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Lately I've been so tired, mentally and seemingly physically. Nothing seems worth my attention anymore, it hurts to do anything outside from the ache in my legs or from how people seem to judge you even stepping outside your home, it's so tiring.

My collarbone have been hurting recently and my spine feels so sore. sometimes I wonder if this pain could be chronic, after all, I broke my collarbone more then a decade ago and both it and my spine have randomly started aching for years now, but I do not wish to use that term until I know for sure.

Gods, even after I don't message her for months she says she's still my friend and would still call me that even if I never messaged her for an entire year? She really is to kind for this world, even if she sadly reminded me of my crush on her. I do hope it will fade with time while I let myself try to freely contact her and not overthink.