Im not usually edgy, I just have an ed

I don't think I have any weight trauma or trauma that would make me see my weight any differently from anyone else.

I JUST WANNA LOOK GOOD! IM JUST SUPER VAIN YK???

I think it might have to do with control as well maybe???? Like control over how my body is and what it gets. But I think that's like a combo with getting an ED

I mean, it's not the 130s but that's a 5lb difference from my last recorded weight!!

I'LL TAKE IT!!!!!!

I haven't all week I was getting worried bc I weigh myself tmrw

But YES!!!!!! WE GOT SHIT OUT OF MY SYSTEM AND IM SO READY FOR THE WEIGH IN

(No I'm not I'm LYING, I am SO FUCKING SCARED.

I've got work the next morning so I don't wanna be out too late bc I like to sleep OKAY and we're probably gonna be drinking and shit

I really don't wanna gain and lose my progress already. I probably won't eat anything bc my need to save money rn outweighs any hunger tbh

AGAIN.

I feel so fat and disgusting. I need to lose this weight, I've done it before and I CAN GO IT AGAIN GODDAMMIT!!!!

I'm not too upset w myself bc I KNOW I gained weight bc of the holidays and I KNOW that I'm back on track now so I will lose this weight!!!!

Im trying to get into the 120's by the 27th of this month, which honestly isn't too hard let's be real

This is what I get for not counting for the holidays and just falling off track in general, I'm being punished 🥲🥲