I guess I fixed my issue with him we don’t talk like we used to but it’s not horrible when we’re around each other. It’s a bit weird because it’s been months and I found someone I truly like and I can tell it bothers him but I won’t stop myself from experiencing something real to spare his feelings. Dose that make me a bad person?

I haven't really talked to him much lately which means I also haven't seen him in person so I haven't told him how I truly feel so when it finally does happen I feel it might be worse that it really should have been.

I feel so fucked, I’m leading him on and I know it more than likely will end horribly but I don't know how to tell him that I don't feel the same way he does. What really sucks is I do genuinely care for him we were friends before things got so messy.

Realizing that growing up is scary by experiencing it first hand makes me want to cry