Happiness Only Real When Shared

since this year and increasing my working hours ive gotten insomnia like in the old days again. im thankful for the years of reprieve, now its suffering again

oh so the travel time is 1h 40 min, great ^^ over 3h back and forth. i love rush hour and being cramped in fluorescent lighting and transfers

honestly i need adhd meds to study lmao but im not gonna risk that again

Taekook is just the best couple. no one compares theyre just the best ever couple. thats why the greatest minds of our generation have tackled them and written the greatest works of fiction of our generation about them. On god. Im right

omg im so nervous and sick to start studying.. its starting to become real. how will i survive without my supervisor, ive started to count on her and rely on her forever but now i just never will meet her again. and im still questioning whether this is the right decision, if its not better to try to get a job with the benefits i currently have, and work my way up. bc if i finish school i will be like stranded in the middle of the sea again, whereas right now i still am in a safe shore. but im abandoning it. and im not even working full time or even seventy five percent yet! and im taking on a full time education. i feel really sick, but im not sure that means i should quit the plan. ill go through with it despite feeling sick. i just, am so nervous. also the travel time to my new school is really long and annoying with several transfers, youd ask, why id do that to myself? honestly idk. im taking a leap of faith. i guess so.

i was beautiful but ruined it. i wish it happened because something traumatic that was imposed on me, or that it was an affection i couldnt have stopped, then i would still be sad, but i could live with it, and mourned the loss and my poor luck, but i am inconsolable now, my life is over because of it, and its my own fault and i cant live with the regret.

ive realized im heterosexual because i cant imagine what a man feels when looking at a woman, even if i feel attraction to a woman its not the same, so im straight. Even if its a strong attraction thats just normal. And dont tell me im having internalized homophobia or something. I dont care

i loved someone once, and i dont know if i will ever love someone like i loved him again. I dreamt of him again tonight, i do so sometimes, and my feelings awaken with the dreams. I barely knew him really, its more of a fantasy, like loving a memory, but i really loved him. I still love him. I probably always will love him. And i dont think i will ever feel the same about anyone else. It felt like a once in a lifetime deal. I’ll just keep chasing crushes that will never elicit anything nearly as strong as what i felt for him. I really, really loved him. Oh i loved him.