dearly beloved,

I am here and it doesn’t make a difference. What a shit feeling

I feel angry, so angry I can’t even sleep! You don’t care about me at all. You are a liar and all you do is lie to me. You tell me you’ll come back later and you don’t. You did the same thing to me today that you did when I first met you and I should have known from then to never ever ever let you close to me. You let me pay for our brunch. You ignore me during sex when I indicate to you that I’m uncomfortable. Another woman texts your phone and I ask you about it because there’s no way you can fucking lie to me about it when we both saw the same thing and still you brush it off it like I am crazy and don’t know what’s what. You know I’m upset or uncomfortable about something, so you try to smother me with sweet words and sweet kisses and sweet licks, but none of matters to me. Because you don’t care about me at all and I finally realize it. It’s always and all about you. I am angry because I want to cry when I think about all of this and how I am sitting with all of this alone. I came all this way and I’m leaving soon and you can’t even give me a little bit of your time. You fucking liar, cheater, inconsiderate, selfish man. I want to cry because even feeling of all of this, I still want to spend my last days in your state with you.

I fight for my life in the gym so I can walk stably and therefore confidently in heels

Meditation is the key to inner peace. Genuinely

miss moody

doing yoga + hike activity next week.. i’m so excited :-)

You say you want obedience, but I think you want freedom. You want a foundation to build upon when really you have that foundation within yourself already and you want someone to help you build it up. Know thyself. Love thyself. See thyself.

I love doing an extended yoga class after a while because I can see how much stronger I have gotten from my strength training workouts! I always remember that I go to the gym so I can do beautiful and cool poses!