pillowtalk

everything annoys me

you can never get what you want sad

here’s to another day of doing nothing and crying 24/7

to be honest i think im unlucky 24/7 and sometimes i think im annoying for blaming everything on luck when i know its me being incapable lol

i just feel like im facing life my own but i dont know what i can do about it

so here i am 3:20am, i cannot sleep because i kept thinking about my life and my way forward. i have been pretty much feeling like a failure since last july/august. this year has been taking a toll on me. to be honest i dont even know how i should feel about myself apart from feeling like a piece of crap. i hope i can free myself from all the pressure people and i had for myself. for one, im glad i didnt tell anyone about this because i knew i couldnt make it, but im upset over what i knew i cannot do. the thought that i would be doing what i do not want and what i could have done with a much worser version of myself is pretty unpleasant. am i really that mediocre, i wonder? i dunno. sometimes i think if i had done it next two-three years, perhaps i can make it? but i dont think i should gamble with my life and go through everything again just to fail once more.

cant wait to take selfies and looking BUSTED!!!

one of the reasons i love being a girl is because i can share hand cream with my girlfriends..... :3

truly unfortunate day.....

only cats can cure my sad cold heart

a truly terrible day

the fact that u won and thats still not enough and ppl be like "oh cuz ur competitors are just sloppy"