your heart cracking. âI donât want to reopen this.â
He hesitated, clearly fighting himself, then nodded. âOkay.â
The acceptance caught you off guard.
âI wonât push,â he said. âI promise.â He took a step back, giving you space. âI just want you to know⌠that night wasnât about anyone else. And Iâll live with it if you never believe me. I just needed you to know I never meant to hurt you.â
You swallowed hard.
Steve looked at you one last time, eyes heavy with things he wasnât saying. âTake care of yourself,â he added softly.
Then he walked away.
You stood there longer than necessary, eyes tracing his every move, his words echoing louder than you wanted them to.
That night wasnât about anyone else.
You tried to shake it off. Told yourself it didnât matter. That it was too late.
But your mind betrayed you.
Because when you replayed that moment, really replayed it, you realized something you hadnât let yourself consider before. The sound heâd made hadnât been clear. Hadnât been sharp enough to be a name. It had been breathless. Broken. Almost cut off.
Like a thought interrupted.
Your mind just filled it in for you.
The certainty youâd clung to began to crack.
Steve didnât try to corner you again.
Instead, he showed up quietly, invisible.
A cup of coffee left outside your door one morning. Cold by the time you found it. Exactly how you liked it.
A grocery bag on your porch when you got home late one evening. Soup. Bread. Things you bought when you were too tired to take care of yourself properly. Your favorite cookies, the Dutch speculaas ones your oma used to make when she was visiting.
And even though these gestures cracked open your heart even more, there was still no pressure.
No expectations.
Just presence.
Days passed like that.
The ache didnât disappear, it dulled, settling into something quieter, something you could carry without it knocking the breath out of you every morning. You learned how to exist again. Not healed. Just⌠functioning.
And then one night, without fully deciding to, you opened the door when you heard the familiar creaking of your front porch.
Steve stood there like he hadnât let himself believe this moment would ever come.
âHey,â he said, careful.
âHey,â you replied.
You stepped aside, wordlessly letting him in.
He didnât move closer. Didnât touch you. Just stood in the middle of the room with his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, shoulders tight, like he was bracing for impact.
âIâve been thinking,â you said slowly. Your voice sounded steadier than you felt. âAbout that night.â
His breath hitched. âYeah?â
âA lot,â you added. âAnd I donât think⌠I donât think you said her name.â
He closed his eyes for a brief second, like relief physically hit him.
âI didnât,â he said quietly. âI swear. I was trying to say something else. I panicked and it came out wrong.â
You nodded once. âI know.â
The silence that followed wasnât comfortable, but it wasnât sharp either. It sat between you, heavy with everything neither of you quite knew how to touch yet.
âBut knowing that,â you continued, shaking your head, forcing yourself to keep going, âdoesnât undo how it felt.â
Steveâs head dipped immediately, seeking eye contact. âI know.â
âYou still hurt me,â you said, more firmly now. âI gave you the most vulnerable part of myself and still walked away feeling small. Replaceable. Like Iâd finally been stupid enough to hope for something that was never mine.â
âI know,â he repeated, voice rough. He didnât argue. Didnât soften it. âI know I did that.â
You swallowed, looking at his face, the way how his face fell, how sad he looked. âI know the grown-up thing wouldâve been to talk it throughâto clear up the confusion. But we didnât. And even though I feel guilty about that, I still need some time.â
âI donât expect you to be ready,â he said quietly, his hand trembling. âI donât expect anything.â
You studied him, the familiar slope of his shoulders, the way he looked older somehow, worn thin in a way you hadnât seen before.
âIâm willing to try,â you said finally. âBut you really have to work for this.â
His eyes lifted to yours, earnest and steady. âI will. However long it takes.â
You nodded once, a small smile already forming. âOkay.â
He seemed to hesitate then, like something was pressing against his ribs, something heâd been holding back.
And thenâ
âI love you.â
Steve looked startled by his own admission.
The words landed⌠hard, wrong? Not gentle, not careful. They hit you straight in the chest, stealing the air from your lungs.
âWhat?â you breathed.
Steve froze, clearly realizing how hard theyâd landed, but he didnât take them back.
âI didnât plan to say it like that,â he admitted, his hand raking through his hair. âOr even tonight. But you deserve the truth, even if it scares you.â
You stared at him, heart pounding. âSteveââ
âI know,â he said quickly. âI know it doesnât fix anything. I know it doesnât erase the hurt. And I know you donât owe me anything just because I feel this way.â
He swallowed hard.
âBut these last few weeks? They were the worst weeks of my life.â
You blinked, a startled laugh caught in your throat. âYouâve fought monsters in another dimension.â
He nodded. âYeah. And Iâd do it again without thinking.â His voice cracked despite himself. âBut thinking I lost you because I was too scared to say what Iâve felt for years? That was worse.â
The room felt suddenly too small.
âI wasnât ready for that,â you admitted, voice trembling.
âI know,â he said softly. âIâm not asking you to say it back. I just couldnât keep pretending anymore.â
Your chest ached, not with fear this time, but with something fragile and overwhelming.
You crossed the space between you before you could think better of it.
The kiss was tentative. Careful. A question more than a promise.
Steve went still for half a second, like he was afraid this was another almost, before his hands came up to your waist, gentle, grounding, like he was anchoring himself to something real.
The kiss deepened just slightly.
Not desperate.
Relieved.
When you pulled back, your forehead rested against his, breath warm between you, both of you a little unsteady.
âI love you, too.â You whispered against his lips, feeling him still once more. âBut⌠This doesnât mean everythingâs fixed.â
âI know,â he said immediately, his hands squeezing your sides gently.
âBut it means Iâm not walking away,â you added.
His smile was small. Real. âThatâs all I was hoping for.â
âI love you,â he murmured.
You let yourself smile once more, leaning into him. âDitto.â
And with these confessions, you both started a new chapter of your lives.
Summary: in which Steve is too overprotective and loses hurts you in the process
Warnings: angst, set in s5, happy ending, steveâs a real bitch, dismissive behavior and to be fair rude as f
Author's note: because my other steve fic has been received so well, here you have another one đŤśđź divider by @thecutestgrotto
Everyone had ideas when Vecna was involved.
Plans stacked on plans, theories layered over fear, bravery stitched together with desperation. It was the only way any of you survived anymore, thinking three steps ahead so you didnât freeze in place when the ground opened beneath your feet.
You had an idea too.
It wasnât reckless. It wasnât stupid. It was dangerous, yes, but everything was dangerous now. And youâd spent hours thinking it through, pacing Steveâs living room until your legs ached, rehearsing the words in your head so they wouldnât shake when you said them.
When you finally spoke, everyone went quiet.
âIf we draw him out,â you said, pointing at the map sprawled across the table, âwe can split his attention. Not fight him head-om, just distract him long enough forââ
âNo.â
Steve said it immediately. Too fast. Too sharp.
The word cut through the room like glass.
You turned to him, stunned. âWhat?â
âNo,â he repeated, already shaking his head. âThatâs not happening.â
You felt the heat rush to your face. âSteve, you didnât even let me finish.â
Because this time, you werenât walking away.
âI donât need to,â he said. âItâs too risky.â
âSo is everything else weâre doing,â you shot back. âYou donât get to decide thatââ
âI do when itâs you.â
The room went still.
Dustin glanced between you like heâd just realized he was standing between two moving trains. Robin shifted uncomfortably. Nancy frowned, sensing something deeper than strategy unraveling.
You swallowed. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
Steve exhaled, frustrated, hands flexing at his sides like he was holding himself back. âIt means Iâm not letting you put yourself in danger like that.â
You stared at him. âYou donât âletâ me do anything.â
âThatâs not what I meant,â he snapped, then ran a hand through his hair. âJesus. You know what I mean.â
âNo,â you said quietly. âI donât.â
He opened his mouth, then closed it. Whatever he wanted to say tangled up behind his teeth, trapped by fear he didnât know how to voice without breaking something.
âSteve,â Nancy said carefully, âmaybe let her explainââ
âNo,â he said again, softer now but no less firm. âWeâll find another way.â
Your chest ached.
Not because he disagreed.
Because he dismissed you.
Like you were fragile. Like your ideas were liabilities. Like you were something that needed to be protected instead of a person who had survived every nightmare alongside him.
You nodded once. Slowly.
âFine,â you said. âDo whatever you want.â
You didnât yell. Didnât cry.
You just turned and walked out.
Steve watched you go, something cold and horrible settling in his stomach. He almost followed. Almost called your name.
But the plan moved on without you.
And somehow, that hurt worse.
You didnât mean to disappear.
You just needed space.
Somewhere between anger and heartbreak, the words best friend echoed in your head like a cruel joke.
Youâd always been that, the constant. The one who stayed when everything else fell apart. The one who patched Steve up with shaking hands and steady words, who cleaned blood off his knuckles and told him heâd be okay even when neither of you believed it. You were the one who waited up with him after bad nights, sitting on the edge of his bed while he stared at the floor like it might open and swallow him whole.
You knew when to joke to pull him back from the edge.
You knew when silence was the only thing that wouldnât hurt.
You knew how to be what he needed.
And lately, it felt like that was all you were.
A tool.
A safety net.
Something he reached for automatically without ever stopping to ask what it cost you.
When things went wrong, Steve leaned on you. When he was scared, he came to you. When the world was ending, he trusted you with his life. But when it came to decisions, real ones, suddenly you were something to be managed. Protected. Pushed aside for your own good.
It hurt in a way that was hard to explain, even to yourself.
Because being needed was easy. Youâd built yourself around that.
But being chosen? Being trusted to stand beside him instead of behind him?
That was what you wanted.
And realizing he hadnât given you that, not when it mattered, made something inside you crack, quiet and deep, like a bone breaking where no one could see it.
And you had never asked for more.
Youâd just⌠hoped.
Which was your mistake.
So when you found yourself back in the abandoned house later that night, searching for supplies, retracing steps, anything to keep busy, you werenât expecting to see him.
You turned the corner and there he was.
Steve.
Bloodied knuckles. Jaw tight. Eyes scanning the hallway like he was already bracing for another fight.
When your eyes met, the world stuttered.
Something raw passed between you, hurt, regret, longing, too much to handle all at once.
Your chest seized.
Before he could say your name, you turned and ran.
You ducked into the nearest closet, closing the door quietly behind you, heart pounding so hard it hurt. You pressed your forehead to the wood, breathing through your nose, fighting the urge to scream or cry or do something worse.
You couldnât talk to him.
Not yet.
Not when your voice might break.
Footsteps echoed down the hall.
âHey,â Steve called. âI know youâre here.â
You stayed silent.
A door opened. Closed.
Another.
âCome on,â he said, frustration creeping into his voice. âDonât do this.â
Your fingers curled into fists.
A third door rattled, locked.
Then the fourth.
The closet door jerked open.
Steve stood there, breathing hard, eyes dark with something youâd never seen before, fear stripped bare.
Before you could react, he stepped inside and shut the door behind him, plunging you both into dim, cramped darkness.
âWhat are you doing?â you whispered.
He reached for you.
Not gently.
He grabbed your shoulders, steady but intense, forcing you to look at him. âWhat are you doing?â
âLet go.â
âNo,â he said. âNot until you look at me.â
âKindly fuck off, Steve,â you glared. âI donât want to talk.â
âTough,â he shot back. âBecause I canât afford to lose you like this.â
The words hit you harder than anything heâd said earlier.
Your breath caught, sharp and painful. âYou already did.â
Steve froze.
For a moment, he looked like heâd been struck, like he hadnât considered that possibility at all. His hands loosened on your shoulders immediately, as if he was afraid touching you now might make it worse.
âNo,â he said, shaking his head. âNo, I didnâtâ, I just⌠I messed up.â
You let out a short, humorless laugh. It scraped your throat on the way out. âYou think?â
He swallowed hard. âI wasnât trying to shut you down.â
âBut you did,â you said, voice trembling despite your best efforts. âYou didnât just disagree with me, Steve. You dismissed me, made me feel stupid. Like I didnât belong in the room. Like I was something you needed to keep safe instead of someone who could stand next to you.â
âThatâs not how I see you,â he said quickly, desperately.
âBut itâs how you treated me,â you shot back. âAnd that hurts worse than Vecna ever could.â
Silence stretched between you, thick and suffocating.
Steve dragged a hand down his face, pacing the narrow space of the closet like a caged animal. âI was scared,â he admitted finally.
âThatâs funny,â you said bitterly. âSo was I. But I didnât get to dismiss you.â
He stopped pacing.
Turned back to you slowly.
âNot like that,â he said quietly. âYou donât get scared the way I do.â
âOh?â You lifted your chin. âEnlighten me.â
âWhen I think about losing you,â he said, voice rough, âitâs like my brain shuts off. I donât think. I react. I try to control the situation because if I donâtââ He broke off, jaw tightening. âI donât know how to exist in a world where youâre gone.â
Your chest ached, but you didnât soften.
âSo instead,â you said, âyou decided to take my choice away.â
He flinched.
âYes,â he said, barely audible. âAnd I hate myself for it.â
You searched his face, really searched it, for excuses, defensiveness, anything that might let you justify walking away again.
There was none.
Only regret. Fear. And something rawer underneath.
âI donât need you to protect me,â you said quietly. âI need you to trust me.â
Steve nodded immediately. âI know. And I didnât. And I was wrong.â
The words came easier now, like heâd stopped trying to shield himself. âYouâre not fragile. Youâre brave and terrifying and smarter than me half the time. I justââ His voice cracked. âI donât know how to love someone and not be afraid every second of the day.â
That did it.
The anger in your chest collapsed inward, leaving behind exhaustion and something dangerously close to tears.
âI left,â you whispered, âbecause when you dismissed me like that, it felt like you didnât see me anymore.â
Steve stepped closer, slow, cautious, like you might bolt again. âI see you,â he said. âI always have.â
You shook your head. âThen why didnât you say it?â
âBecause if I admitted how much you matter,â he said, âIâd have to admit how much power you have to destroy me.â
Your breath hitched.
He stopped an armâs length away. Didnât touch you. Didnât assume.
âIâm in love with you,â he said, voice steady but broken. âIâve been in love with you for so long it hurts. And I didnât say anything because I thought loving you quietly was better than risking losing you completely.â
You stared at him.
âI ran into a closet,â you said shakily, âbecause I thought you didnât want me.â
Steveâs face crumpled. âGod,â he whispered. âI want you so much it scares me.â
He reached out, paused, then let his hand fall. âBut I donât get to touch you if you donât want me to.â
That restraint shattered something in you.
You stepped forward instead.
Grabbed his jacket.
Pulled him into a kiss that was all anger and relief and everything youâd swallowed for too long.
Steve gasped softly against your mouth, surprised, undone, then kissed you back like heâd been starving. His hands came to your waist, firm but reverent, grounding you like he was afraid youâd disappear if he let go.
The kiss was messy. Heated. Too much and not enough all at once.
You broke away only to breathe. âYou hurt me,â you whispered.
âI know,â he said immediately. âIâll spend as long as it takes making it right.â
You kissed him again, slower this time, deeper, your hands sliding into his hair, pulling him closer. Steve groaned softly, forehead pressing to yours when you finally parted.
âI love you,â you said, finally.
His eyes fluttered shut. âSay that again.â
âI love you.â
He kissed you like a promise, not desperate now, but sure. Like he wasnât afraid anymore. Like heâd finally chosen you out loud.
When he pulled back, his voice was wrecked. âI shouldâve fought harder for you sooner.â
You nodded. âYouâre doing it now.â
He smiled, small, shaken, real. âGuess Iâll keep fighting.â
You leaned in, brushing your lips against his. âGood.â
Summary: Steve and you go out to grab movie-night snacks, but his playful teasing goes a little too far and hurts your feelings, leading you to turn off your hearing aids and pull away for a moment. When his friends accidentally walk in on the situation, they completely misread it as you ignoring him or him trying to impress a random girl, until they realize theyâve interrupted a very real, very tender dispute between two people who care deeply about each other.
Warnings: set somewhere between season 4/season 5, reader's hard of hearing and wearing hearing aids, miscommunication, feelings, public awkwardness, steve's groveling at your feet, apology, comfort, fluff
Author's note: well here it is, my re-ignited love for steve harrington (that actually never went away), i saw a video on TT or Instagram which inspired this, hope you like it. divider by @cafekitsune
Please let me know if any part of this story feels inappropriate or insensitive. I want to be very clear that I do not intend to make fun of, stereotype, or hurt people who are hard of hearing or deaf. This story is written with care and respect, and Iâm always open to learning and doing better. I will take it down.
Steve Harrington had a remarkable talent for turning a movie night snack run into something that felt suspiciously like a competitive sport.
Youâd suggested the supermarket with naĂŻve optimism. âWeâll grab snacks and leave,â youâd said, as if Hawkins had ever allowed anything that simple.
Steve had nodded, smiled, then immediately seized the cart like it was trying to escape him and started pushing it with one hand, weaving through aisles like he was late for a championship lap.
âSteve,â you warned, catching a bag of chips before it could get crushed. âWe need popcorn. Soda. Candy. Normal movie things.â
âAnd inspiration,â he said gravely, pointing ahead. âBecause movie nights deserve options.â
You squinted at him. âThat sentence already worries me.â
He was gone before you could stop him.
You hurried after him, knocking the cart back into a straight line with your hip. It squealed loudly, drawing a look from an elderly woman nearby.
Steve glanced back at you, eyes bright, hair unfairly perfect for someone whoâd spent all week rewinding tapes at Family Video. âRelax. Iâve got this.â
âI trusted you once,â you said. âYou bought an entire crate of oranges because you said weâd âbalance out the candy.ââ
âWe did balance it,â he argued.
âWe ate oranges for three days,â you shot back. âI started associating vitamin C with emotional distress.â
He laughed, warm and effortless, and you had to press your lips together to keep from smiling too soon.
Steve wasnât a bad boyfriend. Actually, he was annoyingly good at it. He remembered how you liked your popcorn, extra butter, slightly burnt. He kept spare batteries for your hearing aids in his jacket like they were sacred. He always checked in, even when he pretended not to.
But when he was excited, when he felt safe, he pushed. Teased. Assumed the world would bend with him.
Which, in Hawkins, was optimistic at best.
You turned into the frozen aisle just in time to see him pull a box of waffles from the bottom shelf like heâd struck gold.
He straightened, holding them up proudly. âBoom.â
âAbsolutely not.â
You stared at him. He stared back, stubborn and smug.
And then, because Steve Harrington could not help himself, he did the thing that truly tipped you over the edge.
He reached up, gently tapped the side of your hearing aid, and said, loud enough for the freezer aisle to hear, âHey. Earth to you. Are we buying waffles or not?â
It wasnât mean. It wasnât cruel. It was teasing.
But it was also⌠a little too public. A little too casual. A little too much like heâd forgotten this wasnât a cute accessory you could switch off for fun.
Your chest went tight, not from sadness exactly, more from that sudden flare of hot irritation that makes your hands go cold.
You leaned closer, your voice perfectly sweet. âDo that again.â
Steveâs grin faltered. âDo what?â
âTouch my hearing aid in public like itâs a button you can press,â you said, still sweet, still calm. âDo it again.â
âIâokay, I didnât meanââ
You held his gaze for a beat longer, then reached up and did something he didnât expect at all.
You turned your hearing aids off.
The world didnât go silent, not completely. It never did. You still caught vibrations, faint sounds like someone moving a cart a few aisles over, the muffled hum of the freezer units. But voices blurred into distant shapes, like watching a conversation through a fogged window.
Steveâs mouth kept moving.
You pushed the cart forward.
Steveâs stomach dropped.
âNoâhey,â he said, words tumbling out faster now. He moved alongside you, hands hovering uselessly. âI was kidding, I swear, I didnât thinkââ
You didnât respond.
Not because you couldnât hear him.
Because you didnât want to yet.
Steve swallowed hard. He hated this part. Hated knowing heâd hurt you. Hated even more knowing you were pulling away, even temporarily.
He stepped in front of the cart, blocking it gently, forcing you to stop.
You looked up at him.
His face had completely changed. No teasing. No charm. Just open worry.
He signed immediately.
Iâm sorry.
You stared at him, unmoved.
He signed again, faster now, more desperate.
I wasnât thinking. I didnât mean it like that.
You crossed your arms.
Steve dragged a hand through his hair, breath uneven. People were starting to glance over. He didnât care.
Please, he signed. I know better than that.
You turned away slightly, staring at a shelf of microwave popcorn.
Steveâs chest tightened.
He followed your line of sight, then crouched down in front of you.
Actually crouched.
Right there in the snack aisle.
He signed slower now, carefully, like every movement mattered.
I never want to make you feel small.
Or different.
Or like I donât respect you.
Your jaw clenched.
Behind you, a group had just turned into the aisle.
They froze.
From where they stood, it looked bad.
Really bad.
A girl with her back half-turned, arms crossed, staring at a shelf like Steve Harrington didnât exist.
And Steve, King Steve, hovering a step behind her, hands moving in small, helpless gestures, his mouth forming words that werenât landing anywhere.
He tried to catch your eye.
Nothing.
Tried again, leaning into your line of sight.
Still nothing.
From the end of the aisle, it looked like sheâd iced him out completely.
Max winced. âOof. Sheâs done.â
Dustin leaned forward, squinting like this was a nature documentary. âIâve never seen him try this hard.â
Robin watched Steveâs face, the way his usual confidence had cracked clean through. âIs he⌠begging?â
Steve reached for you, stopped himself, then dragged a hand through his hair in a way that screamed panic. He looked smaller somehow. Less like King Steve, more like a guy whoâd said the wrong thing to the wrong girl and was paying for it in public.
Nancyâs brows knit together. âDo we know her?â
Jonathan turned his head slightly. âI think her mom works with Hopper at the police station.â
Steve noticed them then.
His heart dropped straight into his stomach.
Of course theyâd see this moment. Of course this was how theyâd finally meet the girl heâd been too scared to bring around, with him looking like an idiot and you looking like youâd rather be anywhere else.
Robin muttered, âWow. This is rough.â
Steve straightened instinctively, like he could still salvage his dignity if he tried hard enough. His eyes flicked from his friends back to you, then back again.
Too many eyes.
Too much judgment already forming.
Nancy stepped forward a little. âSteve?â
He flinched.
âHey,â he said, too fast, too loud. âUhâ hi.â
Max crossed her arms. âYou okay, Harrington?â
Steve laughed once, sharp, unconvincing. âYeah. Totally. Weâre justââ
He gestured between you and himself, searching for words that wouldnât make this worse.
âWeâre fine,â he added quickly. Then, because silence felt dangerous, because the looks on their faces were already turning skeptical, he blurted, âSheâs my girlfriend.â
The aisle froze.
Robin blinked. âYour girlfriend? This is herââ
Max raised an eyebrow. âSince when?â
Dustin tilted his head, frowning. âYou didnât say you were dating.â
Steveâs mouth opened. Closed. He nodded anyway, like commitment might make the lie real enough to stand on. âYeah. Weâve been, uh⌠together for a while.â
From where they stood, it didnât look convincing.
You still hadnât turned around.
Havenât said a word.
Hadnât even acknowledged his existence.
Robinâs lips pursed. âShe doesnât look very⌠girlfriend-y right now.â
Dustin squinted harder. âSheâs not even reacting to him.â
Max shot Steve a look. âDid you just meet her?â
âNo!â Steve said immediately. âI meanâ no, not like that.â
Robin tilted her head, studying you. âIs this one of those situations where you say âgirlfriendâ so she doesnât leave you standing alone in a grocery store?â
Steveâs face flushed with irritation at his best friend. âItâs not fake.â
But it looked fake.
A random girl heâd upset.
A desperate attempt to save face.
A label thrown out too fast, like armor.
Steve gave up on them then.
He turned back to you fully, stepping into your space with care, making sure you could see him. His hands lifted, steady despite the way his chest felt tight.
Please, he signed.
I know I screwed up.
I didnât mean to hurt you.
The group fell quiet.
Robinâs mouth fell open.
Because whatever this was, it wasnât a performance.
Steve wasnât posturing anymore. Wasnât trying to look cool. He was focused only on you, his face open, vulnerable, stripped of every defense.
You finally looked at him.
His breath caught.
You exhaled slowly, then reached up and turned your hearing aids back on.
Sound rushed back in, the hum of the lights, the soft clatter of carts, Robinâs barely contained âholy shit.â
You met Steveâs eyes, your eyes burning. âYou hurt my feelings.â
The relief that washed over his face was immediate and overwhelming and he reached out to cup your face. âI know,â he said, voice rough. âIâm so sorry.â
Behind you, the group stared.
There was a beat of silence, the kind that comes when people realize theyâve gotten something very wrong.
Robin was the first to recover, her eyes flicking between you and Steve. âOh,â she said slowly. âOkay. That explains⌠a lot.â
Maxâs posture eased, her smirk fading into something more thoughtful. âYeah,â she said. âThat tracks.â
Nancy offered you a small, apologetic smile. âIâm Nancy,â she said. âAnd Iâm sorry, we just walked in at a bad moment.â
Jonathan nodded beside her. âYeah. Bad timing.â
Dustin rubbed the back of his neck. âSo you werenât, like⌠completely ignoring him on purpose?â
You turned toward them fully now, your expression calm, open, while still holding Steveâs hand in yours. âNo,â you said gently. âHe teased me. I got annoyed. Weâre working it out.â
Steve squeezed your hand, relief written all over his face. âI deserved it,â he added quickly.
Robin snorted. âWow. Accountability. Love to see it.â
You smiled a little at that, then glanced at Steve. âSince weâre⌠accidentally all here,â you said, âwe were actually getting snacks for a movie night.â
Steve looked at you, surprised. âWe were?â
You nudged him. âYou bought three bags of marshmallows.â
âOh,â he said. âRight. Movie night.â
Robinâs eyes lit up immediately. âIs this a group movie night?â
Steve hesitated, just for a second, then looked at you, silently asking.
You nodded.
âYeah,â Steve said, a little shy but sincere. âIf you guys want to come.â
The tension finally broke.
Max smiled. âIâm in.â
Nancy nodded. âMe too.â
Dustin grinned. âAs long as thereâs popcorn.â
âThereâs plenty,â you said. âHe went overboard.â
Steve scoffed. âI was being prepared.â
Robin clapped her hands together. âWell then,â she said brightly, âIâm Robin â and Iâm really glad we finally met you.â
Steve let out a breath heâd been holding far too long, his fingers threading through yours like it was the most natural thing in the world.
And just like that, the version of the story theyâd imagined, the stranger, the fake girlfriend, the embarrassment.
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Hi I have an idea for a Rhett x reader I thought the reader grow up with the Abbott family she also works for them and Rhett is her best friend but he always had feelings for her but never said anything because he thought the reader had a crush on his brother Perry however the reader actually has feelings for Rhett but she hasnât told him because she thought he still had feelings for his ex Maria who wants Rhett back and wants them both to leave town and start fresh but he doesnât want that because he doesnât want to leave the reader but one night at the bar after his rodeo win he sees the reader and Perry and he gets the wrong idea and decides to leave town with Maria but when he was about to pack his truck the reader turns up and when she finds out what Rhett is doing they end up having an argument that leads them both to admitting their true feelings for each other
Pairing: Rhett Abbott x fem!reader
Word count: 1.2k
Summary: Rhett has always thought you had a crush on Perry, but that couldn't be further from the truth.
Warnings: misunderstanding, angst, fluff
Author's note: based on this request, hope you like it <3 i might start writing for steve harrington, because i am FERAL for that man. also!!! happy new year to all of you <3 divider by @8bbitbunni
You belonged to the Abbott ranch in the way certain places claimed you without paperwork or ceremony.
It wasnât official, not on any deed or family tree, but everyone in Wabang wouldâve told you the same thing if you asked: you were as good as Abbott. Youâd grown up with dust on your knees and sun on your shoulders, with Ceciliaâs gentle scolding when you tracked mud through her kitchen, with Royalâs gruff âyou eat yet?â that always meant I care even if heâd rather die than say it.
And with Rhett.
Rhett had been your shadow when you were kidsâtoo loud, too fearless, too full of restless energy. Heâd taught you how to whistle through your teeth to call the dogs. Heâd dared you to jump off the hayloft. Heâd stolen Ceciliaâs cookies with you and sworn it was âfor survival.â Heâd taken your hand when you fell off your bike and your palms were scraped raw, like he thought his grip could stop the sting.
As you got older, you started working for them in the way you always hadâonly now Royal actually paid you, and it came with lists and responsibilities and the kind of exhaustion that made your bones hum.
You liked it. Loved it, really. The ranch was steady when everything else in life felt like it might slip.
Rhett was steady too. Not in the way Perry was, not in the way Royal was, but in his own way: always there, always ready with a stupid comment to make you laugh, always watching you like he was quietly cataloguing all the pieces of you.
You told yourself that was just what best friends did.
You told yourself a lot of things.
Like the fact you didnât notice when Rhett started looking at you differently.
Or maybe you noticed and pretended you didnât because it was easier than facing what it might mean.
Because you had your own secret.
You were in love with him.
Not the loud kind of love you saw in movies, not the dramatic kind that came with confessions in the rain. Yours was quieter, rooted, stubborn. It lived in the way you waited for him after long days, the way your chest tightened when he left for rodeos, the way your mind kept returning to him like a magnet no matter how hard you tried to pull away.
But youâd never said it.
Because you were certain his heart still belonged to Maria.
Mariaâhis ex from high school, the one who still floated through town like she owned it. The one with the bright smile and sharp nails and a voice that carried.
Sheâd come back again recently, sweeping into Wabang like she hadnât left in the first place, and everyone had acted like it was inevitable. Like Rhett would be drawn back into her orbit because he always had been.
And Rhett⌠Rhett hadnât corrected anyone. Not out loud.
So you stayed quiet too.
The rodeo was loud that night, an arena full of people who wanted something to cheer for and didnât care what it cost. The air vibrated with music and voices, the smell of dust and sweat and beer. Rhettâs name was announced, and your heart kicked hard enough to hurt.
You stood near the fence line, close enough to see him clearly. Close enough to watch him roll his shoulders, adjust his glove, and tilt his head like he was listening to something only he could hear. The focused Rhett was different from the one who teased you in the barnâsharper, quieter, like he carried a storm inside him and had learned how to ride it.
He looked up once, eyes sweeping the crowd.
You lifted your hand without thinking.
For a moment, you were sure he saw you. Sure his gaze snagged and softened.
Then Perry stepped in beside you, bumping your shoulder with his. âYou look like youâre about to throw up,â he said, dry as dust.
You shot him a glare. âIâm not.â
âYou always do this,â Perry said. âHeâs fine.â
âHeâs on a bull,â you hissed. âHe could die.â
Perry snorted. âHe wonât. Heâs too stubborn to die.â
He said it like it was a joke, but you knew it was also true. Rhett Abbott didnât do anything halfway. Not riding. Not loving. Not hurting.
The gate opened. The bull exploded out like a cannon.
Rhett moved with it, rope tight, knees gripping, body snapping with the animalâs rhythm. Eight seconds stretched into eternity. You forgot to breathe, forgot the crowd, forgot the entire world except for Rhett in the chute, fighting gravity like it was personal.
When the buzzer finally rang and he dismounted clean, landing hard but upright, the crowd roared. Rhett threw one fist into the air, chest heaving.
You let out a breath you didnât realize youâd been holding, your hands shaking as you clapped.
Perry leaned toward you. âTold you.â
You laughed shakily. âShut up.â
Rhett looked up again, sweeping the crowd.
This time, his gaze found you.
You knew because his expression shifted; subtle, but you knew him too well not to catch it. The hard edge melted into something softer. Something private.
He grinned.
And for a second, in the roar of the arena, you let yourself believe.
Maybe tonight youâd finally tell him.
Maybe tonight youâd finallyâ
âCome on,â Perry said, hooking an arm around your shoulders. âLetâs go before the bar gets too crowded.â
You blinked, pulled out of your thoughts. âYeah. Okay.â
Perryâs arm stayed around you as you walked, steering you through the crowd like the protective older-brother figure heâd always been. You didnât think anything of it.
You didnât see Rhettâs smile fade when he caught sight of it.
You didnât see the way his jaw tightened, the way his eyes darkened.
You didnât see him look away like something had been carved out of his chest.
The bar in town was packed by the time you got there. It always was after a rodeo win. Everyone wanted to drink to someone elseâs bravery.
You stepped inside, cheeks still warm from the cold outside and the lingering adrenaline. The music was too loud, the lights too bright, the air thick with bodies.
Rhett was already there.
He stood near the bar, still in his rodeo jacket, hair a mess in that infuriating way that made him look like trouble. People clapped him on the back, shoved drinks into his hands. He smiled at them, laughed at their jokes.
But he didnât look fully present.
His eyes kept flicking to the door.
Like he was waiting.
When he spotted you, his posture changed; subtle, but you felt it like a tug on a string tied around your ribs. His gaze pinned you, intense enough to make your breath hitch.
You took one step forwardâ
And then Maria appeared.
She slid into his space like sheâd been invited. Like she belonged there. Her hand landed on his arm, fingers curling possessively, and she leaned in to say something in his ear.
Rhettâs smile faltered. He angled away slightly, like he didnât want the contact.
But Maria didnât care.
She laughed loud, bright, and dramatic, then lifted a drink to his mouth like she was feeding him.
You stopped.
Something sour twisted in your stomach.
Perry, oblivious, leaned in and said something to you about the pool table, about who owed who money. You didnât hear him. You couldnât stop watching Rhett and Maria.
Because Maria wasnât just talking.
She was staking claim.
And Rhett⌠Rhett looked tense. Trapped, almost.
His eyes flicked toward you again. For a split second, something like relief flashed across his face.
Then he looked at Perryâs hand on your elbow, guiding you through the crowd, and the relief crumpled into something else.
Something sharp.
Your heart stuttered.
Rhett set his drink down. His shoulders tightened. He said something to Maria you couldnât hear. Maria rolled her eyes, lips curling into a smile that made your skin crawl.
She glanced toward you.
And then, like sheâd been waiting for the exact moment your eyes met, Maria reached up, grabbed Rhett by the collar, and kissed him.
It wasnât gentle.
It was deliberate.
Possessive.
A performance.
Your lungs seized.
Rhettâs body went rigid. You saw his hands lift, hoveringâthen press against Mariaâs shoulders as if to push her away.
But you didnât stay long enough to see him do it.
The sight of her mouth on his, of the thing youâd been terrified was true, hit you like a wave.
You turned and walked out.
You barely registered Perry calling your name behind you. You didnât stop.
If you stayed one second longer, youâd break right there in the doorway with everyone watching.
So you ran.
Rhett shoved Maria away hard enough that she stumbled.
âWhat the hell is wrong with you?â he snapped, wiping his mouth like the kiss had burned.
Mariaâs smile didnât falter. âRelax. Itâs a celebration.â
âI told you no,â he said, voice low and dangerous.
âYouâve told me a lot of things,â she purred. âAnd yet, here we are.â
Rhettâs gaze jerked to the door.
Too late.
You were gone.
His stomach dropped so hard he thought he might throw up.
âNo,â he breathed, and then he was moving, pushing through the crowd, through the doors, out into the cold night.
But your truck was already pulling away, red taillights disappearing down the road.
Rhett stood there, frozen in the parking lot, breath steaming in the air.
His chest felt split open.
Because the one person heâd been waiting for all night, the one person heâd wanted to see, had left thinking the worst.
And maybe the worst was true, in a way.
Not that he wanted Maria.
But that heâd waited too long.
That heâd let fear and assumptions rot in silence until it poisoned everything.
Rhett turned back toward the bar, numb.
Maria was by the door, watching him with satisfaction. âShe saw,â she said softly.
Rhettâs eyes flashed. âYeah. Thanks for that.â
Maria shrugged. âYouâre welcome. Now you can stop pretending you belong here.â
âI do belong here,â Rhett said, voice flat.
Maria stepped closer, lowering her voice like she was sharing a secret. âNo, you donât. Youâre not your father. Youâre not Perry. Youâre not meant to rot in this town. You were meant for more. And you know it.â
Rhettâs hands clenched into fists. âYou donât know a damn thing about what Iâm meant for.â
Mariaâs gaze sharpened. âThen prove it,â she said. âCome with me. Tonight. Weâll leave. Start fresh. You and me like it shouldâve been.â
Rhett looked past her, past the bar, past the noise.
His mind was a whirlwind.
He saw you leaving.
He saw Perryâs arm around you.
He saw the way you didnât look back.
And the old, familiar ache of being second-bestâof being the younger brother, the one who didnât get chosenârose up and swallowed him whole.
If you wanted Perry⌠if youâd always wanted PerryâŚ
Then what was he even doing here?
What was he doing staying, wanting, hoping for something that was never his?
Rhett swallowed hard.
âFine,â he said, the word tasting like ash. âFine. Iâll go.â
Mariaâs smile widened, triumphant. âGood.â
Rhett didnât look at her.
He walked out into the night and drove home with his hands locked tight on the steering wheel, like if he loosened his grip, he might fall apart.
He was halfway through throwing clothes into a duffel bag when he heard footsteps outside.
He froze, bag half-zipped, chest pounding.
The house was quiet, Royal and Cecilia asleep, Perry still out. The only sound was the wind brushing against the windows.
Then came a knock.
Not on the front door.
On the barn.
Rhettâs breath caught.
He stepped outside, duffel in hand, and crossed the yard toward the barn. Moonlight washed everything silver and cold.
The barn door creaked open.
You stood there.
Hair slightly windblown. Eyes bright with something sharp and hurt. You looked like youâd driven straight here without thinking, like your emotions had grabbed the wheel.
Rhettâs entire body went still.
âY/N?â he rasped.
You glanced past him toward the truck. The duffel in his hand.
Your expression tightened. âWhat are you doing?â
Rhett swallowed. âIâmââ
âPacking?â you said, voice rising. âYouâre packing your truck.â
He didnât answer fast enough.
Your throat bobbed as you swallowed hard. âSo thatâs it? Maria kisses you and suddenly youâre leaving town like... like none of this matters?â
Rhett flinched. âItâs not like that.â
âThen what is it like?â you demanded, stepping closer. âBecause from where I stood, Rhett, it looked like she still has you. It looked like youâve been waiting for her to come back so you could run off together.â
âThatâs not what happened,â Rhett snapped, frustration cracking through. âYou donât know what happened.â
âI saw it,â you shot back. âI saw her kiss you.â
âShe kissed me,â Rhett said, voice sharp. âI didnât kiss her back.â
You blinked, thrown for a second, then your hurt surged again. âAnd youâre still leaving.â
Rhettâs jaw clenched. âBecause you left.â
âWhat?â Your voice shook.
Rhett exhaled hard, like the truth was being dragged out of him against his will. âI saw you with Perry.â
Your brows furrowed, taken aback. âPerry?â
âAt the rodeo,â Rhett said, eyes dark. âAt the bar. He had his arm around you. His hand on you. You lookedââ His voice broke, spitting out the word like it tasted bitter on his tongue. âYou looked happy.â
You stared at him like heâd grown another head. âRhett, heâs like my brother.â
Rhettâs face twitched. âYeah? Well, it didnât look like that from where I was standing.â
You let out a short, disbelieving laugh. âSo you decided Iâm in love with Perry, and your solution is to leave town with Maria?â
Rhettâs nostrils flared. âI didnât have a solution.â
âYou had a tantrum,â you said, anger cutting through the hurt now, your voice raising a tad. âYou assumed the worst about me without even asking.â
Rhettâs eyes flashed. âAnd you didnât?â
Your mouth opened, then closed.
Because you had.
You had seen Maria kiss him and assumed the worst. Assumed he wanted it. Assumed youâd been a fool for thinking there was anything between you.
"Rhettâ" you wanted to scream, scream that you couldn't look at that scene, that kiss, that it physically hurt you just to look at itâthem.
Rhett stepped closer, his voice dropping, rougher now. âI'm not leaving because I want Maria,â he said. âIâm leaving because I donât know how to stand here and watch you choose someone else.â
Your breath hitched. âChooseââ
Rhettâs hands trembled around the duffel. âIâve been in love with you since we were kids,â he blurted, and the words hung in the air like thunder. âAnd I never said anything because I thought you had eyes for my brother.â
Silence crashed down.
Your heartbeat roared in your ears.
Rhett looked at you like he was terrifiedâterrified heâd said too much, terrified heâd ruined everything, terrified youâd laugh.
But you didnât laugh.
You stared at him, stunned, tears prickling at the corners of your eyes.
âYouâŚâ you whispered, a tear running down your face. âYou love me?â
Rhett swallowed. âYeah. I do.â
Your chest ached. âRhett⌠why didnât you ever tell me?â
He let out a broken laugh. âI just did.â
Your breath shook as you stepped closer, close enough that you could see the little crack in his composure, the vulnerability he usually buried under sarcasm and swagger.
âI didnât tell you,â you admitted softly, âbecause I thought you still loved Maria.â
Rhettâs eyes widened. âWhat?â
You wiped at your cheek with the back of your hand, annoyed at the tears. âSheâs always around you. Always looking at you like she has a claim. And you neverââ Your voice cracked. âYou never said you didnât.â
Rhettâs expression shifted; pain, then something like realization. âI didnât say anything because I didnât want to talk about her,â he said. âBecause she doesnât matter anymore.â
You stared. âShe doesnât?â
Rhett shook his head fiercely. âNo. Not compared to you. Not even close.â
The air between you changed.
Like something that had been locked tight for years finally cracked open and let light in.
You took another step. Rhett dropped the duffel bag, forgotten, and it hit the dirt with a dull thud.
His hands lifted slowly, like he wasnât sure he was allowed to touch you.
You reached him first.
You grabbed the collar of his jacket and pulled him down into a kiss.
Rhett froze for half a second, surprise, disbelief, then he kissed you back like heâd been starving. Like every missed chance and unsaid word had been building to this.
His hands found your waist, pulling you in. Your fingers threaded into his hair. The kiss tasted like relief and longing and finally.
When you broke apart, both of you breathing hard, Rhettâs forehead rested against yours.
âDonât go,â you whispered.
Rhett let out a shaky laugh. âWasnât gonna,â he murmured. âNot anymore.â
You smiled through your tears. âGood.â
His voice went soft. âYou mean it? About⌠feelinâ something for me?â
You nodded, throat tight. âIâve meant it my whole life, I love you.â
Rhett closed his eyes like the words physically hit him. Then he exhaled, slow and unsteady, and pulled you into his chest.
âYouâre stayinâ too,â he murmured into your hair, half question, half plea.
You wrapped your arms around him. âIâve always stayed,â you whispered back. âYou just finally noticed.â
Rhett laughed softly, a sound that trembled with relief. He tilted your chin up and kissed you again, gentler this time, reverent.
âYeah,â he murmured against your lips. âI finally did.â
Behind you, his truck sat ready to leave, duffel bag half-packed, the road waiting.
Summary: you think Rhett finally sees you, but what you don't know is that he has always been looking.
Warnings: none
Author's note: cutesy lil christmas story, happy holidays everyone <3 divider by @cursed-carmine
The Wabang Christmas market was the kind of tradition that refused to die.
Every year the same string lights got dragged out of storage, every year the same booth owners showed up with their hand-knit scarves and cinnamon ornaments and âartisanâ candles that smelled like some combination of pine and regret. Every year kids ran around with sticky fingers from caramel apples, and every year the town tried to pretend it wasnât small by making the night feel bigger than it was.
Rhett Abbott had been coming since he was a kid. Back when his mom would bundle him in a coat he hated and drag him through the square while Perry complained and Royal pretended he wasnât enjoying it. Rhett remembered hating the cold, loving the lights, and learning early that if you complained loudly enough, Cecilia would buy you hot cocoa just to shut you up.
Now, older and supposedly tougher, he stood at the edge of the crowd with a paper cup of cider warming his hands and told himself he was only here because his mom wouldâve guilted him into it anyway.
Perry had ditched him within ten minutes, something about seeing a friend near the raffle booth, leaving Rhett half-watching the stage where the high school choir was doing their best impression of angels and half-scanning the crowd without meaning to.
Except he was meaning to.
He kept looking for you.
He hadnât said it out loud to anyone, would rather chew nails than admit it, but heâd been waiting all week for this stupid town party because youâd texted him that you were coming.
Donât laugh. Iâm actually dressing up.
Heâd stared at that message for a full minute, thumb hovering over his keyboard like a teenager.
Why?
And then heâd deleted it before he could send it. Because if you answered honestly, he wasnât sure he could handle it.
If you answered for fun, heâd feel stupid for reading into it.
If you answered for someone, heâd feel⌠worse.
So heâd just typed:
Yeah? Canât wait to see that.
Which sounded casual enough. Normal. Friend-ish.
Except it wasnât friend-ish at all, not in his head. In his head, it was a promise. A quiet anticipation. A spotlight he couldnât stop turning toward you.
Rhett took a sip of cider and tried not to think about the fact heâd checked the clock at least five times since arriving.
The choir hit a high note. Someone cheered. The lights above the square flickered in the breeze.
And thenâ
He saw you.
Rhettâs brain did this weird, stuttering thing. Like someone had pulled the reins too fast on a galloping horse.
You were walking into the square from the street, and it took him a second to connect the image in front of him to the you he knew.
Not because you didnât look like yourself, your smile was still yours, your posture familiar, the way you scanned the crowd like you were looking for someone.
But you were⌠different tonight.
Your hair was done, not in the messy ranch way that usually ended up with a pencil stuck through it. Your coat was fitted, cinched at the waist, making you look⌠damn it, making you look like something Rhett suddenly didnât have language for. Youâd picked earrings that caught the light when you moved. Your lips were glossy, cheeks warm from the cold.
And then you looked up, and the string lights reflected in your eyes like stars.
Rhett forgot how to breathe.
Heâd always known you were pretty. Hell, heâd always known you were beautiful. Even in work clothes, even with dirt under your nails, even when you were yelling at him for being an idiot.
But tonight it hit him differently. Not as a fact heâd always carried, but like a punch to the chest.
Like his brain had finally decided to stop calling you his best friend first and start calling you something else.
Something dangerous.
Someone said his name behind him, but he didnât turn.
His eyes stayed locked on you like if he looked away youâd disappear.
Then someone stepped into your path.
George Timberson.
Rhettâs jaw tightened so fast it nearly ached.
George was the kind of guy who flirted as a hobby, easy smile, loud voice, too much confidence for someone who had never been punched in the face. He worked on his uncleâs farm outside town, had a habit of showing up wherever the pretty girls were, and always acted surprised when he got shut down.
Rhett watched George lean toward you, saying something with a grin.
You laughed politely, shifting your weight the way you did when you were being nice but not interested.
Except Rhett didnât like it.
He didnât like George standing too close. Didnât like the way Georgeâs gaze slid over you like you were something he could win. Didnât like the way your smile, your smile, was being used for someone elseâs ego.
His fingers tightened around his cup.
Perry reappeared at his side, following his line of sight. âOh,â Perry said, like heâd just stumbled on something obvious. âThere she is.â
âAm not,â Rhett muttered, even though he definitely was.
Perry snorted. âYou look like you just saw the Virgin Mary.â
Rhett shifted, glare sharp. âShut up.â
Perry leaned closer, voice dropping. âYou gonna go say hi or you gonna stand here sulking while Timberson makes a fool of himself?â
Rhett bristled. âIâm not sulkin'.â
Perry lifted a brow. âRhett. Youâre gripping that cup like it owes you money.â
Rhett took a slow breath through his nose, trying to calm the sudden heat in his chest. He didnât have the right to feel this way. You werenât his. Youâd never been his. You were your own person, and heâd neverâ
George laughed at something and stepped closer, and you instinctively leaned back a fraction.
Rhettâs body moved before his brain caught up.
He set his cider down too hard on a nearby table, the liquid sloshing near the rim, and started walking.
Perry followed two steps behind, clearly amused and not even pretending to hide it.
As Rhett approached, you spotted him. Your face lit up in a way that made something in his chest soften and tighten at the same time.
You said his name, and it sounded like relief.
âRhett!â
George turned too, grin faltering for half a second. âOh hey, man,â he said, like he was suddenly remembering Rhett existed.
Rhett didnât spare him more than a brief glance. âGeorge.â
Your cheeks were pink from the cold. From the lights. From something else. You held a small paper bag in one hand, probably cookies or fudge from one of the booths.
âYouâre here,â you said, eyes bright.
âYeah,â Rhett replied, voice rougher than he intended. He cleared his throat. âWouldnât miss it.â
George chuckled. âI was just telling her about the tree lighting later. Thought Iâd show her around.â
Rhettâs mouth curved, but it wasnât friendly. âDidnât know you were running tours now.â
George blinked, a little thrown. âJust being nice.â
Rhettâs gaze flicked to you, then back to George. âShe doesnât need a tour.â
Perryâs shoulders shook like he was holding back laughter.
You gave Rhett a look, half amused, half cautioning.
George shifted, suddenly aware he wasnât welcome. âWell, I mean⌠I can leave you two to catch up,â he said, smile strained.
You nodded politely. âThanks, George.â
George gave you a lingering glance before stepping away, hands up like he was backing out of a situation he didnât understand.
The moment he was gone, you turned fully to Rhett, brows lifting. âWhat was that?â
Rhett looked at you for a long second, then exhaled. âI donât like him.â
You blinked. âSince when?â
Rhettâs eyes dipped briefly to your lips, so quick you mightâve missed it, then back up. âSince now.â
The words hung in the cold air.
Your expression softened, something warm flickering behind your eyes. âAre you⌠jealous?â
Rhett scoffed, but it sounded weak. âNo.â
You tilted your head. âThat sounded like a âyes.ââ
He huffed a laugh, dragging a hand over the back of his neck. âMaybe I just donât like seein' him crowd you.â
You stepped closer, voice lowering. âHe wasnât bothering me. I can handle George.â
âI know you can,â Rhett said immediately. âThat ainât the point.â
You watched him carefully, like you were reading something in his face that he hadnât admitted yet.
Rhett swallowed. His pulse was loud in his ears. The lights above you made your hair glow. Your earrings shimmered when you moved. You smelled like something warm, vanilla? cinnamon?, and it made him feel stupidly dizzy.
âWhyâre you dressed up?â he asked softly, as if the answer might undo him.
Your breath caught, just slightly. You glanced away for a second, then back to him.
âFor the party,â you said, but the words sounded practiced.
Rhett held your gaze. âFor the party,â he repeated, slow. âOr for someone.â
Your cheeks warmed, and Rhett felt a jolt of something sharp and hopeful.
âFor someone,â you admitted quietly.
His chest tightened. âYeah?â
You nodded, fingers tightening around your paper bag. âYeah.â
Rhettâs voice dropped, barely more than a breath. âWho?â
You looked at him like the answer was obvious. Like youâd been waiting for him to ask.
âFor you, Rhett.â
The world went quiet in a way that made his ears ring.
He stared at you, frozen, like his body didnât believe his mind. His throat bobbed when he swallowed.
âYou⌠you did all this for me?â he asked, voice unsteady.
You shrugged like it wasnât a big deal, but your eyes were too bright. âI wanted you to see me.â
Rhettâs heart thudded so hard it hurt.
He had seen you. A thousand times. In a hundred different lights. Heâd seen you muddy and smiling, tired and laughing, furious and fierce.
But tonightâŚ
Tonight he saw you and realized heâd been blind. Or cowardly. Or both.
Because he didnât just want to be your best friend.
He wanted to be the reason you dressed up. The reason you smiled like that. The reason you looked for someone in a crowd.
Rhett took a slow step closer, voice low. âDarlinâ⌠Iâm lookinâ.â
Your breath hitched.
âIâm lookinâ real hard,â he added, eyes flicking down to your mouth again. âAnd I donât think Iâm gonna be able to stop.â
Your cheeks flushed darker. âRhettâŚâ
He reached out, hesitated, then gently brushed his knuckles along the sleeve of your coat. A small touch, but it felt like lightning anyway.
âYou lookâŚâ He exhaled, frustration in the sound, because he couldnât find a word that did you justice. âYou look beautiful.â
Your lips parted, and for a second you looked almost shy. âYou really think so?â
Rhettâs expression softened. âI know so.â
The music swelled again. Somewhere behind you, people started counting down for the tree lighting.
Ten⌠nineâŚ
Rhett didnât move his eyes from you.
âEight⌠sevenâŚâ
You shifted closer, your shoulder brushing his chest.
âSix⌠fiveâŚâ
Rhettâs hand lifted, hovering near your waist like he wasnât sure he was allowed.
âFour⌠threeâŚâ
You looked up at him, eyes shining with lights and hope.
âTwoâŚâ
Rhett leaned in slightly, voice rough and honest. âI donât like anyone lookinâ at you like they can have you.â
âOneâ!â
The townâs Christmas tree exploded into light, the crowd cheering, the square glowing bright as day.
And in that moment, under the lights, with your face tilted up toward his and your lips finally touching his, Rhett realized there was no going back.
Not after seeing you like this.
Not after feeling this.
Not after knowing youâd done it for him.
He swallowed hard, heart pounding, and finally let the words slip outâquiet, almost desperate.
âI think Iâm in trouble.â
You smiled softly. âGood,â you whispered. âMe too.â
Summary: You and Rhett have known each other since childhood, your bond unbreakable, each secretly harboring feelings for the otherâyet both convinced you were in love with someone else, worse, his brother.
Warnings: none, misunderstanding, angst, fluff
Authorâs note: based on a request i got a few weeks ago, hope you like it. divider by @uzmacchiato
Youâd grown up around the Abbotts like they were family, more than family, really. The kind of childhood where you ran barefoot through the pastures, chasing horses and laughter, learning the rhythm of their lives until it became your own. And through all of it, Rhett Abbott had always been there: your partner in mischief, your rock, your best friend.
The thing about Rhett was that he didnât need to say much. A look from him, a hand on your shoulder, a brush of his arm, it was enough. Heâd always been steady, dependable, constant. But somewhere along the line, that steadiness had rooted itself in your heart as something more. Something you hadnât dared to name.
And neither had he.
Heâd kept his feelings buried because he was convinced youâd never see him that way. Youâd spent your teenage years laughing at Perryâs jokes, lingering a little too long when he was around, and Rhett, ever observant, ever silent, assumed you had a crush on his older brother. A crush that had probably never wavered.
Meanwhile, youâd been crushing on Rhett for years, convinced he still had feelings for Maria, the ex heâd never quite let go of. She was back in town, gorgeous and calculating, already spinning a plan for the two of you to leave Wabang and start fresh somewhere far away. But he hadnât said yes. Youâd convinced yourself it was because of Maria, that she was holding some invisible claim over him, that you werenât enough.
The rodeo had been one of his biggest wins in years, and the bar was packed that night, a sea of congratulatory faces and beer bottles clinking in celebration. Youâd gone, as always, to be near him, to cheer him on, to feel the surge of pride that came from watching Rhett succeed.
But then he saw you.
You were laughing at something Perry said, leaning toward him, hand brushing his arm in that careless, intimate way that made Rhettâs chest tighten like heâd been punched.
He froze, vision narrowing. His stomach dropped. That moment was all it took for him to convince himself he was too late. You werenât looking at him the way heâd been secretly hoping. You were looking at Perry. You were falling for Perry.
And then Maria sidled up beside him, smooth and expectant, and everything snapped.
âRhett?â she murmured, hand grazing his arm. âWe could leave tonight. Just pack up and go. Anywhere. Start over.â
His jaw tightened, his eyes catching yours across the room for just a second. That moment held a thousand thoughts, a thousand fears, but none of them stopped the decision forming in his chest.
âIâll go,â he said quietly, almost to himself, almost like he was trying to convince himself it was right.
By the time he got home, the air had grown cold, the stars low and distant over Wabang. Maria was waiting with a grin that didnât reach her eyes, bags already packed in her truck.
âAre you sure?â she asked, tilting her head.
He didnât answer. He slammed the door to his house, grabbed his duffel, and threw it in the bed of his truck. The engines roared to life, tires crunching against the gravel driveway. He was ready.
Until he heard your voice.
âRhett! Wait!â
He turned, startled, and there you were, hair pulled back, boots muddied from the dirt road, eyes wide and furious, chest rising and falling like youâd run all the way from town.
âWhat⌠what are you doing?â you demanded, voice cracking, the words sharp with panic and hurt.
He swallowed hard. âMaria⌠weâre leaving.â
âLeaving?â Your jaw dropped. âLeaving? Tonight? What the hell are you thinking?â
âIâm done waiting,â he snapped, tension coiling tight in his shoulders. âI canât⌠I canât watch you laugh at Perry anymore.â
Your face fell, a mixture of shock and disbelief. âLaugh at Perry? Rhett, what are you talking about?â
âI saw you,â he said, voice raw. âAt the bar. Laughing at him. Leaning into him. Touching him. Youâre⌠youâre⌠I canâtâ I canât keep pretending.â
The blood drained from your face. You had to fight to keep your voice steady. âRhett Abbott, you think Iâve been laughing at Perry? With him? You really think that? Do you even know me?â
He froze, because in that moment, he realized just how wrong heâd been. But the words wouldnât come, the weight of Maria beside him a silent challenge.
âI⌠I thoughtââ he began, but you cut him off.
âYou thought wrong!â you snapped, voice trembling with emotion you could no longer hide. âI care about you, Rhett! I always have!â
He blinked. âYou⌠what?â
âI care about you!â you repeated, louder this time, every word tearing at your chest. âI thought you cared about Maria, that you were still hung up on her, and Iââ
âYou thought wrong too,â he interrupted, suddenly stepping closer, eyes dark, earnest, and full of a kind of intensity youâd never seen. âIâve never stopped caring about you. Not for a second. And you think Iâd leave you for her? You think Iâd go anywhere if it meant leaving you behind?â
The space between you crackled, heavy with everything that had been buried for years. Your chest ached, your hands trembled, and before you could think it through, you grabbed the front of his shirt, pulling him toward you.
And then he kissed you.
It wasnât gentle. It wasnât polite. It was desperate, messy, urgent, every fear, every longing, every day spent wondering what if, all poured into that one moment. You clung to him, and he held you just as tightly, letting you anchor him, letting the world fall away until there was nothing but the two of you in the quiet of the night.
When you finally pulled apart, foreheads resting together, breaths coming in jagged gasps, he whispered, âI thought Iâd lost you.â
âYou never will,â you said, voice breaking, tears spilling down your cheeks. âIâm not going anywhere. Not without you.â
Rhett chuckled softly, brushing a thumb along your jaw, swiping away a stray tear. âGood,â he murmured. ââCause I ainât lettinâ go of you either.â
Mariaâs face fell, reality settling over her like a cold shadow. Rhett stepped between her and you, protective and unwavering. âWeâre staying,â he said firmly. âYou can leave, or you can watch us finally figure out what weâve been denying for years.â
She huffed and turned on her heel, the sound of her boots retreating down the driveway echoing in the quiet night.
Rhett pulled you closer again, forehead resting against yours. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted to do that,â he admitted softly. âTo tell you. Toââ
âTo kiss you?â you whispered, smile breaking through the tears.
He laughed, low and raw. âYeah. That too.â
The two of you stood there in the driveway under the stars, bodies pressed together, hearts pounding in the same rhythm youâd always shared â the rhythm of swans circling, finding each other, belonging.
And in that moment, you both knew: nothing could take this away. Not Maria, not mistakes, not the fear of losing each other. You were home. With each other. And finally, finally, you didnât have to hide anything.
Because sometimes, the heart knows what the mind refuses to see and sometimes, love waits quietly, patient and enduring, until the moment you finally give in.
Summary: Rhett loves youâdeeply, recklessly, with a fire he canât hide. The only problem? You have a boyfriend⌠or do you?
Warnings: jealousy, fluff
Authorâs note: i saw this gif and my mind went brrr. divider by @olenvasynyt
You and Rhett Abbott had always been the kind of friends people envied. The kind of friendship that didnât need words. One glance, one sigh, one raised eyebrow, and the other knew exactly what you meant. You shared inside jokes that no one else understood, spent weekends doing nothing and everything at once, and somehow always ended up side by side, laughing at the same ridiculous things.
Everyone assumed there was something more under the surface, of course. They saw the way Rhettâs eyes lingered on you a moment too long, or the way your smile softened whenever he walked into the room. But you and Rhett had never let the rumors touch you.
Friends first. Always.
Until now.
The shift had been slow, creeping, almost invisible. At least to him. But you had felt it. The way Rhett had been pulling away without realizing it, becoming quieter, more guarded. How his messages had changed from teasing paragraphs to short, clipped replies. How he avoided catching your gaze for too long. Youâd assumed he was stressed, or exhausted from training, or fighting with Perry again.
But then the comments started.
Little things. Halfâmuttered, halfâjoking.
âBet Max hates that youâre here with me again.â
âYour boyfriend probably thinks weâre married or something.â
âCareful, donât want Max thinking Iâm stealing you.â
Youâd laughed each time, trying to brush it off. But inside, your stomach twisted, because every one of those comments dug into the secret you still hadnât told him.
Max wasnât your boyfriend.
Not anymore.
It had started weeks ago, when Max had finally crossed the line one too many times. Max had always been⌠jealous. About everything. Your laugh, your text messages, your family, your friends. And Rhett. Oh, Rhett. He had become the target of Maxâs paranoia almost immediately.
âYou spend too much time with Rhett,â Max had hissed, glaring at you across the dinner table one night. âDo you even realize how close you two are?â
You had tried to reassure him, to explain that Rhett was family to you, just not in the way Max feared. But Max hadnât listened. Heâd gotten angrier, controlling, almost possessive. And youâd had enough.
Breaking up with Max had been terrifying. Not because you didnât care about him at some point, but because you knew it would hurt, and also because there was an unspoken truth youâd never dared to confront. A truth that had always hovered between you and Rhett like a ghost.
Your heart had never really been free with Max.
Because it had always, always belonged to someone else.
Every laugh with Rhett had felt bittersweet.
Every lingering glance had felt like a silent confession.
Being with Max had felt wrong. Being without Rhett had felt impossible.
So you ended it. And the relief had been immediate, but telling Rhett? That had felt too loud, too dangerous, too close to a line you werenât sure he wanted you to cross.
But things had worsened over the past week. Rhett had been restless, distant, almost short-tempered. Heâd barely looked at you during lunch, barely said two words when you sat beside him after school. The tension was suffocating, a pressure between your ribs that grew heavier every hour.
And today, it finally broke.
You found him leaning against the fence behind the school, jaw clenched, arms crossed tight across his chest. He didnât look at you when you approached. Didnât smile. Didnât say your name in that soft, teasing drawl you were addicted to.
You felt the distance immediately, sharp, cold, wrong.
âRhett?â you asked softly.
He swallowed, but didnât look at you. âWe need to talk.â
Your stomach dropped. Nothing good started with those words.
âOkay,â you whispered.
He let out a humorless breath. âIâve been tryinâ not to say it. God knows Iâve been tryinâ to keep my mouth shut, but I canât⌠not anymore.â
The wind tugged at his hair, and you saw his throat bob, saw the tension in his shoulders. He looked like someone bracing to be hit.
âRhett⌠whatâs going on?â
He finally met your eyes and the pain there nearly knocked the breath out of you. âI know you have a boyfriendââ
His voice cracked.
Actually cracked.
Not with anger.
With hurt.
Hurt you hadnât seen because heâd been hiding it behind jokes.
Hurt you had unknowingly caused.
âI know you have a boyfriend,â he repeated, quieter now, almost defeated. âAnd I know I donât⌠have any right to be bothered by that. But I am. I canâtââ He broke off, shaking his head. âI canât keep pretendinâ it donât get to me.â
Your heart stopped. Completely.
âRhett,â you breathed. âI donât.â
He froze. Blinked. Actually took a halfâstep back, as if youâd hit him with something physical.
âWhat?â he whispered.
You took a careful step toward him. âI donât have a boyfriend.â
He stared at you, eyes wide, breath uneven. âNo⌠youâ Max? I thoughtâeveryone thoughtâŚâ His voice cracked again. âYou canât just say that. Thatâs notââ
âRhett.â You said his name gently, grounding him. âMax and I broke up. Weeks ago.â
His chest rose sharply. He looked like he couldnât decide whether to breathe or not.
âWhat?â he repeated, softer, almost afraid to believe you.
âHe couldnât handle how close we were,â you said, voice thick. âAnd I realized⌠I couldnât either. Not if it meant losing you. Even a little.â
Rhettâs entire expression changed. His jaw slackened, his eyes widened, and something raw and desperate flickered across his face.
âYou⌠you broke up with him⌠because of me?â His voice was small. Vulnerable in a way youâd never heard before.
âNot exactly,â you whispered. âI broke up because I couldnât be with someone who hated the person I care about most. And that person is⌠you.â
Silence.
Long, heavy, breathless silence.
Rhettâs chest trembled with the inhale heâd been holding. His eyes searched yours like he didnât trust what he heard, what he saw, what he felt.
âYouâŚâ His voice cracked again. âYou care about me?â
âI do,â you said, stepping closer, close enough to feel the heat radiating off him. âI always have.â
Rhettâs chest tightened. He took another step, just enough to close the small distance between you. âIâI thought I lost you,â he whispered. âI thought⌠Max had you.â
You shook your head, letting your hand brush against his. âYou didnât lose me. Not then, not now. Not ever.â
His breath hitched, and you could feel him trembling slightly under your touch. His hands twitched, as if wanting to grab you but afraid you might pull away.
âI⌠I canât⌠I donât know what to do,â he confessed, voice low and urgent. âI thought⌠I thought you were gone, and I couldnât⌠I couldnât handle it.â
The air between you was charged, almost electric. Your pulse raced as you studied his face, the vulnerability, the longing, the raw intensity in his eyes. You could feel it, this pull, this undeniable connection that had been there all along, but that Max had tried to smother.
You reached up, cupping his cheek with one hand, your thumb brushing lightly over his jaw. âRhett⌠Iâm right here. Youâre not losing me. Not now. Not ever.â
Something broke inside him, and he leaned forward instinctively, closing the last fraction of distance between you. His lips pressed against yours, not gently, not cautiously, but with the force of everything he hadnât said for weeks, months, years.
At first, it was soft, testing the waters. But when you pressed back, deepening the kiss, pouring every ounce of longing, frustration, and relief into it, Rhett froze completely.
His body stiffened, eyes wide, as if the intensity of the kiss had stopped him in his tracks. He wasnât resisting, not at all. He was just⌠frozen, overwhelmed by the heat and the emotion of the moment. Every rational thought seemed to vanish, leaving only the raw, undeniable truth of what he felt for you.
You pulled back slightly, enough to look him in the eyes, your forehead resting against his. His chest rose and fell rapidly, hands trembling slightly at his sides. âWow,â he breathed, voice rough, almost broken. âI didnât⌠I didnât knowâŚâ
âYou do now,â you whispered, tracing the line of his jaw with your thumb. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere.â
He finally let his hands slide to your waist, holding you close but still frozen, still trying to comprehend that this, this moment, this feeling, this heat, was real. His lips twitched, almost a smile, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. Not yet.
âIâve been so stupid,â he admitted, voice low, âthinking I had time⌠thinking you were⌠someone elseâs.â
You chuckled softly, shaking your head, brushing your lips against his temple. âYou never had to think that. Iâm always going to be yours. You just⌠didnât see it yet.â
Rhettâs hands tightened slightly around you, as if holding you close might anchor him to reality. His forehead rested against yours, breaths mingling, hearts racing in tandem. âI⌠I canât believe I thought Iâd lost you,â he said again, voice rough with emotion. âI canât⌠I canât let you go ever again.â
You smiled softly, letting your hands move to cup his face fully. âYou wonât. Not ever.â
And then, almost reflexively, Rhett leaned down again, pressing his lips to yours in a kiss that was fire and ice all at once. The kind of kiss that made your knees weak, your chest tight, your brain scream in every possible way. The kiss was desperate, hungry, but also careful, like he was terrified of breaking the fragile, perfect moment between you.
You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him flush against you, letting him melt into the heat of it, the intensity, the undeniable pull that had always existed but had been buried under friendship, misunderstandings, and jealousy.
When you finally pulled back to breathe, Rhett was still frozen, lips parted, eyes dark and unblinking, trying to process what had just happened. âYou⌠youâve ruined me,â he whispered, and it was not a complaint. It was truth. Pure, devastating truth.
âI think⌠I like being ruined,â you teased softly, pressing a final, lingering kiss to his temple. âEspecially by you.â
Rhett let out a shaky laugh, resting his forehead against yours again, finally exhaling. âYouâre impossible,â he murmured.
âYeah,â you said, smiling, âbut you love me anyway.â
His hands tightened around you again, and for the first time, there were no misunderstandings, no jealous ex-boyfriends, no fears or doubts. Just you and him, and the undeniable truth of everything you had always been to each other.
âI⌠I love you,â he whispered.
You pressed your lips to his again, soft this time, savoring the warmth, the tension melting into something steady and sure. âI love you too,â you said, letting the words anchor both of you. âAlways.â
And for the first time, Rhett let himself believe it. Let himself feel it. And the world outside ceased to exist, because all that mattered was here, now, and the fiery, unstoppable connection between the two of you.
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Summary: youâre going through a tough time, so Rhett tries to comfort you as much as possible.
Warnings: reader is hard on herself, self-doubt, but Rhett is the sweetest
Authorâs note: heard the song by Alex Warren and thought of this <3, divider by @saradika-graphics
Rhett Abbott had learned to read you long before he ever learned how to read himself.
He knew the way your face changed when you were overwhelmed, the way your shoulders tightened when you were upset, the way you went quieter. Not cold, not distant, just⌠inward, when your thoughts started eating at you. He knew your tells better than he knew his own reflection.
So when he walked through the front door of your shared place and didnât hear your usual, âHey, cowboy,â he felt something in him fold.
You werenât in the kitchen.
Not on the couch.
Not in the living room.
He found you in the bedroom, sitting on the edge of the bed like someone had unplugged you from the world. Shoulders small and stiff. Eyes glued to the floor. Hands knotted in your lap.
His heart sank.
âDarlinâ?â His voice came out softer than he meant it to, worried, already halfway heartbroken.
You didnât move.
Rhett stepped closer, slow, careful, like he was approaching a skittish horse. He sat beside you, leaving just a breath of space, even though all he wanted was to pull you into his arms and tell you everything was okay.
âTalk to me,â he asked quietly.
âNothing to talk about.â
He let out a small, breathy scoff. âYou know thatâs not true.â
Silence.
It was the kind of silence Rhett hated, because it meant you were fighting yourself. And he never knew how hard to push. Never wanted to push too much.
Then you finally spoke. And the words hit him like a punch to the ribs.
âIâm⌠not good at anything.â
Rhettâs whole body went still. âWhat?â
Your voice wavered. âI mess up everything. I forget things. I say the wrong things. I make dumb decisions. I canât do anything right and Iââ
You swallowed, looking so small he felt his chest cave in.
âI donât know why youâre with me.â
Rhett had been hit before. By hooves, by fists, by bulls, but nothing had ever hurt like that. Because it wasnât true. It wasnât even close.
âBaby,â he said softly, âlook at me.â
He waited, patient, until you did. Until your eyes finally lifted, shiny with doubt and exhaustion. It nearly broke him.
âOh, darlinâ,â he whispered.
He took your face in his hand, thumb brushing your cheek as gentle as he knew how to be. That was the thing about you, you made him gentle. Before you, he hadnât even known he could be.
âWhy would you say somethinâ like that?â
âItâs true.â
âNo,â he said immediately, firmly. âIt ainât.â
You tried to look away, but he followed your gaze, refusing to let you hide from the truthâthe real truth. The one he carried with him every damn day.
âYou listen to me,â he murmured, leaning closer. âYou are the best thing in my life. The smartest. The kindest. The one who makes everything else make sense.â
He slid his hands down to yours, holding them like they were precious.
âYou think I donât screw up?â he said with a sad little laugh. âYou think I donât lay awake rememberinâ every stupid thing I ever did and wishinâ I could go back and fix it?â
You blinked, surprised, like the thought had genuinely never crossed your mind.
Rhett squeezed your hands.
âYou ainât alone,â he murmured. âWeâre all figurinâ life out as we go along. And as far as Iâm concerned? Youâre doinâ a hell of a lot better than you give yourself credit for.â
Your breath trembled, and Rhett felt something fragile inside him shift. He wanted to wrap you in his arms and never let anything hurt you againânot even your own thoughts.
So he said the words that had been sitting in his chest for months, waiting for the right moment.
âThis is your first time on Earth too, yâknow.â
Your eyes softened, just a little.
âYouâre learninâ,â Rhett said. âSame as me. Same as everyone. And youâre too damn hard on yourself for someone whoâs tryinâ as much as you are.â
You let out a shaky laughâmore of an exhale, really. But Rhett took it. Heâd take anything that eased the weight off your shoulders.
âI just want to be good enough,â you whispered.
He felt that straight in his bones. God, he understood it. More than you realized.
âYou already are,â he whispered. âTo me? Youâre everything.â
He tilted your chin up, brushing a piece of hair behind your ear, and looked at you the way he always didâlike you hung the moon and didnât even know it.
âYou never disappoint me,â he said. âNot once. Not ever.â
You blinked fast. âI try so hard.â
âI know.â He pressed his forehead to yours, breath warm against your lips. âAnd I see it. Even when you think I donât.â
Your arms lifted slowly, hesitantly, like you werenât sure you deserved to touch him. God, if you only knew the way he worshipped you, the way he thanked whatever force had brought you into his life every single damn dayâ
He slid his arms around your waist and pulled you onto his lap, holding you close enough that your heartbeats brushed.
âThank you,â you murmured into his shoulder.
âFor what?â he asked, baffled.
âFor loving me.â
Rhettâs throat tightened. He buried his face in your hair, inhaling you, warmth and softness and home.
âIâll love you,â he whispered, âin every version of this life. No matter what.â
You pulled back just enough to look at him, eyes full of something vulnerable and tender.
Rhett cupped your face again.
And then he kissed you.
Slowly. Reverently. Like he had all the time in the world to remind you how wanted you were, how chosen you were, how deeply loved you were.
Your fingers curled into his shirt, holding on like he was the one anchoring you, but the truth was he needed you just as much.
When you finally pulled away, foreheads resting together, Rhett stroked your cheek with the back of his hand.
âYou donât have to be perfect. You just have to be you.â He whispered.
And that was the thing he knew better than anything else:
Summary: Rhett had been holding his love for you like a secret waiting for daylightâonly for Maria to step in and steal the moment heâd finally found.
Warnings: angst, misunderstanding, Rhett and reader being heartbroken, happy ending
Authorâs note: hope you like it. if you have any requests, let me know! divider by @thecutestgrotto
You and Rhett Abbott had always been the kind of friends people whispered about.
The kind of friends who seemed too close to be âjust friends,â the kind of friends who always found each other's eyes in a crowded room.
Youâd grown up together, worn the same dusty boots in the same dusty town, laughed at the same stupid jokes. But over the years, something had changed quietly, steadily, inevitably. Your hearts had tilted toward each other without permission, without acknowledgment, without courage.
And now, at twenty-something, you and Rhett were balancing on that thin line where friendship hummed with unspoken longing.
Everyone saw it.
Except, apparently, the two of you.
Or at least⌠thatâs what you thought.
The Bar â 9:17 PM
The bar was almost full, warm and loud, the air thick with country music and cheap cologne. You pushed open the door, heart pounding harder than youâd ever admit. Because Rhett was here. And you were⌠maybe ready.
Ready to stop pretending.
Ready to stop being scared.
Ready to tell him exactly what you felt.
Rumors had been swirling for weeks, that Rhett had been talking about you, looking for you whenever you weren't around.
And youâd felt it too. The shift. The heat. The way his gaze lingered on your mouth a second too long the last time youâd spoken.
So tonight, youâd put on the one top that made you feel confident. The one Rhett once said made you âlook unfair.â
Tonight, you were going to tell him the truth.
But as soon as you stepped inside, you froze.
Rhett was there.
But he wasnât alone.
Maria was with him.
Maria. His high school crush. The girl he used to love with his whole damn heart. The girl who, apparently, wanted him back.
And she was standing too close.
Leaning too far.
Touching him.
Laughing like she owned him.
You took one step forward, stomach twistingâ
Just as Maria grabbed Rhettâs face in both hands and kissed him.
Hard.
Full.
Right on the mouth.
You stopped breathing.
Rhettâs eyes flew wide open, startled, confused, his hands hovering awkwardly as if he had no idea what to do.
But you didnât see that. His back was turned to you.
Your vision tunneled.
All you saw was his mouth on hers.
Your heart shattered so violently you almost heard it.
Maria saw you.
Of course she did.
You knew it by the way her eyes flicked toward you while her lips were still pressed against Rhettâs.
It was intentional.
Calculated.
Designed to hurt.
And damn it, it worked.
You stumbled back, breath shaking, bile burning your throat. Your chest felt too tight, too small, too fragile to hold everything inside it. Something hot and ugly burned behind your eyes, and you turned on your heel, pushing back out into the cold night air.
Rhett â 9:18 PM
âMariaâwhat the hell, get offââ
He shoved her away, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. âI told youâI told you I ainât interestedââ
But Maria wasnât listening. She was looking at the door.
At you leaving.
âOhâŚâ she purred. âLooks like someone saw.â
Rhettâs heart dropped through his boots.
âNoâno, noââ He pushed past Maria so fast she stumbled.
He burst through the doors into the parking lot.
But you were already halfway across it, your shoulders tense, your pace quick, your breath visible in small angry clouds.
âDarlinâ! Pleaseâhold on, just waitâwait a damn secondââ
You didnât stop.
Didnât turn.
Didnât even look at him.
âGo back inside, Rhett,â you said, voice trembling. âYou clearly have your hands full.â
Rhett felt like someone had slammed a fist into his chest. âIt ainât what it looked like.â
âReally?â You whipped around then, eyes glossy, cheeks flushed with anger, heartbreak written in every line of your face. âBecause it looked like you were kissing Maria, you know, the girl who broke your heart, multiple times?â
âI wasnâtâ,I didnâtââ
But your jaw clenched. âI donât wanna hear it.â
The words cut sharper than any knife.
Rhett took a step toward you, desperate. âPleaseâdarlinâ, youâre notâjust let me explainââ
But you stepped back.
âNo, Rhett. You donât owe me anything. And I donât owe you anything, either.â
Then your voice cracked into something softer, something broken, something that made his blood run cold.
âI thought you and I⌠had something. I thoughtâŚâ You swallowed hard. âI thought I meant more.â
And Rhett looked devastated, truly, painfully devastated.
But you didnât let him answer.
You turned and got into your car, slamming the door before he could reach you.
âDarlinâ, youâdonât goââ
You started the engine, ignoring him, and then you pulled away.
Leaving him in the cold.
Alone.
With his heartbreak and his regret.
Three Days Later
You didnât see him.
Didnât call him.
Didnât even go into town. You needed space. Needed air. Needed time to stitch your heart back together.
You told yourself you were overreacting.
You told yourself it was stupid.
But the pain didnât listen.
Because you thought youâd finally been close.
Close to being more than childhood friends.
Close to admitting what you felt.
Close to letting everything tumble out of you in one reckless confession.
And nowâŚ
Now you werenât sure heâd ever actually wanted you.
Not really.
Not romantically.
Not like you wanted him.
Until the knock came.
You werenât expecting anyone. Nobody in Wabang just shows up, not unless somethingâs wrong.
When you opened the door, your heart stumbled.
Mrs. Carter, the bar ownerâs wife, stood on the porch, her hands folded tightly in front of her.
Beside her was Joseph, the sweet comedic man who practically lived at the pool tables.
And behind them lingered Mark, the quiet kid whoâd been sweeping floors that night.
They all wore the same expression: guilty⌠determined⌠and strangely nervous.
âSweetheart,â Mrs. Carter said softly, almost like she was afraid you might bolt, âwe need to talk to you.â
You froze, because why would these people be at your door?
But they eased their way inside with the gentle insistence of folks who believed they owed you something.
By the time they settled themselves on your couch, you finally found your voice again.
Mrs. Carter started, her tone careful, like she was untying knots one by one.
She told you how Rhett had been brushing Maria off the entire night, physically stepping away, putting distance between them.
How heâd spent nearly half an hour perched at the bar, eyes drifting to the door every couple minutes like he was waiting for a miracle.
How heâd told three separate people that he was âwaitinâ on someone special,â and everyone had known exactly who he meant.
How he wasnât drunk, wasnât rowdy, wasnât his usual soft-laughing self, just tense. Restless. Sober.
Waiting for you.
And thenâ
âAnd that kiss?â Mark said, shaking his head. âMaria ambushed him. He looked shocked as hell. Didnât kiss her back for even half a second. Pushed her off fast as lightning.â
âHe was chasing you before we could even blink,â Joseph added.
Mrs. Carter placed her warm hand over yours.
âRhett loves you, honey. It was written all over him. You gotta cut that boy some slack.â
Your chest tightened.
Your throat went dry.
They were right. You could feel it.
Youâd misjudged him.
Or maybeâŚ
Youâd been too scared to believe the truth.
Rhett wasnât in love with Maria anymore.
He was in love with you.
The Abbott Ranch â That Evening
Your palms were sweaty as you drove. Your stomach twisted with nerves. You had no idea what you were going to say. No idea how heâd react. But you knew you had to try.
You had to see him.
As you walked up the dirt path toward the Abbott porch, you saw him through the window, sitting at the table, shoulders slumped, head in his hands.
The sight broke you.
You knocked gently.
Rhett lifted his head instantly.
And when he opened the door, the look on his face almost brought you to your knees, shock, hope, fear, longing, heartbreak, all tangled together.
âDarlinâ?â he breathed, like a prayer.
You opened your mouthâ
But he spoke first.
âI know you donât wanna hear excuses. I know I messed up. Even if I didnât do anything wrong, I messed up not makinâ things clearer sooner.â His voice was rough, low. âBut I swear to you, I didnât kiss her. I ainât wanted Maria in years. Not afterâŚâ His throat bobbed. âNot after I fell for someone else.â
Your breath hitched.
âRhettâŚâ
He stepped closer, hesitating, eyes searching yours. âI wanted you there that night. I waited for you. And when I saw you walk in⌠and then walk outâŚâ His voice cracked. âI thought I ruined everything.â
Tears pricked your eyes.
âRhett, Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have run. I shouldâve listened. I just⌠it hurt.â
He nodded slowly.
âI know. And I wish like hell you hadnât seen it, because the only person I wanted to kiss that nightâŚâ His voice softened to a trembling whisper.
ââŚwas you.â
Something in your chest broke open.
You stepped closer, the heat between you nearly humming. âRhett.â
His eyes dropped to your lips, then flicked back up to your eyes, practically pleading for permission.
And then you gave it to him.
You surged forward and kissed him.
It wasnât soft.
It wasnât tentative.
It wasnât shy.
It was everything, every missed chance, every unspoken feeling, every night youâd lain awake thinking about him.
Rhett froze for half a heartbeat, shockedâ
And then he melted into you.
His hands cupped your face like heâd been dying to touch you for years. His breath hitched against your mouth. His lips moved with yours in a way that felt like relief and longing and apology and promise all at once. His tongue warm against yours.
When you finally broke apart, he rested his forehead against yours, breathing hard.
âPlease tell me this ainât a dream,â he whispered.
You smiled softly, thumb brushing his jaw. âItâs real.â
Rhett exhaled shakily, a small, disbelieving smile tugging at his lips.
âSoâŚâ he murmured. âYou forgivinâ me?â
You kissed him again, slower this time.
âOnly if you take me out this time, for real.â
Rhett laughedâbreathy, relieved, overwhelmedâand pulled you into his chest.
âI ainât lettinâ you go again,â he whispered into your hair.