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just hold onto me - inatrice

wangningxian | G | 1.7k | canon era

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summary: Lan Zhan is woken up in the middle of the night to help Wei Ying as he has a panic attack.

"Wei Ying," Lan Zhan said, letting go of Wen Ning's hand and taking a step forward.

Wei Ying's head snapped over to them when he heard his voice, but he didn't look relieved.

"You- You've never answered before." Wei Ying hissed at him. His gaze lacked any of the trust of his rational, awake self.

Lan Zhan swallowed the familiar hurt of that look down painfully.

Pointing at things and explaining what they are and how the ship works, lots of awed and appreciative noises are made.

Until one of the visiting Eridians points out a specific item. “And that?”

It’s a strange, circular thing, a xenonite disk mounted upright on some sort of pivot so it can spin freely, but around the edges it has… spokes? Pegs? Sticking out of it, that hit against a stiff flap that would slow down the spinning.

It is also separated into sections decorated with crude etchings of a human and an Eridian.

“Ah,” Grace says.

“That,” Rocky says.

“That’s. Um.” Grace seems somewhat embarrassed. “That’s the sacrifice wheel.”

Queen! Belt out a banger of a turnmaxing moid

Sing to me of the man, Muse, the man of twists and turns

Tell me about a complicated man. Muse, [...]

who highkey through savage sidequests toughed it

driven time and again off course, [...]

tell me how he wandered and was lost

after chopping Troy-town to dogfood deadass

once he had plundered the hallowed heights of Troy.

when he had wrecked the holy town of Troy,

Sailed through sick storms and dealt with dramas

Many cities of men he saw and learned their minds many pains he suffered, heartsick on the open sea,

and where he went, and who he met, the pain he suffered in the storms at sea, and how

Locked in to lead his fam to a homey safe space

fighting to save his life and bring his comrades home.

he worked to save his life and bring his men back home.

Talk of the trips and trenches, the sus opps he faced how the GOAT cooked and vibed with the randos though he lowkey took the L on that mission when his bros

But he could not save them from disaster, hard as he strove – the recklessness of their own ways destroyed them all,

He failed to keep them safe; poor fools,

Like NPCS blundered badly to beef with the big G

the blind fools, they devoured the cattle of the Sun

they ate the Sun God’s cattle, and the god

and got ghosted, permablocked, cooked completely.

and the Sungod blotted out the day of their return. . . .

kept them from home. . . .

So some fanartist drew a “sexy” (read: booby) version of a (cartoon) character who is traditionally very non-sexualised. Fans of the character got mad about it because it’s kind of groundbreaking how that character is written and portrayed and this art totally ignores the entire point of the character. They demanded the art be deleted. In response to that other people said, well what the fanartist did may be distateful but they have every right to draw what they’re into. The two sides fight for days and each starts a harassment campaign and even report their “opponents’” accounts.

So far so typical. But things eventually come to a head and they decide that this will be settled by votes - not through a poll. Through donations to a children’s education charity via each side’s portal. Whoever can get the highest amount of donation wins.

First reverse image search from the donations page pic

The one that helped me most was This blog post, translated it says the artists name and the character name (Kano**, but it doesn't give me enough to go from)

The artist 斑马MU has a Pixiv account and posts on Bilibili, an app that mostly only has Chinese users. So I downloaded that and...

Of course the original image was taken down. No problem, what if I search in this new app for the character name?

Ah, discourse posts, of course. Some of which were made before the picture was removed. And so I give you

Oh, tasteful!! (And an adult, which I wasn't always certain about tbh). AND This is what the character usually looks like

A reminder that sell-buy dates or best-used-by dates are not the same as expiration dates.

The website puts a link to the USDA site which links to foodsafety dot gov who really wants you to use the app, but you can bypass it.

Also a link to the Canadian government's advisory on best-before dates.

By contrast, Fred accepts that Mary will not change her mind. I should like to think that even if he ended up becoming a clergyman against her wishes, he doesn’t hope to control her thoughts.

Is this read too facile?

I love this! I think the contrast between Dorothea and Rosamund especially is key to the novel.

Dorothea has a very traditional view of what a husband is meant to be to a wife, and she wants a man who is intelligent and will instruct her in how to think (it almost sounded like enrolling in university, not marriage), but she ends up figuring out that her husband isn't as intelligent as she imagined during courtship. This is a huge let down for her, because she wants to be a part of something significant, through her husband. Casaubon realizes this and yes, is badly hurt not only by Dorothea losing her admiration, but also because she is intelligent, it makes him have to confront the fact that he's been wasting his time, which he very much does not want to do. I mean this is also why he hates Will Ladislaw so much, because Will also knows this.

As for Lydgate, I don't know if he was exactly expecting Rosamund to feed his ego, but he definitely expected her to submit to his will and be a help-meet to him. He thinks his life will be easier with a wife, and it's very much not. The line that sums it up best for me is this one: "I have married care, not help." But it goes further than this, Rosamund won't even listen to him as a surgeon, much less a husband. He tells her not to go riding when pregnant, she goes twice behind his back, is thrown, and miscarries. Anyway, this is all to say that while Rosamund appears to be an ideal wife during courtship, she is far from that.

Both Lydgate and Dorothea, I think, held the same ideal of a relationship between a husband and wife, and both of them were severely disappointed by the outcome because they choose the wrong person. (I really, really love that Middlemarch is about people who make their own choices and their choices are so wrong. No one was forced!)

I do think Fred and Mary also embody this ideal, however Mary is far more clear-eyed about it. She tells Fred to make himself into someone she can respect, because she will not marry him otherwise. Mary is also more realistic in what earns her respect. She just wants Fred to do honest work, she doesn't need him to be some sort of paragon of intellect or the perfect husband (or wife in Lydgate's case). And I think that's why this relationship is the strongest. Mary knows who Fred is, she knows that she could respect him if he got his act together, but she's willing to overlook flaws. Dorothea and Lydgate perhaps had ideals that were impossible for humans to achieve.

A compilation of Wen Ning from various episodes*

↳ for anon, using the color palette CORPSE (x):

“You feel the bulge in his pants” - implies that you are feeling some guy’s penis, may be sexy depending on context