♡ Doll diary ♡

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

⋆. ♡ ˚ – name : Doll

⋆. ♡ ˚ – pronouns : he/it

⋆. ♡ ˚ – ˚ ♡ .⋆ : human sized living doll

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

⋆. ♡ ˚ – likes : sweet ouji fashion , pretty flowers , teacups

⋆. ♡ ˚ – hobbies : baking sweets , brewing tea , sewing , embroidery , reading fantasy books

♡ Diary outline ♡

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

I would like to use this place to share my experiences as a doll and also as a headmate in a DID system.

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

I love descriptive writing. It is one way I can describe the world around me , with all of the comforting senses. The warmth of the light that I bask in , the cool moisture on my fingertips as I draw on condensated glass.

Rant -

I front quite rarely , though I would say that I am fronting more regularly compared to a few years ago. My writing is not the best , I have been told that it is quite confusing or juvenile , which has put me off from writing for so long , and I am quite discouraged to start. However , I do enjoy it. My friend has let me write poems to accompany his art , and he did like it.

Perhaps it would not be such a bad idea to start again.

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

I love taking the time to dress up in cute clothes that I like. It makes me feel more like myself whenever I dress in ouji fashion.

I love the soft colours , the ruffles , and how delicate it looks. (* ´ ▽ ` *)

However , I do not appreciate when others dress me in what they think will look good on me , or what they think I like , when they truly do not know me. I feel itchy whenever I am not wearing something that is me.

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Sometimes , I take the time to appreciate how my body works.

It fascinates me how my limbs move. And how delicate yet flexible they are.

It is like I was made with so much care ( 〃▽〃)

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My friend baked a red velvet cake , so today I took the time to enjoy it with some tea (* ´ ▽ ` *)

And of course , my favourite part is the clinking sound the cutlery makes

I really wish to do this more often , but there's only so much cake (*´～｀*)

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Ah! Yesterday I had strawberry tea! It was the sort that comes in a tea bag. I very much loved it. It was very sweet and fruity

I must make some myself the next time I have any strawberries on hand! (〃^ー^〃)

.. thats if they don't spoil the moment I look at them..

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

The body I live in is pretty , but it is not me

It feels far too soft and stretchy , I feel too heavy

I especially hate how it's mouth isn't dry

I wish to get my body back from who knows where.

But I am grateful that my friends are kind and understanding , they let my dress and style this body to make it more bearable for me (人´▽`*)♪

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

I understand the concept of romance and romantic attraction , but I simply do not relate , I do not know if this is because I am a doll , or something purely me

I used to view romance as something uniquely human , but I would not be surprised if non humans feel it too

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If I am able to , I wish to live in a dollhouse

With lace curtains on the window letting in warm sunlight

A wooden display cabinet which houses teacups and teapots

A desk nested in the living room with a vintage sewing machine on top

A little shelf suspended on the wall next to my bed where I could find fairytale books of all sorts

And a thin layer of dust

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I am a human sized ball jointed doll made of porcelain.

I love being human sized , I am big enough to appreciate flowers from above , and I am small enough to be hidden away whenever I want.

It also means that I can help my little doll friends get to and from their shelves safely (〃´▽`)ﾉ.♡ﾟ

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I was waiting by the road when I spotted elderberry flowers , and they were in the shape of a heart ♡

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

I often wonder if me being named Doll is like a person being named Human , or a cat being named Feline. It is quite a funny thought.

I have played around with the name Christopher , but it did not seem to fit me perfectly. So I guess I'll continue to be Doll the porcelain doll (*´～｀*)

⋆. 𐙚 ˚︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵˚ 𐙚 .⋆

Ohmygosh , I love it so much! (σ≧▽≦)σ

A lovely friend of mine sketched me as myself ♡