havvehearts

please note: I will be talking about my own experience ahead but feel free to reply with your own if you'd like! Just PLEASE DO NOT REBLOG, as this post isn't intended to be inflammatory.

tw rant ahead !! /

being a combination of: a multi muse, all female characters, a lot of OCs, and mostly POC face claims has made its impact on this blog.

the way the rpc community treats female characters (especially ocs) of colour, is STILL vile. I thought we'd evolved from this shit honestly!!! it's almost impossible to distinguish the reason why you're being treated like you don't exist. a lot of it is also because (and I saw a mutual post about this earlier and I love them 💛) people really don't seem to like multi muses?? which is?? WHY?? but I guess what I'm saying is — I've had to really delve deep into why this blog hasn't been doing well. And what I found isn't great. It sucks to be ignored, and no one should have to feel that way. it impacts everything. it makes you doubt yourself and beat yourself up for not being good enough. I'm so sorry to anyone else who has had this struggle. and I know there's a lot of us. thank you so much to those few ppl that have taken the time to write and talk to me and those who have been a lovely presence on my dash - I love you more than you know and I'll be adding you if/when I do remake!!

or maybe it's just me. or me being a shit writer in which case massive apologies and ily and I'm sorry (self doubt is a bitch even when trying to make a point). i do have to take into account that I am accountable for my own feelings and I do worry that I haven't been a good presence and that I haven't been a good writer. In which case, again, I'm sorry.

pls also note this post in no way shape or form has been made to guilt trip anyone into interacting with certain blogs and this is no way directed to ANYONE who I follow / is on the dash / sees this!! it's just a general statement. there are no hard feelings towards any individuals here!! ever!! but if you don't feel something, block and move on!! false hope is rlly shitty when it's en-masse

so my rules state that if I see any drama or negativity I'm liable to block bc my MH is TERRIBLE atm. I'm not involved in any of this, but fuck this environment

therefore, due to the absolute state this fandom / the rpc in general is in, and also due to the reception this blog has gotten (never in my life have I felt so shitty about something I'm writing ngl) I'm gonna be re-doing my blog and moving across to another.

listen i no longer associate this with last night in so.ho this is gigi's track and if I were to make her a movie trailer u best believe .

she's a nice singer , too , but she's not got her head in the clouds - she knows she's not gonna make it .