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“Curse my eyelids for clouding you. Let there be no veil between my spirit and yours, even in slumber. Are you the countless bursting stars before me, or do my eyes dare distract me from the dreams I must follow?”

“I stay inside a lot, I stay up late. I think too much, I walk alone. Cool breeze on my face. Empty streets are peaceful. Maybe I’m sad. Maybe I’m going through changes. Maybe I’m lonely. Maybe I’ve always been this way.”

“We operate all the time with language as if it says what we mean. It never does, but you don’t realize the flaccidity of that until you are actually trying to make one thing in one language into another language. It’s like being on the surface with a lot of cracks in it and looking down through the cracks to something like another world down there that you can almost see, almost express, but not quite.”

“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd; the longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.”