Dysphoria Feels

i never use this account anymore but I’m a year clean from self harm today and this never felt possible and i’m so insanely proud of myself 🥺

always so damn horny but sex and mastubating make me dysphoric :(

i remember when dysphoria used to consume my mine so constantly i felt like i was drowning, the dysphoria i feel now does not plague my mind like that. transitioning is a beautiful thing

so after like 7? months on testosterone, I definitely got my period today. When starting T it stopped after the first two months and it’s back and i am SO incredibly dysphoric. Thank you so much to my girl friends who helped my get through this and not ruin my pants :(

love isn’t real and my heart is cold

i fucking relapsed and it just sends me into a spiral, fuck my life

i just want a girl to dominate me but i feel so fucking insecure for wanting it :,(

so a gay guy let me top him for the first time and wowowow i feeling fucking euphoric

it’s actually fucking crazy how much hormones can make you feel so much more comfortable in your own body

just had my return visit to the Endo and i got my dose raised and i grew half a centimeter haha :)

i am a soft boy but i am not a soft boy just because i’m trans !! ugh

i’m fucking tired of never feeling like i am enough

so i got home today and my grandma was talking to me and she was like “your voice has gotten soOoooo much deeper recently”, others are starting to notice for real omfg!!!

i wonder what it’s like to not be so fucking mentally ill? to be able to live a life without the constant weight of the anxiety in my stomach and the heavy depression that weighs on my shoulders every single day. i just want to be okay for once in my life, my mental illnesses are ruining my life

so i think i’ve started to pass enough to the point of when meeting new people they gender me correctly but people who have know me during the process of starting hormones are getting like??? (i’m not really “out” just living my life as a guy people would miss gender me all the time idk if on purpose or not) and my voice had dropped a fuck ton and i think i’m making people confused

love isn’t real