Why am I hung up on the same person. I know she's gonna see this. I don't care what the rest of y'all think. But for real. I can't even listen to a damn song that remotely relates to her without getting upset. Maybe I just can't move on. Maybe I found the one girl I give way too many shits about and I can't just let it end the way it did. I like to think that she still thinks about me all the time but in the back of my head I know it's not true. I avoid anything she does to not get hurt. No Instagram, no Facebook, fuck snaps. Can't even do it. It's been so long and she's moved on and I'm stuck in the past it seems. I'm the fool in this. But I don't care. I know where I want to be!

I want to talk to her. I really do, but damn I know I shouldn't.

Thank you 2016. When I think you just can't get any worse, you always prove me wrong. You can just end now, and keep all your bullshit away from me.