We were never friends. Not for a second. I loved you.

And i just want to run to you and i hope you know that every time i don’t i almost do

An eating disorder doesn’t mean that you don’t eat and you exercise all day. It means that you’re consumed and being destroyed by a little voice that’s constantly saying “You’re fat.”

Sometimes it is really hard to stay strong

If we loved again, I swear I’d love you right

What I had with you, I never want with anyone else.

I keep thinking about that last kiss and how I thought there would be a million more to follow. If only I knew it was the last I would have held on longer. I would have made it last a few seconds more.

I could’ve given you everything that you wanted, but that wouldn’t have mattered because I wasn’t what you wanted.

i really miss him i miss the smell of him, the touch of his skin and the way he use to hug me. i miss how we laughed together and how we used to just lie next to each other and just be in each others company. I miss how he used to talk about us in the future and how we went on trips together. I miss the way he use to call me ‘bubs’ and how i used to call him it back. I miss his presence and i miss his heart beating with mine. i miss hearing him talk about the things that he was passionate about even though i had no real idea or interest in them. I miss being his, and i miss him being mine.

Maybe he did me a favor. Because I could’ve kept trying for forever. Him leaving first was something I would’ve never decided to do. Cause y'know, i loved him.

I’ve given him the power to destroy me and that’s exactly what he’s doing.