HOW SWEET THESE SORROWS.

CAUSE YOU DON'T REMEMBER KILLING IT . HELL YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW IT GOT INTO YOUR BED - BUT IT SURE TASTED SWEET BETWEEN THE LIQUOR AND THE SMOKE. LIKE A DREAM FIXED ON REALITY. AND YOUR BODY IS HARD AGAIN - TIED UP ON THINGS IT SHOULDN'T HAVE NOTICED. DRIPPING ABOUT LIKE ICE CREAM ON FINGERS WAITING FOR A TONGUE TO COME. YOU KNOW ITS DEAD - BUT YOU'RE STILL WANTING IN AND SO YOU TRACE A FINGER ROUND THE WOUNDS.

so this is a twin cinema poem ( you can read this poem as two separate poems on their own but also across . ) based around @nosebleedclub 's prompt around " our future together . " it plays on the idea of one part of the relationship wanting to devour the other , and the other wanting to make god out of them and so the the title of cannibal and worshipper . THIS WILL HOPEFULLY BE A APART OF THE ZINE I AM CURRENTLY MAKING - i hope you guys will be interested in it. :D transcript this was my first time doing one of these so hopefully it works lol

for @nosebleedclub 's prompt dated january twelfth twenty-twenty-five . titled charismatic leader !! tagging : @smidgen-of-hotboy @kalonkakons @snickiebear ask to be tagged or removed.

BUT YOU DO NOT LISTEN .  AND YOU PEEL THE SKIN - THIN STRIPS OF BETRAYAL LAUGHING YOU INTO THE ABYSS . YOU SEE HER FACE , THE PLEADING AND THE ANGUISH AND  STILL YOU DO NOT STOP..  YOU WANT TO  BE SOMETHING GREATER AND SO YOU SELL HER OFF TO THE SEA. TO THE GASPING HANDS WANTING TO SEE HER IN A GRAVE . 

SHAMELESS - HEDONISM STUFFING YOU FULL OF  PIPE DREAMS. BLINDS YOU TO THE MAGGOT LINING OF WHAT YOU INHALE . YEARS OLD ROT CUTTING YOUR BREATH .  AND YOU PULL OUT OF YOUR SKIN , MANGLED BONES UNGUARDED BY FAITH BECOMING FENCE FOR FOUL NIGHTS . YOU LOST YOUR HUMANITY WITH A BLADE FOR A TONGUE AND SOON IT WILL TURN BACK  INSIDE .

YOU PICK SO DEEP BLOOD GRINS BACK AT YOU . KNOWING AND SEEING THE NIGHT DESCEND UPON YOU. IT DRIES OUT YOUR HUMANITY , KNOWING THE WANT OF  GLORY THAT ITCHED IN YOU WAS A BASTARD WAITING TO BEHEAD YOU.

FOR @nosebleedclub 'S PROMPT TITLTED ITCH

YOU :  “ i would like to see the king of this place -  LORD KINGSLEY  is how he goes about does he not.?  (the room  grows quite at your statement , buries its eyes onto the ground not breathing in fear that the stars would betray them to the lord of the house. ) “ oh do tell him to hurry please i haven’t all day. “  ( here a guard puts a blade to your chest . anger clouding her faces - as though her dignity was in that of her lords ) 

THE GUARD ;  “ speak like that again and i will take this spear and put it through your chest and out of  your mouth so that he can marvel at your death. “  ( she holds the spear tight - eyes seeing the coin but not allowing it to take her from her work.) “ you will not come into this court , no matter if the deity himself has given you his allyship.”

YOU:  ( laughter pools from your lips . cold and distasteful it reaches over - buzzing and grabbing all the way round ) “ oh sweetheart you’ve no idea what i’ve just done .”  ( you dazzle her a smile , a leering thing with a want to kill her in her spot.) “ you have no idea of how badly he is gonna want to collect what i am bringing around .”

THE GUARD : ( she shudders .  feels her insides turn on themselves. like a rabid dog chewing through its leg ) “ i shall not call for him.  i shan’t let you bring your mischief here .”

YOU :  “ oh how sweet - the little doll thinks she can protect him. “  ( you lunge forward and grab her neck. ) “ you all are filthy things - lying things .  infatuations and abuse . and  nothing of any of you is worth anything. “ ( your fingers grow into claws digging deep.  ready to rip the skin off , when he finally comes into vision.)

LORD KINGSLEY :  “  let her go, war .  do not think that whatever you bring will go unanswered.” ( he had smelt your venom - your strategies and the way death came to his dreams last night grinning of an upcoming feast.) “ whatever it is you bring , message or item, I will see it and deal with it  in place of this cort.’ ( he thinks over it for but a moment - what had war come to boast about?  what had you decided he needed to see that you’d traverse into the one place you hated.)  “ you take this human face and think my people would know you and bend but they do not know you as i do.”

YOU : ( dropping the girl you run right up to love . right up to his height and you pull the head from your pocket.)  “ here is what i bring -  KINGSLEY  here is what i offer .   ( you pull his hand forward and give the head to him. )  “ i told you didn’t i that if you turned me away and let the deity cast me out i would give you the one thing you’d hope to never see .”  ( you slip away - and watch him with the lion’s head.   the head of his lover beauty .  and you are so very proud of what you’ve done.) “ i give you this and will wait for whatever you will do next .”    ( you laugh again as you spill away from the place. loud and cruel it makes a mockery of his screams. ) 

for @nosebleedclub prompt tapestry

MANY YEARS AGO FIRE BENT ITS KNEE BEFORE HIM. MAYBE IT DID NOT OR COULD NOT TAKE THE CHILD . AS THOUGH IT CARRIED LOVE FOR HIM. AND SO IN THE FLAMES THE CHILD SURVIVED. BURNT SKIN CLEARING BEFORE THE FIRST OUTSIDER TRIED SAVING HIS FAMILY. WORD GOT OUT ABOUT HIM , ABOUT THE CHILD WHO COMMANDED FIRE. TALL TALES NOT UNDERSTANDING - LEAVING THEM TO CUT INTO HIM TO SELL BLOOD IN PIPE DREAMS OF IMMORTALITY .

AND IT IS TWO YEARS - TWO YEARS OF MALNUTRITION AND A BODY UNSEAMED THAT HE IS FOUND BY A RICH OLD MAN , WHO CAN HEAR THE CALL OF GOD IN HIM . AND HE STEALS HIM - TAKING HIM FAR AWAY FROM THE CLAMORING MADNESS OF HIS LIFE AND BRINGS HIM BACK TO A SENSE OF HUMANITY.

AND HERE THE GOD LAYS A PLEDGE - BETWEEN A CHILD OF NO MORE THAN TWO AND A MAN OVER 70, SPEAKING IN COLD WORDS SEEKING TO HAVE . AND IT WENT " FOR YOUR GOOD WORK - I GIVE YOU MYSELF IN THE BODY . KNOW THAT I CAN BE USED AND BROUGHT BACK BUT AT THE END OF IT ALL YOU MUST TAKE THE JUDGMENT THAT IS GIVEN . "

AND HE STAYS GOOD TO THE CHILD - STAYS TRUE TO THE CHILD . GLAD TO SEE HIM GROW HE DOES WELL BY THEM BOTH. BROUGHT TO LAY WITH BLESSING TENFOLD IN RETURN . AND YET HE PASSES BUT SIX YEARS LATER. AND THE CHILD - THE MYTH IS PASSED AROUND . KNOW ONE SEEING WHAT HE REALLY IS. DISBELIEVING THEIR FATHER'S WILL . THEY CAGE THE BOY AND SEE JUST HOW MUCH IS TURE.

YEARS PASS AND THE BOY BECOMES A MAN , AND WHEN THEY SEE HE DOES NOT DIE, THEY USE HIM FOR ALL SORTS OF THINGS. ALL SORTS OF HORRORS - ENDING ONE LIFE FOR ANOTHER TO SEE WHAT AGE HE'D COME BACK . AND FOR THE FIRST TIME HE HATES HIMSELF. HATES HOW HE IS KEPT AWAY ON THE HIGHEST SHELF. A HEIRLOOM OF MESIRY - AN ANTIQUE OF ANGUISH .

HE IMAGINES OUT TO END HIS LIFE - BUT SOMEONE SLIPS IN . AND MAKES HIM SEE THE WORLD BEYOND. MAKING A GOD BELIEVE IN ANOTHER GOD . TYING THEM AS ONE FOR YEARS TO COME .