bitchy barzy apologist ™

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at least you explained it to him multiple times so it's not like he'll be blindsided or heartbroken yk. if your gut tells you to break it off then you should listen to it, it probably knows best 😭

& you don't need to thank me, i'm here for you 🫶

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omg sorry!!!

i was apparently in my luteal phase when i wrote that bc i saw him for the 3rd time tonight and we’ve been nonstop talking

i know i’m so scattered i think it’s my need for self sabotage lol

the showing pics to his mom.. i tell my family NOTHING about my love life so it always shocks me when others do 😭 so yea idk either if that's good or bad, we might need someone else's opinion here lol

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idk i’ve only met him once so it’s hard! we text a lot and i like our convos but tells me nothing about how someone is in person yk?? so ive been trying not to text as much in hopes of him not getting so attached in the meantime and he definitely knows im not where he is and im just trying to get to know him on a normal level and that’s gotta be good enough. i feel like i did my best explaining where im at several times

also same. the only way i would tell my family is if it was already serious otherwise there’s no point imo but i have no idea 😭😭

edit: i do think im getting the ick tho, im just not good at breaking things off w people and yea 😩

AND YOU KISSED !!!!! and it was good !!!!! that's great i'm so happy for you 🥹 if nothing else at least you got to have that moment

however yeah this does sound like love bombing.. the fact he's already invested and TOLD HIS PARENTS???? is a little scary for sure. i mean i know some people tell their parents everything, and i know some guys know right away who they want... i tend to give people a chance but idk if that's the best advice tbh 🫠

i think you should be honest and say you need to take it slow & you're not sure if you could ever get there with him, so as to not lead him on but also let him know you're willing to try

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thank you!!

yea i am giving him a chance but i just dont feel like my feelings are in the same place as him and i really dont wanna lead him on but i also burn slow a lot. so im gonna go out with him again? hopefully that doesnt make me a shit person, i just want to give it some time yk??

we’ve talked a lot about his emotional intensity and he’s backed off a bit which is nice. and i asked him more about the convo w his parents and he said he told them the issue he’s having with moving too fast and got their advice which is nice! and he showed his mom pics of me which idk if that’s good or bad lol

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IT WAS WITH THE GUY I TOLD YOU I CRASHED OUT OVER bc apparently im mentally unstable and i just had to reach out to him bc of how guilty i felt

anyways the date actually went pretty well! we got drinks and saw a movie! he’s super nice, paid for everything (obv i always offer to pay or split), he’s very welcoming and comfortable to be around which is super nice given how much anxiety i have about meeting new people especially guys!

however, he’s quirky not in a bad way but in a way that i can’t quite figure him out and idk if he’s exactly my type. he seems really kind of invested which makes me skiddish for some reason

also he kissed me and it was good i haven’t been kissed in so long uhhheh and he said he definitely wants to see me again

we spoke on the phone tonight tho and he accidentally said that he told his parents about me. he started backtracking and then he was like “it wasn’t serious, just that i went on a date” but he mentioned that his dad something about the town i work in, so i feel like he’s lying which gives me anxiety bc i don’t know how i feel yet and i wanna give it more time but i don’t wanna lead him on yk??

ahh yes men are very sickening to talk to lmao, but i like your energy about it!! do what's right for u rn and eventually your efforts will pay off, and the right person will come along 🫶

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no i def relate to that!! it’s always like why did i even bother 😭 we def will!! when it’s our time it’ll all fall into place and we won’t feel so out of place buy it all

AND ALSO BC YOU'RE ALWAYS CHECKING ON ME AND I NEED TO RETURN THE FAVOUR 😭💘

i'm glad to hear you're doing well and honestly same, most days are the same and the routine is comfortable, but yeah i get what you mean.. i feel like we're too young to be stuck in the mundane :/ but the thought of doing anything different is def stressful

but i wanna hear more about your hinge adventures, whatever you feel like sharing 🫶 i'm proud of you for trying and putting yourself out there !!

sorry i always make our conversations longer lmao

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it’s so hard for me to stray from the usual! i get so stuck in my routine that when an opportunity does come up it gives me actual anxiety for some reason or i have like fomo of sitting at home reading or watching love island which is so dumb lol

we are def too young to be stuck in this pattern tho! we gotta figure out this funk and be yhe young queens we are and get out there or smth!💗

i ended up deleting my hinge for now, bc the thought talking to another man rn makes me ill but im sure it’ll come back soon bc i am boy crazy and i really wanna find a bf bc i feel like im ready for one but i am will to wait for the right one

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HIII THIS IS SO CUTE ILY

sorry i never come on here anymore but i always miss it idk hahah

i’m doing pretty good though! i’ve been talking to this guy from hinge so we’ll see how that goes i actually think i like him so who knows otherwise ive just been trying to make it honestly going to work and coming home and not really doing much else. its boring but im stuck in this routine and the thought of straying from it stresses me out for some reason

i mean i don't watch anymore but it used to be my thing before hockey

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