A Litte Bit Of Everything

Because I always looked up to the unrealistic person who never showed emotions, where emotion was weakness. I’ve grown up suppressing mine.

The slightest bit of sadness or fear or weakness makes me so scared. And I instinctively try so hard to keep it down. And that’s actually created so many issues for me now.

“There’s something wrong with me.” She could barely keep from letting it all fall apart, everything that she had been struggling to keep inside her.

“No there isn’t.” He was pitying her.

“Yes. Yes there is. I… I can’t...” She collapsed into his arms, unable to keep upright the strain of it all too much for her to bare.

Lizzie— as someone who struggles with mental illness (to a degree). I really liked seeing someone on screen who had that same kind of struggle, and I liked that whilst she dealt with that and at times did release her inner bitch. She still had support and she was still a person. She wasn’t solely her illness. I feel like the show gave a voice to that.

Hope— for obvious reasons, she is such a strong character and I love that. But also because while she’s strong in the kick ass way she also deals with a lot of inner turmoil and is strong emotionally. Also dealing with trauma. But I also really like her because, while Danielle Russell is in NO WAY fat, she is bigger than your ‘typical’ movie/tv teen. And seeing her on screen as a strong character that I love, is actually making me feel more comfortable with my body because I’m kind of the body type where I’m not thin and not fat. And for the first time Danielle is probably the first actor/character that really looks like me.

So I’ve got a theory, which is probably wrong but here’s my thought.

So we know that in season 1, when Landons mum went into malivore, everyone forgot except for Hope, (cuz of her tribridness).

We also know that her blood healed Josie when she was shot with the malivore bullets.

So what if she gave her blood to someone now? Would it have an effect on them? My thought is that maybe it could remove the effect of malivore, thus making them remember her.

“Why?”

The she turned to face the him, tilting her head to the side. “Why what?” She asked.

“Why me?” He said, “You could have chosen anyone else, why did you choose me?”

They couldn’t move, no matter what they tried. Every muscle was straining against the invisible restraints holding them down on the table. Their head strapped down, forcing them to stare up at the roof. As they desperately tried to lift their arms they saw something move at the very edge of their vision.

“Whatever you want. Name and it will be yours, all you have to do is join me.”

The hero hesitated they knew they shouldn’t but as the looked at the villain they couldn’t help feel swayed.

“Anything?” They asked.

“Please don’t go. I need you.”

He shook his head sadly at her, “no you need me gone.” He cupped her cheek and she leaned into his touch closing her eyes.

“Please,” she whispered. “Stay. Don’t do this to me.”