sunlight on your skin

i was wrestling with the idea of hurting myself and you didn’t care. dirty pretender. i thought it was supposed to be geminis that were two faced. you put on the perfect facade of being a kind hearted saint but you only like the reassurance of my presence. i’d like to wash my hands of you, but it’s funny to see you try so hard to build up your shitty pride. you disgust me.

i regret every moment i spent with you. i hope you suffer. i still have dreams about you and i hate it. i had one last night and you came to my house and i was so freaked out and i slapped you and,, i hope you suffer

i’ve eaten less than 300 cals today. mmm just enough not to get weird looks during lunch at work

haven’t posted in over half a year, but like. a bitch was doing well. and i’ve broke again. the ed is even back at it again making me wanna mmmmmmmmmm

i miss him.

ya know i’m out here making emo posts cuz i’m constantly sad for no reason 😳 but i got to see taemin lee, love of my life, on sunday and i got a promotion today without expecting one in the slightest so uh life is okay, i’m just chemically imbalanced my friends

do you even recognize yourself these days? do you know who you are once you stop reflecting others? you know people are vain and like to stare at themselves, so you made yourself them. but, who are you really? do you know?

do you love him? truly?

ya know there truly is a gap that ppl fall into between millennials and gen z. in fact, there’s quite the jump! being born in the early side of gen z is just... a weird place to be

sometimes, you just gotta stare at ur hands 🤷‍♂️

hmm do you miss them less because you’re growing? or because you’re cutting off all connections to make it easier to leave?